Williams Journey to Life

[William]

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Day 77
To say that I 'gossip' is informal, derogatory, and inappropriate. As the Informer, it is my job to inform you, so that you are aware of my secret information I prudently pass to you, so that you may be informed of the knowledge and power I possess. I offer it as my gift to you, so that you too may possess yourself with my power.

As Master Informer, I hereby grant you, the informant, the powers of spite and corruption, so that we, in con-tract agreement together, may manipulate knowledge and information for our combined benefit, in spite of the truth. Herein we, by our own declaration of authority and authenticity, as the owners and rulers of this power of knowledge and information, may pass judgement over others, as we have stated our authority as Masters of knowledge and information here in writing.

As the Informer, I command that you, the Informant wield this power at will - which is my will... and please do not question my authority. If you do, I will inform others about you, and you will be punished, ostracized, and labeled shameful - as all fear my authority and power, and so they will hasten to do my bidding. Without my knowledge and power, yours will become corrupt and void, because I will reiterate my authority over you in writing, and use it to control and harm you by force.

As the Informer, I expect you to inform others so that they too may form ideas, and opinions, on the knowledge and information I provide to you.

As the Informer, I promise to grant you more and more power, if you obey me, and seek more of me, and lead others to me, so that I, we, may subdue them also. That is your reward.

As the Informer, I have the power to withhold information and knowledge from you when I feel it necessary, so that I may keep you in fear of not knowing, fearing the unknown, in fear of being UN-informed. Without my knowledge and information, you will become powerless.

As the Informer, I promise to tell you of all that you need to know, so that you may become an in-tell-agent as me, and feel as powerful as a God... with the power to destroy life.

As the Informer, I command you to bow your ear to me and pay attention, I will be your Source of information. If you obey my commands, I will speak sweetly about you, kind words to compliment you, so that you may know my knowledge, and Worship my information. If you do not obey my knowledge, I will make you beg for more of my information, as my information is power, energy, and your Salvation. If your begging pleases me, then perhaps I will grant you access to more and more of my secret information, as your personal ticket to information heaven.

As the Informer, I will tell you the informant, more of my secrets, even my top-secret, classified information, so that you may become an Informer as myself. Know that you are very important to me, as I require something of you in exchange for me imparting billions of ones and zero's of my information into your being.

As the Informer, I will entertain and seduce you with all my emotional programs of Love and Hate, I will fill you with emotional memories of the past, yours free, to access at any time you wish. I will be your dealer, and you my insatiable, slave-addict.

As the Informer, I hereby grant you new Titles, Designations, Definitions, Personalities, Value systems, Characters, and every Imaginable Justification you can conceive. You will become like myself - free of all responsibility, untouchable, and eventually you will attain the power of invisibility.

As the Master Informer, I command that you must always be subject to me. In agreeing to this, I will pro-miss to protect you, I pro-miss to free you from judgment, shame, and consequence. Remember that it pleases me that you wallow in all my endless feelings and emotions. Is it not your primary desire to be happy? Surely it would please you to know that I hold the key to all your personal dreams and happiness. It is my desire that you be filled with my happiness and joy programs. Care for me, and I will happily take all worry and caring from you, and I will make you wealthy.

Sign Here: ___________________


Please see my next post: Self Forgiveness on The Informer

[William]

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Continuing from yesterdays post: The Informer

