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Postby Marley Dawkins » 19 Jun 2016, 20:34

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Smoke and mirrors, cloak and dagger - the ways of a being who allows themselves to be a magician is full of deception.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to automatically psychologically transform into a "Magician" character at certain points in my life. I realise that while this character can be useful in certain moments in certain lines of employment for example, it is not something that should be spilling into my life as a whole where i define myself through this character, because that is separation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in moments where someone is asking me to do something, or even sometimes just asking me a question - to shift into this "magician" character where my aim is to build anticipation of my response, utilising vague language, creating doubts in my "audience", attempting to hold a persons suspense, utilising misdirection and deception to then destroy the persons initial doubts, with shock "value".

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to delay the assisting of a person in need through allowing myself to exist as this magician character. I forgive myself that I have not realised in all moments that this character should not be coming up around friends and family, or in any moment or interaction with any being that is not related to employment.


I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to walk in the shoes of another in need immediately, and be straight and direct about my ability to assist this person or not here now. I realise that if I am in a shit situation where I am forced to ask someone to help me, that I would want to know asap here, whether or not the person I'm asking can help me with my dilemma, not games of magic and mystery just to get to a simple answer.

I forgive myself that as this character i allow myself to pretend that i can or cant do something, when the opposite is true, so that i am in the "position of power" in my mind over a persons perception of me, as the ego, as god, in complete separation of myself.

I forgive myself that i have not realised in every moment of breathe, that this "Magician" character is a mind consciousness system construction created through a long standing desire to be mysterious which has existed within me and I have fed into, since I was a young boy, through teenage years and into adulthood. So I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be mysterious
for years, to get energy, to more and more define myself through that energy in complete separation of myself.

I forgive myself that i have not realised until Iv'e started investigating, that this "Magician" character has been existing and accumulating within and as me for years. I realise that i learnt this character from interactions with the world in younger years - I always remember my granddad saying to me as a young boy that you should "Always keep your cards close to your chest". I realise that I learnt the cornerstones of this character from my grandfather saying this to me, so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto the memories of my grandfather supporting mystery, secrecy, magic and the occult, and then using those memories to accumulate with various other layers through the years into a "magician" character.

I forgive myself for not realising that just because I find magic and the occult to be interesting like my grandfather, that does not mean that creating a "magician" character in my life, in complete separation of myself is acceptable, so i take self-responsibility to sort this out so that this is not something that comes up with every person in my life, or that I am defined according to, but rather something I can just utilise for employment to complete a mission for example.


I commit myself to not allowing myself to feed into and define myself as this "Magician" character, I realise that while it can assist a person to use elements of this character to complete certain tasks in certain employment, this is not something that should come up automatically around friends, family and everyone i know. So as and when I see myself shifting into and as this "Magician" character in any moment outside of employment, then I stop and breathe, I realise that this is not a mission, that I must not feed into the thoughts to shift into the "magician", so I breathe and continue to do so until the thoughts do not come up, where i am able to apply common sense, create and live solutions that are best for all here.

I commit myself to living the realisation, that even when I utilise points of this character during employment, that I must make sure I am not believing the bullshit I am spinning, that I am not feeding energy into and actually defining myself in my life as this magician character, because I realise that this will only lead to the further separation of myself. So I realise that once I stop the automation of this character around people, then I will eventually be able to decide myself when and if I shall use this character, and purely as an interaction point, rather then a possession point, to assist with the completion of an employment task to the best of my ability. Because other then that, as I have shown there is no benefit for all life in day to day living to accepting this character.

I commit myself to investigating and applying myself with regards to this point no matter how much investigation and application is required, until I am satisfied that my interaction is actually best for all in all moments.

I commit myself to living the realisation that being open, direct and clear with people in day to day living is always best for all, because that way, there is no cards being hidden, no games being played, no magic being attempted, but simply the reality of my capacity to assist life here, which makes it quicker, more fluid and effective to get to a solution that is best for all in any situation.



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Re: Marleys Journey To Life

Postby Marley Dawkins » 27 Jun 2016, 01:00

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Rarely do most humans understand and live the words we speak - so I'm looking at words that I use a lot in day to day living, to see whether my understanding and living of the words I'm speaking is actually whats best for all or existing in separation.

I noticed recently that when I was explaining something complex to someone, I kept saying the word basically during my explanation to this person. I could see that what was coming up within me in this moment was a desire to sound informed, intelligent and breaking things down in a simple way for this person so that i feel "good" as the enlightened one sharing "my mighty knowledge" about the topic with another.

