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Matti Freeman
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Postby Matti Freeman » 01 Sep 2015, 01:41

Day 306: Do you have an inferiority complex?
http://www.matterfreeman.com/2015/08/da ... mplex.html

Do you experience inferiority around people who are of a 'higher status' of education, income level, profession?

Do you feel a lack of confidence, nervousness, anxiety when speaking and interacting with people that are of a 'higher status' than you?

Do you notice that the people who you feel most confident and comfortable around, are actually people that you feel superior to in some way?

Do you resist interacting with people that you see as superior to you?

Does your heart race with fear when someone behaves aggressively or dominantly toward you?

Have your relationships in life tended to be with people who are submissive?

If your answer is yes, then you probably share the same definition of 'Confidence' that I realized I was living.

The way I was living 'Confidence', was as an experience of superiority / feeling more than another. And, what I found in looking at where this came from, was that it originated in the experience of inferiority / less than, that I would experience around certain people. A few years ago I got into sales, marketing educational software direct to families. I realized that what would happen is that whenever I'd do a presentation for someone that stood within a point of superiority in terms of status in the system, I would get nervous, anxious, and would feel that I have no confidence in what I'm doing. And I realized that when I'm doing a presentation for someone who, in some way I am able to see myself as superior to, I would be comfortable around them, and would feel 'confident'.

This obviously isn't a practical definition of 'confidence', because it meant that I could only do my presentation effectively around people who don't trigger an inferiority experience in me.

What I realized is that, even though someone may be practically 'superior' to me in terms their status in the system -- and even though they may very well see me as / experience me as inferior to them --- that's not the reason I feel inferior. The reason I feel inferior is my own self judgments. And, where, within this underlying starting-point negative experience of inferiority, it was like a statement of 'I don't fit into this moment', and wherein I therefore manifested myself / designed myself into needing / wanting to control my relationships / interactions in a way where I would avoid the negative / inferiority -- which I could only do by being able to place myself in the position of being superior in some way -- where, I would then 'Fit in' to the moment.

I realized this is also something I experienced in my immediate relationships, not just business interactions. Where, if my partner would for example become the dominant point in a conversation or interaction, I would access inferiority and within that - activate the need to control the moment / interaction to remain within the dominant / superior position - to protect myself from the negative experience.

I'm sure many can relate to this experience, where you then create conflict in your relationships when you're used to being the dominant one, and then you find yourself reacting intensely in a moment where your partner or friend or family member or coworker becomes the dominant point in some way -- and, it's all because of the underlying starting point negative self-experience of inferiority created by self's own self judgments and definitions. Where, within that moment you have to protect yourself from feeling inferior, and thus control the moment to make sure the other recognizes / accepts you as being right / correct / valid, etc. Because otherwise, you have the experience of 'noooo! this moment is not going right! This is not what I fit into!'

So in my next post I will share Self Forgiveness that I've been walking in my recent DIP assignment, which assisted me to identify this construct of 'confidence as superiority', and share also how I've redefined the word Confidence for myself, and within that how I'm going to assist and support myself to change myself when facing scenarios in which I would access inferiority in the past, where instead of existing within a survival construct in the mind within living for and as energy as the constant cycle of negative to positive -- I'm going to assist and support myself to get Here into my physical body within such scenarios / moments, and walk myself into physical self-stability, to no longer depend on / require an energetic stability of 'superiority' built upon a foundational starting point of inferiority.

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Postby Matti Freeman » 01 Sep 2015, 01:42

Day 307: Earth: Red Pill - Heaven: Blue Pill
http://www.matterfreeman.com/2015/08/da ... -pill.html


What do you do when you get emotional, experience conflict, get frustrated, get depressed, get stressed? Irritated? When the world gets you down? When you're bored?

Do you access an experience? What is the name of the experience?

Love?
Light?
Silence?
Oneness?
God?
Angels?
Masters?
Ascension?
Peace?

Take a moment to look at the experience you use. Are there pictures / visuals associated with the experience? What do you see in your head? Images? Colors?

