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Re: Tormod's blogg

Postby tormod » 07 Feb 2012, 20:05

with a cv, with massive wholes, its hard for me to find employees, that would hire me. much there for i apreciate, the desteni i prosess, and the equal money system.
- with my govern income, i should be able to pay, the dip, course, next mnth.
- good, walk, today, clearing , of sky, stars. 5 minus degrees.

i imagen a rythem, based life, with, more to it than yoga :mrgreen:

its good, to be a destonian



i learn this from Cathy:
*** DO 4 COUNTS BREATHING (4 COUNTS IN , PAUSE 4 COUNTS, 4 COUNTS OUT, PAUSE 4 COUNTS) ALL THE TIME THROUGHOUT THE DAY.

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Re: Tormod's blogg

Postby tormod » 08 Feb 2012, 20:25

blogging away my day : :o


i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get aroused, and pleased, bye sex, and porn online internett, with the consequence, it has and the violence it spreads, the huge voilent and abusive indusstry it concerns, and protects.

i forgive myself for allowing myself to have thoughs and ideas, that claim to set me in center, to claim myself as a "champion" and the hurtings, fears, deaths, and destructions it results in, with my idea that all occations happens because of me, and my lack of awakeness, myfear of beeing inn los of control, and how i should communicate, and give hope with only metaphysical, knowledge.

i forgive myself for allowing myself, to lett myself be irrational in a consious way, that i mumble, when thoughs get so expressfull, that i seem to claim the earth, as my boddy, and the communication glips, and terror, misunderstandings it gives, to a nother person.

i frogivemyself for allowing myself to sett scedule, for myself that i seeem to fail, when i gett disapoited, and seem to fail in life.

i forgivemyself for allowing myself, for the hurt i give unvilling to another person, when i gett irrational and, accepting the world according to, a news channel / annother person / media.

i forgivemyself for allowing myself, the pain , when i in physical searce, for purpose, and meaning, that, i place, to others, that i do not even know, who are, and there for put other people, in demand of needing to hear me, and allmost addicted, to, me when i, turn and cant solve, the pain.

i forgive myself for allowing myself to be judgefull, towards other peoples, opinion on life quests, that is not positive.

i forgivemyself for allowing myself, to almost never, listen to addvice, from , my mother, and the lack of inspiration i pass on to my next fellow, that seems empty and destroyed, when drawn apart in physical, and unlawful done, the hust it gives, and reactions, that appear, wich seems unlawful, and hurting, to another beeing.

i forgivemyself for allowing myself to listen and react to the confusion, i place, on my mother, when i , have, escaped throug drugs, and left all responsebillety at her.

i forgivemyself for allowing myself, to not react towards my mother, on foods, and suplies, that, i know is hurfull, to nature, when there is room, for dialouge, and its all burried, in the hate/confution, and leftovers.

i forgivemyself for allowing myself for the, unlawfull, blame, i, place on my mother, when i often, react irrational, and she dont quit helping, me.

i forgivemyself for allowing myself to, seldom, scare my dad, with words, and actions, that is loud, and even threatening, and teh conflict it carries, with it.

i forgivemyself for alloing myself, the trauma, i sometimes, bring on myself, since, grandmother, once gave me, some unknown, littel, trauma, that i seem to seak for with young girls, that sets me in a dangerous, position, that makes me seak, other ways to, live my life, and the, confution it brings to her, and all involving life.

i forgivemyself for allowing myself, for speak, aboute, a ex-partner, sex partner, that is emberasing, to, other, people, that is sexual disease oriented.

i forgivemyself for allowing myself, to never, managing to get over the los, of a sexual partner, vionce, and friend, that is dead, and the feealing that i cant, easy put behid, me, of not beeing there enough, for everyone.

i forgive myself, for not managing, to remebreing, or wanting, to recal, how i lost my virginety,a and the confution, it gives me, in relationships.

i forgivemyself for allowing myself for, the balance, with all my mothers side, i sett under a misunderstanding, thought, and may cause, confution.

