Okay the answer is being in love with something I can be for the rest of my life, which is myself. Why is this one single sentence, and it's the next stage of consciousness. It would be so ideal to just fall in love with your own heart, and take responsability for the rest of your live in every moment, but this is so, sooo, hard. I get in these emotional states of sadness and loniless, and I sometimes do things I regret, like going fast to the desteni forum because they are the biggest source of truth and they will give me support, to accept my own pain, I know it's to accept my own pain, and I am also asking for support, it's kinda comical lol. I sometimes feel helpless. Life gets heavy. And I would like to simply go out of life and be free of everything and the thing that most limits me is findind a person to fall in love. Because if it wasn't for that, would life have meaning? I mean everything a person does is to be more atractive for the opposite sex. And I do things for myself a lot, and sometimes I think oh this makes me more atractive to the girls eh? Cool (like being a nice guitarrist, it's something I do for myself, but if a girl I like sees how good I am... cool right? lol). I would like to simply be free of it but I see the practical living example I give, and it's like... in reality if I find a girl who is very, very special, I just won't be able to deny my whole mechanism, I want to share my truth with her. I really don't think about sex at all. I think about sharing the souls, but I suppose eventually that leads to feeling tension and having sex. So my question is the next one, while having a sexual organ in the body, is really oneself able to live according to himself, with no need to find anything in the opposite sex? seeing the most special woman as a normal woman and not as a woman to have a relationship with? I consider this a fair question, because life of humans is based on developing to be more atractive for the opposite sex, could I have some guidance in this please?