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Day 548 – Shaving my Head Bald, and what changed – Self Honesty

Postby Gian » 01 Jan 2016, 23:38

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Yesterday I shaved ALL my hair off once again, plus putting a razor to my head so that it is smooth and shiny. My head is still very white and has to adapt to the rest of my bodies skin tone, so it looks a bit funny at first, like it really is sticking out.

I sat in the bathroom in front of a mirror on a chair with the hair clippers in my hand, I was a bit nervous doing it, But I made a decision and I followed through, I turned the shaver on and started buzzing all my hair off, then I cleaned up and went to the sink to start and now really getting all my hair off with the raiser, this was fun.

When I started shaving I could feel a sense of comfort within myself after the initial nervousness, and I got really relaxed within doing so, as I have returned to some part of myself that I have been suppressing or hiding from the world.

This I found quit interesting, because I used to be bald for a long time before, for at least 5 years or so, but I started growing my hair back about a year and a half ago when I started a new business venture. Initially I was bald starting this business venture and I did this for about 6 months, I was extremely comfortable with myself, and what was more fascinating was that everyone noticed me and remembered me and enjoyed me being bald, may it be business people or just normal people from all walks of life, BUT kids found me most fascinating and always wanted to touch my head and feel it, because they do not usually see a guy that is bald.

The whole reason for me being bald previously was because of a stance I made, a decision I made and where shaving my hair and keeping it shaved was for LIFE, a commitment to life, to when I always shave my hair there is this deep connection I have formed, like a reminder of why I am here, what I am doing and that I will do this till it is done, to walk my process and to change myself and rebirth myself as life and to within this process accumulate global change with everyone else that takes on this active journey together one and equal.

So now, back then when I was fist bald, I really got used to it and it was way more practical for daily living and just better I have found, which I enjoyed a lot, but there was now dozens of other people around the world with Desteni that has made the same stance and commitment within shaving their hair, some only did it to get over it and face some real deep shit attached to hair, which can be social, family, society I mean hair goes deep within what the human has made out of it, mostly sexuality, and with me starting a business the fear arise within others in my environment (that wasn’t part of Desteni) that me being bald and the reason for it might affect business and what I do.

So I made the decision to grow my hair back and to see if having hair makes a difference, but this decision didn’t compromise my commitment or stance at all. I remained the same. So after 6 months of doing business bald and then a year and a half of doing business with hair, I have found that there was absolutely no difference for me. Because I didn’t change, it was always about whom I am and thus what I do and how I express myself. Even if people did find it interesting or different at first, it was actually an amazing connection point I have found within Business, because NO one forgets me, no one confuses me, and everyone can recognize me from afar, this changed as soon as I grew hair, people found it difficult to make that initial connection and remember me, but I kept going with it, trying to “fit” into the system more, and in fact I fit in so much that I just became one of the system people again.

So, while I was Bald and had a shaved head, people always asked me why are you bald, and I would answer them, saying that I do this as a commitment to self-change and changing the world, plus it is way more practical, and guess what, people LOVE to see other people that is committed and to what lengths one is willing to go to live for something, it shows a certain “character” that isn’t seen much in this world.

Here I am, bald again – I tested out both side of the same coin for myself, I have realized it is always about who I am and how I define and stand within points/challenges – and that people’s reactions is always one and equal to the stance that I have within me as who I am, if I am insecure or feel there is something to hide or to not get people’s attention to something that I have judged as Bad, then that is exactly what people will do, If I see myself standing in a group that is global and having a shaved head with dozens of others for the same principle as bad, or cultist, guess what, that is what it becomes and shows me that I am not clear within myself and that I haven absolutely taken a stance. This is the principle of the universe, oneness and equality, and this isn’t about image and looks, that’s not what the universe stand one and equal to, but with the substance of everything here and how we are using/directing the substance as ourselves within ourselves.

This is my experience within the point, I have tested all things within this point and keeping what is best for all life, including myself to be at my utmost potential.

This was an interesting test for myself to see and realize I am the source, the master, the creator and as long as I give the system power over me, then that is what I will create and manifest (bad things), if I accept and allow the system to over throw my stance within who I am as standing as Life as what is best for all, even in the slightest reason/justification and not standing, then the system continues, I cannot con the system as long as I am conning myself, deceiving myself, living in perceptions and ideas of society.

Self-Honesty

If you can be bald and make/create it to affect your reality in a way that is best for all, Do so, take the stance, go baldly where no one has gone before. It is what I/you make of it - but be self-honest about your decision, which one ever it is.

Side note: All the women and men in the world should go bald – this way we can really get men and women on a “equal” eye view, wouldn’t that be interesting, how will men change towards women and women toward men? By removing a major part of the image for real, of the mind, and lets deal with each other as BEINGS, not things – and of course dress the same (most practical clothing for both human forms that is the same). Real empowerment. Love the person for who they are and not how they look, putting that saying into practical living application globally. - See more at: http://gianjourneytolife.blogspot.co.za ... VLm63.dpuf

