I turn to you in Desteni because a friend of mine told me about you, and it was when she met people in desteni in Africa she became FREE from her eating disorder. I just want to leave Sweden now, I can't stay here and watch me destroy myself.
I would love if someone can get in touch with me if you feel that you want to tell me more about Desteni and how I can help myself through this and become FREE!
Love and freedom <3
Ebba, understand that - Malin made the decision herself to walk her process of taking responsibility for her mind and her experiences that she created for herself. She made a decision to stop and change, she made the decision to walk the process of writing, self forgiveness and corrective application as living the tools and with that decision - she actually did it. This point of making the decision to stop and change to assist/support or 'help' herself and actually doing it - through walking the Tools of writing, self forgiveness and self-corrective application is what is assisting and supporting her to face her mind/herself and what she created as her mind/self to in this facing, take self-responsibility for it.
So - coming to the Farm/visiting the farm was not what 'set her free' - it was her decision and living that decision and assisting/supporting herself in continuing walking that decision through writing, self forgiveness and self corrective application as well as breathing.
What must be understood Ebba, is that - what we experience as ourselves in this moment - we created throughout our life-experience on Earth, and we're not simply going to change through/by a 'miracle', if change was so easy - man; humanity would not be as what it is today mentally and physically. I can understand that you'd want a 'quick solution' due to the extent of the consequence that accumulates with mental/physical abuse over a long period of time; but - there isn't one. The only solution is: You - because you've got to realise that you got yourself to where/who/how you are in this moment within yourself and your life, and you are your only key to stop and change it. And the practical way to do this is through: writing, self forgiveness and self corrective application. I mean, you've seen the change in Malin for yourself - she got there through walking the tools, and if she can do it and so many others have/are - so can you. It only requires making a decision and actually doing it/walking it.
So - Ebba, to change: you've got to take responsibility for yourself. This means - you've got to see how it is that you, in your mind - with thoughts, personalities and habits, created this experience / idea of yourself in your mind that's creating such mental/physical abuse; in walking this for yourself - you will find out how it is that you created it all in your own mind, and if you created it in your mind in the first place - you as creator can stop and change it.
We all want to blame and be angry at everything and everyone else - this is very easy to do in the mind. But - one thing that that does not do: is actually stop and change one's self-experience; therefore it is not the solution. The 'most difficult' step is realising: "Hey! I am actually doing this to myself with the thoughts and emotions/feelings I am participating in and accepting and allowing INSIDE myself. No-one it 'putting them in there' - it's coming from me, inside me, and I am continuing to believe it is 'real' and in that belief I make it real and so create this whole idea/experience of myself in my own mind." Within this realisation, Ebba - where you see for yourself how you're creating your world inside and out through your mind - you stand within self-responsibility to start living that decision to help yourself in changing you.
Ebba, let us know when you're ready to walk - when you've really made that decision to help yourself, and we'll be here to walk this with you. You've got to make the decision - you are in your hands/yourself, no-one else can change you: - only you. And the Desteni-tools will assist/support you through this process in being able to direct your mind/thoughts and experiences and no more accept/allow ideas/beliefs/experiences to have control over you and make you believe things about yourself that is not in fact real. But again, you have to make the decision and actually walk it. I suggest doing so - because as you know, it just gets harder/tougher and more difficult and very easy to lose oneself in the mind. With walking as breath - this assist/support you to stabilize yourself in the physical, with self forgiveness - assist/support you to release yourself from the ideas/beliefs you've for so long held onto that's abused you mentally and physically and with self corrective application - you change yourself in your living; to stop the past and actually learn what it means to live.
We're here. Where are you?