Link to my blog: http://livingequality.wordpress.com/.
Thanks
Tyler
Re: Tyler
Hey Tyler. Suggest to place the actual texts of the blogs here as well, so that support can be directed effectively. I saw that you have posted them in "members blog links" but for practicality, it would be cool if place them here in the Blogging for Sponsorship thread as well.
Re: Tyler
Hi Anna-
Must I place posts in both threads or can I start posting just here? Also, I've been blogging for 6 months now but haven't kept up a weekly pace in recent months. Does this mean I must blog for another 2 months before being considered for sponsorship?
Thanks
Must I place posts in both threads or can I start posting just here? Also, I've been blogging for 6 months now but haven't kept up a weekly pace in recent months. Does this mean I must blog for another 2 months before being considered for sponsorship?
Thanks
Self-forgiveness 1/31/12
http://livingequality.wordpress.com/2012/02/01/self-forgiveness-13112/
Conscious thought: My mother will put up a fight about my releasing my college funds. She has resisted releasing money for me to go to school in the past. I have also misued my college funds in the past, even going so far as to tell my mother that I was going to school and then using the money to buy drugs after giving her a fake address for my rent. Thus, she has a memory-based idea that I might misuse the money again or that I may not be mentally fit enough to handle classes again. So i’ve anticipate this tension that isn’t even manifested yet and if I don’t direct myself in every moment until she gets home in a few days then I will prove myself to be not worthy to receive the funds to support me going to school.
So within not becoming stable within myself I’ve projected my fear of not supporting myself onto another in that she will not support me to go to school. Therefore it is not my fault but hers that I will not go to school. When in actuality I’ve been doing the same thing I’ve done for quite a while now in getting myself stuck between two seemingly contradictory choices. Either my mother is the perfect mother and participates in my life exactly in the way I want her to- which in this case implies releasing my college money so I can pay rent on a room and not have to live with her- or everything is terrible and i have to continue living with my narcissitic, psychopathic mother, in her home where I have decided that I cannot possibly get better due to the constant stress/fear I am subject to because of being in proximity to her.
So it’s quite convenient because I have made myself a victim, the subject. It is her fault if I don’t leave her house and its her fault if I stay. A complete abdication either way.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to reach a point where I cannot support myself and therefore must rely upon my mother for my survival.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to seek the answer to who I should be in this lifetime outside of myself in friends/family I had “connections” with in the past- instead of dropping my memory-based habitual patterns and daring to live in a way that is caring towards life.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to have the thought that my mother will put up a fight about letting me move out of her house and go to school.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to consider myself “too old” for this shit and feeling like I am a victim of a mother who doesn’t understand that I need independence.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to blame my mother for me being fucked up.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to have the belief that my mother should act in a certain way because she is my mother.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to have the thought “as soon as I can I am leaving here, moving to another country, and not coming back for years” in reaction to my perception that my mother doesn’t “get it.”
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to have the feeling of superiority in relation to my mother.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to fall into a pattern of coming back to her house, getting upset, being rude, and leaving, only to come back again.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to blame my mother for me not being stable when I see her and thus making it her problem every time we have a confrontation.
While it may be true that being in her house may not be the best place for me to work on myself, its also true that I have brought this situation of relying upon her and having to live in her house on myself. Despite my behavior in the past, she has said I am always welcome here and welcomed me back this time, offering me basically free room and board. I have not taken this opportunity to become stable within myself and have continued to use drugs and participate in habitual patterns like masturbation, drug use, computer use.
Maybe she’s right: maybe I’m not ready to go back to school. Last time I failed most of my classes and just used the money to do buy drugs. I’ve told myself that I won’t do that this time, but so far haven’t stopped my habitual patterns. This schism I have created within myself as “if I could only escape her then I could figure myself out” isn’t making it any easier for me to figure myself out before she comes back in a few days and I have to ask her for the rent money to be released from my college fund.
It really is my choice if I am going to become stable or not. Of course, in an ideal world she would stop her habitual patterns, too, and we could interact on a real level. But, then, if I don’t want her to act out of expectations of me, then I can’t act on expectations of her.
