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Day 658 - Facing opposition


What does one do when faced with opposition...of any kind, opposition to how one sees something, well, that’s the main one I’d like to focus on. Because generally, we fight. Not necessarily physical and ACTUAL fighting, but I mean fighting for our point, our word, our opinion. I’ve faced a lot of opposition over the years. I used to take offense, I used to defend what I thought/my opinion. I used to get angry, annoyed. I used to hate the opposition, simply for not agreeing with what I had to say. But NONE of these are of benefit to myself or another, they just keep us in this vicious cycle of abuse, of emotions/feelings, judgments and so on, so none are assisted here as I mentioned.

A big change for me thus is being able to hear out another, when it is obvious that they’re opposing me and have opposing views to mine, and simply listening. To me this is amazing, this change. To be able to listen unconditionally, despite how completely opposite for example one’s views are in relation to mine. And in relation to this it can go further or perhaps even into more apparent ‘difficult’ territory where I am getting verbally abused for example, and the same occurs whereas I just hear them out and/or don’t allow it to direct me AT ALL – which means to not fight back, raise my voice, swear, judge, inflict what they’re inflicting to me. This is powerful stuff without a doubt, but extremely effective/helpful, because what I’ve realised is there is so much that I myself disagree with in what people do/how they do it/their views on things, but I can just sit calmly whilst they are speaking these or doing these, and then respond how best I see fit if wanted.

And I see the difference between opinion and perspective, whereas opinion is something not necessarily related to facts, whereas perspective is related to facts. I enjoy sharing perspectives. Perspectives whereas I am sharing exactly what I see in the world, what I’ve seen works for me and others, these are fact because I’ve proven them for myself and/or so have others. It works, so it is fact. It’s actually quite easy to tell, well for me anyway, when one is speaking as opinion or perspective/fact. I can for example hear the aggression, or the defence in one’s voice or see it in their body movements when this is happening, and for example also when I then say my perspective and how they reply to that, for example jumping in/saying something before I’ve finished speaking lol, that’s a good sign of an opinion where one is holding it and defending it so stoutly, that they will not even give me the time of day to speak my own perspective/let alone hearing it/me out.


And MY PERSPECTIVE is that Desteni and the tools that are provided, as well as the wealth of resources/assistance/support is genuine, is legitimate, is life-changing, is world-changing, is system changing, is backed up by evidence, proof, so I strongly suggest that you check it out for yourself, because all that are walking this process will say the exact same as I’ve just said, because each knows it works as advertised, and I know that each can see the self-change that they’ve had through using the tools, resources etc. Simple as that, really!
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Day 659 - SLOWING DOOOOWNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN/ "It's not easy."


There are times when I do see, realise and understand that I am moving much too fast, and I know this and this manifested thus as mistakes, as errors, which shows that I am not in proper alignment within and as my physical body, I am exiting it/as separation, instead of moving as ONE unit.

I commit myself to SLOW RIGHT DOWN.

Within this, I see, realise and understand that to slow down does NOT mean to be ‘not in the race’ or to be ‘behind’ – within this I see, realise and understand that I have added these negative judgments towards/of being slow and the opposite polarity of being fast as the best way because it gets things done ‘faster’ and ‘speedier’ – but within this failing to see, realise and understand the COST of going so fast as mistakes and then having to fix those mistakes which I understand now ends up taking much longer than it’d be to just be slow at start and thus as chain reaction in all that I do to avoid and/or hugely minimise mistakes/potential mistakes.

I commit myself to rather live the saying of “Slow and steady wins the race” because in how I see this statement in my own interpretation as what is best for all, it is to always move slowly because it’ll mean the most efficiency in my daily life and all that I do as me here.

Thus within this I commit myself to live patience, because slowing down cannot exist without PATIENCE. I commit myself to live patience through using my breath, through self-forgiveness within and as the moment, through being at one with my physical body so that I move effectively at ALL TIMES.

//Note: I spoke these words as another point came up within me, so I wrote this out, then went back to my original writing afterwards.

“It’s not easy.”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think this/speak this to myself when struggles occur in my daily life/moment and I feel like it’s just too much for me to handle and I cannot face/overcome this resistance and I desire to instead quit.

I commit myself to understand that the ‘ease’ of process/my life is purely upon and up to ME.