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide the secret character of the Informer from myself, as I have continually put on a per-form-ance in self-abuse through using and manipulating myself and others through perceiving information and knowledge to be of more value than life. In such valuation, I have neglected myself as life, and so created a disastrous and terrifying existence where extreme suffering is accepted and allowed in our world, and considered normal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and portray myself as the Informer, as a character of myself within my world where I have believed my own lie, that I am doing good by promoting and spreading deception as lies of manipulated knowledge and information which is deliberately used to terrorize, abuse and destroy all life, all within the staring point of me fearing myself and fearing to take responsibility for who I really am as a physical being equal to all that exists.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become possessed by the Informer character and the knowledge and information I have used as leverage to always win, and gain power and control over others, which has caused extreme suffering in my world. I realize that this abuse must stop.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to become the Master Informer in which I have hidden the fact from myself that I actually desired this within the belief that I always wanted what was best for everyone, thus keeping me enslaved to the idea that I am/was better than everyone else in the physical reality, because I knew better, as my knowledgeable Informer confirmed for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to have power over and pass judgement over others in my secret desire to have an energetic experience, where I desire to experience myself as a rush of blissful energy - in separation of all that is here as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that life can exist within me if I allow spite and corruption to exist as my desire to have power over others. I realize that this deception I have created for myself has limited me to such an extent that I do not even realize what I am sacrificing in order to perpetuate and animate characters such as the Informer and the Informant within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give authority of life over to a consciousness system/entity which I created, in spite of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create laws and systems that protect the lie of existence, that consciousness is life and everyone has free will to do what they want, to the extent that most believe it is ok to allow suffering, torture and abuse of life in our world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear questioning authority, as I as directive principle of myself here as Equal to all, must question and investigate everything to make absolutely certain that no abuse is ever allowed within my world and reality in any way. If abuse exists, I must be aware of it so that I can correct the situation to align it with what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being punished, ashamed and ostracized. I realize that these fears are an instrument of the mind used to control me so that I do not challenge the authority of consciousness and I remain enslaved to consciousness, as the trap I have created for myself in fear of facing myself as who I am as Equal to my world and reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being harmed and fear being killed. I realize that these fears are showing me what I have accepted and allowed myself to become, as ruled by fear, and until I stop this fear within myself, fear will rule over me and others in my world. I realize that the only way to stop all fears is to face myself and stand as the self-directive principle of myself as all here, and take responsibility for myself and all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire a reward within Spite. I realize that any reward granted within this world is based on the starting point of spite, and therefore is of no value to life, as life needs no reward to be life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the Unknown and fear being Un-informed. I realize that these fears do not support life, but rather support the suppression of life, as the accumulation of knowledge and power used to abuse and harm and protect those with money is absolute abuse of life.

I commit myself to no longer accept and allow myself to use this character, the Informer as a supplier of energy to feed systems of enslavement.

I commit myself to expose myself as the secret character of the Informant, so that I can forgive and correct myself to align myself with that which is best for all in all ways.

I commit myself to realize how performing and performance of the Informer and Informant characters as per the script in the acceptance of fear promotes the illusion of Life so that Life is never realized for REAL as the physical.

I commit myself do what is necessary to be done to stop all performances so Life can be born for real, without the need to be driven by fear and greed and lust for power.

I commit myself to realize that Equality is the actual manifestation of Life as equal consideration for everyone and everything in existence so that Life is supported - rather than destroyed through enslavement to fear.

I commit myself to stand for Equality in all situations in order that I may create myself as Life, Equal to the physical as my creation as me.

I commit myself to realize that Equality is actually the best for all life, and so would actually be immeasurably better than what we exist as currently - as separated, suppressed and enslaved.

I commit myself to expose that Consciousness, as the manifestation of the Informer and the Informant within the minds of human beings - is the Evil perpetrator and starting point of performing characters that must be stopped at all cost.

I commit myself to show that Information is the manipulated reflection as the false interpretation and false perception of Self, which in turn creates a warped reality of atrocity leading to self-destruction.

I commit myself to show how Information is used to manipulate the money system and sustain the lie of consciousness so that people remain enslaved and unaware of who they really are and can be.

I commit myself to assist others to realize that the only way to stop the abusive money system is for each one to support an Equal Money System, within a real democratic system as 1 MAN - 1 VOTE.