I will work on being present and aware and will continue to not smoke pot as I can see now how suppressive it is in terms of crystallizing patterns within me. I will not drink caffeine and try to just be ok with myself. I’ve got a few more days left. Hopefully I will be more stable when she comes back so that I can stand and actually ask her for what I want authentically and not as a mind projection as wishful thinking that I’ve already decided she won’t participate in.
Conscious thought: My mother will put up a fight about my releasing my college funds. She has resisted releasing money for me to go to school in the past. I have also misued my college funds in the past, even going so far as to tell my mother that I was going to school and then using the money to buy drugs after giving her a fake address for my rent. Thus, she has a memory-based idea that I might misuse the money again or that I may not be mentally fit enough to handle classes again. So i’ve anticipate this tension that isn’t even manifested yet and if I don’t direct myself in every moment until she gets home in a few days then I will prove myself to be not worthy to receive the funds to support me going to school.
So within not becoming stable within myself I’ve projected my fear of not supporting myself onto another in that she will not support me to go to school. Therefore it is not my fault but hers that I will not go to school. When in actuality I’ve been doing the same thing I’ve done for quite a while now in getting myself stuck between two seemingly contradictory choices. Either my mother is the perfect mother and participates in my life exactly in the way I want her to- which in this case implies releasing my college money so I can pay rent on a room and not have to live with her- or everything is terrible and i have to continue living with my narcissitic, psychopathic mother, in her home where I have decided that I cannot possibly get better due to the constant stress/fear I am subject to because of being in proximity to her.
So it’s quite convenient because I have made myself a victim, the subject. It is her fault if I don’t leave her house and its her fault if I stay. A complete abdication either way.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to reach a point where I cannot support myself and therefore must rely upon my mother for my survival.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to seek the answer to who I should be in this lifetime outside of myself in friends/family I had “connections” with in the past- instead of dropping my memory-based habitual patterns and daring to live in a way that is caring towards life.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to have the thought that my mother will put up a fight about letting me move out of her house and go to school.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to consider myself “too old” for this shit and feeling like I am a victim of a mother who doesn’t understand that I need independence.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to blame my mother for me being fucked up.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to have the belief that my mother should act in a certain way because she is my mother.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to have the thought “as soon as I can I am leaving here, moving to another country, and not coming back for years” in reaction to my perception that my mother doesn’t “get it.”
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to have the feeling of superiority in relation to my mother.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to fall into a pattern of coming back to her house, getting upset, being rude, and leaving, only to come back again.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to blame my mother for me not being stable when I see her and thus making it her problem every time we have a confrontation.
While it may be true that being in her house may not be the best place for me to work on myself, its also true that I have brought this situation of relying upon her and having to live in her house on myself. Despite my behavior in the past, she has said I am always welcome here and welcomed me back this time, offering me basically free room and board. I have not taken this opportunity to become stable within myself and have continued to use drugs and participate in habitual patterns like masturbation, drug use, computer use.
Maybe she’s right: maybe I’m not ready to go back to school. Last time I failed most of my classes and just used the money to do buy drugs. I’ve told myself that I won’t do that this time, but so far haven’t stopped my habitual patterns. This schism I have created within myself as “if I could only escape her then I could figure myself out” isn’t making it any easier for me to figure myself out before she comes back in a few days and I have to ask her for the rent money to be released from my college fund.
It really is my choice if I am going to become stable or not. Of course, in an ideal world she would stop her habitual patterns, too, and we could interact on a real level. But, then, if I don’t want her to act out of expectations of me, then I can’t act on expectations of her.
I will work on being present and aware and will continue to not smoke pot as I can see now how suppressive it is in terms of crystallizing patterns within me. I will not drink caffeine and try to just be ok with myself. I’ve got a few more days left. Hopefully I will be more stable when she comes back so that I can stand and actually ask her for what I want authentically and not as a mind projection as wishful thinking that I’ve already decided she won’t participate in.
Re: Tyler
Blog link: http://livingequality.wordpress.com/2012/02/08/its-all-on-me/
I’ve carried the belief that others should show me how to live. Having not been effectively parented but rather threatened and conditioned, I did some work on myself but at some point realized that if I were to make it out of this life being anything other than a carbon-copy of my parents, I was going to have to do some extensive deprogramming.