Within this I commit myself to be patient, gentle, kind to myself as I overcome these resistances, and to for example not be hard on myself if I make a fuck up or if it is taking me a long time to overcome resistances/get over resistances as ‘I’d like to’ – I realise this ‘as I’d like to’ is not of reality, it’s only of desires/fantasies, when in reality I know programming of years, many years takes much diligence, patience, gentleness, stability to in actuality overcome.//


I commit myself to live gentleness through the same living words, slowing down and patience, I see, realise and understand these and more living words go hand in hand to be the most efficient I can be, I commit myself to live gentleness through being soft with myself, gentle as the touch, as the feeling, as not to be rough, because my physical body is my vessel as life, and so I thus commit myself to be at peace within and as myself as one vessel – me, here, as breath, as the physical.
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Day 660 - The ‘outer’ of energy


I see, realise and understand that it’s fine, in fact, it’s vital, it happens, to be on the ‘outer’ of energy, the outer of energy participation, which is a vital cog in the wheel of society and how everyday interactions as the mind. It is simply how we’ve learnt to converse, communicate, interact, socialise – as ENERGY. Whether it’s emotions, feelings, thoughts, judgments, abuse, it’s all the same stuff, and it’s all of the mind, none of it is what would happen as the physical body, as all we in fact are and all we in fact were as birth, the mind is of programs and patterns as growing up, as parents, as adults, basically, as exposure of the mind of all other beings from birth to well lol, the point of REALISATION of this.

For me, I’m still working on this point, whereas I am aware of this, sure, but at times I feel ‘down’ about ‘not being able’ to interact, socialise, communicate as ‘effectively’ if I WERE to be UNDER this ENERGY influence/direction/participation. Now, this IS true. I know it. If I were to be totally directed by energy, then I would absolutely force myself to interact and such, but I of course know this isn’t the way to do it, this is NOT what is best for all. Force is never what is best for all. What is best for all is in fact speaking as the physical. To not be judgmental, abusive, sad, happy, angry, annoyed, frustrated, ecstatic, and so on.

Though within this I mean absolutely, of course I can still interact and such lol, it’s not like my voice has been ripped out of my body lol. All it means in reality is that I yes, AM changing the way I voice, and my actions too, it’s all about the starting point, which does in fact change a whole lot about how I am, what I say/do, and as I’ve witnessed countless times, the abuse/judgments/emotions/feelings are evident, like, fucking VERY often in each. Lol it’s funny that in every sentence I can see, hear, know that one of these or a combination is occurring.


And what I’ve seen is that a lot of the time, it can be best to just stay silent and so not participate. If not that, then join in as a cool perspective, and ONLY join in as a possible extension of the interaction/communication if it is obviously not abusive/energy-directed in any way, shape or form. This is definitely a massive learning curve, because as I’ve said/realised within myself, energy can be so so subtle. Sure, I can usually notice it in others, but the harder part can be noticing it in myself. So, I breathe so that I can see clearly if I was under energy or not.
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Day 661 - Self-forgiveness on self-forgiveness


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to question my self-forgiveness as breathing, as here in the moment, failing to see, realise and understand that this is retaliation from my mind so as to attempt to gain back control over points that I’ve released.

I see, realise and understand that self-forgiveness is basic in function and as breath, and that nothing more or less is required as thinking about it and/or additional thinking to ‘perfect’ it on a point or anything of a like, self-forgiveness happens in a moment/as breath and/or as breath is required so as to release the point and that is it, yes it can be expanded upon in that moment and/or in future at some point, but it’s NOT to go back on it or question it, because if it was in the moment and as breath, then no questioning is needed other than as the mind as retaliation/the mind gaining back control/direction over myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to overcomplicate self-forgiveness when self-forgiveness happens in a moment/as breath.


I commit myself to use self-forgiveness therefore as practical moment breathing whereas I speak it on the necessary points to release and then move on as breath and/or additional self-forgiveness as expansion, but always as breath and always WITHOUT thought and then obviously to continue living as I was.
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Day 662 - Looking into the future


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the future.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that the future will not be as I’d like it to be. Within this I see, realise and understand that therefore it’s always vital to create goals/steps that I see that I’m realistically able to attain, so I commit myself thus to create realistic goals to attain and never reach TOO far and thus never sidestepping the smaller goals in reaching an overall bigger goal, because I see that it’s vital to make sure I link my goals towards a bigger goal so that I don’t misstep along the way in trying to reach the bigger goal too fast and/or as being impatient within myself.