What's the story behind your experience? Is the positive nature of the experience tied in with a form of belief that, in spite of all the 'bad stuff', there is something, someone, some greater force looking out for you, or some brighter, better, happier place waiting for you in this life or when you die?

If someone presented you with two pills - a blue pill that if swallowed, would whisk you away from the Earth into your preferred heaven - or a red pill that, if swallowed, would cause you to live here, in your physical body on Earth forever, which pill would you choose?

In choosing the blue pill, what would be your starting point? To escape? What are you wanting to escape?

Would you resist choosing the red pill? Why? What comes up in your mind at the prospect of remaining here on Earth in your physical body forever?

In choosing the red pill, what would you do with your time here? Would you be satisfied living as you are now, with everything that exists in your, in your mind now, forever on Earth?

Would you be able to walk with Humanity, with all that is here on Earth, within absolute conviction that you will be able to create a new world, free of abuse and inequality?

What is your purpose? What do you live for?

Are you a Spiritual Being having a Human Experience?

Or are you a Fearful being having a Religious experience?

Do you follow the religion of an experience that helps you cope with being here? Are we getting 'enlightened'? Are we 'awakening'? Or are we just creating the same construct of religion over and over and over again - just with different pictures and words?

What is the nature of the Idea of some form of Heaven? Isn't is the place you want to End up in when HaveEnded?

The Idea of Heaven is that it's like - the 'best place' you can be, the place you want to be, the place you want to end up in, in the end.

So, doesn't that make this life, this Earth - actually the representation of Hell in the mind of someone living for Heaven?

When we say we want to change the world and have peace and oneness on Earth - how can we really ever commit ourselves to doing what it takes to make that a reality, when within the very Idea of Heaven as the 'non physical world' in some form -- we are stating that Earth is Hell? That Earth is, and always be - 'less than Heaven'?

The funny thing is though - Heaven is in your mind. Heaven is the mind because that's where you're free to free yourself from the things you don't like about this life, through dreaming up whatever you want. Yet, your mind is in your physical body, on Earth. The Earth was here first, your physical body was here first. Then you installed words, stories, and beliefs as a response to everything you don't like about this life, this world and -- *poof*; Heaven was born. Born from Hell.

At Desteni we take the Red Pill. Because we have made the decision that our Destiny is not to escape what we Fear Here - but to Create Heaven Here. What will you choose? Who will you be at the end of this life?



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Postby Matti Freeman » 14 Sep 2015, 08:14

Day 308: Changing yourself from Defensive to Teachable
http://www.matterfreeman.com/2015/09/da ... -from.html

Are you teachable? Are you living in real-time?

Or are you defined by the past?

Do you have an experience of by default being compelled to explain yourself, defend yourself, and point out the flaws in the 'other' person's point of view, perspective, input, suggestion, when YOUR point of view, perspective input, suggestions, or way of doing things is questioned?

Do you experience 'being questioned', or 'called out', or 'corrected', as a negative thing?

When another questions your starting-point, your way of doing things, your way of seeing things, your behavior, do you by default tend to experience them as being 'opposed' to you, and within that, you being 'opposed' to them?

When someone questions you, do you resist considering what they're saying?

When you look at your relationships, can you identify moments that escalated into reactive conflicts because of any of the experiences above?

These kinds of experiences are tricky because once you allow the reaction and start participating in it, it quickly changes the nature of a discussion into argument and conflict, with 'one vs. the other', and the moment suddenly has this momentum, where it feels like the only option is to continue, until you 'resolve' the the situation, as by defined by this 'need' for the other to 'understand', and 'get', and 'accept', what YOU are saying, YOUR point of view, YOUR perspective, YOUR input.

The very signature of such experiences is that of being right, that of 'knowing best', and to stop, you have to be willing to act in spite of everything that you FEEL in that moment. Because that's only way to stop the MOMENTum of the reaction. You have to be willing to embrace not knowing what to do, what to say, how to act, in stopping speaking, stopping participating in the moment. You have to be willing to embrace not having control over how another sees you or may perceive you. You have to be willing to give up your self-image of 'knowing what you're talking about', and step into the unknown. You have to be willing to give up the feeling that you need to 'protect and defend' your point of view. You have to be willing to give up the feeling of being 'misunderstood'.

