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Tormod's blogg

Postby tormod » 25 Jan 2012, 20:36

Tormod here.

also, write, in demonology forum. since november 2010 :

http://demons.desteni.org/forum/viewtopic.php?f=5&t=744

starting, 2012 with writing for sponsorship.

i will, try to, vrite my self to freedom, and i try , and vill continue harder,7more with selforgivnes. it is so, helpfull.
what i first, notice when i start, is to be more, confirem with my tool. the computer and the internett.

:shock:

i have had a strange dream these days/nights, when i rest in the middel of a meal, or i nibb at the tea/coffe. it sounds like a chelse hotel (old hippie hotel inn new yourke) it is; to start a news paper, or a magazine.
the paper, is to be called, either Schizophrenia, or Bi - Polar.


:P



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Re: Tormod's blogg

Postby KellyPosey » 25 Jan 2012, 22:10

Hi Tormod, welcome to the Desteni Forum.

Cool you've decided to start blogging!

Here's the Guidelines to Using the Forum if you haven't read it yet.

You can also share some more about yourself by opening a thread in the Introduce Yourself section.

Enjoy!



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Re: Tormod's blogg

Postby tormod » 25 Jan 2012, 22:33

thanx Kelly

today i watched, a man talking on tv, aboute , the possebileties, of forinstance norway, as a contributer inn the oil / gass polotion, to, inn future, be able to suck upp, CO2, from the air, and clean it.
:P

tomorrrow , big day for me. mom & dad comes, to talk aboute economics.



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i forgive my self for having wants for sex and masturbation, with internett porn, and the anxiety it gives me.

i forgive my self for having, many concerns, i can not , seem to liberate, at all given times.

i forgive my self when i cant, give my self the time, to at all times, purchase the right, nessaceries/groceries compared to, fair trade and ethics, that i deserve.

i forgive my self because i have tried so manny times, becoming a part of this site, and all the swearing and hurtfull things i sai (said) to humans around me.



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Re: Tormod's blogg

Postby tormod » 26 Jan 2012, 17:46

had a meting today, with my paretns and hospital folks. i will now get more controll over my money. other ways, it causes, so much conflickt. moving to oslo, it looks like. excitiong, still want to be drug free, if i quit, hasjis, i might quit pharmaseotica. and live longer. win, win situation.

- reading the Bibel, helps alittel, most only for the ones i tell, and it cheers them up, and also makes me glad.

:)



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Re: Tormod's blogg

Postby Anna » 26 Jan 2012, 19:49

Hi Tormod.

I read a post of yours on the demonology forum and saw that Andrea has been assisting you there. I suggest to continue applying those suggestions and to utilize the forum to effectively write yourself out to earth and ground yourself here - through assisting yourself to understand as who and how you have created yourself and the patterns that you participate within and as in your daily reality.

A cool way to do that, is to take one point - the point that throughout once day or week has been bothering oneself - and then write that out, from beginning to end, only this one point - investigating self in self-honesty, in all the details that come up in relation to one's participation in and as this world and in and as one's thoughts/experiences.

From there we can apply self-forgiveness to realize who and what we are within and as this one point and how we have created ourselves within and as that one point.

Then we can write out self-corrective statements for ourselves to prepare ourselves to next time we're faced with/facing the same pattern/person/experience/thought, we can effectively direct ourselves in common sense through breathing and remaining here.

See, if we simply write random self-forgiveness statements or if we do not actually investigate the point we are writing about, we don't actually get to understand ourselves within and as that point and as such we do not change, because we don't understand who we actually are within that point and as such how we ourselves have created ourselves, which is a vital point in changing ourselves - that we have brought all the parts/points within this one point back to ourselves and can now in self-responsibility effectively direct ourselves to change.