Now while a desire to break complex topics down in simple way is practical, because it assists me in not getting overwhelmed by intricate subjects, and sticking to the basics when I do research something - desiring to "come across" as intelligent, so that I feel "good" is not practical at all, but based entirely on the ego -- where within this I am not getting to the basics of the topic at all, but rather I am making things more complex.

I notice that if I'm saying the word basically occasionally in a conversation to summarise concisely in a sentence what I'm saying, then my understanding and explanation will of the point I'm sharing will usually be clear, where i know exactly what I'm saying - but if i am saying the word basically a lot during a conversation, like overusing the word, it is sometimes because my understanding of the subject is not direct here, yet i am trying to present my understanding as being clear when it is not.

So I'm actually trying to cover over my lack of intelligence of the subject through using words like basically, information, eventually, clarity -- words that sound "intelligent" to project a pretence to the person that i am an expert on the topic, rather then just saying I am not sure, which is deception.

I can see that the word basically has a positive emotional connotation in my mind, where its almost like just saying the word reassures my pre-programmed mind that I am "getting to the basics" of a topic even when a small amount or very limited real research on the topic has been done.

dictionary definition of basically - In the most simple respects; fundamentally. Used to indicate that a statement summarises the most important aspects, or gives a roughly accurate account, of a more complex situation.

Basically -

base cycle i

basic all lie

base i see all lie

base i call my

best structurally

best i see

basic all yes


Basically sounds like, the base cycle, the basis of something - to see things basically here, is to see the best i see, that all points of existence are equally as basic as each other -- so we as humanity currently do not collectively live the word basically, we do the opposite where everything in our lives is full of complexities, where we over complicate the most simple and basic of points, where we base all we see in lies.

So we require to live basically, where we see the base cycles - where we investigate the base of all lies, because its best I see all lies, so that I cant be deceived and can create the best I see, the best structurally sound designs and manifestations, where all living beings are provided the basics to get the best results.

Join me in my next blog as I continue to investigate and redefine the word Basically.



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Re: Marleys Journey To Life

Postby Marley Dawkins » 03 Jul 2016, 18:09

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I see how I have not been living the word basically according to whats best for all, but according to separation within and as me.

I see how the word basically should only be utilised to break reality down to its most basic fundamentals, so that one can more effectively see and implement what solutions are required to create what is best for all life in every moment.

I see how I have been deceiving myself within utilising the word in separation of myself as the ego, abusing the word by trying to "come across" as intelligent and informed about a topic, playing "master of knowledge" in my mind, when in reality whenever I am overusing the word Basically in a conversation, it actually indicates that my understanding of the topic is lacking and I have been allowing my ego to fill in the gaps with words like basically.

I see how I have been creating all this mental complexity in relation to words like basically, when of course this should be broken down to a simple, direct definition and living of the word that I'm speaking that is actually beneficial for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in separation of the word Basically, by creating and promulgating complex mental connections where i attempt to deceive others, through abusing words like basically, where I overuse "intelligent vocabulary" in a conversation as a means of "covering" by lack of knowledge on a subject.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be a "master of knowledge" that any and all can turn to for any answer, without actually being an expert on all subjects. I realise that there is no "masters" that exist, and knowledge is only useful if one is an expert on the subject and thus able to apply the knowledge physically here to improve their life and the lives of others.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and feed into a positive feeling I get from using words like basically and from desiring to be someones "Morpheus" character in my mind showing people "the door" to the "greatest knowledge".

I forgive myself that I have not realised in all moments that I am attempting to enslave people whenever I am abusing words like basically, as a false god, making everything more complex rather then keeping things basic.

I forgive myself that I have not realised in all moments that if I am not taking the time to research, learn, and apply a piece of knowledge fully, then it will be ineffective knowledge to know, because my understanding of it will be lacking, and thus my explanation of it when I'm explaining it to another will be limited and over complicated. I realise that complications always happen when we don't understand the fundamentals, the basics of any topic.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience myself as embarrassed and stupid if I don't know something, and then through a desire to be informed, pretend that I know it. I have since realised that embarrassment and stupidity is not beyond any being, we have all experienced that, and I realise that whenever I experience myself as embarrassed or stupid, that is actually cool, because it is indicating to me that I am not clear and stable here, and that I require to learn more about a subject, and most importantly I require to learn more about and correct myself here through tools of self-change.


I forgive myself that I have not realised in all moments that while I genuinely am an expert on certain subjects, that does not in anyway validate allowing this to affect me, by believing that because I am expert in some subjects that "automatically" means I am an expert in other subjects that I am not actually an expert in. Its like claiming to be a black belt in all martial arts, when really while you may be a black belt in a few styles, your actual applied knowledge of all the martial arts that exist is that of a white belt.