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Day 549 – Mother

Postby Gian » 05 Jan 2016, 23:45

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto the Mother construct within me as me being a child that belongs to another person, seeing and realizing that this mother construct within me and wanting to hold onto the idea that I belong to another person is keeping me form being my own person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my mother is more special than any other mothers in this world, and thus within this believe praise my mother and make me “special” and more than other children, creating and continuing the inequality within this world as ego and self-interest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear letting go of the mother construct within me as I fear that I will lose something of myself, seeing and realizing that I cannot possibly lose my mother unless I have self-interest points invested within her that only serves me and my will as the ego.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that the love a mother and a child proclaim for one another ha got nothing to do with one another within this world as it is purely self-interest driven for survival and money in a world where fear drives everything, and as one can see within placing oneself within a perfect world where all is equally taken care of and has a guaranteed life of dignity on this planet that mothers and fathers and children will suddenly have no worries of fears of letting go of each other and living their own lives.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself within making myself believe that a mothers love for a child has to be an emotional one, where the mother and child can manipulate each other and make sure each one is surviving in this world by leaching off one another, through using a secret system of debt, where the mother gave everything and now later on the child owns the mother everything, seeing and realizing that such emotional relationships is a disease of the current world system that forces people to be leaches for the sake of survival.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not forgive my mother in her innocence in the sense that this world makes no sense and to within such a world create relationships of nonsense that isn’t best for all in common sense.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that for me to take on and stand within this world that I require to keep such relationships on the emotional level with my parents for the sake of a safety net, seeing and realizing that keeping such a safety net is simply holding me back as there is a back door, knowing that if I keep an emotional relationship with my mother that she will still benefit from me as being her son as I am feeding her some sort of energy and thus she will at any time catch me when I fall, thus already creating the fall, yet seeing and realizing that a clear physical communication relationship within common sense can be established and kept, as such a relationship will be equal and one to all other relationships that is best for all life, and to stop the mind games once and for all and for each one to face themselves sooner than later till it is too late and we have sucked the life out of life and no one stood up for life as reality was/is still being kept in a veil for survival.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize the facts/truth of what is here, we all die and after death no one is someone’s family or friends and that we are all one and equal and thus must already be walked this life and to not have to face the shame and regret in the afterlife for only protecting and keeping save one’s own “blood” and disregarding all other life as your entire family, on your home planet called earth, just for some emotional relationships that is kept in place for self-interest and to survive till death. - See more at: http://gianjourneytolife.blogspot.co.za ... gJ2gA.dpuf

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Day 550 - The deception within spirit science posts Part 1

Postby Gian » 07 Jan 2016, 00:29

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This blog is to start showing the deception within spirit science posts and Guidepost of light posts and name them all, you have seen them going around the internet, being shared and liked and easily being agreed to, and what is being promoted, for today’s blog I will take this picture above which says ‘ Sometimes, it feels better not to talk. At all. About anything. To anyone – it uses just the right word, “sometimes” which is already a mind justification, which means a person that see this post on Facebook will probably now trust what Spirit science has posted as true, because they could agree with it according to how they feel/felt, and thus a person that has now agreed to it, will now subconsciously implement such behavior into their life, and it will be implemented in such a way where it fits the persons self-interest best, and not the best interest of all, because no one understand how the mind works, so it’s a big problem to promote “thinking” to the human race while not understanding how thinking works and how people respond to this.

And then it uses the word “Feels” – to manipulate people to agree, because everyone “feels” and we are subject to words and how they make us feel in moments, so with sometimes and Feel, the post created a feeling within the viewer, and thus making the viewer believe it is their choice to agree to this post, avoiding common sense and self-honesty completely, the post give NO point of understanding, which shows it is literally feeding of the viewer’s emotional body as the mind consciousness systems – but what the person agrees to comes after the feeling has already been created, and that is – not to talk. At all. About anything. To anyone – thus a point of separation, distancing from others have been created, which is a good point in the minds of people, because we have such conflictual relationships with ourselves and thus communicating with others it isn’t the best thing most of the time, it is better to avoid and to remain the same, to not face reality and most of all the reality of ourselves, thus actually prolonging this process of changing the world, starting with ourselves.

And the fact that this post is so short and yet so effective is because it is running on opinions, believes and ideas, and not based on actual common sense, which again shows how easy it is to catch people in the web of CONsciousness and to keep them where they are, making something sound good is a bonus.

Why does such a simple and short saying with a picture get almost 7000 likes and about 21 500 shares?

Because it confirms one thing, it is in support of the mind, there is NO common sense presented and NO self-honesty within such a saying, it is feeding off how people are “feeling” and thus only confirming such feelings to be valid, thus leaving people to be slaves to how they feel, as a creation of the mind consciousness system. No self-movement, no principles that one stand by and that one base decisions and actions upon, just moods and feelings/emotions that is being validated and lived by.

Let me go a bit deeper – for those that are walking with Desteni you will understand what I am saying, for those that are not, here is a bit more perspective and common sense and to be Honest with oneself, which means, when we experience something and we express that experience, that feeling/emotion or thought, we are being honest. Self-honesty is to be aware of self as the Universe as LIFE here, considering all life, and thus within this point realize that one is in fact one and equal to all life and thus responsible in fact for what exist here as life currently as OUR creation, and that thoughts/feelings and emotions aren’t who we really are, because, where do they come from? And that the world as it exist now is a direct result of who we are right now, existing as consciousness, as thoughts, feelings and emotions – and thus the problem is what we each individually exist as right now, which is consciousness and thus the thoughts, feelings and emotions are the problem, because we are following these things inside of us with NO understanding or clue where they come from, how they are created and why, and we have NO clue what the consequences will be in the long run in all possible play outs through simply following what we experience within us as thoughts/feelings and emotions.