I also realized that because my parents were the ones that had done the programming, it would be extensively helpful if either:
A) They started to deprogram themselves. Perhaps at their relatively advanced age and being surrounded by likewise heavily programmed people, this was not an easy task. But being the selfish young person that I was, at least this would distract them from their program which seemed to include attempting to program me and I would get the space I needed to work on myself without being influenced by them to be exactly like them.
or
B) They would take it one step further and own what they did to me in terms of programming me in a way that wasn’t what was best for me and participate in my deprogramming. This second option seemed more unlikely but also the ideal scenario as it would entail the three of us working simultaneously and consciously together to deprogram ourselves.
Neither has happened and more and more I am realizing that despite my intentions for not wanting to be like them (being like my parents was just so uncool, I decided), I have also come to know that I am ‘right’ in this regard.
Of course, no one can do anything to me that I don’t accept and allow, but I’ve been around enough counter-cultural types to know that my liberal American middle class upbringing is bullshit and it is possible to exist outside of that limited worldview. My experience in deprogramming and being around those who see through the bullshit has also let me know that if people work together under the common pretense of deprogramming/reprogramming, it’s possible to make significant changes individually and as a group.
My resentment towards my parents and my desire to not be like them (so I could be better than others) has led me at times to cut off all communication with them. It’s like they are poison and the more I am around them the higher risk I’m at for being exposed to regurgitated trash seen on television and spewed by the government.
I am coming to terms with the fact that my reason for wanting to deprogram and reprogram myself is less than what is best for all an unacceptable. That doesn’t mean it isn’t what should happen, but no longer do I seek to be unlike my parents for the sake of being unique or fitting in with the hippie crowd I used to admire but feel left out of.
Now my reason for deprogramming is to avoid the mining of my physical body for the sake of realities-of-mind I have identified myself with. As I learn more about myself I’ve come to realize that I placed myself as a young person who was not willing to become self-responsible and that this- not my parents unwillingness to change- is the reason why I am unable to make progress towards becoming a more coherent person.
For a long time I intellectualized the process I should be undergoing and realized for reasons of efficiency that if my parents could just for a moment step outside of their preprogrammed existences they could help me to avoid becoming them. What I missed was the practical implications of walking of the process and that it entailed me- only me- doing the walking. Expecting my parents to assist me is just that- an expectation. If they are not willing and able to cooperate then it’s all on me.
Wanting someone else to change so that I can continue to benefit from those aspects of my preprogramming that give me a social edge while also benefiting from changing myself in a strategic way is selfish. Believing that people/things outside of myself are influencing me in any way is delusional and while its been frustrating to deal with my parents seeming inability/refusal to change, thereby facilitating my transformation, I must give them credit for knowing that its me who has been the source of my change this whole time.
Of course, without their help it might be more uncomfortable as I must take my preprogrammed self out into the world and make the mistakes I see them make, but wanting to save face was a ridiculous and misguided desire in the first place. And the process might go slower, at least initially, than I’d like. But my fear of dying, aging, becoming an adult, is an issue that I must own and walk and correct. Only when I have proven myself as someone who is living by principle, making progress towards bettering myself/the world, becoming self-supportive and responsible and not making bad decisions based upon an image of myself that is young and rebellious, can I ever expect to be taken seriously.
And who knows, maybe at some point they will see and understand and begin to co-uncreate with me?
But it’s all on me.
I’ve carried the belief that others should show me how to live. Having not been effectively parented but rather threatened and conditioned, I did some work on myself but at some point realized that if I were to make it out of this life being anything other than a carbon-copy of my parents, I was going to have to do some extensive deprogramming.
I also realized that because my parents were the ones that had done the programming, it would be extensively helpful if either:
A) They started to deprogram themselves. Perhaps at their relatively advanced age and being surrounded by likewise heavily programmed people, this was not an easy task. But being the selfish young person that I was, at least this would distract them from their program which seemed to include attempting to program me and I would get the space I needed to work on myself without being influenced by them to be exactly like them.
or
B) They would take it one step further and own what they did to me in terms of programming me in a way that wasn’t what was best for me and participate in my deprogramming. This second option seemed more unlikely but also the ideal scenario as it would entail the three of us working simultaneously and consciously together to deprogram ourselves.