What I've found effective is to, in that moment when and as any such reaction comes up in me during a discussion - at the entry point of the moment - I apply one simple decision, which is that of changing my default stance in the moment, from that of 'knowing' to that of - learning. Deciding to be teachable, so to speak.

And within this it's interesting because, when you've defined yourself according to what you know, or how you do something or see something or understand something, what you're really saying within defining yourself according to 'what you know, see, and understand' as your point of view, is that this is ALL I know -- because the definition itself is based on the past - knowledge as the PAST. And so, this does not leave the space to be able to consider new information unconditionally and - be able to change your view and understanding of things.

So, some questions to ask yourself would be:

Are you willing to embrace being wrong?
Are you willing to embrace not knowing best?
Are you willing to embrace admitting you are reacting?
Are you willing to embrace admitting you were dishonest?
Are you willing to embrace however another may end up seeing you in a moment?
Are you willing to embrace not being understood?
Are you willing to embrace admitting another is right?
Are you willing to embrace that another may see something in you that you didn't see?
Are you willing to embrace that your way of doing something may not be effective?
Are you willing to embrace considering whatever another tells you, without judgment?
Are you willing to embrace giving up your self image?
Are you willing to embrace admitting you're in a point of Ego?
Are you willing to embrace admitting you didn't have all the information before?
Are you willing to embrace giving up the desire to have an outcome go 'your way'?
Are you willing to embrace changing in any given moment?

I've discovered that when you are able to embrace these things in a moment of discussion with another, you start to experience a self expansion that you did not conceive of. How can you expand and change, when your default is that of 'knowing' and 'telling', rather than 'learning', and 'considering'? And, within being able to learn, and change, and consider, and give yourself up in any given moment, what opens up is being able to genuinely share things you see, because you're not speaking to try and control the outcome to keep surviving as your point of view as self definition, but you are instead speaking as yourself.

So, you can even print out the above questions, and keep them with you in your pocket, so that as soon as you see yourself starting to react to another in a discussion, you can take out your questions and look at them and check yourself, and make the decision to change who you are in that moment.



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Re: Matti's Blogs

Postby Matti Freeman » 12 Jan 2016, 06:07

Day 309: Are you living in Real-Time or Memory Time?
http://www.matterfreeman.com/2015/09/da ... me-or.html


How many moments during your day are defined by you projecting yourself into the next moment / an upcoming moment / a possible moment later in your day?

Do you find yourself in such moments, imagining yourself "experiencing" a future moment in your head, before it's even here in fact?

Now, here I'm not talking about practical / necessary planning or calculations - I'm talking about projections where you imagine yourself experiencing a moment a certain way. Like for instance you're driving home from work, and you're imagining yourself doing something you like when you get home, like relaxing, watching TV, etc. And, in that moment of imagination, you're having a positive experience; and this experience might include a movement of excitement in your torso area, or you may also smile, or you may also relax your body or change your grip in the steering wheel. So, you're physically experiencing this future moment.

Now it's interesting because, you're in the car, you're driving. You're not at home. You're not doing whatever it is you're imagining / thinking about. You are physically not in that future moment, yet, you're apparently "experiencing it". So, where did this experience come from?

Well it didn't come from the actual moment you're in - which is driving your car. And, it obviously didn't get beamed into your head from the future. So - that leaves the past. Memory. What you're actually doing is accessing a memory contained within your mind, and the way you did that was to first think about the activity - the scenario, and then with that, you start imagining yourself in that scenario, and experiences activate - such as the positive feelings and changes you experience in your physical body.

So how much of you day would you say you spend actually "plotting out" upcoming moments, by imagining yourself doing things and experiencing things, projecting memories of past experiences into your immediate future? Why do we do this in so many little moments throughout the day? Because, what is apparent is that within such moments in the mind, I am not Here, fully in THIS moment, experiencing what is Here - but rather running a simulation of an imagined future moment.