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Re: Tormod's blogg

Postby tormod » 28 Jan 2012, 23:11

that you Anna !

very much, help in youre words! - i find it cool, and corrective. repetion is not a crime :D

i wake in the atelier. sleep very well, inn my atelier. warm, and comfortable, i make plan to visit public-swim, shower and sauna, place.walking over there, gives me balance, with that i sence something good, to my body. i shower, with, all the other pappas, and men, and babies, boys and littel girls. sauna is very good. i dear, to tempt, easy youga there. then , get dressed. i eat a , dinner/lunch with one , laidy, kinda expencive, and i am a bad economist. good food, a littel, good, and tensious, flirt. she is 28, i am 33. she from kenya, in from norway. i give her money, so she can enjoy herself, i her own way. i go to coffe shop, tell, people of the , desire, i have to make a schizophrene , newsapaper - at youre service. drink good, fair trade coffe, and then pay a friend a visit. - a schooled man, in music and math, i collect my bag, that i i left, from another day, with argument. and almost fight. - then train from stavanger, to egersund, where have my stay. low risk hospital.

- at the same time, there is a huge insurance , case, going on, my house, have , a water leak, and the cost are high. yet i have insurance, and there is only question, as, i can see it, aboute amount , size.


yoga does plenty good, during day. and keeps my spirits high. - trying to, quit smoking weed, is hard.
i wish i cuold find a way to manouer, my finances, better way. maybee i was born to be , a "rich" person?

- quiet at night, i asume my self , and sometimes pray. i hope for a, sure, and rich tomorrow, and glims at the calander, and clock.
try to fokus, on my , kissing - friend , from kenya. she , leaves soon, and wants to come back. insurance (house hold) keeeps my thinking, buissy.

- caught, a smile, from a young girl, with long brown, hair , and braces, she smiled, in such a manner, i , felt crushed. and ... singing occurs. in the unmanifested world of thelepathy.



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Re: Tormod's blogg

Postby Cathy » 29 Jan 2012, 02:18

- quiet at night, i asume my self , and sometimes pray. i hope for a, sure, and rich tomorrow, and glims at the calander, and clock.
try to fokus, on my , kissing - friend , from kenya. she , leaves soon, and wants to come back. insurance (house hold) keeeps my thinking, buissy
caught, a smile, from a young girl, with long brown, hair , and braces, she smiled, in such a manner, i , felt crushed. and ... singing occurs. in the unmanifested world of thelepathy.

Hi Tormod - with regards to 'praying', 'hope', 'keeping you're thinking busy', and 'thoughts' such as 'backchat' and 'secret mind' - that you may have participated in and directed towards for instance 'the girl you're referring to'.

The process is about stopping thoughts in self-honesty using our thoughts as a tool for effective self-forgiveness - so to focus on 'the girl' is thus then participating in the bullshit thus furthering enslavement.

So - all are points which require specific self-forgiveness and self-direction to stop further polarity. As was previously mentioned, we write the points out and further investigate in self-honesty to become aware of what we're accepting and allowing so we forgive and re-direct ourself. Also, suggest you continue to study and hear the Desteni material for further clarity

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I'm sharing a copy of a list which assisted me in beginning walking process.
This was posted by Bernard on the 10th of April, 2007 - the list was done by June Roca when she began her self forgiveness process.

Save yourself a copy of it to assist yourself daily with specificity. You'll see how effective it is when you practice and apply it.

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YOUR FIRST SELF-FORGIVENESS PROCESS :


SAY THE SELF-FORGIVENESS ALOUD TO YOURSELF

FOR WHAT HAD BEEN ACCEPTED AND ALLOWED BY YOU
(AS YOU TAKING SELF-RESPONSIBILITY AND DONE IN SELF-HONESTY)

STATEMENT YOU SAY TO YOURSELF:
I FORGIVE MYSELF FOR ACCEPTING AND ALLOWING MYSELF TO
(BE ANGRY AT, BE FEARFUL TO, BE EMOTIONALLY /PHYSICALLY ABUSED BY ETC.)