Neither has happened and more and more I am realizing that despite my intentions for not wanting to be like them (being like my parents was just so uncool, I decided), I have also come to know that I am ‘right’ in this regard.
Of course, no one can do anything to me that I don’t accept and allow, but I’ve been around enough counter-cultural types to know that my liberal American middle class upbringing is bullshit and it is possible to exist outside of that limited worldview. My experience in deprogramming and being around those who see through the bullshit has also let me know that if people work together under the common pretense of deprogramming/reprogramming, it’s possible to make significant changes individually and as a group.
My resentment towards my parents and my desire to not be like them (so I could be better than others) has led me at times to cut off all communication with them. It’s like they are poison and the more I am around them the higher risk I’m at for being exposed to regurgitated trash seen on television and spewed by the government.
I am coming to terms with the fact that my reason for wanting to deprogram and reprogram myself is less than what is best for all an unacceptable. That doesn’t mean it isn’t what should happen, but no longer do I seek to be unlike my parents for the sake of being unique or fitting in with the hippie crowd I used to admire but feel left out of.
Now my reason for deprogramming is to avoid the mining of my physical body for the sake of realities-of-mind I have identified myself with. As I learn more about myself I’ve come to realize that I placed myself as a young person who was not willing to become self-responsible and that this- not my parents unwillingness to change- is the reason why I am unable to make progress towards becoming a more coherent person.
For a long time I intellectualized the process I should be undergoing and realized for reasons of efficiency that if my parents could just for a moment step outside of their preprogrammed existences they could help me to avoid becoming them. What I missed was the practical implications of walking of the process and that it entailed me- only me- doing the walking. Expecting my parents to assist me is just that- an expectation. If they are not willing and able to cooperate then it’s all on me.
Wanting someone else to change so that I can continue to benefit from those aspects of my preprogramming that give me a social edge while also benefiting from changing myself in a strategic way is selfish. Believing that people/things outside of myself are influencing me in any way is delusional and while its been frustrating to deal with my parents seeming inability/refusal to change, thereby facilitating my transformation, I must give them credit for knowing that its me who has been the source of my change this whole time.
Of course, without their help it might be more uncomfortable as I must take my preprogrammed self out into the world and make the mistakes I see them make, but wanting to save face was a ridiculous and misguided desire in the first place. And the process might go slower, at least initially, than I’d like. But my fear of dying, aging, becoming an adult, is an issue that I must own and walk and correct. Only when I have proven myself as someone who is living by principle, making progress towards bettering myself/the world, becoming self-supportive and responsible and not making bad decisions based upon an image of myself that is young and rebellious, can I ever expect to be taken seriously.
And who knows, maybe at some point they will see and understand and begin to co-uncreate with me?
But it’s all on me.
New Politics
Blog link: http://livingequality.wordpress.com/2012/02/08/new-politics/
IN this information-rich age, a new political party could arise with little to no political experience whatsoever. It’s not so much a question of how- the internet- but when, as in when will a political party show up in a nationally syndicated election and actually just have the platform that gets it right?
What if there was a group of people who have actually formulated a new socioeconomic paradigm with agreed-upon rules so simple in their comprehensive adherence to the principle of common sense that the concept is irresistible?
Introducing the Equal Money System
FOR our society to not adapt their model of an Equal Money System at this point is simply an abandonment of what is best for all as life and as such an unacceptable travesty.
An initial proposed Basic Income Grant for all people would be a transitional action until holistic research and development was accomplished.
The final product is a system that actually puts into place the nuts and bolts necessary to live according to our utmost potential. Working out the simple, physical conditions necessary to advance most sensically as a civilization is a matter of simple mathematics: give everyone enough, do it efficiently, make it fun- basically, let’s express ourselves!
Check out equalmoney.org to read the blueprint for a heaven on earth.
No shitting you.
IN this information-rich age, a new political party could arise with little to no political experience whatsoever. It’s not so much a question of how- the internet- but when, as in when will a political party show up in a nationally syndicated election and actually just have the platform that gets it right?
