It's definitely cool to come to the forum and share where you're at and what you've been doing as a decision to start supporting yourself. Those seemingly 'little' steps actually speak a lot about you and your starting point already which is that of starting to support yourself again.
In my case initially, I was also very much just watching and reading information - back in the day - but I knew that I also would have to actually get to apply all that I was hearing and reading from the Desteni material. So yes it wasn't that easy to get myself to write out self-forgiveness, because we are certainly not programmed to start 'writing ourselves as our mind in a supportive manner' it's like swimming against the tide you know? But I had to do it, I understood this was not part of 'my programming' but that I could direct myself to do it anyways, and so I did. It was 'odd' at first but with practice and consistency it has become part of who I am and how I straighten, clarify and support myself to lay out solutions and continually look at points or aspects to change, adapt, correct, let go of within myself/my life.
So, here suggestion, now that there's DIP Lite, best support you can give to yourself that will be a cool complement to what you are doing in terms of reading the info, watching videos etc. is to go developing your self-writing and integrating it to your new ways of supporting yourself.
The DIP Lite course is designed to precisely create and integrate that new writing habit in you, because it's designed to be a daily moment where you log into your account and do your writing as required there, it seems like a 'small step' but quite a substantial one in developing the most basic skills as self-writing, self forgiveness, self honesty and self-corrective statements where you will then go applying to your daily life these realizations and considerations into practical application, based on what you go observing of yourself throughout the course. So, you can take it step by step there
Another big point of support here is to not judge yourself for whatever point of abuse you've been living with or have continued in your life, it's everyone's ability to decide to stop, self forgive and change - and this actually involves first stopping judging ourselves for what we've become or who we have been, and realize that those aspects of ourselves are parts of us, are patterns, habits that yes we have lived out and for a long time - all of us, really - yet, that doesn't mean that we don't have the ability to self-forgive the judgment to that, and stand up and work on practical solutions to precisely change all of that which you know you don't want to continue living with as yourself.
That's the most important part here I'd say because sometimes it does sound contradictory that we want to change but we still judge ourselves in some aspect that we haven't changed for a long time, and that single point is precisely the one that we need to initially push through to realize that yes, the actual liberation from it is learning to take responsibility for my creation, for my patterns and habits that I know I can change if I do take the first steps to do so, which is how writing, learning to apply self forgiveness, laying out corrective statements and living the corrections as living words is the basic set of tools you'll need to direct yourself in your life.
So, as a conclusion, you are your starting point, you are deciding to start assisting yourself in the ways you've been doing, which is very cool - now you can continue giving the next steps to establish more of these self-supportive tools now as part of your habits, your daily activities if you will which you can test out/try out and see what the outcomes are with them.
Let us know if there's something that's not clear or that you'd like some expansion on.
Enjoy and cool for sharing this!