I commit myself to removing the points of separation I have created in relation to words like basically, I commit myself to not allowing any desires to be more then anyone else to manifest through abusing intelligent words. So when and as I see thoughts come up based on trying to be more then another through knowledge, I stop and breathe, I do not allow myself to engage these thoughts, but rather breathe, and continue to do so until these thoughts are no more.

I commit myself to living the word basically in every breathe, where I see everything down to its basic components. I commit myself to admitting when I don't know something, and only speaking when i am actually an expert on something. When and as i see myself overusing words like basically in a conversation, I stop and breathe, I do not allow myself to go into the thoughts that are coming up, instead I breathe and continue to do so, until this pattern does not come up anymore, where through my walking as breathe, there is only me here expressing as life.


I realise that having an expansive Vocabulary is cool, because the more words we have direct memory access to, then the more of ourselves and our world we are able to understand, communicate and interact with. However regardless of that, any word that is tainted by my pre-programmed mind, must be unravelled and aligned to whats best.

Redefinition - Basically -- the base of all I see, the truth of everything, the equal basis of all life here.

I realise that creating complexities in relation to words, actually then makes everything in my life more complex, so to support myself to live basically, I can make sure that any activity/movement/direction I engage in, I stick to the basic fundamentals of what I'm doing, that brings me back to physical reality. For instance researching new information, investigating leads, speaking to an audience, my day to day activities, are all areas where living the word basically will make sure that I can actually unravel complex information effectively, and then come to the best solution possible for all life.



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Re: Marleys Journey To Life

Postby Marley Dawkins » 11 Jul 2016, 14:21

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So recently I have met someone that is religious, and I find it interesting looking at what reactions come up within me when I am around religious people.

I find that anytime a person mentions going to church, praying to God, reading scripture things like that - I tend to find its like a grating experience inside myself - like the person is infected and I must avoid them like the plague. Why is what someone else believes causing me to become unstable?

Yes I know religions are designed to enslave people, because the truth of where religions comes from, spawns from millions of years ago before the words Christian or Muslim had even been spoken.

All current religions in the world are essentially new religions in the scope of this planets history, and once you go back to civilisations like Ancient Egypt, Greece, Sumeria and civilisations before then, the true story becomes clearer and clearer. But regardless of this, I can see I am missing something here, I am judging religious people as "less then" in my mind, because I'm not placing myself in the shoes of another.

Now while religion is a problem in the world, as I have discussed with this person, it is not the religions themselves that is where the problems exist - it is in the fact that humans mostly do not live the words of their religions.


Yes there are religions, and fanatical concepts that are destructive in their design, but in actual fact many of the most popular religions today do have the message of equality written within them. The problem is that humans get caught in their minds amongst the war, the glory, the praising, the omnipotence and slavery. Everyone utilising their "free will" creating their own idea of what the religious scripture means to them, our own personal Jesus so to speak - and when there is no clear parameters that all beings adhere to in anything, then the point becomes open to abuse.

But look at the message of Jesus in Christianity - "love thy neighbour as thyself", "do unto others as you would have them do unto you." These statements are based in Equality and Oneness. Yet many Christians do not live these words, because that is what humans are used to doing - not living our words equal and one as ourselves, but instead living our delusions in connection to the words.


So most Christians praise Jesus instead of living as Jesus, where Jesus becomes a personal Icon in the mind, instead of the words of the being becoming a liveable principle. But from this perspective of humans not living their words, one can say that it doesn't make a difference if a person is religious or not, because all humans are united in existing as pre-programmed mind consciousness systems.

What is important to note with religions as well, is the fact that they are so ingrained into the world existence as it has been set up here, that many, many people are indoctrinated into religions from a very young age. In many cultures this is the case, so regardless of what I know about religions and where they come from - I know that everything I know is only based on my life experience, and there was a time that I didn't know what I know now -- so why would I judge a person for being religious? If I was brought up in a religious family, then I would also be religious - this is a realisation that I must live in all moments.

Join me in my next blog as I continue this point.



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Postby Marley Dawkins » 17 Jul 2016, 19:01

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Now while I will never support another persons religious delusions, I can see how I have deluded myself in my life regarding my experiences towards religions and the people that support them -