What if there was a group of people who have actually formulated a new socioeconomic paradigm with agreed-upon rules so simple in their comprehensive adherence to the principle of common sense that the concept is irresistible?
Introducing the Equal Money System
FOR our society to not adapt their model of an Equal Money System at this point is simply an abandonment of what is best for all as life and as such an unacceptable travesty.
An initial proposed Basic Income Grant for all people would be a transitional action until holistic research and development was accomplished.
The final product is a system that actually puts into place the nuts and bolts necessary to live according to our utmost potential. Working out the simple, physical conditions necessary to advance most sensically as a civilization is a matter of simple mathematics: give everyone enough, do it efficiently, make it fun- basically, let’s express ourselves!
Check out equalmoney.org to read the blueprint for a heaven on earth.
No shitting you.
Re: Tyler
Hi Tyler,
What I've come to realize is that the 'other person' doesn't have to support me for me to allow myself within 'some' self-responsibility and self-validation/self-respect (lol - augmented thru breath(s)) so as to direct myself out of the situation I created for myself and as myself and get some solid self-support structure/foundation in place. Though I'm not totally 'there' yet and a few aspects still need direction, I've stopped waiting/hoping for the other to change, to stop 'being who he is', or better, who I saw him to be, as the primary cause/reason for my self-imprisonment and self-confinement with only little movement despite many realizations. Thus, I have stopped listening to the voice that poises the question of 'may I do this?' = does my experience of myself within the situation allow me to act and direct myself or can I find a reason for not moving myself that I can attach to the other and blame him for so I don't have to change anything and thus not fear facing myself outside of the same old routine and self-perception; thus facing myself within and as the moment of/as breath and undistorted by mind; stepping out of the mind's hold on me enough to see what I've been allowing?
So, I suggest you walk the points you have already listed such as stopping drugs, fearing age/adulthood/being a copy of the parents and the idea of process going more slowly without them changing and supporting (this being a justification for not moving yourself toward self-change - lol: I had a similar reasoning) and get yourself to a point/platform of stabilty towards those aspects of yourself and (then, or simultaneously) see how you could support yourself financially to take the next steps towards schooling/education.
Thanks for sharing!
What I've come to realize is that the 'other person' doesn't have to support me for me to allow myself within 'some' self-responsibility and self-validation/self-respect (lol - augmented thru breath(s)) so as to direct myself out of the situation I created for myself and as myself and get some solid self-support structure/foundation in place. Though I'm not totally 'there' yet and a few aspects still need direction, I've stopped waiting/hoping for the other to change, to stop 'being who he is', or better, who I saw him to be, as the primary cause/reason for my self-imprisonment and self-confinement with only little movement despite many realizations. Thus, I have stopped listening to the voice that poises the question of 'may I do this?' = does my experience of myself within the situation allow me to act and direct myself or can I find a reason for not moving myself that I can attach to the other and blame him for so I don't have to change anything and thus not fear facing myself outside of the same old routine and self-perception; thus facing myself within and as the moment of/as breath and undistorted by mind; stepping out of the mind's hold on me enough to see what I've been allowing?
So, I suggest you walk the points you have already listed such as stopping drugs, fearing age/adulthood/being a copy of the parents and the idea of process going more slowly without them changing and supporting (this being a justification for not moving yourself toward self-change - lol: I had a similar reasoning) and get yourself to a point/platform of stabilty towards those aspects of yourself and (then, or simultaneously) see how you could support yourself financially to take the next steps towards schooling/education.
Thanks for sharing!
Stop is not an intellectual process
Blog link: http://livingequality.wordpress.com/2012/02/21/stop-is-not-an-intellectual-process/
Stopping the mind. Stopping the patterns. Stopping the self-abuse.
In this go-go-go world, STOP is not something that ‘comes naturally’ to anyone. In fact, people have come to identify so ‘heavily’ with their mind’s creation that they are running a program all the time. We haven’t stopped in years.
There came a point in our childhoods where we saw ourselves and saw the world and realized that if we didn’t create ourselves to act out subconscious mind patterns as a way of fitting in it was going to be a long road ahead of us. This is the popular kid phenomenon.