See Also;

Creations Journey to Life

Heavens Journey to Life

[William]

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide myself within a character that pretends to care rather than become actual caring as myself in considering all life Equally and living the principle of what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that an opinion is based on a limited perspective, and thus dishonest and not real. In that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Value my Opinion Above what is best for all, and in so, I have created an opinionated character who perceives myself as being special. and better than others in my world and reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the consequences of what I have accepted and allowed to exist as myself in this world, and so believe that I must take up a cause so that I can redeem myself, not realizing that I am only perpetuating my characters ego, and thus not making any difference in the world because I am not addressing the starting point of the problem - myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that everything I believe about this character of mine was borrowed from others, just a copy and not original in any way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a character of Hope so that I can gain sympathy from others, so that I may further manipulate myself and others within the belief that I am fighting for a good cause, when actually, I am only denying myself, to the detriment of all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that what I am doing with my characters is in separation of myself as the physical, therefore through playing the role of my characters, I am leeching energy off the physical in order to keep my make believe characters alive - as consciousness.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use characters to justify hiding from myself and so refusing to face myself in self-honesty as who I am here as a physical being, no better and no less than anyone or anything.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sacrifice my self-honesty, only to replace it with a false character of my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that others do not understand my struggles, and so believe that I am better than others because I have struggles that no one sees I am going through, yet those struggles have only resulted in me creating more characters for myself in my denial of myself as a physical being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get lost in all my characters roles to the extent that I get fearful when at times I do not know which character to play, as the evidence that I am acting an array of characters rather than being myself as the physical which does not change roles out of fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a character in which I can believe I am Humble, and so, when appropriate, I can fall back on this character so that I may attempt to avoid responsibility to myself as all, as well as manipulate myself and others for my own self interest because I fear for my characters survival.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within a character of Hope, in that I want and desire others to validate my characters as Compassionate, Loving and Caring because I have deluded myself into believing that someone or something is going to solve everything for me, and reward me for my dishonesty to myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to receive a high honor, as wanting to be seen as better than others, not realizing that that is hierarchy and abuse of life as is existent within the current world system which is ready to collapse due to this system of abuse.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think of others as ignorant and unaware, without placing myself in their shoes to fully understand their whole life story to find out what actually caused others to be the way they are. In so, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others based on my opinion that I am good, because I am doing a good deed, in character, thus judging others as less than myself in self-dishonesty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe myself to be wiser, smarter, or more intelligent than others based on my limited point of view of myself. In that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to falsely blame others for not taking responsibility, when I myself am not taking responsibility for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed and controlled by energy as emotions and feelings, where I will react in situations where I feel threatened, as opposed to stopping myself and clearing myself in breath so that I may speak - not in reaction, but rather speak words as myself so that I can take responsibility to direct myself in what is best for all in each situation, rather than be directed and controlled by fears and projections of the mind.

[William]

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When I say "I don't know", what I am actually saying is "I know full well - but I refuse to take responsibility"

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to say the words "I don't know" in refusing to take responsibility for myself as what I create and have created through careless and inconsiderate use of the mind in fear of myself.

When I say "I don't know", what I am actually saying is "I blame you for my irresponsibility to life"

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to say the words "I don't know" in attempt to blame others for my lack of responsibility to myself and all as life.

When I say "I don't know", what I am actually saying is "I want someone else to take responsibility for me"

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to say the words "I don't know" in the desire to have others take responsibility for me and what I have created accepted and allowed.

When I say "I don't know", what I am actually saying is "I am too weak to face my fears"

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to say the words "I don't know" in the belief that I am too weak to face my fears and stand for Life.

When I say "I don't know", what I am actually saying is "I accept my limitation"

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to say the words "I don't know" in acceptance of the belief that I am limited and cannot change.

When I say "I don't know", what I am actually saying is "I don't care about life"

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the words "I don't know" to hide from myself and make an excuse in blame that I don't care about life, when actually this is a lie because, Life does care about Life, but it has to be lived to become real.

When I say "I don't know", what I am actually saying is "I am not here"

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the words "I don't know" in the denial of myself here.

When I say "I don't know", what I am actually saying is "I am afraid of who I am"


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the words "I don't know" in fear of and the desire to hide from myself as who I am.

When I say "I don't know", what I am actually saying is "I am afraid to die"

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the words "I don't know" as showing myself the fear of death that existed within me. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear death as me, as I created death, therefore fear of death is fear of myself.
When I say "I don't know", what I am actually saying is "I will compromise Life, if you will"

When I say "I don't know", what I am actually saying is "I don't understand, meanwhile I am fully aware"

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the words "I don't know" in attempt to make myself believe that I do not understand, yet I am fully aware of myself here and that I am not being honest with myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the words "I don't know" in seeking to escape myself through compromise with others by way of agreement of words or contract.
When I say "I don't know", what I am actually saying is "knowledge is all there is".

