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Postby Marley Dawkins » 24 Dec 2017, 21:54

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Maybe you celebrate Christmas at this time of year, and maybe you don't, I go back and forth so sometimes I don't celebrate Christmas for years, I have had issues with it lets say - my longest stretch was about 6 years of not celebrating it, and ever since my grandfather died in 2013 I've been generally less interested in celebrating it in some ways - because it was when I was a young kid with my granddad that I have the best Christmas memories.

In small families like mine Christmas is never really a big deal in general I would suggest, but it was also after I learnt about some of the strange pagan history and the consumerism elements at around 13, which caused me to not really want to celebrate Christmas for years.

But there was fear within this, so some years nowadays I will join in the festivities with some friends, and every year I like to have a nice meal and some laughs with my mum.

Now at this time of year you sometimes hear people say you hear people say - oh I wish it could be Christmas everyday! I mean there's even a famous Christmas song after those exact words - its the idea of the excitement of all the giving and receiving and the fun that people have at Christmas and wanting it to last forever.

Understandable too, because in the world we live in, all of the madness that exists - a world where rape, war, starvation and the destruction of nature occurs so much everywhere, this world of cold hard slavery for 99% of people we can so easily let ourselves get distracted by anything that makes us smile, anything that entertains us and takes away the reality of the pain in this world.

It is easy to within this chaos become unconsciously sad about the abuse in this world throughout our lives, and this can grind people down and cause people to try to cling onto Christmas, projecting into the future and the next Christmas already before this one is over, addicted to the high and feeding the sadness at the same time.

Because at Christmas things feel different for a lot of people, not that they are in physical reality of course, but its the feeling of this slavery machine stopping, where we can pause, breathe comfortably where everyone is able to laugh in the sun with their friends and family, which in reality is something that we all equally want in life.

Yet capitalism says that not everyone can have Christmas, it is a disgrace in my eyes that we do not have a money system in existence right now, which provides Christmas to everyone in this world everyday. Because personally at this time of year in amongst all the smiles I see on the faces of work colleagues, friends and people on the streets at Christmas, it makes me smile - smile in unison with their Christmas cheer, yet also smiling knowing that this joy, this joy must be for all, I must implement a system of this joy for all life on Earth.

I must, we all must find ways to make sure that we can all have Christmas everyday - where we are all giving and receiving throughout our days, with no fear involved tainting our day. So how can we have Christmas everyday?

Well simply put it is only going to happen through an equal money system, test it yourself, mathematically and you will see it is the only chance we have as a species in general on this planet to start from scratch and do everything better for all life here.

A money system based on comforting all life, everyday with the basics needed to have a smile on everyone's face, where the money we make in our labour time is equal in all jobs, where everyone can strive and achieve a Ferrari through their labour value, not their family name as we have now, where machines will do the most difficult and mundane jobs as well as generally assisting us in everyway, so that we can express ourselves truly and do what we are actually passionate about, as opposed to what we have to do right now in order to pay these pointless capitalist bills of survival.

Ultimately a system where we are all learning from each other, growing together, uplifting each other, with the concept of a slave and master anywhere in this world being eliminated - all equal as masters giving and receiving everyday - Christmas everyday for all.

So this year at Christmas, wherever you are in this world just know that there is no charity organisation that can implement Christmas for everyone everyday, there is no special saviour from a religious text that can implement Christmas everyday for all life, it is only and I mean only happening through an Equal Money System and only we can implement that individually and in unity.

So lets all walk together installing an Equal Money system in everything that we do, investigating everything and only keeping the best of anything where a world of Christmas for all can actually be done, where everyone is included in our fun.

Join me next time as I continue this point in my journey to life.

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Re: Marleys Journey To Life

Postby Marley Dawkins » 31 Dec 2017, 22:10

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Well Christmas has come and gone for another year, and we stand today on the precipice of 2018 on New Years Eve. So continuing from my previous blog, lets make sure we are all clear on what we can redesign Christmas as moving forward, because we do not need these pre-programmed limitations on Christmas, we can make it something that we have everyday in every moment -

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire it to be Christmas everyday, without realising in every breathe that this can only be achieved through our individual and unified existence as an Equal Money System, because it is only through an Equal Money system that Christmas will ever be realistically celebrated by all beings in this world, because Equal Money is based on giving and receiving for all, which is the basis of the best elements of Christmas.

