I would like to share an experience that is very similar to what Benjamin wrote, and the easing of such an experience.
For quite some time, coming onto approximately 4years now I have been walking around with a pressure in the forehead that has been quite uncomfortable. As Benjamin has written, a heavy feeling in the head.
Many, many times, I have wanted to end it all, kill myself so that I no longer have to walk around feeling, experiencing such an experience. Think of it as a headache that never goes away, with at times the headache being minimal, to other times I would say similar to a migraine. Constantly, consistently it was/is difficult to keep focus on daily living, whilst dealing with this pressure in the head.
I would write with quite a bit of confidence stating the very statement that finally this pressure is beginning to ease - release is definitely occurring.
I have been studying Desteni and its material for approximately 3 years, initially starting off with the viewing of youtube videos, and listening to the free Eqafe audio files. From there I finished off, with a few hiccups, the DIP Lite. From there I am now on to the 7th assignment of the DIP Pro, the one that is not the walking the agreement as relationship - started that off first, and with the assistance of the moderator and my buddy, switched to the other one - SRA. I did have a break from the DIP Pro due to resistance, and financial difficulties.
From there I began to stand as self, to become self directive, to understand what it means to exist within the principle of equality and oneness. The pressure in the forehead is a consequence of the character, the being that I created through the eyes of consciousness, who it is that I perceived, believed myself to be within this picture presented world. I was a being of exhaustion, a being of speed, a being of efficiency, all in definition of course. Whatever I did, I did it is as quickly as possible, I would find the most efficient direction to complete whatever it is that needed to be completed without taking any regard to the physical world around me. This is the basics of a defined personality of self, where I eventually led myself to the experience, the constant experience of tearing myself away from the physical, by constantly, consistently thinking, pushing myself harder as mind, as thought.
Finally my mind snapped, I as consciousness snapped, I could no longer keep existing within this one gear go ahead, lol. I had to slow down.
The pressure in the forehead is finally coming to a close, where I am now allowing myself to slow myself down and look back to how it is that I have created the entirety of this delusional, illusion, energetic, picture, fearful mind based reality.
Some of the practical applications that I apply myself through to slow things down are... I ride to work - 6km each way, 5 days a week, I now no longer have a vehicle so riding a bike is my main means of transportation. I work on sleeping for 6hours a day, of course keeping in mind the requirements of the physical body. I live in a 3bedroom house, with 600sqm of land on my own, accompanied by Huxley (chocolate border collie), and William (ginger cat), being alone with all these responsibilities support the development of awareness, of becoming one and equal to the practical application of time, so that I make sure that all beings have a respectable, and valued life. I generally wake up at 3am in the morning before work so that I am able read, write, do some assignment and explore Desteni video's and discussions. Exercise is important for myself in bringing myself back here, where I allow myself, to learn to become equal and one with the body, where I no longer desire to be strong, but rather see the practicalities of living strength, especially the practicalities of being strong within the warehouse environment that I work in. And amongst all of this the practicing of breath, the four count breath, 4counts in, 4counts hold, 4counts out, 4counts hold has been of saving grace.
I find time to cook (vegan, this works for my body), dance, listen to music (I enjoy this style - https://soundcloud.com/talpator/mathematical-existence
), playing Xbox, watching TV shows/movies (at the moment I am into Jessica Jones, a PI with super strength, trying to find a man who control other people's minds, where she also was under his thumb at one point in her life). It is definitely beneficial to enjoy the luxuries of this system whilst working towards a solution where an outcome can be implemented where all life will live a life of dignity, a principle where equality and oneness is the foundations of everything that we do.
I am now currently working on expanding myself where I began to share publicly with those within my life, and to share myself on line. To stop the paranoia, the fear, the anxieties, and everything that has contributed to this pressure in the forehead, that has contributed to me being less than consciousness in its entirety.
Thanks all for sharing, thankyou Desteni for being here, nothing is impossible.