So if one gets that, then it should be clear why spirit science isn’t presenting any common sense or self-honesty, it is simply stimulating consciousness, it is propelling consciousness as thoughts/feelings and emotions, keeping people right where they are and not promoting actual change. And how do you know it isn’t promoting a solution, because it sounds dame good, in a world that is fucked up, in a world that is dying, it isn’t showing the truth, it isn’t revealing reality as it is right now for earth as a whole, it is targeting the elite of the world, those that can agree with them without having to do any effort, it is a convenient truth, which shows it’s a problem already.

The world needs a reality check, the world needs common sense, self-honesty and people that walk by principles that is best for all life, the world needs people that are putting effort into questioning everything and keeping what is Best for all LIFE and standing by that, people with integrity and determination to change themselves first and the world, people that are daily in each breath focusing on educating themselves and learning how the mind works, how is it that we are ticking the way we are, and to change that, to stop the organic robot and rebirth self as LIFE, the earth needs humans that put aside time every day to speak and write and to stand together with all those that is doing the same, with these people coming together as normal citizens and rising above and about for LIFE, creating a world that is best for all, not people just liking and sharing positive messages and sounding positive, how is that helping anyone when the reality of what is here is ignored through good sounding post/blogs/videos.

This group already exist, it is Detseni and I am a Destonian, Join us and walk the truth of what is HERE, that which has been denial for far too long and time is running out. - See more at: http://gianjourneytolife.blogspot.co.za ... J7NEz.dpuf

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Day 551 - Postponement Continued

Postby Gian » 14 Jan 2016, 23:43

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as postponement, within the believe that today isn't the right time, that the right time isn't here, and to within this seeing for the right time, wait till tomorrow, or the day after, and to within this keep on postponing in the hope for the right time to show up, the right moment.

Forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to postpone doing a blog just because it is already a certain time of the day, to late or to early and to within this tell myself that tomorrow I will do two blogs to make up for this, and when tomorrow comes, the same pattern occurs, the same thought, the same reasons.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to postpone doing vlogs, that I have been jurning to do, waiting for the right time, the right atmosphere, the right light, and to within this make my actions, my participation dependent on the environment and hoping that the environment will magically just fit in with my schedule in my mind, instead of actually scheduling and making the right time, creating the environment through communication, through planning to do the vlogs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use justifications/reasons within my life to why I am postponing certain changes, changes within myself, within the believe that I am not ready yet, I cannot do this yet, I am not capable yet, I am not good enough, I am not smart enough, I do not deserve this change, mostly the time isn't right, the moment isn't right, I might as well remain the same for just today, tomorrow I will change, seeing and realizing that within this point of postponement there exist no such thing as the right time, moment or place, it is all about me making decisions and living those decision, either bets for myself and all or not, and If I continue to postpone I will continue to remain the same - and there will never be a right moment/time, I will never be ready or be perfect to change, it must be done in the moment here and walk it, regardless of what the mind has to say, remain breathing in and as the physical and use the physical as the real cross reference

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am going into the mind regarding doing something that is HERE, like doing a blog/vlog, to stop and to breathe, to rather check my reality, ask around if I can do it or set up reality to do it after considering everything, now, check my schedule, and to then base my decision on what is HERE and not within the mind, I create my options, I make my time, I plan things, instead of throwing rocks in the bush thinking something will come out of it.

I commit myself to when and as I see a moment of change, to speak up, to stand, to direct or to intervene, or to be quite, to Stop and breathe, to check myself physically here and what is here, to not go into the mind as the reasons/excuses/justification for why I should or should not and to instead rely on the physical and to direct and move myself as the physical. - See more at: http://gianjourneytolife.blogspot.co.za ... SLhKN.dpuf

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Day 552 - What is real and what is possible? Questioning the so called facts for myself of myself - See more at: http://

Postby Gian » 21 Jan 2016, 22:26

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The believes we have accepted as facts are the ones that becomes the facts. we fight for them, we reason for them, we make them logical, we create what is HERE and what is possible or impossible in FACTS!! so consider that if we can do that, then we must know anything truly is possible, even if it makes things in fact impossible just because we believe it, live it, breath it - in the beginning was the word and the word was with god and the word became flesh

I am sitting my chair, I have coffee on my table, and I have earphones in my ears listening to some interviews. My son is sleeping on the bed, he woke us up at 4:45am this morning, and we climbed out of bed at 5:15 am, we went to sleep at 1am, so here I am at 9:27Pm at night, a whole day of work behind me, or with me here. I experience my eyes tired and my body feels heavy, yet I am awake, I know most of my tiredness is within the Idea of time and space, what I have gone through today, plus yesterday, and the day before, no rest, not really, I haven’t had a deep sleep in about two years’ time. The tiredness is all in the mind, I just proved it to myself just now, I took one breath and I am here.

How does that work? Why didn’t I do that earlier? What did I gain from remaining in the mind in a state of tiredness most fo the day, yes I was able to subtly manipulate my reality and have something to say to people every now and then and somehow attach what I say to my physical experience, my body to express what I am saying, to show and live what I am saying, just saying the word Tired and using it I must live it, why else would I use it or say it to someone else? Because I am tired? Or am I tired because I keep thinking it and holding this massive long timeline of my entire life inside me, inside my mind to justify why I am using and thus living the word tiredness. What is the Purpose? If I can simply not be tired yet do everything I do and more, why do I fear that aspect.