I forgive myself that I have not realised in every moment that the reason so many people enjoy Christmas, is because things feel different, not that they are physically, because the world is still an abusive place, but for a moment Christmas reminds us of a world where we can all slow down, breathe, be kind and have fun - Christmas literally shows us that things can be different if we will it to be so.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to get addicted to the high of Christmas in younger years, without realising that it was just the self-interest of receiving only, of getting what I want to make myself feel better about my life for a moment, when I was simply feeding the sadness through this process.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in the past use Christmas as a way of entertaining myself, of distracting myself from the sadness I feel within myself about my life and the world that we live in and to then react to this and feel ashamed to support Christmas even as I got older.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear not having Christmas every year to "keep me happy".

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist Christmas more and more as I have got older, based on the knowledge and information I have learnt about Christmas, without realising that fear exists within this resistance, and this fear doe snot support me in living what is best for all life, so I must take Self-Responsibility to remove all elements of fear that exist in relation to Christmas.

I forgive myself for allowing myself to have an uncomfortable dread experience when I hear the word Christmas, where I fear being surrounded by the ignorance, paganism and consumerism of the Christmas period. I realise that this dread experience is showing me that I have issues that need to be dealt with in relation to Christmas.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge people as stupid that celebrate Christmas, which is so hypocritical because I have celebrated Christmas so many times in my life especially in younger years, and as we are exploring here, Christmas can be built to be something cool, so this judgement is completely pointless.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to and hold onto memories of Christmas with my granddad and mother in younger years as being the best Christmas memories, and to then react in fear to these memories, where I feel like I cannot have the levels of smiles now that I did then at Christmas because my grandfather is dead now -

So i forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear and believe that I cannot create enjoyment within Christmas nowadays because of my granddad being dead, because when I let that concept go I always see that I can create enjoyment here within anything, thus I can enjoy Christmas when I breathe and do not allow these fears and beliefs to direct me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that because my blood family is small, then celebrating Christmas is always apparently "pointless" when in reality my family is the human race and all living beings in existence, therefore Christmas is something I can build to include all life.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to create separation within myself in relation to Christmas through learning about and reacting in fear to the pagan history and consumerist elements of Christmas. I realise that yes while the pagan and consumerist elements of Christmas are abusive, that does not mean I have to facilitate and feed into any of those abusive elements.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to engage in Christmas, through these fears, without seeing and understanding consistently that no matter how much I try to separate myself from Christmas, it is here in this world and it always makes sense to accept what is here, and direct it to whats best for all life where beneficial expansion occurs, instead of reacting and resisting interaction with that point, where change is impossible.

I forgive myself that I have not realised in every here moment of breathe, that I can transform Christmas to be something that supports all life, I can pull out the elements that don't make sense, keep what is of benefit and expand upon it.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting fear to be the predominate factor in my Christmas experiences in my life, and now I realise that these fears are of no use, and that we can make Christmas a living organism in this world, create it into a world where we all masters giving and receiving equally.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feed into a money system that does not allow for all beings in this world to have Christmas, I realise that I must individually and we all must in unity stop supporting the abusive elements of this capitalist money system which is us.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realise and understand in every moment that this world is a reflection of me and vice versa, so anything I am reacting in fear, to anything I keeping myself in separation from is an element of myself that I have not accepted, investigated and corrected - no matter how you feel about Christmas, it is something that exists in this world, therefore it is a part of us all, and so we must all take self-responsibility to make Christmas something that we can be proud of.

I forgive myself for not realising in every moment that we can use Christmas as a vehicle, a tool, a symbol of our growth in this world, with which to show how much better we can make this world with our input, with our intent and action, by basing everything we do everyday on the best part of Christmas, meaning giving and receiving equally, offering our gratitude to life with no expectations, including as many people in our joy as possible, making sure that nobody is left out, all eating the best food, the best for everyone.

I commit myself to not allowing myself to allow fear to infect my interaction with Christmas, as these fears only serve to limit me as the ego, so as and when I see my mind having fear based thoughts about Christmas, I stop and breathe, I do not allow myself to feed into these thoughts as I know the time looping cycles that will occur as a result - so I breathe and continue to do so until there are no more thoughts that come up and I transcend all these Christmas fears.

I commit myself to embracing the best elements of Christmas and to remove that which makes no sense.

I commit myself to living the realisation that a world where every person can celebrate Christmas can only be achieved through the implementation of an Equal Money system, and so I must take self-responsibility to embody an equal money system in everything that I do, because I want to live in a world where everyone is having fun, giving and receiving naturally and literally having Christmas everyday.