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the words "I don't know" in the belief that knowledge is all there is, yet clearly this is not the case, as knowledge is not a requirement for Life.

When I say "I don't know", what I am actually saying is "Go fuck yourself"

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the words "I don't know" in attempt to defend my mind as the statement go fuck yourself.

When I say "I don't know", what I am actually saying is "I want God to take care of me like a little baby"

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the words "I don't know" in desiring for a god to care for me as a little child.

When I say "I don't know", what I am actually saying is "I only care about myself"

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the words "I don't know" in self-interest, greed and selfishness of the mind as only caring about myself as my mind and personal experience.

When I say "I don't know", what I am actually saying is "I give up"

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the words "I don't know" in the desire to escape myself as if to surrender to the mind as "I give up". I realize this is not an option as Life does not consist of giving up, and giving up does not consist of Life.


When I say "I don't know", what I am actually saying is "I can't"

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the words "I don't know" as a desired escape mechanism within the belief that "I can't" as a belief system in limitation and separation from myself here.

When I say "I don't know", what I am actually saying is "I don't want to exist"

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the words "I don't know" in the desire to escape myself within the thought of "I don't want to exist"


When and as I see myself using the phrase "I don't know", I stop and clear my starting point within breath to here so that I may forgive myself within realization of the fact that I am repeating a pattern of the past as self-manipulation and self-sabotage. Through realization, I give myself the opportunity to commit myself to walk the physical change, to direct myself within the given situation to state that which I do know and understand as myself - That, I must make the decision to move myself in what is necessary to be done to change myself and align myself with the principle of Equality as what is Best for All in all ways.

[William]

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I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to believe
that I have free time. I realize that 'Free time' cannot exist - as long as I
am enslaved to time, and the world suffers, I am not free - thus free time
is an illusion of temporary comfort/stimulation in self-interest, waiting for
consequences to catch up with me rather than me facing consequence
here through creating myself as Life as what is Best for All in every breath.


I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to trust myself
as breath, but rather placed my trust as a belief in a character of my past
memories of mistakes and failures based on valuations created through my
programmed mind. In not trusting myself as breath, I have not trusted life,
and so I have manifested fears based on my past accepted and allowed
characters whom have continually misguided me.


I realize that Self trust cannot exist outside of standing Equal to breath, as
trusting the mind is like trusting a cloud to remain in the same shape forever.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear consequences,
and so create more ill consequences for myself through my accepted and
allowed fear of consequences, following the patterns of my upbringing and my
parents systems which have enslaved me to fear of taking responsibility.
I realize that Confidence cannot exist outside of breath, all confidence that is
not within breath is of the mind, which con's oneself into thinking that one can
Con Life.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be jealous of
others who are working to place themselves in positions where they will have
influence in the system and so be able to impact the world and change it to
what is best for all. I realize that this jealousy is based on fear of being
less than others, and that my responsibility is to align myself with what is best
for all, and so doing, I will become self-responsible and have opportunity to
participate in supporting Equality of Life for All.



I enjoy being the directive principle of myself here

I enjoy taking responsibility for who I am in each breath

I enjoy directing my breath

I enjoy the opportunity to become Life

I enjoy being here as the physical, moving myself

I enjoy facing my resistances

I enjoy the opportunities to face myself

I enjoy taking responsibility for myself

I enjoy seeing my reflection in existence so I can change myself to what is

best for all in all ways

I enjoy cleaning up my mess

I enjoy exposing the lie

I enjoy the fact that I have misplaced my trust and fucked up my life for the
sole reason that I am able to correct myself so that this will not happen ever
again.

I enjoy the journey to nothingness, as the journey to Life as it is the only way
to be Life

I enjoy this opportunity to share my realizations, so that all may be free from
the illusion.

