Cool that you brought up boredom. Observing myself when I am 'bored', I see I go into waiting for something to happen and within this, I pace around and then attempt to find something to entertain myself with. The problem is, when I'm done pacing around or whatever I'm entertaining myself with is over/ends, I am STILL bored and waiting for something cool, distracting, fun, or exciting to happen. In regards to weed, it's probably been your 'go-to' fix for boredom for a loooong time and so you're looking at a pattern/habit that's become a part of you after a long while of accumulating the same behavior in response to a situation/experience over-and-over-again. So, here you can utilize the breathing to breath through the impulse to smoke weed when and as you become bored and from there, move yourself to do something that is more constructive or supportive for you. It does assist to have a plan ahead of time - so when you have a moment, take a look at some things that you would like to do or daily tasks that you've been 'putting off' that need to be done and make those your new 'go-to' for when/as the boredom comes up.I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to really believe that smoking weed is a solution to my boredum.
Very cool! a point that supported me was to also let go of the fears of 'who I would be' without it or letting go of wanting to continue living 'on a cloud' and certainly it takes simply a decision to no longer climb up back again to be high or just in the 'feel good' mood, and rather look at the practicality of it, the money spent, the consequences at a physical level, the relationships, the entire 'lostness' and 'fogginess' that I had made of my life at that time, which actually I only much later found out that I hadn't have such a 'good time' while on weed, but I had in fact neglected myself a lot, suppressed a Lot of emotional experiences and the entirety of my decisions in life. So, it's best to stop it for once and for all, that's what I suggest as a preventive measure for any desire to smoke again if it comes up or else.I havent said anything but I havent smoked weed for 15days now. I will write about it when on here when I go through that part of my journal entry but what you said was like a more clear observation of what I was going through.
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