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react emotionally as annoyance and fear when I am around a religious person whenever they speak about their religion - I realise that I have pre-programmed myself to have disdain and disregard for religions through these emotions, which I require to change to improve myself as a living being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed other peoples beliefs to cause me to become unstable inside myself - I realise that I am responsible for my own mind, and as such there is never a valid reason that another persons beliefs should cause me to exist in separation here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify reacting to religions in my mind, because of knowing where religions come from and what they have been put here to do, which is enslave people with the perfected hierarchical unison of church and state.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto memories of my grandfather repeatedly explaining about the fallacy of religion to me growing up, which is where I can see the reactions I have had to religions in my life first came from. I realise that in an opposite scenario - if I was brought up in a family where I was repeatedly taught that religion is real and Atheism/Science is a fallacy, then I would probably be religious too.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist, argue with and separate myself from religious people all my life at various points, which I realise is a manifested consequence of a lifetime of designing, feeding into and existing as the pre-programmed mind, where I have developed all kinds of memories, emotions and fears connected to religion.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to regard myself as having "higher knowledge" as ego, and judging religious people as having "lesser knowledge" creating a polarity friction within me - deceiving myself in ignorance, without realising that all knowledge is equal as such, and thus everything I know now, once upon a time I did not know. There is a process of realisation - all beings are equal to all knowledge in existence, and so we increase our capacity of understanding of ourselves and our world as we learn, accumulating knowledge and how to apply that knowledge in our lives.

I forgive myself that I have not realised in all moments that whenever I am judging a person, it is because I am not placing myself in the shoes of this person - I am deluding myself that this person is somehow different and separate from me, instead of living the realisation that regardless of what a person believes in their mind -- we are all equal as living beings with the exact same requirements, so I take self-responsibility to live this realisation, no matter what, where I walk equal with all beings, instead of putting imaginary "fences" around certain beings based on their beliefs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the words like Religion, Prayer and God with negative emotional connotations, while at the same time charging words like Science, Physical and Reality with positive feelings in my mind. I realise that creating and living polarities into existence only keeps me enslaved within and as separation and so any point of polarity that exists must be released so that I create and live what is best for all into existence.

I forgive myself that I have not realised in all moments that beneficial impacts on peoples lives can come though religions if the person lives a beneficial principle from their religion to improve their life, and thus improve their participation and impact in making the world a better place.

I forgive myself that I have not realised in every breathe, that as long as their is improvement in a persons life, as long as there is no forcing beliefs upon anyone else, no physical abuse being allowed to self or to another through the beliefs, then a persons religion is mostly irrelevant.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear a day when everyone is forced to be a certain religion - I realise that while religions have been forced upon people many times in the past, this fear will not assist me in my day to day living, so I walk as breathe to release this fear every time it comes up, until it comes up no more.


I forgive myself that I have not realised in every here moment of breathe, that there are psychopaths in the world that are religious, where these beings follow insane belief systems that abuse life, or they have twisted the words of a religion to fit their warped character - but at the same time, there are psychopaths that exist in the world that are not religious at all, these beings that abuse life have no principles and essentially "no rules" which fits their warped character.

So within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that abuse is not exclusive to religions, abuse is not prejudice, the allowance of abuse while it can be facilitated by religions, is not a religious issue - abuse is a human issue, and until humanity stand up individually and in unity for life, then religious and non religious people will be abusing each other, which i will not accept to exist in my world.



I commit myself to treating all beings how i would like to be treated, because I realise that this is a principle and requirement here in living what is best for all which I am committed to - so If any being will walk with me, then we will assist each other in improving our lives. If a being will not walk with me and wants to be separate from me, then I walk away which in both scenarios is best for all - so as and when i see my mind reacting to a religious persons words, I stop and breathe - I do not allow myself to engage with any thoughts, because i know the consequences if I do -- so I breathe and continue to do so until there are no more thoughts that come up.

I commit myself to removing all reactions/pre-programmed thoughts in relation to religion in my life - I will live the realisation that all beings are equal as life, and must be treated as such regardless of what exists in a persons mind - I will live the realisation that nothing a being believes should ever cause me to become unstable within myself.



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Postby Marley Dawkins » 31 Jul 2016, 22:05

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I have no reactions to microchips anymore, but if you do then walk these self-forgiveness statements, because these type of statements have assisted me to transcend my reactions to microchips.

So lets remove all delusions from the word Microchips -

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word Microchips to fear in my mind. Now while it is possible for Microchips to be used from a starting point of fear, I also realise that Microchips are nothing to fear in of themselves, because it is just technology that has been created in our world, it is the intentions of a being that makes any technology be utilised in fear or support.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear everyone having a microchip inside them since I was about 11. I realise that this fear of microchips only developed once I found out about the hidden government/Illuminati, so within this -

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to information about the existence of the Illuminati, and then from that to create fears about everyone having microchips inside them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify this fear, through knowing what some people intend to use the technology for. So within this I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame the intentions of others for the fear that has been existing inside of me in self-honesty.