SELF-FORGIVENESS LISTS:

BEINGS/AREAS OF YOUR LIFE YOU DIRECT YOUR SELF-FORGIVENESS TO:

1.YOU
2.MOM
3.DAD
4.GRANDMOTHER
5.GRANDFATHER
6.PARTNERS
7.EX-PARTNERS IN THE PAST AND PRESENT PARTNER
-ENUMERATE THE NAMES AND APPLY SELF-FORGIVENESS FOR
WHAT YOU HAVE ACCEPTED AND ALLOWED FOR EACH
8. DAUGHTER/S
9.SON/S
10.EX-DAUGHTER/S
11.EX-SON/S
12.EX-MOTHER IN-LAW/S AND PRESENT ONES
13. EX-FATHER IN-LAWS AND PRESENT ONES
14.EX-SISTER IN-LAW/S AND PRESENT ONES
15. EX-BROTHER IN-LAW/S AND PRESENT ONES
16. ALL RELATIVES FROM MOTHER SIDE
17. ALL RELATIVES FROM FATHER'S SIDE
18. MALE FRIENDS
19. FEMALE FRIENDS
20. PLANTS
21. ANIMALS
22. BROTHERS
23. SISTERS
24. CO-EMPLOYEES
25.EMPLOYERS
26. EMPLOYEES
27. MASTER/ TEACHER
28.HUMANITY
29. ALL LIFE
30. EARTH
31. ENVIRONMENT
32. GROUPS YOU BELONG TO BEFORE
33. STRANGERS
34. OTHER

SAMPLE SELF-FORGIVENESS STATEMENTS:

***I FORGIVE MYSELF FOR ACCEPTING AND ALLOWING MYSELF TO
FEAR LOSING MY PARTNER
***I FORGIVE MYSELF FOR IDENTIFYING MYSELF WITH THIS FEAR
***I FORGIVE MYSELF FOR NOT ALLOWING MYSELF TO REALIZE THAT THIS FEAR
IS HIDDEN BEHIND MY LOVE FOR MY PARTNER TO BE ALWAYS WITH ME.

DIRECTIVE:
I RELEASE THIS THOUGHTS, FEELINGS AND EMOTIONS OF FEAR AND ALL THOUGHTS, FEELINGS AND EMOTIONS RELATED TO THIS IN MY DNA AND ALL CELLS OF MY BODY
RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW. SO BE IT AND SO IT IS.

*** DO 4 COUNTS BREATHING (4 COUNTS IN , PAUSE 4 COUNTS, 4 COUNTS OUT, PAUSE 4 COUNTS) ALL THE TIME THROUGHOUT THE DAY.

Lists:

1.Self-deception List

2.Hiding from Self List

3. Female Ego List

4. Male Ego List

5. Anger List

6.Fear List

7. Self-control Lists

8. Relationships Lists







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Re: Tormod's blogg

Postby tormod » 29 Jan 2012, 12:04

i recive very much, helpful, writings here.

i forgive myself for accepting and alowing myself to hurt myself, with water.
i forgive myself for accepting and alowing myself to have, to put blame on my mom.
i forgive myself for accepting and alowing myself for wanting to hurt my dad.
i forgive myself for accepting and alowing myself for wanting to blame my grandmother.
i forgive myself for accepting and alowing myself for having envy towards my fathers family.
i forgive myself for accepting and alowing myself for having better knowledge, and not setting time to explane, to kristian youth group, what occations are.
i forgive myself for accepting and alowing myself for not allways, choosing the best, according to nature, product there is.



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Re: Tormod's blogg

Postby tormod » 29 Jan 2012, 12:36

i wonder what tomorow will bring.

im so, tired, of being alone.

if only a girl would, lett me into her house. and let me live with her. my house living sett is very, fucked upp.



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Re: Tormod's blogg

Postby tormod » 29 Jan 2012, 15:04

where do my thoughts come from?

i seem to, last 7 years, ony function, with the help, from psykriatic hospital norway. allways, when times get rough, i contackt them, and seek "cover". i have menny fine, friends. who care and, even admire me. i do think i can funktion, withoute, my anti psykitica. and i seem to, understand, that , throug this video:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=skj5a7e0A0w

i understand the need for beeing drug free. toghether with, high chemical soap, and to be at ease with my ,boddy, existing with my, diagnosis. the way i need anti-psykotica, cant understand, so much. no home to, rest. and a quite hectic, me. i get very angry, sometimes. my view of many assumptions, is tenacious. i long want to live, somewhere, with warmer climate, yet can manage fine here, in norway, to.

exciting week for me. news from, insurance company, and prepearing for art show.




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