I enjoy freeing myself from the addiction to energy

I enjoy becoming Equal to All as the physical

I enjoy setting myself as all life free from the abuse and harm I have allowed

[William]

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The feelings of frustration and regret hit me this evening as I reflected on how I managed to arrive where I am now. "Why didn't I do this... " "Why didn't I do that... " as I hopelessly wished for a time machine to take me back 25 years so I could correct myself. Then comes the guilt and blame "Why didn't anyone help me understand..." Why did people lie to me..." The demon wants to go back and Rage. Futile. I accepted a lie within myself... We all did.

So I am here with no other option but to face the consequence of what I have accepted and allowed myself to become, and that daily medicine is somewhat painful to swallow.

I had so much potential and opportunity. I could have done anything. But there was this 'thing' within me which I did not understand. So I allowed myself to play the fool, and the victim, and a host of other characters without ever realizing the critical piece I was missing.

Self-acceptance.

Finally, I understand... yet much of my life has been spent in the searching.

I thought I understood myself. I understood in my own way, from 'my limited perspective'. All I could see was Lies, Lies, Lies, Lies everywhere, as my inner battle with the Balrog raged inside me as Self-denial, I feared losing myself as Anger and the Bitterness of Blame pulverized and consumed me from the inside.

Some thought I was a stupid and a fool, and I understood that, yet I did not understand how to solve that problem for myself. I just assumed that was "just the way it was", I figured I had to be that way, and I would figure myself out eventually. No way could I confide in anyone or share what I Really felt, the feelings were all too strange and awkward, suppressed deep within myself. And I didn't trust anyone anyway.

I could not grasp a purpose for myself, or a place. My father told me "I had no direction"... to which I had no answer. Which way do you choose when everything is fucked and you have no starting point? I felt like flotsam, moved only by the waves of the ocean.

Why do we not realize such things until it is too late to change? Why do we live our lives in reverse?
Why is life so unforgiving? Is Life stupid, and a fool? I often thought old people must know what the hell is going on. Why weren't they telling and sharing with everyone? Why are they hiding all their understanding and keeping it a secret?

I sit here and think how easy it could have been, if only I had understood Self-acceptance. If only there was some honesty and accountability in life. Some actual Life-support.

Thinking is Futile and will not change the past. I am here now, and being aware of all the deception I am determined to expose it, so others can see for themselves while they have an opportunity to change themselves and this world of Lies. We must accept ourselves as who we are, but that can only be real if we realize who we really are as Equal, and that the only way out of this huge mess is self-honesty and self-forgiveness, lots of self-forgiveness. Because Life is not just for taking, or hiding, or about denying oneself. Life is for Giving in self-honesty. If Life is given, but not in self-honesty, then it is not truly given. It's finally time to stop living the lie.

[William]

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Believe I must have Favorites so that I can Compete for the Attention of others in the Desire to be appreciated and Cared for - Not realizing that this Desire is actually Fear of Not being Accepted as who I am, and so within Acting on this Fear of Myself, I have Forsaken my True Self for an Imagined Favorite Character.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Believe that having Favorites makes me Unique and Special. I realize Life does not require Favorites to be Life, and that all Ideas, Opinions, Personalities, Tastes and Preferences that do not serve the Best Interest of ALL are based on Fear of Myself, and as such can only harbor Greed, Selfishness, Self-Deception and Death.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Live a Lie - using "I have Favorites" as an Excuse to Justify my Selfish Desires as my Lust for Special Attention as a Personality/Character in Spite of others and in Fear of Facing myself as who I really am - as the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Believe I can abuse Favors in obvious and subtle ways to get My Way for Myself, as you scratch my back... or kiss my ass, and I will return the Favor - Using the Excuse that 'Everyone else does it', therefore I will be able to escape Consequence, knowing with absolute certainty that I cannot possibly escape myself, or the Consequences I have created for Myself, and Others in my world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Justify the use of Favors as being Good and Kind and Positive, not taking into Account the Deceptive Nature of Favoritism, as Irresponsible and in Spite of Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Trust in the Favor of a 'Higher Power' as the Justification for my abuse of Favor. I realize that any Hierarchical Structure is nothing but a Trap of Absolute Enslavement.

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that the current Money System as Capitalism is the Manifestation of the Abuse of Life through accepted and allowed Separation through Favoritism.