Why do I take events/moment and accumulate them into every other single moment? Is it a choice of my body? Or is it the believe that my body functions that way? Who taught me it works that way with my body, I mean I am telling my body or expecting my body to be a certain way after doing things and how long I have done them or what things I am doing, so is it really the experience of my body getting tired, or did I just place that condition. Perhaps to control my reality through limiting my body according to the mind’s desires and wants? To survive and just continue to consume energy internally, limiting the unlimited energy as LIFE to be accessible to express oneself within all possibilities. Yes here I am referring to what your mind do not want to look at or see. Like walking on water, flying even, walking through walls, teleporting, telekinesis, not needing food to live, walking through fire, melting ice by walking bare foot over it, I mean the body is here connected to all as LIFE, as the substance of life, real life energy, and thus the body can change, the body is like water, it manifests and crystallizes as we believe/do – but not as the pre-programmed mind exist currently, the mind is the limitation in itself. There are some people in this world that has accessed some of these abilities; they have done it, like the Ice man guy. Bruce lee went the extra mile, not to mention Jesus or the Masters of the Far East.

What if I had no thoughts and truly lived with and as the body? What will the possibilities be then, what will be real then, and here I am just talking about the natural state of the body, what if I develop my body from this natural state to actually evolve, to create and develop abilities that is Physical and beyond the mind – the mind can only exist inside itself, the physical body can exist here as all that is here in and as the physical, that which is real, thus nothing is impossible – Everything is possible.
I write this to just give myself a moment to consider how far I still have to walk my process and to develop myself in and as the physical and to actually understand the physical, Stars are made from dust, I am made from dust – The universe exist and I am here, why am I limited? Why have I accepted and allowed the impossible to exist within and as me, the disbelieve of the physical and to submit into the Logic and laws of the mind that keeps one enslaved to the mind to only believe the things of the mind, the physical and what is truly possible can only be lived, the mind cannot comprehend.

And Here I am struggling with tiredness at 9:48PM on a Thursday Night, Oh wait, I am not tired anymore, I took one breath and allowed the body to decide, and the body isn’t tired. But my mind wants ITS own time, the mind cannot function as effective and as long as the physical body, it is like a generator, at some point it needs a lot of off time from over working and refilling multiple times a day if used. The mind is Mining the physical, so our bodies has to first go through repair mode, Self-forgiveness as the Delete Button of the Organic robot. - See more at: http://gianjourneytolife.blogspot.co.za ... PRcgd.dpuf

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Day 553 – Bernard’s Death and what I supressed, out now

Postby Gian » 27 Jan 2016, 02:38

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This blog might come as random, maybe it has been in the thoughts of many – so I am just sharing for the sake of sharing and information.

I have to share the following story which I have been denying and suppressing for a long time, since Bernard Poolmans death back in 2013.

I am writing this to get it out in the open, it isn’t a secret or something to hide or to be shy about. In fact I see it as a strengthening point, a self-empowering point. As I have never shared this with anyone except my partner, but only about 2 months ago, when it came pouring out of me as a long term suppression and a denial. I also resisted looking at this point and admitting that it has in deed affected me, and what we resist persist. So let me begin sharing.

How much I have placed on Bernard, only revealed after his death.

I was eighteen years old when my Father brought me to the Desteni farm to work here and to do Process, due to my parents being long term friends with Bernard Poolman and we/I was familiar with process, and I specifically wanted to come to join and walk my process and be part of changing this world, but first I had to and still have to walk a very long process while bringing solutions to this world (all at the same times) – where Desteni in itself is the solution really.

So at 18 years of age, quite a young age, and I must admit not very mature, even after many years of education in the system, surprisingly no real maturity took place, just ego. (Which I am only now able to see), I came to the farm. BUT, even before I lived on the farm I always saw Bernard throughout my life as a mentor, as someone I really looked up to, I deeply respected Bernard and saw him as my Teacher in everything and anything, from whom I will learn and listen and apply and change and take advise and with whom I could ask anything and share anything and the advice would always be exactly what I needed, not what I wanted per say, but it changed my life, it changed everything about me, the fabric of my beingness changed, my thinking lessened, and my living and doing and common sense expanded, I actually matured. This was all on a personal level and within a personal capacity.

Bernard always had direction, no matter what, Bernard always moved things, he always had a goal and nothing will stop him from reaching that goal, which was clear in each and every breath he took – creating heaven on earth for all living beings, all life. Within This Bernard focused on people, because he truly as himself understood that people are the system, people are the ones that must change, people are the ones that must bring change, and within focusing on people Bernard pushed people into directions for world change, change that would be best for all life, and how he pushed people, how he guided people, how he did those things were amazing, we had so many global points opening up and emerging within a year and a half since the farm started, we had courses, we had interviews/videos/vlogs/articles/blogs, we had new ways for politics and economics, we had set up multiple websites and we were moving like a rocket, we were growing, we were reaching people and we were really getting out there.

At the same time, we had dozens of people from all over the world visiting the farm, we had so much fun and really awesome discussions, we were talking and socializing and we were learning human nature, we were building/gardening and cleaning up, taking care of the land and nature and using our hands and learning to breath and be HERE and support one another, and we were learning a new way of LIFE that is possible for all right here on the Desteni Farm and thus the world if only we dared, Bernard showed so many people what could be possible, what life for all could be, as heaven on earth, obviously after we all worked with each other on points and possessions and limitations and pushing through the matrixes of the mind consciousness system, which isn’t always nice, but afterwards it is, as we walk self-forgiveness and forgiveness.

Things were looking great, even though we had haters/trolls, which are the first signs of success/succeeding – as they say jealousy is nasty, even though some of them were hired to deliberately sabotage us, which showed our effectiveness, fear is always the weapon of mass destruction - divide and conquer. We had system attacks and we walked through those quite nicely, newspapers attacking us, people attacking us, it always felt like the universe being re-aligned, which is what was happening - Obviously with Bernard in the front line.