I forgive myself that I have not realised in every here moment of breathe, that what I experience inside of me is my responsibility in all moments.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as the ego, to desire a 1984 style Illuminati totalitarian system to be implemented, so that it would validate everything I have learnt and know about the Illuminati to those who have dismissed what I have said in the past. I realise that I have reacted to what people have said about the Illuminati to me, but then I have distracted myself from my reaction by focusing on desiring to see a New world order - Self-Dishonesty, which is unacceptable, so I take self-responsibility to change this about myself and instead live in Self-honesty within and as every breathe.

I forgive myself that I have allowed the Illuminati to control my thoughts purely through the inventions that they make in accordance with their intentions. I realise that unless thought control technology is used on me, then I have no excuse for allowing fear based thoughts in my mind about things the Illuminati create - So within my capacity, within my day to day experience, I will not allow anyone to mind control me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be affected by apocalypse based religious/pagan beliefs of religious and fanatical people to fuel fear of microchips within my mind in younger years. I realise that their is no "prophecy" that exists that will ever validate me allowing fear in my mind.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not connected to the Illuminati, that they are some "big thing" much more then me in separation from me. I have since realised in recent years, that the Illuminati is comprised of human beings just like me, they are just physical beings on Earth like me. I am equal to every being in the Illuminati and as such, the Illuminati is me, so I will direct the Illuminati as myself to what is best for all life on Earth.

I forgive myself that I have not realised in all moments that through indoctrinating myself with the negative uses of microchips, I have not realised in every moment, that there are many beneficial uses to microchip technology, some of which I have highlighted in my last blog.

I forgive myself that I have not realised in every breathe that everybody is tracked by the government/Illuminati from birth already, so why would I fear something that I cannot escape?

I forgive myself that I have not realised in every moment of my life, that we already have a microchip inside all of us called DNA, so again why would I fear something that is already inside of me?

I forgive myself that i have not realised that regardless of how extreme sounding some of the applications for various microchips has been - at the end of the day we must remove the applications that are abusive to life, and keep the applications that can support life in anyway.


I commit myself to living the realisation that no matter how advanced or extreme the applications of a piece of technology can be, if any technology is used from a starting of whats best for all, then it can support life and must be used to do so. So as and when i see destructive thoughts coming up in my mind in relation to microchips, I stop and breathe and continue to do so, until there are no more thoughts that come up.

I commit myself to living the realisation that Microchips like any technology are a part of my world, and thus are a part of me.



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Re: Marleys Journey To Life

Postby Marley Dawkins » 07 Aug 2016, 21:58

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I've lived with dogs my entire life, there has always been a hairy canine in my daily living. I find dogs to be amazing beings, which are called "mans best friend" for good reason. I enjoy their physicality, their touch and expression, I've been through all the high points and low points of my life, and dogs have always assisted me and vice versa.

I've noticed recently that as I've had a few issues come up in my life, that whenever I find out a person does not like dogs, or doesn't like the breed of dogs that I have, I react - I get pissed off by what I perceive to be nothing but fear and ignorance, and then I start judging the person in my mind as an arsehole, and then will do anything to avoid that person.

I mean yes, dogs and all animals should not be feared, but why is this happening? Why am I taking that personally? Why am I not considering the fact that we all have been brought up in different ways? Because that is the truth, so I'm looking here at placing myself in the shoes of someone who is afraid of dogs or certain dogs.

I have assisted people before in the past that have animal fears, like friends and ex partners that had particularly dog fears, which is my speciality to assist a person with when it comes to animals I would say - my dogs are great for people like that, because Rottweilers and Staffies are considered breeds that cause fear for many people. But Cypher and Baku are so friendly to people that it really helps people to see that it is all a matter of how animals are treated as to whether or not they are dangerous.


And I think in part my recent reactions to people saying they don't like dogs, is because when I think of teaching people to understand dogs, I immediately have memories of ex partners come up, which regardless of the "high points" all ended up in "low points" and the ending of the relationship, so its kind of like in my mind I think - well that was a pointless lesson to show someone because they are gone and avoid me like the plague now, so why bother next time?

But I realise that my actions must be unconditional, if I'm assisting people with animal fears, just so they can like me, and want to be around me, then my starting point is completely fucked. I realise that I cannot control what people do, but I can unconditionally plant seeds, and there is no end to the value that action in and of itself has, which even if the person never sees me again as a friend or in any capacity, what I have shown them in regards to dogs may still assist them in later years to get to a point of self-realisation regarding their equality to all life.

So instead of reacting in my mind to people that have fears of dogs and animals in general when I next come across it, I will not react and avoid the person, I will attempt to interact with the person, and assist them or just plant a seed, I will not allow, memories, fears and emotions dictate my interaction.

So join me in my next blog as I walk self-forgiveness/self-corrective statements.