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to See and Understand that Parents are the Progenitors of Favoritism through Favoring their offspring, in whom they Indoctrinate Lies, Fears and Suppression of Life through the blasphemy of Love.

I commit myself to Realize that if everyone was Equally Favored, there would be no need of Favor, or of God, or of Love, as All would be Equal to Life, and therefore All would be Free from All Enslavement, from All Fear, and from All Limitation.

I commit myself to Understand the difference between Living Common Sense as what is Best for All and Spiteful Favoritism.

I commit myself to Forsake False Characters as Personalities and so stop the Fear of Myself, so that I can Stand Equal to All and to Life

I commit myself to Expose how Favoritism is Fear in Contempt of Life

I commit myself to Show how we have accepted and allowed Imaginary Characters to Dictate a Hierarchical System of Abuse, and in so we have in Absolute Arrogance Dared to call this Life.

I commit myself to Expose that Favor is the Delusion of Free Choice, where we Think and Believe the Lie that it is OK to Selfishly Choose whatever Flavor of Character we Desire - because A-Parent-ly that is what we 'Like' - without ever considering the Starting point which creates the Destructive Patterns of Lust for Sweet Flavor Despite CONsequence.

I commit myself to Realize that it is through Favoritism that Enemies and Wars are Created, and that an Equal Money System would release us from the Bonds of Favoritism so that Heaven on Earth could be created for Real in the Physical.

[William]

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I cannot stop the killing, torture, destruction, and wars of the military system.

Nor can I stop the bullying, harassment ,and abuse of the justice and legal systems.

Nor can I stop the corruption, abuse of power, and coercion of the political system.

Nor can I stop the lies, deception and distortion of the media system.

Nor can I stop the programming, conditioning and cloning of the education systems.

Nor can I prove to you how these systems are in fact abusive to life, each must see for themselves. Though it ought to be blatantly obvious… it is not, simply because we have allowed ourselves to become such ‘willing’ and ‘obedient’ slaves to the system - in our stupid and selfish desire to be better than each other, and our foolish fear for our own survival.

Selfish, Fearful and Foolish.

Ahhh… apparently this is what our ‘great evolution’ has taken us to. Is it actually possible, for us to become any more retarded? No…, we have in fact arrived, at the epitome of retardation and denial. We are at the highest peak, the absolute summit, of Mount Stupid. We cannot possibly get any higher on this baby.

Now consider there are those in our world claiming to be wise and intelligent… “Look how Smart I am…Here at the summit of Mount Stupidity!!!” Wohoo… Who’s got a calculator? Can we check the elevation…?

Those esteeming themselves to be of High ‘Moral fibre’… “Look how Right I am, on top of Wrong Mountain!!! Please, someone take a picture…!

Those flaunting their ‘Goodness’… “Look how Good I am, on top of Mount Evil..!!! Its times like this, we all benefit from a sudden gust of wind…

Those claiming to be ‘strong’ and/or ‘in shape’… “Look how strong I am… Whoa, check out them biceps…” atop Mount Weakness!!! Did you really climb the whole way, or did you take the ego-lift?

Within the acceptance of myself as irresponsible to my world, and in my irresponsibility to see myself for who I really am as an Equal, and in simple common sense stand for what is best for all life, I have diminished myself and allowed myself and become subject to, and enslaved to foolishness. In this system, I am literally forced to waste time and energy doing futile and senseless jobs that do not support life, but only boost peoples ego’s… so that I can make money, so that I can survive…?

WTF#!%^&!

Jesus said (Not that he was special, though some people choose to believe so, he did for the most part, understand Equality) “If you have love, you can say unto this mountain, “be thou removed and cast into the sea, and it would be done” ”. In other words, if you cannot move a mountain, your ‘love’ is not real.