Either you program yourself to amalgamate with and as the status quo and live out your life that way, or you are outcast. Everyone remembers the nerdy kid in school; he didn’t seem to ‘get’ the program. No one could figure out why he wasn’t acting like everyone else.
This is how our competitive money-system starts to shape children early on. Either you ‘sell your soul’ to the game everyone seems to be playing and are duly rewarded with acceptance and easier access to money, or you make the seemingly suicidal decision to live authentically. ‘Choose’ the latter and you inevitably face ridicule and your attempt to ‘just live your life’ seems more and more regrettable.
So if you did the smart thing when you were in school (like me), then you simply programmed yourself according to what got you the most ‘likes’. Facebook didn’t exist back then, but getting invited to the prom, getting picked for varsity, and getting into the best college did. And while your genetics played a role in your place in the hierarchy of life, for the most part you were tested by your ability to ‘fit the mold’ in terms of saying what people wanted to hear.
How well could you manipulate people through the mind?
Remember your college essay? What a load of crap was that? Remember your first job interview? Probably total BS, if you’re being self-honest.
Thus we program ourselves to act out of the mind, to follow these mind creations that everyone else is following. 30 or 40 or 50 years later, we could still be acting out the same patterns. This is the high school reunion syndrome where you say “Oh he or she hasn’t changed a bit. He or she even looks the same!” Well, of course they do, they programmed themselves decades ago and haven’t stopped to consider the consequences of their actions in all this time.
Last night I watched a news digest in which a doctor was describing how within his study they worked with two groups of people with knee issues. They performed the discussed surgery on the first group of people but with the second they cut open their knees and stitched them back up again without performing any surgery. Afterwards, the placebo group performed better than those who received the surgery!
This just goes to show the extent to which our mind is everything and always the primary point to focus on when dealing with any issues that arise one’s life. The same doctor contended that for all but a small minority of people, antidepressants were largely chemically neutral in terms of people who got better taking them but almost always the effect was simply the placebo-effect of someone taking a pill and then reporting they felt better.
But back to the point of this post.
The reason why people reach the point where they need to take antidepressant pills with unknown chemicals in them or have knee surgery to correct the consequences of a bad posture is because they ran a mind system for so long that it became their reality. Perhaps they believed people should appear as they do on TV all touched-up and happy and then when they couldn’t achieve that image came to believe that there must be something wrong with them. Then they went into depression as a way of attempting to get the world to make them okay again, like throwing a tantrum when they didn’t get their way. But all this went on in the mind. I should know, I did it.
Anyways, the outflow of attempting to manipulate the physical world according to something in one’s mind like an image of being carefree and happy are of course that it doesn’t work. And because the physical reality is like a mirror for the self, such people begin to manifest dis-eases. It’s like reality is telling you: no, you can’t do that, that’s not real and so it can’t happen in real life like that.
So this is why Desteni recommends people stop. Simply stop the mind reality, stop going into energetic experiences within some ridiculous playout of polarity where you experience awesome days and then sucky days depending on how they compare to your mind’s gauge of what life ‘should’ be like. Stop existing as the mind at all. Just STOP.
When I first heard this message, I thought that I knew what they were talking about on an intellectual level. But as I’ve gone on practicing self-intimacy and realizing just how it is that I’ve participated in this world for my whole life, I’ve come to understand that I’ve always existed as a mind creation.
And so while I could intellectualize ‘stop’, in actuality I had never really experienced STOP. I have never experienced stopping the mind completely and just living here in the physical reality I was born out of and will decompose back into when I die. So ‘stop’ is not an intellectual process but an actual moment that is reached when all energetic possessions have been transcended within the being and all that’s left is what has been here the entire time.
This is what I am doing in applying the tools of self-honest self-forgiveness for every little mind creation I have layered onto myself-as-ego as the mind. The tools Desteni has presented me with were so simple in their practicality that it took me a minute to understand what they were in terms of being an unconditional gift from self to self. And now that I have I am grateful that I am empowered to finally, for the first time, STOP.
