Self-forgiveness is the practical, tangible, measurable way to understand my own moods, dispositions, habits, behaviours, and reactions towards myself and my world. Self forgiveness is the switch from praying for God to save me, to being the God to save himself/herself.
Saving your own ass by yourself instead of waiting on my ass for outsiders to save me was a thought that motivated me to practice self forgiveness.
Self forgiveness means understanding that the modern God of my life - my thoughts, words, and deeds - all originates from words, the living proof that the word was God, the word was with God. Self-forgiveness means realizing step by step that my modern God of thoughts is but an emotionalized string of sentences, that I repeated over and over until I mistaken it for me. It means spiting the abomination which is the factors in this world that cause abuse, starting with the apathetic disposition of myself, and self forgiveness is understanding that my apathy was also programmed through words and time: a timeline of words with emotion attached.
Self forgiveness works through the power of one sentence, plus one sentence, until a realization of why and how I came to become a habit/pattern/reaction, and repeat this process as long as necessary to know myself.
Self forgiveness allowed me to come to terms and stand on equal standing with my moods and behaviours, and really pushed the application of asking why to myself, to every aspect of myself, one by one. My moods and old behaviours are not nearly as influential because I have practiced self forgiveness and come to understand more and more about myself, thus creating discipline, will, and commitment which is the opposite of the pure chase for self interest, which is this modern world and culture which lacks commitment in its cultural fabric.