Stopping The Porn in My Head - Pt. 3 - DAY 33
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This is the third and last series in the series about stopping the porn in one's head, the fantasies and imaginations. Read the first two parts here:
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I commit myself to understanding how I am abusing the body and how I am creating a defunct sexual expression by allowing myself to watch and masturbate to porn, to understand this by looking at the consequences of my actions, by looking at what I have defined as sexual and relating that back to the physical reality in participating in communication with the opposite or same sex
I commit myself to realizing the reason why I cannot masturbate without images is because I have only used images the entire time that I have been masturbating and have programmed the body/mind to react to only images
I commit myself to reconnecting with the body by giving myself patience as I practice removing the images/ideas/thoughts/stimulus created from porn when they come up, forgiving myself in that moment, and understanding that if I am to continue with masturbating to images/thoughts/ideas that I am only creating more of a presence within the mind and further separating myself from the body
I commit myself to honouring the body as life by stopping myself from participating in idea/images/thoughts when masturbating and if they come up while I am masturbating in self honesty, stop, reassess my starting point, clear the starting point and if they remain present, to stop myself from masturbating in that moment
I commit myself to treating the body with respect by stopping my relationship to believing that I need images in order to masturbate and then pushing beyond that belief within practicing and testing out masturbating without images and masturbating only with myself here
I commit myself to understanding what it is that I am doing to the body while I am masturbating to images or creating thoughts and ideas within the mind based upon those images and what it is that I am telling the body through masturbating to the images meaning that what it is that I am showing the body in relation to only focusing on the images to get myself off and from this reassess my starting point within masturbating to images and give myself a clear understanding/realization of what I have accepted from myself
I commit myself to stopping the images of porn or of sexual attraction when they come up in the mind, so meaning, when/as I am walking on the street and I am faced with a sexually provocative advertisement and I become aroused, I stop, I breathe in the moment, I take the thought/idea/image here as myself and through breathing remove and stop the energy that is moving in that moment bring myself back here, meaning not influenced by the image, and re-direct myself within whatever task that I was doing in that moment
I commit myself to realizing/seeing only an idea of what that image is representing and seeing/creating an idea of what/how I would like to experience myself in relation to that IMAGE and that IMAGE is in no way related to the physical movements of sex or the physical body of another nor myself. So when/as I see an image that provokes sexual arousal I bring that sexual arousal in relation to the physical reality and see if it holds up, if it doesn't then I commit myself to in that moment let it go because it is not a living embodiment of the physical expression of the body that when I see an image that provokes sexual arousal within myself that I am
I commit myself to when/as I see an image and think about how I would approach the idea of the image to realize that I AM NOT THERE within the idea/image and thus I commit myself to bring myself back here to physical reality and direct myself in that moment here with myself in/as the body and not allow the image/idea to direct the physical body as I am not a slave to the mind nor the thoughts that pop up within the mind in relation to sexual arousal and in this I commit myself to allow the only sexual arousal to be from here within the physical, meaning if I am touched by a person and physical arousal exists then I allow it, if the body is telling me that I am aroused then I allow it, in this I commit myself to remain self honest within seeing where/how the arousal comes up and if it is from an idea or energy that I stop it and release myself from the energy
I commit myself to realigning myself with the body by working with masturbation with myself here without images running through the mind, without being stimulated by images and without ideas of what to expect or ideas pertaining to what turns me on and in this to move myself unconditionally with the body exploring what the body in fact likes within being touched and explored and how to move myself in equality and oneness with the body, realizing that I am the body and the body is me thus meaning that I can move myself within the body without judgements or expectations of myself in relation to masturbation and simply explore myself with the body here in physical touch
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