Now what I've found in starting to apply myself more specifically in catching myself doing this in moments, and stopping the thought and letting go of the experience / memory / imagination point, and bringing myself back to breathing, is that I immediately become more aware of --- THIS moment. I immediately become more aware of my physical body, the feeling of my hands, my feet, of sitting, of walking, of the sounds in my environment, of what I can see in my environment, taking place in THIS moment. And also what opens up is the awareness of for instance -- what was I just experiencing that served as the "springboard" for thinking and imagining a future "positive experience"? Was I actually first thinking about something that brought up a Negative experience? Like, I noticed that in certain such moments I actually first thought about something I need to get done when I get home, where I imagined myself doing it and the experience of resistance or reluctance came up. And then from there - I immediately search out a "positive" experience -- which is where the thought / imagination / memory of a positive experience activates - and then -- suddenly I shift from resistance -- to: excitement, or enjoyment, or happiness.

So, it's interesting because it's the same process that activates:
-->Thought
-->-->imagination
-->-->-->experience.
And, whether positive or negative -- it's the same process of accessing a memory of "doing something", that is stored within my mind.

And, this is an important point to become aware of, because it shows where there are Negative experiences that actually get suppressed when, instead of stopping and investigating the negative experience, applying Self Forgiveness, and letting go of the memory - we instead immediately shift to looking for a Positive experience.

So, as we move through our day, how many times are we going from negative to positive to negative to positive, within this process of accessing memories / the past, and projecting them into the future? How many moments in the day are we not actually Here, but in our minds? Where and how do we allow ourselves to be directed by reactions to memories, rather than directing ourselves? How many times per day, per week, per month do we end up procrastinating or putting things off, or deciding "I'm not going to do that", because we accepted and allowed a memory of a past negative experience to have power over us in a moment, where we then suppressed the negative, shifted to the positive, and used the positive as a way to Stimulate ourselves into feeling better / apparently "enjoying" ourselves?

Wouldn't it be more practical to sort out the negative experiences, change our relationship toward things in our life that we resist doing, and release ourselves from the cycle of negative to positive experiences? Imagine, there are billions of people on this planet, and each one of us is every day being directed by negative and positive memories - existing in an alternate reality in our minds, not actually here in real-time in the physical, actual moment.

The cool thing about sorting out the negative experiences, is that you release yourself from the cycle of suppression and desire / need to constantly seek out a positive experience. And in that, open up the discovery of what it is to really be Here with yourself, experiencing YOU.



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Re: Matti's Blogs

Postby Matti Freeman » 12 Jan 2016, 06:09

Day 312: The courage to make a career change
http://www.matterfreeman.com/2015/11/da ... hange.html

Selfie from atop the 6th floor of my new workplace. A couple of months ago I decided to push myself to apply for a job in car sales, because I was faced with the reality that my income at the time was not going to be enough for me to build my business effectively, in the way that I want to.
I had actually applied for this car sales job a few months before, but on the day of my interview I let the experience of nervousness and fear of something completely new, direct me, and I didn't go to the interview.
But since then, I had worked more specifically with myself in establishing a practical way of dealing with nervousness, where - I had realized that previously I had been attempting to firstly ensure that no nervousness would come up within me, before I would apparently be ready / able to commit to a more time and skills intensive job. But, what I came to see about the nature of nervousness in me, is that I had been judging and fearing the experience of nervousness itself, and sabotaging myself from doing things I actually in fact saw I have the potential to do, just because I really didn't want to experience nervousness.

So I was prepared this time, because I had established a more practical starting point in relation to nervousness. Instead of trying to stamp out nervousness, I realized it made more sense to embrace it, and accept it without judging it, and to within this simply stand within what I see I have the potential to do, let go of expectations, and trust myself to dive in and see what happens. Basically, to stop fighting nervousness.

As it turned out, the interview went well, though I was nervous during it, and I ended up getting hired. I am enjoying my new job, as through it I am each day developing my natural strengths and skills and putting them to use to make a better income. I work up to 13 hours a day but I do not experience it as stressful, because in my new line of work, the more I put into it - the more I get out of it.