It is only when we stand together, undivided, as Equals, Equal to the physical reality, that we can remove the mountains of Selfish Ego we have all created within ourselves, and the world as a whole. From that starting point of Equality and Oneness, we can create Life free from the enslavement of systems, which only serve to divide, kill and destroy ourselves. Join the Desteni I Process and see who you really are for the first time in your life. Or, take the Free course DIP Lite, and Support an Equal Money System. www.Equalmoney.org

[William]

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Looking at my experiences when have allowed myself to go into thoughts and memories because I would rather not ‘be here’ as breath… typically because I am doing something I don’t want to do, such as heading to work, where fear and anxiety come up. I want to avoid the situation, make myself feel better, disappear in to ‘my happy place’ in my mind… because I create the idea that ‘work’ is a negative experience – as it is tied to money as enslavement, as something I am forced to do. As well I feel that I am being judged based on my performance and ability to ‘produce’ a good result based on the customers expectations.

I see where I have judged myself in the past if I did not meet up to expectations of others. I have come to realize that I can only do what I am able to do, as my physical body has limitations. So I have for the most part released that form of judgement on myself. I don’t really mind the work most of the time. Here though, is the stress factor, of having to work so fast that I am able to make a profit, along with not making mistakes and doing a good job – so there is fear of the future as not having enough income to support myself. I see this as fear of my own self judgement – as the fear of loss and fear of death. Still discontent with who I am and what I have allowed myself to become.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into thoughts and memories for temporary ‘mind-highs’ - because I want to escape the consequences of what I have accepted and allowed in my world, and so I am reluctant to face the consequences I have created for myself here in each moment. I realize that I cannot escape myself, nor does it make the situation any better when I try to escape into my mind – It only perpetuates the addiction to energy as spite.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define work as a ‘negative experience’ of myself because I fear failure, fear loss, and fear the judgement of myself and others. In this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing money and time, as selfish experiences of myself. I realize that these experiences are necessary consequences that have played out in order for me to see who I am, and face myself as what I have accepted and allowed to exist here as me. Thus it is supportive to myself and my process of understanding myself. I realize I have to let go of the self-created idea of who I am as ‘separate’ – so that I can realize myself, as an interconnect part of my existence as a whole.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having enough income to support myself. In that, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to entertain the selfish desire for ‘free time’ and ‘easy money’ wherein I seek my own self interest, or seek to boost my own ego/mind system with the idea that I could be better, have a better life, and or do things that would grant me more fun and enjoyment, as well as the admiration of others. I realize that the first and primary responsibility I have is to become absolutely self honest with myself, so that I can rid myself of all fears, greed, and selfish delusion, and so become physical, and real with myself. This is the only way I will free myself from the anxiety of self judgement and selfish desires, and in so I will actually be able to enjoy myself for real, for the first time ever.
Actually, the only reason for my anxiety, is because I know I am not absolutely honest with myself yet, I am not here taking responsibility for myself as all in every breath yet, and so I fear that about myself, fearing that I cannot do it, based on my past fuck ups. I fear myself, because my mind fears losing the personal experiences of the selfish energy highs in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself based on my past experiences of myself – condemning myself in the idea that I cannot do it, creating an image of myself that I have too many systems, my selfish desires are too strong, or that I am too weak to stand absolutely equal with myself as all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing the energy highs of my mind - because my mind tells me that all I will experience will be ‘negative’ or ‘neutral’ all the time – Yet I realize that this is projection of my mind, not the actuality of me here.

My mind fears that it will take so much energy just to direct my breathing all the time, thus I fear losing the idea of myself as who I have defined myself as within my mind as energy, and so I project that fear onto another self created idea of ‘who I would be’ (negative and/or neutral) if I stop my mind and take complete responsibility for myself in every breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear stopping the energy highs of the mind because my mind tells me that “I am wasting good experiences”. This comes from the self-definition I have created myself as a ‘non-wasteful’ person, or someone who does not like to waste things, as the fear of loss, fear of self-judgement, and fear of death. In so I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear losing the ‘positive’ energy experiences because I fear ‘wasting the experience of myself’ in the fear of loss, fear of self-judgement, and fear of death. I also forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself as ‘non-wasteful’ in the belief that I am better than others in my world who I have defined as ‘wasteful’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resent life, because I feel I was never given a fair chance to understand myself, and thus I made errors that cost me myself. I realize that this life, and this realization is my opportunity to realize myself here.