We were already looking at expanding Desteni, getting bigger facilities and getting more people within the Desteni group to come over and do research and development, to implement systems and to test them out, where we could take the science currently in this world that is bias and actually do the tests ourselves and have unbiased results that is best for all life, where we would test out self-sustainability commuinty living, off the grid for real and real time, where we could take social science and psychology and everything that needs to be researched and to find solutions to, to bring about real actual change in this world – real time after people have walked the courses first, specifically the how’s and whys and where’s etc, but only with Desteni can we find real solutions as it is always done from the starting point of what is best for all life, not about who is right or who is wrong, who can make money and who won’t, we had support and support was coming in/growing (during those times) - and yet again, relying on Bernard.

Bernard’s presence removed fear and always embraced that point of you can believe in yourself, you can do this, confidence, in a much grounded real practical no bullshit way.

For years, Bernard told me over and over, I want you right next to me, not in front of me or behind me, right next to me walking equally, I do not want followers, if you are a follower, then you can go find yourself a positive thinking group or a spiritual group, or a guru, or a religion.
Then Bernard Died.

Desteni is failing, we are not going to make it anymore, everyone is going to scatter, and people will be back on the fence sitting, these were my first thoughts and that continued for a while after Bernard's death, with visitors on the farm and thousands of people out there in the world that was kind of just following Bernard in the back ground (those that never showed their faces or stood with openly), without Bernard it is like losing the head, because the first response of Bernard’s Death was fear instead of walking equally next to him, I admit I was following, yet trying/attempting to walk next to Bernard, but it was so much more convenient to just let someone else do it, to not have to stand as that absolute point without choice, without having excuses and reasons to only do it half way. (obviously over time the opposite of what was happening in my mind took place physically, Desteni is standing strong because of the people that are actually walking their process and standing by principle, which proves what is real over time)

So for the past 2 years since Bernard’s death, there has been an ominous feeling within me, a resonant point of everyone is seeking that confidence, that trust, that drive, the direction and movement that Bernard had, that he created as himself, that push and trusting that push, the common sense and self-honesty, and where one can always see and cross reference within everything Bernard said and do and that is was aligned within what is best for all life, as It always included and considered all life – but it just wasn't there without Bernard. it was US, we all had to find our feet and everything Bernard stood as and did as ourselves.

Almost 8 years ago, I was asked if I am willing to give up my life for the purpose of bringing forth equality and oneness, this meant committing myself to the Farm/Desteni 100%, and that there will be NO future for me in the system, as this is and will be the only way to push and do what is required to be done to bring forth actual change, as the farm is the central point, the volcano of the Desteni message, The home base for all Destonians that has proven and shown their commitment, to come and to unplug for a while, and to push their process a bit further with each visit, and to take part in all the activities and see what it means to live as a Destonian in each moment, to learn from one another, exchange skills and abilities, to take that back home as a upgrade so to say, or enhance, where questions can be answered and lovely discussions can take place. And obviously where we develop programs/course and do research real time if resources allow us and the websites and the home of the portal, and where most of the support comes form to all the people out there and which is expected to become much more in the near future (2016 onward), this means working with people one on one in chats, their assignments, daily support and assistance (which takes hours) where we in the future with a bigger farm will start, and first of all, be able to do so much more, the more the support is for Desteni, and thus need more people here at home base to do the things. BUt again, we were hopeing Bernard would be here to take care of it all.

So after Bernard gave me the layout of what’s involved within committing myself to living/working and creating on the Desteni farm, and I agreed and committed myself – it was all done within the Idea that Bernard will be here till this is done, till we have created all the amazing and awesome future points that we were busy laying out and developing to change this world, to implement the points, to push the points, to get it done and moving.

Plus, my partner and I were expecting a baby, really planting ourselves into the Desteni farm as a full on commitment and that this will be done, this will work out, there is no failure possible, because we have Bernard, or now it is a “had Bernard”.

So here was (2 years ago after Bernard death) – a child coming, I put my everything in the committing of myself to do this till it is done by giving up all and any possible future in the system, safety/security – as my life literally depends on the self-honesty of others, how they walk their process and of course how the group grows, which is all kind of scary without Bernard. (2 years ago feeling)

So I have seen the death of Bernard as a failure, to an extent I have failed, I didn’t walk one and equal next to Bernard, I was always one foot behind him deliberately, I didn’t give myself that chance, I didn’t stand up from the comfort zone, I didn’t push through my insecurities and my limitations and I allowed thoughts and the mind to be my director, my story writer, while Bernard was here, and for this Bernard had to remove himself to literally live by what he stood as – oneness and equality, always doing what is best for all life, and because most if not everyone was following, he had to remove himself/die – and once Bernard died – I had to step out of all those things I was holding onto and till today I am still pushing through them all and standing, and the commitment never changed. I will stand and do this till it is done, even if I am still figuring things out, I stand by Principle, by what is Bets for all life in all ways . Bernard made it very clear to me, what it will mean to commit myself Full time on the Desteni farm, and I made this decision from within me as myself and I never once blamed Bernard or ever held anything against him. I can only thank him and keep moving forward.

It was like, the Plan died and those that were building and making the plan real in different parts of the same plan was left behind, and now all the parts have to come together and see what was the plan, the big plan that Bernard had, and I am only now realizing that the big plans has always been here, we simply had to stand up and move it as ourselves and to even change and create more ways, which we are obviously doing currently. but I find it supportive to see what I have placed on Bernard and to take it back to myself. to equalize myself and start standing, moving, directing.