I commit myself to not allowing myself to judge anyone who celebrates or does not celebrate Christmas, because in reality Christmas is more of a symbol then something that you have to celebrate or not - building a world that takes care of all life equally is the point that is the highest worth, so Christmas is simply a societal event which we can use to show how much better our world can be through the implementation of equality and oneness for all life -- so as and when i see my mind judging someones perspective about Christmas, I stop and breathe and continue to do so until there is no more judgement that comes up.

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Re: Marleys Journey To Life

Postby Marley Dawkins » 07 Jan 2018, 22:31

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Illness, something that is always lurking around the corner, the virus ready to infect your body and debilitate you in whatever way the specific virus is intended to do.

Just living life in this world is essentially a virus that slowly breaks us down as we get older, but in today's world where viruses are designed through science at an accelerated rate, it is virtually impossible for a person to navigate a lifetime in this world without contracting some kind of illness at some point in our life -

This illness will either a short/long term debilitation of our capabilities where we will fully recover at some point, or it can be the more sinister, the fast destructive disease, or the slow painful disease draining our life where we will not only never full recover, but will inevitably die from this.

This contagion, this endemic, this plague does not care if you are an innocent fragile baby, or if you are the man of steel standing on a mountain - there is a virus somewhere in existence that you will not be impervious to.

So we can extend our life, we can make people more invulnerable in certain ways, but there is no immortality in one organic vessel, and there is always a pathogen somewhere that can cause immense physical trauma upon us.

When we are Ill, we are reminded of our mortality of our vulnerability - its is easy to forget when we spend so much time in and as our ego hat we are just organic bone filled soft blood sacs walking around in environments full of hazard, where a million things can harm us, so it really doesn't take much to cause us to contract an illness which can then potentially speed up our inevitable death.

With this knowledge of knowing how viruses attack the body looking to break us down or imbalance us in someway, we are reminded how death can be brought closer by this illness.

Then the thoughts of the fear of death can begin to encircle ones thought process as the ravages of the contagion takes a hold of you.

I have been dealing with this myself being Ill with a type of flu like virus, a particularly strong strain that I have been battling for months to fight off - which as my doctor has noted, is strange considering I do not have a track record of getting Ill like this at all.

My mother and me were joking about this recently, but in reality there has been many points here which have been coming up in relation to me being ill - judging myself for being ill, being angry that I am ill, feeling confused as to why I am ill, daydreaming for hours in the day about what kind of virus this could be and where it came from.

Conspiratorial paranoia that this virus was designed for me, to silence me. I find myself getting distracted from things I am doing here because I am ill here, being dishonest and self-dishonest when people ask, or I ask how I'm feeling, like pretending that I'm not even ill. Then there is this fearing that I will not get back to full fitness and what will happen if I don't, fearing that I will become more ill then my mother, fearing that this contagion will continue to mutate and destroy me from this world.

So yeah as much as it is shit being ill, it has also been fascinating to see what has come up within me as a result, and realising through seeing whats happening in my mind, that this excess baggage in my pre-programmed mind is completely unneeded and does not assist me to physically heal and ultimately it is building physical healing that one must always do when we are ill.

Join me next time as I take the necessary steps to make sure that I unravel these illness mind possessions I have been dealing with, and align myself to what is best for all life.

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Postby Marley Dawkins » 14 Jan 2018, 21:28

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Have you been reacting to an illness in your life before? If you have or if your going through that now then this blog will assist you so lets walk -

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react in various ways to being ill recently, I realise that these reactions have not assisted me to get better, and cannot assist me in any scenario in my life moving forward, so I take self-responsibility to redesign myself to not fight in my mind with an illness once it arrives.

I forgive myself that I have not realised in every here moment of breathe that these reactions are not assisting me to live what is best for all in every moment in self-honesty as breathe where I can apply common sense when I become Ill to be able to only allow that which supports physical healing.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that because I rarely ever get Ill, that It should be impossible for me to get Ill when in reality there is a form of contagion that can affect any physical being in existence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as the ego through the thought "I never get ill, how is this possible?" I understand and realise that when I stop and breathe, I am able to see that this thought is based in these memories, this accumulated knowledge of not become ill which I then became proud of and defined myself according to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as a person that "cannot become ill" when in reality I realise this concept is flawed on the basis of the fact that as an organic life form existing in this physical realm of existence, I am always vulnerable to some form of plague that exists - from an innocent child to the most physically strong on this planet, there is always a virus that can afflict us.