I commit myself to see, realise and understand within myself that the future/my future, that there is no ONE way to ‘do it’ or ‘get somewhere’- because it is solely in my hands and I can choose which way I go, that can be for now and of course that can change in the future too. Within this I realise also that nothing is ever set in stone, so changing goals/preferences through my self-change, learning, self-honesty will come up and I know this and so it’s about accepting/embracing these potential changes as I see fit and going with them to create what is best for all.

When and as I see myself hesitant within myself in what I should/should not be doing, where I should be aiming and such for the future, I stop and breathe. I see, realise and understand as I have explained/written out, there’s no ONE way to go or do something. Thus it’s to make sure that my goals are real, appropriate, attainable, through breath, through writing, and within this, with the money I have for example, the situation I’m in, all of these factors, and within this to NOT be self-judgmental of myself negatively for knowing that I cannot for example currently get to a certain goal YET – the key word being YET, because that can change in the future dependent on myself, so I commit myself simply to embrace what I am/have here in the world/in the now and go with it to create cool and realistic/attainable goals maybe/maybe not in relation to a bigger goal.

I commit myself to understand that I have a life now, and that is the greatest gift I can have now and so any other goals, whilst also awesome/helpful, can wait/can be created and attained at a later stage, but my life is a goal/attainable goal and I have that and at the same time am creating the best version of myself, thus I commit myself to live/embrace patience within myself as self-change, self-honesty, and the goals that I wish to attain in future.
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Day 663 - When ideas and solutions are not enough


I’m sure there have been plenty of great ideas/solutions so as to assist society, people, animals, the world as a whole, some getting the go-ahead so to speak to actually become practical/a thing, and others not getting the go-ahead, but they were probably all great ideas or at least partly great ideas. But from my process, what I’ve realised is that this will never be enough as long as we have not SOLVED ourselves. And to SOLVE ourselves is to walk a process of self-forgiveness/realisations/commitment statements so as to change our patterns/programming/directions as the mind, thoughts and so on.

Yes, it’d be fantastic if this step could be SKIPPED, but it CANNOT. Definitely no quick solution. The inner/self-solution is a long solution/process, but there exists no other way. What I love/know of self-forgiveness/realisations/commitment statements is that it leaves NO room for..corruption. If we self-honestly write, our statements are self-honest, we go DEEEEEEEEEP into them, into self-honesty, we do the practical shit, we breathe, it all culminates as SOLUTION, inner-solution, self-solution.

Purifying every pattern within us that allows abuse, that leads us astray, that hurts, that judges. ONLY THEN can we REALLY be trusted by OURSELVES, let alone others, to always do/be for one another, as equality and oneness, where not a single thing will persuade us to do ANYTHING dodgy, such as self-interest as taking a large sum of money for example, or abuse in some way, shape or form. Because a purified being will not do that, because they know better, they give as they’d like to be given, treat others like they’d like to be treated, because why not lol?

I see plenty of light here, because I see the growing numbers that are investigating Desteni and commencing their own process, and it’s very cool to see. The change is happening and people are becoming aware of this fantastic process that is what is best for all, no more, no less.


Purify yourself too!
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Day 664 - A reaction is a reaction


There are things happening in the world every second that I frown upon...that I find it difficult to contemplate the whys/the hows.../the reasoning as to performing these actions, and then I participate..still.....with anger, annoyance and such, but a reaction is a reaction and the principles as Equality and Oneness is to never react at all, not as emotion or feeling.

Thing is, taking it all the way back to the origin of self is to know of why an individual may do what they did, but it’s easy to know this, it’s programming as the mind that directs an individual. So it’s not about judging them, blaming them and so manifesting reaction as anger and such, because the origin point is in fact programming, so then how to handle it, break the programming through process, through self-forgiveness and such. Jail time/death penalty..torture, they won’t help – abuse is abuse, neglect is neglect, even if we apparently believe it’s for the right or appropriate reasons as a form of punishment, we’re inflicting the same shit onto another and that is NOT Equality and Oneness whatsoever.