I must however apply self-forgiveness and take back my self-responsibility for all the things I placed on Bernard as what needed and as going to be done, so that I can take full force on what is HERE and push and direct it as myself working with what is HERE and letting go of the past.
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Day 554 - Self-Forgiveness

Postby Gian » 03 Feb 2016, 23:37

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give attention to everything about me that is wrong and sinful except me that is LIFE one and equal.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be of SIN, even though I wasn’t born in sin, and to have given all my attention and focus throughout my life to the sins, and to within giving sin all of my attention I have limited and created myself according to sin, an imperfect human.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek out the positive within life, where I see and realize that the positive I seek out in life is only confirming the negative within me, the sinful me, so I see and I realize that if I am seeking anything positive as an energy then I am seeing to make up for something within me that I have judged myself as being bad/negative as sin.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself a stupid.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as physically inferior to others.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as useless.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as immature.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as all my fears.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as my big good looking smile.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for my great personality.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for being a good person.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a person with good intensions.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a person with courage.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself a s responsible person.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a respectable person.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a unique person.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself a as good partner in relationships.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a good citizen.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a perfect son to my parents.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as a special human being in the eyes of others.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a product of this world.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a stubborn person.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as an egoistic person.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as incompetent.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a personality.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself according to this world I live in.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself according to my name and what has been attached to my name as “me”.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the flesh that I walk and breathe in.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as an animal activist and lover.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself a sa world changer.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as lazy.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a sex addict.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge sex.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as alcohol.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as drugs.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as eating.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as people.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for enjoying food.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge food as enjoyment.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge water.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as water as just being here and that I do not need to drink it nessasarely, there are other things to drink.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as healthy.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as unhealthy.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge LIFE.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place life in a judgment of my mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the fear of LIFE.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as separate from and of LIFE.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge self-forgiveness in all possible ways, not positive or negative.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the LAW.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as THE law of the system.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Judge the legal system of the world.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge judgments.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as limitation.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as not having limitations.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a father.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a parent to a child.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a partner to another human being.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a family guy.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as family.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a good family guy.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a bad family member.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a good father.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a bad father.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a bad member of the community.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a good member of the community.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as music.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as good music.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as good or bad music.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge bad music.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge music as me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the physical.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as all that is here as the physical.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as energy.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the mind consciousness systems.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the conscious mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the sub-conscious mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the unconscious mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as not yet understanding the science of life one and equal as how the physical functions.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the separation that I exist as still within this life from and of life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for not standing one and equal in fact with all life YET.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the bad or good decisions I have made in life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the decisions I make in life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as poverty.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as starvation.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the cruel and evil shit that exist within this world.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as my breathing.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as war.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as racism.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as crime.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as inhumane acts.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as spirituality.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as GID.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as religion.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as love and light.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as peace.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as my penis.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as vaginas.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as separate from what is HERE.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as better than others.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than others.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as possessions.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as my internal reality.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as my parents.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as my siblings.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as my skin color.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as my nose.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as my hair.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as nature.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as gossiping.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as gangsters.
IForgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as corruption
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as insecurities.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as other peoples actions
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as all forms upon the face of the earth.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as all the materialistic things that the mind has created within this world as distractions and entertainment.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as all entertainment that exit.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as all the feelings and emotions and thoughts that come up within entertainment within this world.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as all desire that exist within all humans and within this world as materialistic designs.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself AS a control freak
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a nagging person
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a needy person
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a restless person
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a stable person.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a person who can be trusted
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as someone that can be trusted
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a person that cannot be trusted.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as someone that must be respected
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as someone that respects others.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as someone that has honour.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as someone that honors others.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as someone that is reliable.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as someone that can be relied on.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as someone that can rely on others.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as inferior to others.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as superior to others.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as inferior to life and the creations of the world that exist here.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as being superior to other life forms within this world.
To be Continued.

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Day 557 - Deepak Chopra and Imagination

Postby Gian » 09 Feb 2016, 03:22

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I do not know if it is appropriate for me to Debunk someone such as Deepak Chopra that has been on the scene of “spiritual people” for many many years and has helped many people I am sure of it, but I am also sure that the solutions are only temporary and not permanent, if they were then Deepak would have had less Clients, he is a great salesmen, he sure did his homework well and practiced his work in a way that targets the right people, people that are serious about changing themselves and for example their destructive natures, but unfortunately Deepak Chopra still doesn’t understand the most basic and simple aspects of life, and this is revealed in his words, I am referring to his simple words that is placed in quotes and send all around the internet to get people’s attention . What are these simple and basic aspects of Life I am talking about? Well it is common sense and self-honesty.

But for today I am only going to take on Deepak Chopra in my blog on the following quote (also the picture used in this Blog) quote: “the best use of imagination is creativity. The worst use of imagination is anxiety” – end of quote

So what Did Deepak do here? Did he really just say something profound and that is amazing? No, he simply mentioned two polarities of the same construct, what is the construct? Well the energy of and from the MIND – as in this case Imagination. Yes sure to almost all people on earth this is “normal” to have polarities and to rather take part on/live the positive part of the energies to apparently create something positive. But here comes the part most people do not know or understand as to why this isn’t a solution and in fact enhancing the problems people are facing.