It’s a tough process. Another thing I have realized is that it is made just that much tougher while living in the kind of world that we currently live in. This fucked up reality where countless beings perpetually suffer and everyone is forced to scramble for money to survive (or feel guilt for having enough) makes it pretty difficult to create the self-will to commit to peeling off the layers. Because, remember, the whole impetus behind programming ourselves to exist in layers of the mind in the first place was to participate in the money-system/world-system. It still exists, so to deprogram ourselves within it at first runs against our ‘grain’- it almost seems suicidal.
So my realization is that if we can all band together and utilize the power of democracy in the name of the people for the first time to eliminate economic insecurity altogether, we would give ourselves the time and space necessary to get down to the nitty-gritty of working on ourselves.
The proposed Basic Income Grant is a great first step towards realizing this. Not only would it eradicate poverty and eliminate the need for all other entitlements, it would do much to reduce crime and increase community togetherness. Let’s all be covered.
That said, we’ve gotta take it one step further in implementing an Equal Money System. For too long has an unequal money system benefited the few at the expense of the many. It’s time we all stood on an equal playing field and established the means to which life will continue on eternally. I mean, yeah, it’s utopian, but in common sense sooner or later there will be a movement towards creating a world that’s heavenly for all who inhabit it. Why not now?
If these proposals interest you, head over to basicincome.org, desteni.org, and equalmoney.org. The solutions are here, people, we just need to be the change we wanna see. Now or never, until it’s done.
Thanks
Stopping the mind. Stopping the patterns. Stopping the self-abuse.
In this go-go-go world, STOP is not something that ‘comes naturally’ to anyone. In fact, people have come to identify so ‘heavily’ with their mind’s creation that they are running a program all the time. We haven’t stopped in years.
There came a point in our childhoods where we saw ourselves and saw the world and realized that if we didn’t create ourselves to act out subconscious mind patterns as a way of fitting in it was going to be a long road ahead of us. This is the popular kid phenomenon.
Either you program yourself to amalgamate with and as the status quo and live out your life that way, or you are outcast. Everyone remembers the nerdy kid in school; he didn’t seem to ‘get’ the program. No one could figure out why he wasn’t acting like everyone else.
This is how our competitive money-system starts to shape children early on. Either you ‘sell your soul’ to the game everyone seems to be playing and are duly rewarded with acceptance and easier access to money, or you make the seemingly suicidal decision to live authentically. ‘Choose’ the latter and you inevitably face ridicule and your attempt to ‘just live your life’ seems more and more regrettable.
So if you did the smart thing when you were in school (like me), then you simply programmed yourself according to what got you the most ‘likes’. Facebook didn’t exist back then, but getting invited to the prom, getting picked for varsity, and getting into the best college did. And while your genetics played a role in your place in the hierarchy of life, for the most part you were tested by your ability to ‘fit the mold’ in terms of saying what people wanted to hear.
How well could you manipulate people through the mind?
Remember your college essay? What a load of crap was that? Remember your first job interview? Probably total BS, if you’re being self-honest.
Thus we program ourselves to act out of the mind, to follow these mind creations that everyone else is following. 30 or 40 or 50 years later, we could still be acting out the same patterns. This is the high school reunion syndrome where you say “Oh he or she hasn’t changed a bit. He or she even looks the same!” Well, of course they do, they programmed themselves decades ago and haven’t stopped to consider the consequences of their actions in all this time.
Last night I watched a news digest in which a doctor was describing how within his study they worked with two groups of people with knee issues. They performed the discussed surgery on the first group of people but with the second they cut open their knees and stitched them back up again without performing any surgery. Afterwards, the placebo group performed better than those who received the surgery!
This just goes to show the extent to which our mind is everything and always the primary point to focus on when dealing with any issues that arise one’s life. The same doctor contended that for all but a small minority of people, antidepressants were largely chemically neutral in terms of people who got better taking them but almost always the effect was simply the placebo-effect of someone taking a pill and then reporting they felt better.
But back to the point of this post.
The reason why people reach the point where they need to take antidepressant pills with unknown chemicals in them or have knee surgery to correct the consequences of a bad posture is because they ran a mind system for so long that it became their reality. Perhaps they believed people should appear as they do on TV all touched-up and happy and then when they couldn’t achieve that image came to believe that there must be something wrong with them. Then they went into depression as a way of attempting to get the world to make them okay again, like throwing a tantrum when they didn’t get their way. But all this went on in the mind. I should know, I did it.
