Nick, what you actually have to do is use this forum to share how you work on taking responsibility for these ideas, beliefs, perceptions that you've just described above. We will not consequent posts that are coming from a starting point of disempowerment, helplessness, hopelessness, blame and the rest of excuses, justifications and beliefs as ways to manipulate yourself into a victim position.
This forum is not for us, the users, to share 'advice' on someone's self-created paranoia around perceptions of what 'others' are 'doing onto you,' which is entirely a perception created in your own mind.
This forum is a platform of Self-Support - not a 'help asking platform' - which means, from now on you are required to come to the forum sharing what you have written out to take responsibility for all the paranoia, fears, beliefs you've created around this point you're facing in your life, showing with clarity how you are understanding it all as your own creation, your own paranoia/fears and how you are then going to stand up from it to focus your attention and everyday living to living words, doing activities that are supportive for you.
This is definitely not the place to come with an accusatory tone and expect 'support' for that, you're at the wrong place if that's your intent and starting point.
Make sure that from now on your participation in this forum is of Self-Support which you can learn from the plethora of blogs, videos, threads available here where you can clearly learn from others and apply that to your own life, which of course does require an actual decision to want to change and do the self-work it entails and requires.
No more 'asking for help' and seeing yourself as incapable of supporting yourself, you've gotten more than enough over the years, so it is now up to you to go back into reading what has been shared with you before and actually get to live it/apply it.
A must-hear audio that will support you in understanding this for yourself is How to Stop Overcomplicating Redefining & Living Words - The Crucifixion of Jesus - Part 106