See Deepak in this quote is attempting to help people get over anxiety, but what he does not understand is that anxiety is energy of the mind, just like creative energy of the imagination, both are the exact energy just placed in a different light, and the point here is, the mind is the problem first and foremost. The mind is meant to be stopped, so that we can reach our beingness and true expressions. But as long as we are contaminating ourselves with the influences of the mind as positive and negative, we will always be stuck in polarities, moving from one side of being positive to negative, and as we all know, negativity usually wins, that is why we are always seeking out the positive.

So if we had to live what Deepak Chopra is suggesting, using our imagination for creative thoughts or imaginings to not go into anxiety or stress or fear – we are not dealing with the fear/stress/anxiety – in fact we are suppressing it and accumulating more and more while being unaware and being blinded by positive pictures and thoughts running through our minds, so this creative imagination will only last a while and then we will experience all the negative shit again, and actually as if it got more.

Another point to consider and that you can cross reference for yourself is, when you are in a “positive” state or attempting to only imagine creativity and good things, ANYTHING in your day will quickly put you down into a negative, may it be someone looking at you wrong, because when you are attempting to be so creative and positive in a world that is clearly in a state of doom, you are attempting to be more than reality, not being real with yourself, and thus a person/you can become very reactive and these reactions can either go internal or external , some get depressed and some get really angry for example.

Now to go one more step further – what is another point that is completely missed with Deepak Chopra – he tells you that for example “the worse use of imagination is anxiety” but he does not explain in detail what is anxiety, how do we create anxiety, when anxiety comes up what is it indicating, how can we take anxiety in any given moment and instead of resisting it or fighting it or going into the “positive” instead but that we can rather take our power as creators and we can take responsibility for our creation as the anxiety within us and understand our creation – for example anxiety is the indication that you are about to follow the same pattern that isn’t best for you or where you always fall or haven’t yet established who you are within your reality within certain situations and that you haven’t investigated and taken the time to check all your patterns and why you are repeating them over and over again and not changing, what is the ENERGY inside the anxiety that we seek through repeating patterns over and over without changing ourselves, how do we change ourselves etc. I am not going to give all the answers here; I am simply opening up the points to each one reading this to check for yourself.

Imagination is anxiety, no matter if we are doing it positively or negatively, the mind always seeks to enslave a person to energy to keep us trapped in the mind as imagination, never to stand up and realEYES ourselves as LIFE one and equal, that we were born perfect beings without the need of imagination but to simply participate here direct as ourselves as our creative natures and to develop upon them.

Finishing off: You are Born into this world as a child, you had no imagination, you had no mind, you had no thoughts, you had no memories, you had nothing inside your head, yet, just look at a baby/toddler/child – the pure expressions, the living, the energy of the physical body, the beingness, no fear, the pure expressions – you can’t remember your first three years because you weren’t contaminated yet with the “mind” as consciousness, yet you expressed, you lived. You were more alive than now – so ask yourself, how did I get here?

There is a very long and hard process for everyone in this world – the Process of Rebirth. And Desteni is the only group of people in this world that has actually taken the time to really investigate everything and to come to real solutions, how to end addiction, fears, destructive patterns/behaviors and how to become the creator of your life and to rebirth yourself as LIFE in fact.

If you are reading this and you are serious, if you could see the common sense and be self-honest with yourself about what I wrote. Then the next level is here for you.

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Day 559 - Dealing with a lot of information.

Postby Gian » 16 Feb 2016, 23:32

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dealing with a lot of information and to keep my head together within looking at a lot of information and to consider all the points within looking at a lot of information and to not go into an emotional overload when and as I perceive information to be too much for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into an emotional “overload” within me as a feeling of I just can’t, it is too much for me to take in and to remember, to consider all the points and to remain in common sense and looking at things within practicality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up within me when and as I am reading a lot of information within the emotional feeling of this is too much for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the back chat of “this is too much for me” to exist within and as me as a self-limiting definition that I have placed upon myself through past events.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as separate from ALL information that exist here within and as all life and that thus Life is too much for me to take in and to understand what is HERE.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to consider that I am here as LIFE and thus all information that exist here Is me in fact and that I am not separate from it, and thus when I am introduced to new words and to new amounts of information that I am not simply forcing information into me as something that is separate from me that now takes a lot of space within me, but that I am simply re-activating what exist within and as me HERE already and thus I do not need to use memory as me more lies, but that I can in trusting myself be here and as myself be the information one and equal.

Memory
Being introduced to contracts for the first time in my life.

I was 18 years old, and I just got my first job, for this job I had to sign a contract, which meant me taking a contract home and reading everything and then eventually go back to work with this contract and then agree to it and sign it. but as I was sitting at home with this contract, knowing I have to first of all give up my “relaxing time” to go through it, which was quite a lot of pages, I resisted reading it, but I picked it up and I looked at the front [age and with reading everything on the front page I already had no clue what was being stated, I then went into the believe that if I read the second page it might make more sense, but it turned out to just confuse me even more, first of all I had no clue what the words meant, and secondly I could not place the words next to each other to attempt to see if that will explain the words and tell me something. But It didn’t. so I put the contact down and I just felt completely lost, only reading two pages. After a while I built up some courage to give it another try, and I started reading everything no matter how much I didn’t get or understood, and after I was done I had a head ache, my head felt violated, and I still had no clue, I could only assume things all the way.

