Yeah I agree Anna, there is a technicality within those words. Who we are is not yet physical, so because we are not physical yet, we are virtual. So we have existed our whole lives as images. This explains an almost natural attraction to images, and so an addictions, because what is pornography revealing, but that we have only been an image, virtual, not actually in reality, which is physical. So the belief is so strong that we are an image, this manifests into us having a soul, or being what we perceive with our eyes. If everyone was born blind, our image would be meaningless. However, we would still create an image, though the medium would be sound and thoughts. So the light that our eyes absorb, is just how it is manifested, a representation or metaphor, as well as physical, to show us the extent of our separation. If you were to describe the physical mechanisms behind a person watching porn. It is indistinguishable to watching any other pattern of light. There is a difference, and that difference can be found in us, how we respond/react, which is fairly unconscious. When I would watch porn, I was half-aware, I would say, that something strange or weird is occurring. Why the hell on earth do I want to see a naked woman? I didn't before. There was a time I didn't care. Then there was a time I was afraid to, because people reacted in fear to being seen naked, and in school they started to tell us how wrong/bad it was to see someone naked, and they started talking about child abuse. Primarily as a child, what stood out most was the energy/feelings/emotions. I was aware I was just seeing an image, albeit, a very specific form of an image, so it didn't make sense at all! I mean its obviously preprogrammed into me as a male. If I was born a woman, would I be feeling the same as I did when I saw a picture of a naked woman? Obviously not. So something was going on, either my parents and adults were programming me/our generation to perceive woman/man's nakedness this way, or it was genetic, or present already since birth and simply required to be activated. I would say the primary reason I continued sought our looking for naked women pictures was because of the energy experience. I had reasons and words that I used to explain it, though they weren't the source. Those words were like, because its hidden, or because they don't want me to see, or because women don't like showing their nakedness, so its like a battle with them. I remember certain moments with my parents and other adults where they would hide my face, and to not see and look at a scene in a movie where a woman was naked. They would scream, NOOOO, DONT LOOK. ANd in a way I had a fear reaction because of their screaming and their sound of voice, as if something scary or bad is happening. So I would say that that act was stored as a memory when I see a naked woman's picture, and so possibly feeding, enhancing or enabling a porn addiction, through that memory of energy. I notice that events that involve screaming, are activating an unconscious part of my mind that responds instantly, as if there is a danger present.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear looking at a picture of a naked woman, and to at the same time, wish to see it because I remember being told not to look at the picture of a naked woman that came on screen in a movie, and thus feeling bad/guilty whenever I would see such a picture, because my mom/dad/adults told me not to see or look at those photos, so I was disobeying their wishes and doing something that they made the statement that I shouldn't do/see, and that is wrong/bad to see/do.
So I notice two parts, one part is the fear/guilt, and the other part is the preprogrammed enjoyment/excitement, within disobeying. I remember how initially there was pure fear within looking at naked women, and how that later became an embrace of that fear experience. So I would say enjoyment/excitement in looking at porn is an embrace of the energy of fear/guilt of see naked women.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to embrace my unconscious fear that generates energy, and so embrace energy.
When and as I see myself embracing energy generated by the unconscious fear of disobeying what adults told me to, which was to not look at naked women, - I stop and I breathe- I realize that there is an imbalnace and a misalignment with my unconscious fear that had been created, which I have been using to access a reserve of energy, that would be used for fearful situations, however the fear was created to look at a naked woman, thus allowing me to access that fear- I realize that by not being aware of myself and what I am creating, I am creating my future and destiny. If I had been aware of what fears I was creating, then I could have prevented a porn addiction.
I commit myself to release and prevent fears, which are not necessary and not a part of living a full self-directed life.