I forgive myself that I have not realised that just living in this world, within and as this physical body is an affliction one could say from the perspective that from the moment we are born we are doomed to have to continue fuelling our body to stay alive, because it will wither and die if we do not, and no matter how physically strong you are everyone in this world physically withers after our athletic prime fades away as we get older.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being weak, to fear being compromised, a fear of illness as the contagion is upon me - because these are not feelings that I am used to having myself, but I have for instance seen my mother for years dealing with severe illnesses, being compromised so I realise that this is the starting point of these fears.

So within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed hold onto memories of my mother being Ill for years and to react to these memories in fear of manifesting illness in my own body - I realise that fearing becoming ill to any degree can only make me more open an susceptible to an illness, so I have now learnt to forgive myself, to breathe whenever fears of illness come up, so that I remain stable, where my decision making is clear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying when I am ill, I mean everyone fears death at times, but when we are Ill these thoughts can become charged emotions, where we start believing we are actually dying, when the ego will always exaggerate what is reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for being Ill, this judgement is not self-honest, because it is based on the pre-programmed egotistical idea that it is not possible for me to become ill in the first place which is a complete delusion that keeps me in separation from reality as I have now seen.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be angry at myself for being ill, when again this is all stemming from a delusional idea which only keeps me in separation from physical reality and this anger is purely a reaction to this idea in self-dishonesty which is not acceptable, this anger cannot assist me in healing or living whats best for all life when I am ill, so I am walking, realigning myself and end this.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to waste many moments of breathe when I am Ill just through being confused, getting stuck in my mind for many moments in a day thinking about "how is this possible? Where did this come from?" when all these moments could be used more effectively to taking physical steps to heal instead of whining in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in conspiratorial paranoia about being Ill where I have been entrapping myself within a fear that someone is doing this to me, that someone is trying to silence me with a powerful virus. I realise that this concept does not assist healing, does not assists me to live whats best for all life and really only feeds my ego and strengthens the virus through me accepting this concept.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that someone is trying to kill me with this virus, which regardless of if that were true or not, how does that support me to beneficially change my situation now? It does not because it is based in separation from who I am as life as breathe.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get more easily distracted from things I'm working on when I am ill and to then justify my lack of focus and effort because I am ill. I can now understand and see that this justification empowers this distraction and vice versa, when if I simply direct myself as breathe here to move without these points, bringing myself back to what I'm doing consistently, then the distraction will reduce and the justification will disappear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be dishonest when people ask me how I am feeling when I am Ill - my ego automatically defends itself pretending and says "I'm fine, nothing wrong with me" I realise that when I am breathing and self-honest in these situations, I say "well I'm not great, but I'm reducing its affect on me mentally to improve my focus, and I'm doing all I can to fully recover asap." So I take self-responsibility to be honest with myself about my health, because if someone asks me if I am ok, I should only say I'm Ok if i'm actually ok.

I forgive myself for fearing that I will not get better from this affliction, that it will eventually sap my life force and destroy me - yet as I have seen in my road to recovery, I am actually around 80% recovered now, soon I will be 100%, so I can see how these fears that I have been having for weeks before were actually just drama in my mind based on no actual common sense whatsoever - so If I am ever to become Ill again, I will be ready for the games my mind tries to play, I redesign my mind now to be different next time.

I commit myself to not allowing myself to react in fear to being ill, I have seen for myself as I am recovering that these fears have not assisted me in anyway, but have only made the process more difficult and likely prolonged the illness itself. So as and when I see myself having any reactions to any potential future illnesses I have, then I stop and breathe, I do not allow myself to engage these thoughts, because I know the cycle of events that will occur in my mind, so I breathe and continue to do so until there is no more fear reactions that come up, so I can focus on healing and living whats best for all life through out it.

I commit myself to living the realisation that we are more emotional then usual when we are ill, and when we have a starting point of emotion in anything we do then we have a starting point of instability, so It is so important to check myself, to keep myself stable through breathing to pull the emotion out of the illness I am suffering from.

I commit myself to not allowing myself to believe that I cannot be affected by an illness, I have learnt just recently that It is possible for me to get ill, that it is possible for any being to get ill. So as and when I see my mind having thoughts that I am physically infallible, that I "cannot get ill" then I stop and breathe, I do not allow myself to interact with these thoughts, as this would only be the continuation of the separation of myself, so I continue to breathe until there is no more thoughts that come up.

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Postby Marley Dawkins » 21 Jan 2018, 21:24

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How many times have you been in situations in your live where, the circumstances and events of the situation make you feel like an Alien? A feeling that you are separate and different from a person or from a specific group you find yourself in - from a different culture, principle base, country, planet, solar system, galaxy, universe, or from a different reality even - Alienation is a word that encapsulates this feeling.