I ended up not taking the job and just went to be a waiter, as that didn’t require for me to understand anything or to consider anything while I work. I defined myself as simple and more of a “practical” guy that works with my hands. This then became a life time of living in limitations, as I feared that same moment taking place and facing so much information and not being able to comprehend it and thus act on it accordingly, and thus fearing making mistakes and creating consequences that I have no idea how to deal with.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to past events.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take one moment in time, from the past and how I experienced myself in that moment facing having to deal with a lot of information that was also unfamiliar to me in that moment and to place it onto all possible future events/play out and to live my life in such a way where I make decision where I can avoid having to face such events again just not to have to experience myself the same way I did in the past, and thus never giving myself the chance to grow and expand and to give my live more possibilities.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live and make decision within my life where everything I do such as positions I take within my life requires the bare minimal from me where I simply have to use my body as a tool for labor and where reading and dealing with information is minimal, and thus never really taking responsibility for myself or this reality as I am and will always miss the necessary information through my deliberate character that I have created for myself and have identified myself with others to be of “lack” and not “able” to as a form of manipulation to not have to really give myself the ABILITY to respond in regards to what is here within this world as me and to change myself and the world one and equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place “information” out there as my authority, may it be a person speaking the information or books containing the information and thus within this make and give Authority to those books and People over me and my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the continuous resistance to exist within me throughout many years to a point where it has become normal and just an automatic behavior within me as who I am to live in avoidance naturally towards having to face information.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the believe of “information” being more than me to become natural and normal within me to never challenge this point and to push beyond this point for me, for myself and to bring actual ral change to myself within this world. - See more at: http://gianjourneytolife.blogspot.co.za ... KhD8P.dpuf

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Day 560 – Good day Racism

Postby Gian » 20 Feb 2016, 01:23

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Today I had an interesting moment, I went to visit a family and to help their children within Education in a town that is quite far away and in the middle of nowhere, well the middle of nowhere for me.
After my appointment which lasted a couple of hours, I was thirsty and hungry, so I went to stop at the “mall” if that is what we can call this place I stopped at.

There were a couple of shops and restaurants. I went to the shop and ordered myself a small Pizza and something to drink, the lady at the counter said that it will take about 15min before the pizza is ready. So I decided to go for a walk.

Now, just to give you a bit more of picture of where I am, about 99.99% of all the people in this town aren’t white people, predominantly black.

Since I have walked my Desteni Process for many years now, I inside of myself have no thoughts, no back chat or any kind of movement within me of “I am white” or “they are Black” – all I have inside of me when I am among humans is that we are all humans, here. Obviously through a lot of Self forgiveness and breathing I was able to remove pre-programming and brainwashing that forms voices and shit in our head that apparently we have to fear one another due to some differences.

So here I am walking, not even halfway into my walk I already had two people coming to me and say “ sir, white man, I want some food, some money” and I wasn’t even the person that looked like I have money, compared to the other people there, but because I am white I am asked as the one guy told me to face - I breathed and I stopped any thought or emotion in the one breathe and I looked at the perosn and said, sorry, I have nothing for you, we must fix this system for everyone to always have money (investigate livingincome.me) , but it does not occur to me in my conversations with people that they are black or white or brown and I am white, to me it is always simple, what is this person saying/doing, and not what is this “race” saying and doing in relation to me as my race– and I didn’t have anything to give them.

So in the crowds of people someone is suddenly waving at me, a person that is coming towards my direction, I took a look and I saw this person is giving me a smile and a wave, like he knows me, for a split second I picked my hand up to wave back, but then it clicked, this guy is white and he is waving at me ONLY because I am white (we were the only two white people there, so how obvious was this wave?)– so I did not pick up my hand fully to wave at him, Because I saw in that moment how racist it is what he was doing, he was literally only greeting me, and only because I am white, I didn’t see him greet anyone else the same way, and I certainly haven’t been waiving at every single person around me just to be friendly, so how would this have looked like If I waved at this total stranger just because he is white, but I am not doing the same for any of the other people around me, so I once again took a breath, I saw what me waving back would have supported within this persona nd thus within this world, such a small innocent act.

It was fascinating to witness and live this moment and who I am within it, because waving back, and especially in the way and manner of how this guy did it, like he waved at me as if he was seeing an old friend, a family member even and that because this friend, family member is here he can feel saver and not alone, which showed me that he has been living his life in complete separation of all the other human beings that surrounds him and only connecting with his own color of people, I mean that’s a limitation anyone places on themselves, if you are going to be racist your world is very tiny and lonely.
So I corrected myself, I did not wave back in support of this persons stance within society and what he is living out, I promoted equality in the living flesh, the correction, not identifying myself with anyone as their mind’s as who is what and how, and to equalize all humans within me as beings. This way I find it is much easier to breathe and to fucking chill, it is like if you remove yourself from this ridiculous racial bullshit that goes on in this world, inside of yourself, then there is no side one must pick to stand by, there is not “race” that one must support or not just because of the race factor of color and a few physical differences.

But, common sense is still required – even though I stop any racism within me, any discrimination's within me, it does not make it so for others and what they have accepted and allowing within themselves, but stopping it within me I have seen how much less I am prone to the bullshit fights and discord that takes place in the line of racism. Because your behavior changes, your internal reality is what everyone sees, the secret bullshit that goes on within any person is what is being seen on the body as the expressions, no matter how much one pretend, micro expressions gives it all away, the physical communicates with all its parts here as life all the time and that communication is happening on a secret level that only the physical can read and understand, so there is NO point in pretending to not be a racist – keep it simple and real and actually STOP your back-chat, your fucking gossip about others inside of yourself and what you spew out to other people, and get real with what is here as Life and resonate that. - See more at: http://gianjourneytolife.blogspot.co.za ... jia1v.dpuf


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