Hi, I'll share some perspectives on what you wrote here:
When I was a youngster I dreamt of a life where I will have money, obviously. There is nothing like it than to rely on something that others rely on. Something that others believe in. At times I even thought of making something that everyone would want to have like a product that would sell. In that I thought this would like be a great opportunity to make my own money since I would have the resource of something that I would sell and for that resource I would want my money from anyone else to buy that resource from me and in that anyone would than first have to acquire the money that only I could make. It would be a kick ass system, well there was this little problem that I haven't found anything that would be like a must have to everyone else since all that all need is already here the fruits, vegetables, animals, soil... Its almost as if everything was already prepared to be lived through.
This is actually a cool way to exemplify how we have complicated our lives with capitalism wherein developing a product, sufficient marketing to sell it, distribute it and keeping it functional enough to make enough profit from it actually becomes rather difficult to keep up to – essentially how we are currently keeping-up this entire system with a debt-money-made-out-of-thin-air type of logistics that only make sense to a system design to fulfill only a certain pattern of benefitting a few. All of this missing out the point that we already have what we require as everything we make a business out of is from the Earth as well and that all that it requires is a system that can be implemented in order to manage, administrate and distribute what is already HERE in order to support all beings equally – which is then applying a physical organism law instead of a mental-human law – by this it is to observe how the physical body places no restriction to distribute blood to every single part of the body = the same way we have to apply this principle for the social organism to function properly. Thus it is our responsibility as human beings to create a system that can provide Equal Life for all – that’s the ‘dream’ that must be realized now by us.
Than I figured I'd just live my life as everyone else does and accept the system that is and keep my interest locked on school which would give me further knowledge and paper of successful education so that I would be able to sell that knowledge further to ensure my survival and even more as in I want to have a nice future with basic materialistic possessions and a couple of cash more so that my further future would be insured for at least a couple of months ahead.
Its a competition from the start and those that fail are left behind those that persist are still competing. It only works as long there is money and when that will fail I am positive some other method of trade kicks in to insure we survive since now days everyone is so dependant on each other, except those that have the privilege to own an environment that only rely on self-support but event that is not completely cut off from the system.
So the thing is that the more money one has the more cunning and better user/abuser of the system one is and the more possession one has more money one needs to support that possession as more needs more repairing since everything is made to sooner or later gets broken or used too much. So it goes out of control and we get some ending up with a lot and some with a not. And all the other shit that we do to each other in the name of acquiring possession.
Definitely, that’s the story of how from let’s say having an ‘initiative’ when we are young, we suddenly learn the conditions and restrictions within the system wherein we then ‘give up’ any possibility and idea of doing things differently as we have all essentially bound each other to comply to the system – why? Because our very survival depends on submitting to it. That’s our current dependence and ‘oneness’ fuck up, really, because even if you own an environment that is relatively self-sufficient/ self-supported, as long as we are on this same world = we are equally responsible. That’s also why we speak about being in the system instead of going into further seclusion in order to ‘be self sufficient’ while proposing no solution at a global level. It’s as if suddenly one organ in the body decided to be ‘self sufficient’ and not require blood … well, it’s rather impossible – thus we can see how only common sense can prevail as a point of correction within this world and that is the consideration of all parts equally.
We have our proof based on all that we have done in the name of possession as private property, profit creation and the pay for labor which are the points that keep fueling the driving force of humanity being self interest named capitalism, instead of It being an equal and one realization of being a participant that is here as the result of all parts functioning together in equal terms. This means humans, animal kingdom, nature/ ecosystem. Within this, it’s definitely plain to see that the point of possession as the relationships we’ve imposed upon the Earth/ physical reality are the ones that are the problem. Thus the reform/ correction stems from within us and our relationships formed toward this reality as a system of self interest, instead of a system of common and equal interest.
I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see that hoarding knowledge is only supporting myself interest for I am only learning how to support myself.
Here what is the point that is being self forgiven? Is it hoarding knowledge or is it the point of allowing yourself to take things point by point as you are beginning to learn how to support yourself in self honesty?
I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see that money that I will acquire though working with my knowledge in the current system will only support the competition for survival further and in that I will still be ignorant of how others will end up.
The point in general with regards to knowledge/ studies, it is to simply see it/ realize it as an aspect that we still have to get ourselves into and participate in, as the system is configured to precisely regard those with enough credentials as credible/ professionals that can make the most money – thus, we created the system as such belief system and as such, we take responsibility for it as well. Therefore in a way it’s cool that you are realizing these points, however I suggest realizing that it is not to now judge knowledge or any activity you do as something ‘not beneficial’ and within that creating an excuse to remain in judgment within the realization of how things operate and projecting ‘blame’ onto the system instead of taking responsibility for the establishment of solutions from within the system.
