I will place your questions in brackets and then my response underneath.
I have some questions about this specific interview. I'll explain.
((I thought that I was getting something good, good in the sence of what is best for all.))
You must be the result of what is best for all, considering who you are, you as your utmost potential as life, one and equal, not brainwashed, not mind controlled, no thoughts, no thinking, but direct living and being here purifying self as breathe, that is moving to a best version of you that is then a best version of life and for all. DO not judge yourself in this process, it takes time and to be gentle with yourself, caring and understanding. So yes GOOD in the sense of best for all for you is what you are GIVING to yourself and creating for yourself, the gain here is you taking self-responsibility as creator
((I thought that if I changed myself, I would change the world, because I would be changing my starting point.))
That is how it works, who you are determines what you do, focus first on YOU and purifying, creating you, the outflow from you as a being with integrity, principle as life as all life will live with that and that will flow out into life in everything you do, so remember this, it isn’t what you do that determines who you are, it is who you are that determines what you do, so focus on who YOU are and not what you do, the doing will come as a side effect/natural in time as one walk this process. So focus on your practical living within this world, do not judge anything, walk your process and things will open up what is best for you and all, this you cannot predict or plan or create any ideas about.
((I thought that the fredom I was getting for myself, it would be for myself, because it had to be for myself, to be able to share something with anyone.))
That is what it is, the freedom and only freedom we can create for ourselves is to be here in breathe, pure breath, that’s freedom from any emotional/feeling or thought control, so you are starting with yourself and can only ever do that for yourself, and as you know by now, who you are determines what you do (and do not create any ideas about that either) so what you will be sharing with someone else is YOU as an example to yourself that stand in freedom from the mind, once again this is not a mind job, this is a real time practical application in space and time, not an image or idea in the head, so keep walking in writing and self-forgiveness daily for you and develop self-honesty.
((Is all of this a trap? Is all of this an illution? Am I really being just selfish and of no value for the world?))
Traps can only exist in thought, in emotions and feelings and in our thinking, the only trap that can exist as a mental trap is one’s own mental state – we are always only able to trap ourselves no matter what is presented to us, it is what we do with it. We must first save ourselves before we can do anything, thus a time is required to be selfish, that word has been abused by the system to manipulate people to never focus on themselves and to always focus outwards and so live as shell fish, always hiding in their shells, protecting their inner worlds that construct the outer, so become selfish for a moment to work on the inner world so that the inner world can reflect equal and one the outer world. Give yourself that time. Once you work on your inner world, as a shell fish, you will and can become a pearl, the value of life is you that will come forth as the physical.
((I really would like to know because I made a decition, I took a path, and I said I am going to discover who I am and I am going to share that with myself and with the world, does this make any difference?))
Once you make a decision, live it fully, never back down. You will learn, you will grow and you will discover. Turning on a decision in anything we do we do not establish self-trust, confidence in ourselves, and we must always have a clear decision and agree with ourselves that we are LIVING the decision, then walking the path of that decision is clear and easy, no doubts, no back doors, no secret agendas, and we can truly live within such commitment.
((I thought that, when you get out of your own self-created path, you can see things for what they are, is this experience pointless?))
Any experience is never valid, breath is the only physical experience that is valid, all experiences are from memories (me more lies) thus the lying is from your past projected and placed onto the present and has nothing to do with the present, so we deceive and manipulate ourselves with experiences, to relive and re-create the past over and over following and believing experiences. Take a look at your memories and where you had similar experiences, they will show you the design. So here the experience is the self-created path, are you following the self-created path by giving this experience validation? Is so then here I show you it isn’t pointless, because right now in this post your opportunity has opened up to work with this – do you see what things are right now and where it is leading and can you will yourself on your own path with your own decision and not based on the experiences but common sense, practicality, your own truth here as what you have already walked.
((This is where "Desteni" took me to, have I been lying to myself? Have Desteni allowed me to lie to myself?))
Desteni cannot lie to you – lying takes place in our own minds and how we talk to ourselves. To be able to be lied to and believing someone else can make you lie is proof of brainwashing and mind control, who is controlling your mind If someone or something else can make you lie to yourself?
((What is equality? Can anybody explain to me? Can you tell me where am I at my process? Is all that I am "doing" nothing because I don't have an organization to change this world or something to physically support this world?))
Process can take 7 to 14 years of consistent walking/application, yet it takes one breath to stand as life, when that one breath is here we cannot predict it or know it, we walk our process every day in each and every breath, only we know who we are and thus where we are, are we breathing? Or are we thinking and trapped within an internal reality? Writing and self-forgiveness is our records of our process, our daily purifying and removing all the layer, layer by layer till it is done, do not consume your time with worrying about where you are, simple walk each day, each breathe as best of your ability and self-will for yourself always.
We have venues that are busy being created to have worldly impact later on as we grow and have support, such as Equal Life Foundation, Earth Haven Project and of course all of use walking and changing our daily selves and living, that is already having a global impact, you effect life as you are life.
Equality – all life is equal in that all life comes from life, all life is made and created and exist of the exact same substance, we are in fact one and equal, yet our current living on this planet with our current forms are not equal and one as a true reflection of who we are, where all life has a dignified life, equal opportunity, NO abuse that can be prevented, respect. So equality is to end all abuse, starting within ourselves, then what we accept and allow within and so without, then we stand for all life, we recognize and see that we are all life in fact, yet we must rebirth ourselves as life as the mind has deluded us to only live in self-interest and energy, thus disconnected from all parts of ourselves.
I don't mean to seem reactive, because I am not, I am simply asking for the truth about what is it that I am perceiving in my process.
don't judge any question you have, place it and we can find videos explaining it, old articles, or give some straight answers from ourselves, but please do take some time to investigate the rest of the forum, we have tons of old articles on many subjects.