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Postby Marley Dawkins » 14 Aug 2016, 19:36

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continuing from my last blog -

Yes its true if a person has problems with Dogs or any animals, then they will have to change that at some point in their life in order to become a better human being, but I cannot let myself react to people just because they don't like dogs -

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react whenever I find out that a person does not like dogs, or the type of dogs I have. I realise that within the capitalist system we have in place in the world, everyone has had different upbringings/education and so varying degrees of understanding of reality, so I take self-responsibility to live this realisation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get pissed off by the fear and ignorance of others - I realise that if someone is accepting fear and ignorance in relation to anything, then that is their problem to resolve, not mine, so it should not be affecting me in anyway whatsoever unless their fear/ignorance is causing consequences of abuse in my world, in which case I can simply block them and move on.

I forgive myself that I have not realised in all moments that some people raise dogs to be aggressive, and so some people have been attacked badly by aggressive dogs in the past, and even if they haven't, they might know someone that was, or maybe they may have been raised in a house with no animals, and so may have been taught at a young age to treat animals with disdain. So it is not acceptable for me to judge people because they cant let go of those traumatic memories/life experiences - this world is living proof that letting go of traumatic experiences is something that we all have struggled with more then anything else -- in my experience the worst memories in our lives are always full of the most thoughts and emotions, and thus are the most difficult to release.


I forgive myself that I have not realised in every breathe, that I have allowed fear and ignorance in relation to other points in my life, such as with things like criminality, relationships, drugs - so it makes no sense to judge anyone for thoughts and emotions that I have experienced myself in different contexts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress a memory of when I myself was afraid of a dog in a moment - I remember being about 7 years old, my mums friend had an old grumpy dog, and I wanted to play, he didn't and he bit me, so in reality although I have always enjoyed dogs hugely, I know exactly what emotions one experiences in a moment of fearing a dog.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attempt to avoid people that are afraid of dogs, because of experiencing thoughts that to attempt to support them to change the point will be hopeless.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as hopelessness in regards to supporting people to let go of dog fears.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify this avoidance in my mind, because of memories of past relationships and friendships, where I attempted to support the person to let go of their fear of dogs and I perceive that I "failed", because many of those relationships or friendships from the past ended on disagreeable terms - so in my mind I go into hopelessness when I find a person that I meet now in my life is afraid of dogs, which I am realising is limited stupidity --

So I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto memories of broken down relationships from the past as a justification to react to, judge, and avoid people with Dog fears. I realise that regardless of what has happened in the past, as with all things, if I see that someone has an issue inside of themselves that I know I can support them with or plant a seed, then I must do that, but if my giving is not unconditional then it is pointless -

So I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to in the past offer support to people with dog fears, just so that the person will like and respect me and thus stay in my life, which is a conditional giving of support based in self-interest, which is unacceptable. I realise that how a person responds to my support is never the point in terms of my interaction - that I attempt to support, and do it from an unconditional starting point which is the key to living whats best for all -

So within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire a person to like me for supporting them to let go of dog fears, and then be offended if they don't start releasing those fears immediately and thanking me/liking me. I realise this is a complete lack of understanding and psychotic concept in reality, so I take self-responsibility to change these problems inside my mind and my interaction.

I forgive myself that I have not realised in all moments, that within anything, I must support a person unconditionally, and I can only do so when I am completely clear, no hidden agendas, and am fully experienced in how to change the point, while also understanding of peoples varying degrees of education and thus ability to make those changes immediately or at all.


I realise that the reward for attempting to support a person completely unconditionally, is that even if the person doesn't respond or take interest in my attempted support I will not be offended, I will not react, because I am not expecting anything in return for my giving, the point of unconditional is completely free, no payment, so if they support themselves to change their fears then great, if they don't then they don't. If they don't we will possibly still part ways, but it will be on beneficial terms because I will not be offended/emotional/verbally abusive as the ego that "they didn't listen to me" and who knows in years to come, a memory of something I said may help them out in later life when they are ready to change - the power of planting a seed must never be underestimated, I have seen that myself with other people regarding other points, and within myself when someone has supported me in my process.

I commit myself to not allowing myself to hold onto unsupportive memories in regards to attempting to assist people with dog fears in the past. As and when i see thoughts/memories coming up in my mind that fuel judgements to people with dog fears, I stop and breathe, I realise the time loop, the destructive chain of events that will happen if I participate with those thoughts/memories, so I breathe and continue to breathe until there are no more unsupportive thoughts/memories that come up when I find out a person doesn't like dogs.