Already only two months in, I am also picking up business knowledge and practices, and meeting people that I see will support my own business eventually.
Bottom line is, without the skills of breathing, writing, self honesty, self forgiveness, and self corrective application I've learned through Desteni I Process -- I would still be stuck in a limited job, frustrated with my situation, completely directed by my thoughts, reactions, emotions, and memories.

Are you stuck in a limited job, but afraid to apply or interview for something better? Do you feel like you are no where near your full potential, but don't really know what to do about it? Do you experience a resistance or fear of giving up the stability of the predictable and easy routine, and more 'free time' you have with your current job? Are you ready to make a change?

My suggestion would be to get involved with Desteni I Process, and start learning the tools you need to understand how you've gotten to where you are right now in your life, and how to assist and support yourself to start structuring your mind and your life to support you to reach your full potential.

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Re: Matti's Blogs

Postby Matti Freeman » 12 Jan 2016, 06:09

Day 313: Forgiving the past and allowing myself to move on
http://www.matterfreeman.com/2016/01/da ... owing.html




I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live the statement: 'I can, and will only enjoy myself and express myself if everything is going right in my life'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself and my expression and my full capacity to participate in working towards practical solutions to humanity, to the idea that I can only be inspired and motivated, and expected to express and share myself if the following conditions exist in my life: Making more money than is needed to 'make ends meet', and having a relationship, and that these conditions mean 'everything is going right', and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my current situation / reality / circumstance as 'wrong / bad / not enough'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that working a lot, not yet making the income I want, and not being in a relationship / agreement, is to blame / is the reason I 'don't feel motivated' to express myself and participate to my fullest capacity / potential

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'not making enough money, and having to work a lot, and not having a relationship', is the reason I have recently been experiencing 'not having inspiration / not being motivated / not wanting to express myself', within the belief that, when faced with challenges and things not working out as they could have in my life, that this must become a burden of failure, a burden of the past that I now must carry with me, and that the only way to 'get past' this burden, is to restore / re-create my life to the condition that was 'lost' / changed --- instead of seeing and realizing that, I created the burden because I decided to hold onto the past and judge myself for things having not worked out as I had wanted, and had decided to blame my life for being 'hard' -- thus within this using my creative ability to create myself into and as the experience of being burdened by failure, and having a lack of inspiration and motivation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as a starting point of self destruction / self loathing / self blame in relation to failure / making mistakes, instead of a starting point of learning from my mistakes / learning from the past, and unconditional self support in USING the past and what I've learned from the past, to specify and perfect my application in the PRESENT in creating myself / creating my life to my full potential

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that who I am within the experience burden / lack of motivation, isn't who I want to be -- and yet this is who I am accepting and allowing myself to be - and that the reason I've been accepting and allowing myself to be this way is because I am still holding onto the idea / imagined experience of 'things being right' as defined by making more money / being in a relationships - and that I placed a positive value / charge in this idea, making this idea into the 'more than', while judging how and what my life is now as 'less than / not enough'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fall into the momentum / energy of my experience of being in the low / not enough / negative polarity point as opposite of the positive point of my desires / ideas of what I want my life to be -- and to stay within this point within allowing myself to keep projecting the positive point in my mind -- trapping myself in a polarity instead of STOPPING and applying self forgiveness on both the positive and negative points of the polarity and releasing myself from the energy cycle -- within seeing and realizing that creating my life / expressing myself / shaping my life into what I want it to be - does not require the movement of energy / polarity

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that not making as much money as I need, and not being in a relationship / agreement makes it more difficult for self expression to flow, instead of seeing and realizing that I'm the one blocking my own self expression, through deciding that who I am is not enough / not able to express myself, and that it's always a matter of simply moving and standing up from the energy I'm creating myself as - stopping, and changing who I am, making a new decision

I commit myself to unconditionally let go of the past, and apply what I've learned from my mistakes, to creating and expanding myself here and now in each moment of breath - creating myself new each day instead of holding myself hostage to the past through self judgment