It is cool that you spot the points of self interest however now that we are existing as such points within the system, it is to support ourselves to then begin the point of correction where for example, making money is not only destined then to support your own personal interest, but destine it to support yourself to be in a stable financial position to within this, participate from within the system to implement a change. Why we emphasize the point of being within the system? Because look at revolutions: all oppositions stir waves for a moment, but only end up upgrading the system and evolving to then ‘absorb/ subsume’ the perceived antagonist faction and within that maintain an equilibrium that is actually required when looking at the world system from the energetic-perspective- just as our minds – where you get the positive and negative creating enough friction and conflict to perpetuate and give continuation to the ‘life of the system’ which is how we can see in our world translates to all things abuse toward life/ ourselves.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that in order to change the system, system needs to be in dept analyzed and than plan out the solution that will be best for all and by that meaning that the individuals of each institution that is manipulating some type of matter as in productions facilities that is/are necessity in order to keep the basic needs of man fulfilled such as water, food, housing, clothes, heat, electricity... and than those individuals need to be made aware of a new equal money system.
You can rephrase this one to say "I forgive myself that I haven't
accepted and allowed myself to… "otherwise if it stays as is now, the point to self forgive would make no sense as a point to correct.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that the equal money system still needs time and work to develop the infrastructure of all the facilities, paths and knowing of the schematics, mechanics of the current system so that than the current system can be transformed in to the equal money system.
This is actually a realization more than a point to self forgive, because it is an actuality that we are currently facing and realizing: it obviously requires time and an entire process wherein we are at the moment taking responsibility at an individual level for our own minds and lives. Thus we definitely have to get to the phase of developing a new administrative plan, since the infrastructure is already here and most of the methods use can be simply re-viewed in order what complies to a new set of principles that the system will be based on, which is at all times considering the entire impact and consequence that any activity within this world will create within the ‘greater picture.’ This is thus rather a common sensical statement you made instead of it being a self-forgiveness point: we have to get to know how the system works to be able to transform it/ reform it into the equal money system using what’s already here. Same process applies with our minds: we use what we already exist as our physical body and mind in order to align the mind to support the physical instead of it being mostly living off from the physical – and to understand this relationship I suggest you listen to the Soul of Money Series
of Interviews which explain all of this I am talking about in great detail and the quantum mind series. Actually the Soul of Money would be supportive as it is like the necessary background that one requires in order to ‘make sense’ of the Equal Money System in a practical level that begins with this process that we are walking here.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that when the equal money system will be implemented, those that will have abundance of possession will have to give up on some of the possession since a lot of possession needs a lot of substance, energy to be sustained and in that equal salary would not be able to support an abundance of one.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that when the equal money system will be implemented those that struggle to survive and live a lifestyle from hands to mouth will be be lifted from having nothing to have and thus crime will decrease dramatically.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that an equal money system implementation would need the support of individuals that are willing to get rid of the life of abundance and the pursuit of the goals that would lead the individuals into life of abundance.
Here this is simply part of the common sensical outflows from supporting all beings equally where all fear and survival is removed- thus it is not a point to self forgive – but rather realize what is possible when implementing this equality system.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think the equal money system can only exist in a world that has each individual sacrificing themselves to the community and not giving in to the self-interest and placing themselves before another.
This is a cool point to consider and also a rather common misconception –the point of ‘sacrifice’ that we’ve learned is linked to hard work/ difficulty/ striving to do as in giving away something to obtain some others, without realizing how in this system we are Already living within that absolute sacrifice to the extent where no one is living as everyone is equally fearing to lose money or not having any money – thus elite and ‘populous’ equally strive on that – wherein the sacrifice is actually the physical reality that is being consumed in order to satisfy that self interest. However, when we ‘turn the tables’ and place the equality principle of life as the ‘guiding factor’ to see what is Self-honest and what is not, we can realize that the real Self-interest can only exist within the consideration of Self as the Whole – Self as a part that is invariably affected by everything and all that is here – without us being aware of it or not, as it is part of the physicality/ oneness we are bound to at the moment. This is why you’ll often read statements like ‘No One is Free until All is Free’ as the realization that we can only be existent in our optimum ‘self-interest’ when such self considers the whole equally – and here I quote Bernard from yesterday:
"To Do and Live what is Best For All Life is NORMAL behaviour – To NOT do and NOT Live what is Best for ALL Life is ABNORMAL behaviour" - Bernard Poolman
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think the path to the equal money system is a path that will met and face all the possible obstacles that the current system is accepting and allowing.
Yes, this is something that is also a possibility – thus what I suggest investigating within all of these statements is where do you see the obstacles yourself, is there any reactions when realizing that yes, there will be obstacles faced?
I forgive myself to have accepted and allowed myself to think that equal money system can only be implemented and exist if its supported with honesty and no allowance to any kinds of cons.
This is a fact thus, not a point to self forgive either but to take it back to self and where you see you’re not yet standing within this realization as a living-realization of the changes that we all individually must implement within ourselves to align to what’s best for all = equal money system’s principle.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that equal money system is not impossible to bring into existence.
Yes, this is also a common mind-control point, an indication that giving into this thought will only allow the mind to continue running its ‘curse’ in the physical, which we cannot continue to allow and instead, align ourselves as our mind, as the physical to ensure that we are not deviated from the physical common sense by a single fear and belief of the mind.
Cool for sharing this Ambroz, since these are common fears, beliefs, considerations that must certainly be realized in order to see where we are allowing ourselves to create a belief, an experience and perception of a point that we all have to take responsibility for its creation.
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