I have had a pattern of experiencing this in different situations through out my life, and while I have walked some corrections with this point before in the past, I see in certain situations still where i slip into this pre-programmed pattern of these same reactions and emotions.

I have carried this Alienation experience since I was a child, it is one of the long standing pre-programmed points within my make up that still require more direction - this belief that I am different, the alien within me that I have been carrying and what has been directing my decision making in many situations.

I see how certain events in my childhood contributed to this - all throughout school living in Bournemouth I was one of the few mixed race kids, all my best friends growing up were predominantly white, which in some situations is where you feel like the black sheep of the group, which develops like a chip on the shoulder experience continually.

I was the only one out of all my friends at school that had a mother that was always ill needing taking care of, and a grandfather who was more like my father then my real father and spoke about topics many people would call crazy, then a grandmother and father that I had never met - these factors fed into this Alien within me experience - feeling like none of my friends could understand how strange my family is.

Then within my family in terms of daily life with my mother or grandfather I was the only black sheep if that makes sense literally, then my grandfather for as many fascinating things he taught me about various kinds of Science, he did always have a lot to say about genetics, Nazi ideologies, Aliens and the strength of Aryan genetics, which again caused this internal judgement of myself, this idea that I cannot fit in because I have so much of a mix of genetics, then anger about this came in teenage years.

But he was never racist to me, because he would say I have the best of all genetics in me, but it was just that his incessant focus on genetics caused me to pay attention to race in a much closer almost paranoid way growing up, more perhaps then a young person really should.

Then also literally my Grandfather would call me Mars as my nickname, Aliens/Space was always a huge topic he loved. He also loved Orchestra and I even remember when he first played the track Gustav Holst - Mars the Bringer of War it had profound impact on me because he would literally say "this is you Mars" every time he played it, it would get me fired up and feeling strong, but ultimately something from far away that destroys.

Then through the repetitions through the years I started defining myself through the planet Mars in a way, an Alien destroyer you could say, which I can see is also a contributing factor as to why I was always getting into trouble as a youngster - after my grandfather died I always wondered and had a fear if he intended to do that to me, like a form of programming that he was doing to me.

Just recently I had a situation at work and a situation in my personal life which showed me I am still carrying a lot of shit in regards to this Alien within me experience.

Fascinating that when I see these Alienation thoughts come up in the moment and then I breathe, use common sense and then direct myself to integrate into the group, into the situation regardless of the stupidity that may be occurring in this person or group of humans.

But from there I can plant seeds, within amongst the chaos of the human ego, where ignorance, self-interest and detachment from physical reality is constantly running the bio frame of the human and the parameters of the wider reality that we all share together.

What does the ego say when you feel separated from people? Thoughts like - this person, or these people don't understand me, its like we are from different planets, their stupidity is mind numbing, I am much smarter then this person or this group of people, why can they not just see things like me, judgement upon judgement etc, etc.

Then what comes from interacting with these thoughts as the ego? All that comes is a limitation of myself as the mind consciousness system and thus a limitation of what I can achieve with this person or persons, where there will be no equal respect as life, but fear where my words and actions becoming more critical and unsupportive, where no mutual understanding and beneficial growth can occur which is not helpful for anyone.

It is irrelevant where we come from, we all come from different places, we all have different genetics, ideologies and understandings of existence - yet ultimately we are all equal as life living on planet Earth together, so we must find a way to agree on this no matter what, because we are truly in this together until the end, so re-aligning my resonance to what is best for all continually has to be done, no matter how many times I fall I will build up my muscle memory through accumulating my stability as breathe in situations where the Alienantion thoughts come up.

Only limitation, friction, conflict and the individualism of self-interest can come from feeding into this Alienation, so it is completely unacceptable.

I will not tolerate this to continue, to stifle any form of interactions with other beings I have in this world, I will find a way to work with and direct the most difficult of beings and groups in existence to what is best for all, through living as an example in my daily application.

That is all I can ever do is bring everything back to self here, because from here I can create self-honest change as myself in every moment of breathe, when I am outside of myself as the pre-programmed mind I cannot do anything other then continue the enslavement of myself and everyone around me which is unacceptable.

I am responsible for what I experience in any moment, we all are and we cannot allow ourselves to be aliens to eachother -

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Alienate myself from a person or peoples around me, I realise that this Alienation experience is a pattern of behaviour that has existed for too long within and as me, and does not support me in living what is best for all life, so I must continue to walk here as breathe until this Alien experience is breathe by breathe pulled apart and dissolved into nothingness.

Join me next time as I continue to walk this point...

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