When and as I see myself thinking about past mistakes and feeling bad / judging myself about it -- I commit myself to stop, breathe myself HERE, unconditionally let go of / forgive myself, and focus on what is to practically be learned from that past moment, and apply it to creating and expressing myself HERE

I commit myself to show that your life doesn't need to be picture perfect in order to express and share yourself and contribute to solutions that are best for all -- as for example I am doing in pushing myself to write this blog and share my process with others

I commit myself to show that the past is only a burden when I decide it is, and that taking self responsibility with self honesty and self forgiveness, is the way to free ourselves from the past and move on



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Re: Matti's Blogs

Postby Matti Freeman » 19 Mar 2016, 05:49

Day 314: Imagine All The People Giving Each Other What We Need
http://www.matterfreeman.com/2016/03/da ... -each.html

When will Imagine become a reality? If we want to live as One - with each one of us valuing each other as ourselves -- we have to deconstruct our individual mind of thoughts, feelings, emotions, wants, needs, desires, fears, values, definitions, beliefs -- to identify and change all the ways we've separated ourselves from OneAnother. War is Over if we want it - but we have to start with deconstructing and stopping the Wars that exist in our minds as ourselves in the form of conflict, judgment, reactions, blame, fear, opinions, and the crusade of self interest, and learn to live within practical, self honest solutions that benefit all. It's a tough road, and hope and nice words are not enough.

Desteni is people walking the road to a world of Equality and Oneness through stopping separation within and as the Mind, and learning to stand as Equals and as One in living application, while living and participating in the world as it exists, facing what is here and using what is here to develop solutions that can be applied IN THIS LIFE.

For example, I work about 60 hours a week, participating in the system, doing the same survival things as everyone else -- and yet I also make time to work with myself, my mind, walking the Desteni I Process, to be able to investigate my day to day experiences, learn from my mistakes, deconstruct patterns and habits that don't support me or anyone else, and establish new ways of living, applying myself, and looking at the dimensions of my life through the eyes of self honesty within how I can create myself in this life in a way that I make an impact that will support what is Best for All.



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Re: Matti's Blogs

Postby Matti Freeman » 02 May 2016, 02:53

Day 315: Maturity as a Living Word of Self Support
http://www.matterfreeman.com/2016/04/da ... -self.html

What kind of definition of the word Maturity are we living in our day to day lives?

Is it Mature to allow ourselves to be and remain reactive toward each other?

Is this world a manifestation and example of Humanity as a Mature group of beings?

What associations, meanings, ideas, and experiences are behind your definition of Maturity?

What would Maturity be as a supportive Living Word?



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Re: Matti's Blogs

Postby Matti Freeman » 28 May 2016, 21:08

Day 316: What if you lost your mind's eye?
http://www.matterfreeman.com/2016/05/da ... s-eye.html

Interesting... Here is an article about people with a condition that makes them unable to produce mental images.
Aphantasia: A life without mental images http://www.bbc.com/news/health-34039054

What I've found in my process is that in my past, almost 100% of the reason I would spend so much time in pictures / imaginations in my head, is to escape reality / distract myself from the things in this world / in my life that I don't understand / don't like / struggle with -- you know the day to day reality of money, suffering, struggle, frustrations, conflicts, a screwed up world -- where I'd take information that I liked the sound of -- in my case it was things like spiritual beliefs / stories and turn it into pictures in my head, dreaming up alternate realities to keep myself stimulated / enabling myself to 'explain' things in a way that makes me feel good, and to see myself as some character with a purpose / reason for existing that is based on / dependent on pictures / an alternate reality in my head that makes me feel better about things -- when in fact I'm not actually practically investigating reality / relationships / the mind / the world system to understand the problems and explore practical solutions to create a world / humanity that is worth existing in and with.

I mean, I can use pictures in my head practically - to assist with conceptualizing certain things -- but now the difference is that I'm not using it as entertainment / an alternate reality. What I've found is that, the more I'm learning to Live in practical reality, living without belief systems, standing within and as the simplicity of - 'I am Life as all as one as equal' - is that I don't have the desire to sit and daydream and picture all kinds of stuff in my head - because I'm busy living and developing my self expression, skills, and purpose as a physical life lived with the purpose and self commitment of assisting and supporting to bring about solutions to create a world that's best for everyone.

