Very cool practical support here, Carrie - it's definitely those moments where we can start changing the 'starting point' of our day within 'waiting for something/someone to come and 'entertain us' as Kurt Cobain would say lol and so only becoming a subject of experiences being generated for us, subjecting ourselves to getting a 'kick out of life' instead of realizing that life is not an experience as in giving us these emotional or feeling experiences, life is about the physical activities that we do and participate in as part of our realization that yes we are in this world and yes there's a lot of things to do, to sort out, to understand and change in this world, so I begin with myself - at least that's part of my reasoning also behind being able to quit weed or any other habit wherein I was subject to experiences instead of being self-directive which means, being able to rather change the activities, the 'every day living' from how I used to spend my time before. So as with anything we 'remove' we then have to 'replace' with self-supportive directions and 'habits' that can then support us to walk through that process of letting go of the past, the old habits, the old patterns and so this is why it is practical to lay out the 'instructions' as to what am I going to do when I see myself 'being bored' for example or 'seeking to fly away from reality' and that way we ground ourselves in physical reality based on laying out activities, responsibilities, points that we decide then to do as part of our self-support, of taking responsibility for ourselves and our reality.
I havent said anything but I havent smoked weed for 15days now. I will write about it when on here when I go through that part of my journal entry but what you said was like a more clear observation of what I was going through.
Very cool! a point that supported me was to also let go of the fears of 'who I would be' without it or letting go of wanting to continue living 'on a cloud' and certainly it takes simply a decision to no longer climb up back again to be high or just in the 'feel good' mood, and rather look at the practicality of it, the money spent, the consequences at a physical level, the relationships, the entire 'lostness' and 'fogginess' that I had made of my life at that time, which actually I only much later found out that I hadn't have such a 'good time' while on weed, but I had in fact neglected myself a lot, suppressed a Lot of emotional experiences and the entirety of my decisions in life. So, it's best to stop it for once and for all, that's what I suggest as a preventive measure for any desire to smoke again if it comes up or else.
Thanks for sharing, Joseph