Facing a serious situation with my family and other people.
Posted: 05 Jun 2017, 03:23
So, i didnt do anything. But, i see exactly what has been played with the people who know my family in the town i live in. So, you guys know ive ended up in the hospital. Well, most of the times, I ended up from ill intended people deliberatly messing with my head at the time. But now, i have figured out the reality of this main point ive been stuck in for 3 years, and its all real. Theres a point in regards to masturbation that i ended up transcending. For real transcend. I was super tempted to masturbate, but i breathed and focused on something supportive, which took an hour to deescelate, in which i realized that i become stronger and i was more naturally expressive. So anyways, at first it was cool, i was interacting with my neice better, and i talked to a woman more openly at a store and helped her. But then, i came home, and notice people at my house that never ever come over. I knew something was up, because last time a faved this exact situation, this same woman showed up at my house. And then, i just brushed it off. Went in my house, started writting self forgiveness. I was doing it in the living room, and my family started speaking these nasty metaphors to eachother, all in relationship to me. Like literally egging on specifically my points in regards to masturbation. They kept looking at me after they spoke a charged word that resonated with me, which i hadnt transcended yet. They got to the point of bringing up past intentions of when i would get mad at them, in regards to when they called the police to send me to the hospital. I realized. This whole time, theyve been wanting me to stay fucked, and if i changed, they would immediatly start to get ready to try to terrify me with intended threats to blackmale me in something Ive shared with my family personally and trusted. I never did anything, but share thoughts i felt guilty about and was ashamed of, in which they magnified tinfold, and made me get to the point, where i thought the universe was telling me to cruicfy myself, and i was walking around the neighborhood telling everyone my thoughts. You k ow whats also fucked, is that people have been metaphorically or hinting me things ive been through in regards to this, but i jst brushed it off or believed it to be jist coincidence. I just need help at this point, because as schizophrenic as it sounds, but, my family, and others are literally out to get me.