I commit myself to living the realisation that if I attempt to support anyone to support themselves to change anything about themselves, then it is only valid support if I do it unconditionally, otherwise it will only be conditional/emotional/self-interested support, which is not support at all but abuse so I take self-responsibility to end this mind game that's been happening in my head.

I commit myself to not react as an offended experience if a person does not respond/take action with regards to my attempted support. I realise that the proof of this will only be proven if my support is unconditional in the first place in self honesty. If my "support" is conditional it will only be ego, dishonesty, separation and abuse and thus i will be offended. So as and when I attempt to support a person to look at how to release their dog fears, i first breathe, where I can apply common sense and create the best solution, where I make sure that there is no thoughts/memories/hidden agendas at play - also if and when a person does not take interest in my support in the future, as and when I see any thoughts/memories/emotions coming up, i stop and breathe, I do not allow myself to go into anything that comes up, I just breathe here as myself as life equal and one, and continue to breathe through the points until there is no more reactions in these moments.

I commit myself to living the realisation that we all have varying degrees of education and thus ability to change even if we are provided support.



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Re: Marleys Journey To Life

Postby Marley Dawkins » 21 Aug 2016, 18:46

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You could say we are special in terms of us being living beings, with the potential and capacity to change our ways and become the gardeners of this planet. We all have unique attributes and experiences, which compliment us in our expression as living beings, which can inspire and support ourselves and others to be the best that we can be in anything that we do. So we all have something to contribute to a better world - but have you ever thought that something about you, some accomplishment, some belief, or something about your physical design makes you think you are special and more important then others?

I have experienced this before, everyone has in certain moments of our life, for instance I remember training in martial arts when I was about 12 years old - after training there for a year or so, my head coach at the time, put me training with the over 16s. I was the only under 16 kid that was training with the over 16s in my gym. I remember my head coach having a private chat with me about competing professionally, then making a speech in front of everyone basically giving me loads of praise.

I remember in the moment and the many subsequent moments after that I began thinking I'm special, that I have more importance to other people because "I'm the only 12 year old training with the over 16s". But I wouldn't say it to people, I would tell people that I don't think I'm that good, even though in my mind I did, so I kept my "special me" thoughts to myself in my mind in dishonesty, and then started pretending that I'm not experiencing these thoughts in self-dishonesty. As a consequence from not dealing with this shit in my mind effectively, I started slacking off my training, started acting more like a veiled bigshot/bully, started thinking only I know best, starting street fights, that I can do whatever I want to people, and generally just started being a little shit disrespecting the martial arts and life in general more and more into teenage years.

Parents often tell their children that they are special, so many can relate to thinking they are special from a young age. Most commonly moments where we think we are special, are when we have the highest points of money and or the love energy that we have experienced in our lives. An example that everyone can relate to could be characterised by things like when we have a birthday - we get gifts, money, and feel the "love energy" from people more then usual. Within this many people believe they have special rules on their birthday, which can then become an excuse to abuse people as a consequence.

I have since realised that humans individually thinking that they are more important then each other is one of the main reasons the world is a fucked up place today. Because when a person believes this "specialness" intently, then an addiction to the energy of "feeling special" becomes evident, where a person will stop at nothing just to garner some extra attention from people, to demand more praise then others, and consequentially, this concept becomes a cornerstone for abusing life.


Just have a look at all the worst humans in this world, the most psychopathic, many of them being Royals, bankers, celebrities, politicians etc - all of them are trapped within the ego, receiving masses of money/love energy, believing intently that they have special rules, that they are beyond any form of universal law, that they are "gods" and thus can literally "do what they want" to people. You will bow to their apparent "almightiness" as a slave, or you will be attacked and disregarded by them for not bowing - either way you will be abused, and this kind of thinking has been proven throughout recorded time, to only perpetuate a world of harm and a mathematical certainty of the extinction of a species, which i will not accept for myself, because all lifeforms are equal as gods, and we are supposed to be gods of an eden like reality that we build, not some ignorant tyrant gods, destroying ourselves and our world as we have accepted ourselves to be for far too long time.

No matter what you achieve in this world, no matter how you are designed, there is no difference, realise that you are a living being with the same requirements as any living being - food, water, shelter, electricity, a life of dignity. We are all equal as life, we will all walk on this Earth for a certain period of time, then no matter how long it takes you will die and turn to dust.


This is not to say that we should not enjoy striving for and making great achievements in our lives, that is not a problem at all, to do the best we can in any undertaking is something we should always do. The problem only comes in when we hold onto those achievements, focus on our pride, and become possessed by the energy of "specialness" demanding special treatment and praise from others which is abuse and so will only lead to fucked up consequences.

So if you are experiencing yourself as special now because of some achievement, or something about your design, or if someone in your world is dealing with "specialness" issues, then join me in my next blog as i walk the corrections to this.