We are each accountable for what perpetuates in the world and society, none of it assists in breaking free of programming, only continues it.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to take/accept everything that occurs in this world/society equally so as to not judge it as negative/positive as emotion/feeling, but to understand it, learn from it, know why it is happening, and basically then just continue my own process and continue doing what it is I do as the principles of Equality and Oneness as what is best for all as what is needed for world/society change in each and every individual on Earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to get ‘caught up’ in an event and such and then the manifested emotions/feelings that ‘usually’ come from such an event happening as despair, sadness, anger, frustration, inability.

I commit myself not to allow these events and such to deter me from my own process, the process that I need, they we all need, that is best for all as the only principles that matter here/within us all as Equality and Oneness.

I commit myself to acknowledge/accept each event/anything that happens in this world, to me, to another, to this, to that, to see why it is happening (programming), to learn from it, and to continue my process through new knowledge/information that I can then use within my own process as what is best for all.

When and as I see an event on the news or somewhere or something happen to one and I desire to react as frowning manifestation and/or as sadness, anger, or even the opposite polarity of happiness, joy, I stop and breathe. I realise that any deterrent is just that..a deterrent...something that only I can allow to direct me OFF COURSE and so no longer on course as my process of Equality and Oneness and that in reality is assisting NONE, so there is literally no point to participate within anything that occurs in any way, shape or form and participate within and as the thoughts, emotions, feelings, reactions and such, because programming is the simple answer to all the shit that happens within each and everyone of us and so society as a whole and the world as a whole – a simple answer for a stunning amount of abuse/neglect/hate...as well of course as happiness/joy.


I see, realise and understand thus that STABILITY is the only word to live and be as, as principles that matter/are needed – stability as living expression is to not go one way or the other as emotion/feeling, but to stay LEVEL, level headed, straight, on course and so I commit myself to continue utilising my breath, my breathing, my patience thus, to remain here, to remain stable, level, level headed, appropriate, here.
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Day 665 - Judging my words and formations


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the formation of the letters/words and how/what exactly I say within writing/self-forgiveness etc whereas I end up deleting it/not publishing it online because I read it back and believe it doesn’t make sense, when it does make sense which is why I wrote it in the first place/as breath – within this though I see, realise and understand that I CAN improve on my writings where I write differently/more specifically/with more know-how as bettering myself faster/more effectively, BUT this does not render my previous writings as ‘useless’ in any way, shape or form, it is just a matter of improvement as I am doing each moment through practical application/breath and generally as process and walking as process.

When and as I see myself in the moment of writing my self-forgiveness etc and JUDGING IT as not making sense, weird, odd, I stop and breathe. I see, realise and understand that I have WRITTEN IT for a reason because it made sense to me, and if it apparently ‘no longer makes sense’ then it is of my MIND, because here I see, realise and understand that this judgment always comes AFTER I’ve written it out and never AT THE TIME of the writing where again, it’s what I see is best/necessary at the time simply, so then it’s good to go so to speak and good to be published or whatever I want to do with said writing.

I commit myself to WRITE as BREATH and keep WRITING until I am FINISHED Upon a point and then read it ALOUD to myself and then PUBLISH IT.


I commit myself to within this/at the same time as reading it aloud/looking back upon my writing/previous writings/general knowledge/information as learning about writing and specifying and improving my writing, to learn, to be aware, to see where/how I can improve, though within this obviously not to judge what I’ve done, because for example the only way to improve is to accept what I’ve done and actually evolve through it by doing something in the first place, otherwise I never improve, and I see, realise and understand that I can’t get things down PERFECT FIRST TIME or even second/third time, it takes many times..some things, so I commit myself to give myself the time and the trial and error/opportunity for improvement upon my writings/general life/points and such by doing, accessing, being aware, accepting, improving, because that’s the nature of self, to start and get better always, moment by moment.
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I commit myself to give myself the time and the trial and error/opportunity for improvement upon my writings/general life/points and such by doing, accessing, being aware, accepting, improving, because that’s the nature of self, to start and get better always, moment by moment.
Cool realization, Anthony!
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I commit myself to give myself the time and the trial and error/opportunity for improvement upon my writings/general life/points and such by doing, accessing, being aware, accepting, improving, because that’s the nature of self, to start and get better always, moment by moment.
Cool realization, Anthony!
Thank you, Tyler!
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