This kind of condition of not being able to produce mental images raises some interesting questions in relation to belief systems / personalities that depend on pictures in the head in order to maintain one's purpose / stability / experience of one's self -- who would you be, what would you do - if all of a sudden, you could not produce any images / pictures in your head?



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Re: Matti's Blogs

Postby Matti Freeman » 28 May 2016, 21:10

Day 317: Socio Economic Genetic Modification
http://www.matterfreeman.com/2016/05/da ... netic.html

Science now shows that poverty actually has a consequential effect on your very DNA, and that these effects can be passed on to children. Read the following excerpt from an article by Ian Johnston of the Independent:

"Living in poverty can cause changes to people’s DNA that make them more likely to become depressed, anxious and possibly take drugs, according to a ground-breaking new study.
Researchers in the United States found that teenagers from deprived backgrounds tended to undergo changes to a gene that increases the activity of a part of the brain involved in the ‘fight or flight’ response and panic attacks. This increased activity in the amygdala has been linked to a greater risk of depression.
They also found that a low socio-economic status was associated with low levels of serotonin, sometimes referred to as the happiness hormone.
In recent years, studies have shown that not only can genes be changed by the environment and even social interactions, but these ‘epigenetic’ changes can then be passed on to the next generation."
Source:
Being poor can change your genes and increase your chances of depression
http://www.independent.co.uk/news/scien ... 47201.html

What these findings demonstrate is how our socio-economic status / environment actually plays quite a significant role in Genetically Engineering us as a Human Being.

Sure we've all heard success stories about people who were able to transcend their poor upbringing to become millionaires - but the reality is that those individuals represent a tiny fraction of those living in poverty.

We all know people in our own lives and worlds who, even in spite of living in an environment of financial security and plenty of support, still tend towards depression, self defeat, social anxiety, fear of failure, etc. And look how much effort it takes to stand up from within such experiences and learn to assist and support yourself to change those patterns and develop yourself and take responsibility for your life.

Imagine being in a situation where everyone around you comes from generations of poverty - your parents, your neighbors, your friends. Imagine being in a situation where you grow up in an environment of every day interacting with drug users, crime, alcoholism. Imagine being in a situation where you are growing up in a state of physical stress because you're not getting enough to eat. Imagine growing up without an effective education, with a personality and thought process and self definition shaped by gang culture, drug culture, poverty culture. Imagine you are a person who naturally tends toward self judgment, depression, addiction. Imagine how much more difficult it would be to stand up from such experiences living in poverty surrounded by poverty, with your very DNA having been influenced to become more susceptible to depression, anxiety, and addiction.

I mean, I myself grew up in a financially secure environment, with a loving, supportive family and access to good schools, and plenty of opportunity to develop skills and abilities and career paths. However, I was a very emotional child and ended up taking every experience of failure and difficulty in school and social situations to heart, and ended up with a personality driven by fear of failure and extensive self judgments and insecurities and a tendency toward depression. It's taken me YEARS of writing, self forgiveness, and self corrective application to get to a point where I'm only now at age 32 at a stage where I've developed the skills, self esteem and personal drive to be able to make use of the opportunities in my life.

Look how much effort those of us living in a more stable, financially secure situation put into learning methods of nutrition, education, parenting - in order to enhance and support the development of our children? Why do we do this? Because we understand the common sense that we are in large part actually engineering a Human Being, and that it is a very delicate, specific process not to be taken lightly. And even with all of that -- there are still many people like me, coming from very positive childhood environments, who still end up developing emotional / mental patterns that are difficult to change.

If we as Man are ever to truly become the Shepherds of the Earth, we'll need to get over the idea / fear of 'playing god', and take responsibility for the aspect of Humanity that is engineered by environmental factors, and change those factors to factor in what is best for each individual and thus create a world that is best for everyone.

"Social Engineering Must have the outcome that is best for all life where every child born is guaranteed a Life of Worth. Life is the Only Real Value on Earth!"
~Bernard Poolman




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