Anyways, the outflow of attempting to manipulate the physical world according to something in one’s mind like an image of being carefree and happy are of course that it doesn’t work. And because the physical reality is like a mirror for the self, such people begin to manifest dis-eases. It’s like reality is telling you: no, you can’t do that, that’s not real and so it can’t happen in real life like that.
So this is why Desteni recommends people stop. Simply stop the mind reality, stop going into energetic experiences within some ridiculous playout of polarity where you experience awesome days and then sucky days depending on how they compare to your mind’s gauge of what life ‘should’ be like. Stop existing as the mind at all. Just STOP.
When I first heard this message, I thought that I knew what they were talking about on an intellectual level. But as I’ve gone on practicing self-intimacy and realizing just how it is that I’ve participated in this world for my whole life, I’ve come to understand that I’ve always existed as a mind creation.
And so while I could intellectualize ‘stop’, in actuality I had never really experienced STOP. I have never experienced stopping the mind completely and just living here in the physical reality I was born out of and will decompose back into when I die. So ‘stop’ is not an intellectual process but an actual moment that is reached when all energetic possessions have been transcended within the being and all that’s left is what has been here the entire time.
This is what I am doing in applying the tools of self-honest self-forgiveness for every little mind creation I have layered onto myself-as-ego as the mind. The tools Desteni has presented me with were so simple in their practicality that it took me a minute to understand what they were in terms of being an unconditional gift from self to self. And now that I have I am grateful that I am empowered to finally, for the first time, STOP.
It’s a tough process. Another thing I have realized is that it is made just that much tougher while living in the kind of world that we currently live in. This fucked up reality where countless beings perpetually suffer and everyone is forced to scramble for money to survive (or feel guilt for having enough) makes it pretty difficult to create the self-will to commit to peeling off the layers. Because, remember, the whole impetus behind programming ourselves to exist in layers of the mind in the first place was to participate in the money-system/world-system. It still exists, so to deprogram ourselves within it at first runs against our ‘grain’- it almost seems suicidal.
So my realization is that if we can all band together and utilize the power of democracy in the name of the people for the first time to eliminate economic insecurity altogether, we would give ourselves the time and space necessary to get down to the nitty-gritty of working on ourselves.
The proposed Basic Income Grant is a great first step towards realizing this. Not only would it eradicate poverty and eliminate the need for all other entitlements, it would do much to reduce crime and increase community togetherness. Let’s all be covered.
That said, we’ve gotta take it one step further in implementing an Equal Money System. For too long has an unequal money system benefited the few at the expense of the many. It’s time we all stood on an equal playing field and established the means to which life will continue on eternally. I mean, yeah, it’s utopian, but in common sense sooner or later there will be a movement towards creating a world that’s heavenly for all who inhabit it. Why not now?
If these proposals interest you, head over to basicincome.org, desteni.org, and equalmoney.org. The solutions are here, people, we just need to be the change we wanna see. Now or never, until it’s done.
Thanks
Re: Tyler
Cool Tyler!tylersr wrote: When I first heard this message, I thought that I knew what they were talking about on an intellectual level. But as I’ve gone on practicing self-intimacy and realizing just how it is that I’ve participated in this world for my whole life, I’ve come to understand that I’ve always existed as a mind creation.
And so while I could intellectualize ‘stop’, in actuality I had never really experienced STOP. I have never experienced stopping the mind completely and just living here in the physical reality I was born out of and will decompose back into when I die. So ‘stop’ is not an intellectual process but an actual moment that is reached when all energetic possessions have been transcended within the being and all that’s left is what has been here the entire time.
This is what I am doing in applying the tools of self-honest self-forgiveness for every little mind creation I have layered onto myself-as-ego as the mind. The tools Desteni has presented me with were so simple in their practicality that it took me a minute to understand what they were in terms of being an unconditional gift from self to self. And now that I have I am grateful that I am empowered to finally, for the first time, STOP.