Day 342: Giving Self The Thrill of Living
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Do you find that there is a particular Energy / Mind addiction or habit that you struggle to give up / let go of? Would you say that the reason you like your addiction so much, is because it adds a 'Thrill' to your otherwise 'boring life'?
Recently I had been investigating the question of 'Why Am I'? Within the point of being tempted to go back into old habits to stimulate myself / occupy myself with energy experiences in the mind, which had been coming up with not currently being in a partnership / relationship and so having a lot of 'alone time' with myself.
One of the words that I found within asking myself what is it that I am wanting / enjoying actually within this energy? And the word 'Thrill' / 'Thrilling' emerged. This was cool because it opened up the realization that I can now explore giving myself this word - living the word 'Thrill' as a self expression in my daily life / process.
So I looked at where / how am I not living fully in each moment? In what ways am I holding myself back and settling for a 'lesser' version of myself - and in that, creating a sense of something being 'missing'? A sense of 'boredom' in moments? In what ways can I push my limits within my daily available time, to FULL-FILL myself through Self Expression?
There is a Thrillingness - a pleasure, a Self-Excitement that comes with living each day like a mini-life; pushing to become more effective, learn new things, Move Self to write, to share, to investigate, to develop solutions, to decide to work more on Self-Creative projects instead of moping / numbing / thinking about the past / thinking about other people / wasting time - being Idle.
So, for me, changing my definition of the word Thrill to something that supports my Utmost Potential and assists with stopping mind-habits would be:
The Excitement and Pleasure of Self that comes with pushing myself to live on the cutting edge of Self Expression. I push through fears, resistances, comfort zones to find the point of my Utmost Expressive Potential in Every Moment of Breath.
I've already been practicing living this word, and I've found that since It's now clearly defined within me, it's much easier to move myself to creative, self expressive actions in moments rather than seeking out mental stimulation. That's the key with living words that I've been experiencing: when defined effectively, and specific to my individual points of change that I'm facing, I give myself the structure to immediately stand up within a pattern / a reaction, and align myself to the supportive word that fits the moment.
More words to come...