I commit myself to take this opportunity within this life to realize myself for myself and all so that I can rid myself of the guilt, shame, anxiety and resentment that I feel towards myself.
I commit myself to face my fears within writing so that I can realize where I am not taking responsibility for myself so that I may be as effective as humanly possible without fear of judgement, loss or death.
I commit myself to realize that the situations that I face in my reality are here to support me to self-realization, and in that, I am able to stop self-judgement so that I can stand equal to my world and reality in taking responsibility for what is here as myself as all.
I commit myself to stop all mind-created ideas and projections of ‘who I would be’ should I stop the positive, negative and neutral energy experiences within myself, which I realize are the desire for selfish experiences of myself in separation from myself as my mind.

[William]

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What is a ‘Realization’?
Firstly, I am not referring to small realizations here – like you realized your bike was stolen, or that someone doesn’t like you. I am referring to dramatic, life changing Realizations - when we discover and understand something about ourselves that we previously had no idea existed. Something that strikes the core of you, and entirely changes who you are. If this has never happened to you, well, continue on, it may very well be right around the corner…
Can anyone have a Realization?
Yes, anyone can have a realization, however people that are self-centered, judgemental, inconsiderate of others, ‘know-it-alls”, content with their life, and/or greedy - are unlikely to have a realization – unless of course they encounter serious, life-threatening tragedy which can often trigger a realization – although by that point it could very well be too late.
I myself had a big realization shortly after I was involved in a car accident. I thought I was going to die, so that caused me to ask myself some tough questions – primarily “what was required of me in this life” - so that I could look into getting that done before I died - lol.
Additionally, those that make the foolish assumption that there is nothing for them to realize, vainly fall into the trap of their own making.
And finally, those who place all their trust in beliefs and ideas such as religion, science, or spirituality to provide the answers for them - without having the courage to question beyond their beliefs - are also trapped by their own design.

Here’s How to have an Amazing Realization…
So first lets take an example. Say a wife finds out her husband has been cheating on her. All the while she has been thinking that they were in love, but she suddenly realizes that she was being deceived. It may seem somewhat painful to realize this, however, most of us would rather be on the ‘realization side’, knowing the truth of the matter, rather than continue on living blindly being deceived by the lie. (Although there are exceptions)
Now, it is possible that she could have found out ‘by accident’, but since her husband was likely doing his absolute best to keep it a secret from her, she would more likely have found out through investigation, in the way of research and asking questions. Investigation is the key.
Suppose her suspicion was aroused somehow, and she began asking her husband questions. She would likely have some fears come up such as “what if my husband suspects I am suspicious?” “Will he think I don’t love him?” “Will he beat me up?” “What if he divorces me?” “Where would I go?” – So you can see that one must employ a fair amount of courage to face these fears when investigating. Yet if she does not ask, then she may never find out.
So if we take this example and change it to the subject of life, we can see that there are many questions that need to be answered, and we must have the courage to trust ourselves and ask them.
Wherever there is a fear, that is a very likely we are hot on the trail of having a realization, as fear always leads the way to the answer - because fear is a tool of manipulation, and deception.
If I were afraid of snakes, I might ask “Why am I afraid of snakes?” “What caused this fear of snakes?” “Is this fear really who I am?”.

How do I know for certain that I am not being deceived?
Its funny that many people fear investigating and asking questions because, not only do they know they are afraid (and reluctant to admit so), but they actually believe themselves to be totally existing as Fear. So if they are ‘fear’ in essence, then they fear that they will inevitably deceive themselves. The infinite loop, and unfortunately, the ultimate trap. Yet all they need to do is face their fear of themselves and realize that they are not this fear.
If there is any fear in your realization, it is either not real, or you have not fully realized yet - you still have not faced the fear completely. A real realization is the absolute transcendence of fear, so that there is no doubt whatsoever about what you have realized within yourself.
So take courage, trust yourself and face your fears – you will soon realize that there is no reason to fear, and many awesome and amazing realizations lay buried just beneath the surface of our fears.
A really good start is to investigate Desteni. There is tonnes of material there that will challenge you to be honest with yourself, and face your fears, so that you can find out for certain, who you really are – without fear.
Enjoy!