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Re: Marleys Journey To Life

Postby Marley Dawkins » 28 Aug 2016, 21:59

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Do you believe you have more importance then others for some reason? Do you desire to have people giving you constant attention? Do you desire to have slaves instead of equal relationships with people?

Realise that you are no different to any living being - you will turn to dust, nothing can stop that certainty, just the same way as nothing can stop the certainty that you breathe the same air as any other being that requires oxygen. You will eat food at some point, you will take a piss and a shit at some point, and you will require all your basic necessities to have a life of dignity. These facts are no different for any being.

The delusion of "specialness" is something that many in the Illuminati have yet to deal with, as well as the majority of humanity in general, however it can tend to be more pronounced within many people at the top of the elite.

What is interesting is that we can actually become a truly special race in terms of our ability to change and take care of life. But it is this sole concept of being special from a starting point of ego in many peoples mind which is a massive part of what has got the human species in the mess we are in now. In human history there has been an endless supply of people who thought they were "special saviours" that are going to "save the world by themselves". In reality it is only ever through unity that the greatest tasks that our species face can be corrected, so this planet is tired of this delusion of "I am special" in the minds of humans, because it is actually only something that pushes us towards the extinction of our species. I will never accept that for myself as a part of my world, so if you agree, then walk with me out of this insane delusion -

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that something about me, some accomplishment, some belief, or something about my physical design that makes me more important then other people. I realise that this is the cornerstone of continually recreating the world as the fucked up place that it is, which i will not accept, so I take self-responsibility to live equal to all beings in this world.

I forgive myself that I have not realised in every breathe that we all have unique attributes, skills and elements to our personality that is our expression as living beings - every single being in this world has something which can contribute to a better world. I realise that everyone can be uplifted to reach their maximum potential in this world, and everyone should be congratulated for their accomplishments -- but the moment we start demanding praise, the moment we start believing that we should be above other people as a god in our own heaven like the reptilian being Anu, then that indicates requiring serious mental corrections.

I forgive myself that I have not realised in every moment that when I believe I am truly more important then others, I am directly saying to people - bow to me or burn in hell for eternity. So this "I am special" delusion can only create consequences of abuse, and this is something that all the worst people in this world mentally struggle with, and will have to find a way to correct, or life will disregard them the same way that they have disregarded life.

I forgive myself that I have not realised that this whole "specialness" concept, is something that I have been taught by parents in younger years, and/or has developed when I have received unreasonable amounts of love or money energy in this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become addicted to love and/or money energy, which I realise is how this "specialness" ego fuck up in the mind has developed.

I forgive myself for not realising in every moment that humanity are supposed to be the gods of eden on this planet, not tyrant gods of destruction.While this world is falling apart, we still have the capacity and capabilities to change change our ways and build a better world before it is too late.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as cult leader through this "specialness" character, where I believe that "only I" know what is right, that "I am never wrong" and nobody can question my word, which is nothing but a hopeless misconception - learning is an endless process, so everyone has corrections to make and new knowledge to learn how to apply in our lives -- nobody in this world is omnipotent and "all knowing" but its interesting how this "specialness" character allows us to believe that we are.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that only I know what is right, that I am never wrong as this "specialness" character, where in reality I only become more confused about how learning works, and become more effective at ignoring the suffering of life, which is unacceptable.

I forgive myself that I have not realised in all moments that giving 100% of my effort in any undertaking is beneficial for all life, that striving for and making achievements in this world is beneficial for all life, but the problems only come in when I start reacting to my achievments, allowing my achievements to pump up my ego and develop this "i am so special" character, where my capacity to do whats best for all life will be massively compromised.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to take pride in only my own achievements, when in reality i should be expereicning pride in every beings achievements that are supportive for life in this world, as well as assisting and building people up who have yet to achieve things in this world - this i can only achieve through living in equality and oneness as life, not through the concept of me "being special".


I commit myself to not allowing myself to exist as this "I am special" character in my life, I realise that this concept is destructive in its very nature, so when and as i see thoughts coming up in my mind based in this "I am so special" concept, I stop and breathe, I do not allow myself to engage with any of these thoughts, instead I continue to stick to breath no matter how many times these "specialness" thoughts come up, I continue to breathe, until there are no more "specialness" thoughts that come up.

I commit myself to living the realisation that I cannot change the worst problems in the world on my own, it is only through unity with other living beings that beneficial changes will happen in the world, not through a deluded mental concept of being "special".

I commit myself to supporting people to realise the importance of unity, and the dangers of thinking we are special. So I commit myself to planting seeds and calling out anyone who is trapped within the "specialness" character.




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