i forgive myself for allowing myself for fealing hevy loads, of envy at, all relatives from fathers side, of envy of economics, and reproduction, issues, that setts my envy almost, dangerous, to a relation of for instance a potentional partner, that is not for real.

i forgivemyself for allowing myself, for beeing hurtfull, to a girl, with a noncense, trauma, when i was a teenager, and in a, bigger family , with caretaking.

i forgivemyself for allowing myself for not even, spending money, on the right, grown, and ecological, plants, for me to eat,burn, balance my body with, to climb on/inn, and crawl in walk on, or use as tool and nessasery to life.

i forgivemyself for allowing myself, for not choosing, the obviously, right product of food, plant, that i know, and could find, and makes me feel sorry instead of proud, in a afterwhile process.

i forgivemyself for allowing myself, for, not concerning my actions, and boddy, enough, inn the prosses and action, it is, to save, help, and heal, annimals that are alive, and beeing torrured, and experienced with, by humans, with different purposes, and agendas, that does not, give the humans around me,anny such need, that sabotages the life, on earth.

i forgivemyself for allowing my self, to sett my late fosterbrother, into a music star perspective, that gives , me a illutive postition, of memmory and is not healthy or purpuse like.

i forgivemyself for allowing myself, for mannytimes, beeing out of control, with talking to my youngest sister, that makes, her, get fustrated, and me confused, that bases, on the volume, of voice, and use of language.

i forgivemyself for allowing myself, for stealing from, the early employe, , and other occational, employes, i forgivemyself for the loss it puts them in and the further, enlargement of the problem.

i forgivemyself for allowing myself, for having great, disabilleties, when it comes to writing, and keeping , a record, for instance, budjet over monney, inn my life, that was tought, or not tought, to me when i was in elementary school, the disabileties, it gives me, and the effort it takes to, sett level straight again, and keeping, for instance my computers free, of porno, and unessacery, softwear i, have stolen, or downloaded for free, and living with that sort of blame.


i forgivemyself for allowingn myself, to not beeing responsible, and keeping my compures, and my work online, my phones, and literature, magazines, free, of porno.

i forgivemyself for allowing my self, for hating humanity, beeing conspiratory, beliving annything to be true, not caring for my fellow man, and being hatfull, disagreeing, and having problems with the way people, put thair belives, on the topp of their heads, and not, on their feet, where one stand, and walk, and live.


i forgivemyself for allowing myself to, not taking, good care for eart, and letting this planet, know, that it, is loved, so emence much, by so manny, that the way we trearting it, seams impossible, to understand, and there for impossible, and imporant to, share and give teaching away, on how to, tell, the planet, and what to do.


i forgivemyself for allowing myself, for lettingn me, with the church groups, and missionary groups that was supposed, to have only good values, and my other, fellowes, to take part in, a violent, confusing, imature, irrationell and not human, way, to teach and to be a teacher, from when you are young, of love.


i forgivemyself for allowing myself, to yell, and arrgue innmy mind, with strangers, and sometimes allmost build upp a stroke, when dissagree, or not.
http://tormodworks.blogspot.com/2012/02 ... ocess.html

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Re: Tormod's blogg

Postby Lindsay » 09 Feb 2012, 10:33

Hi Tormod -

A suggestion for supporting yourself more effectively in writing/self-forgiveness/self-correction:

Write/Self-Forgiven/Correct ONE point at a time.

So, for instance, in the SF that you have placed in the post above - you have taken on several/multiple points without much specificity or depth, so it's more of a 'jumping around' from one point to the next without any real direction that will assist and support you to see the point in its entirety, so you can effectively correct it by/through actually seeing clearly what you have accepted and allowed in all the various dimensions that each point entails.

Suggest to slow down, and simply take the first line of SF you wrote in relation to sex/porn, or another ONE point you are busy with, and open it up specifically, precisely, and directly - where you walk it through step by step.

Because if you take a look at your past posts Tormod - here on the Desteni Forum, as well as on the Demonology Forum - this has been suggested to you on various occasions, and yet - you have not utilized this support - so, to be clear, this thread is about blogging for DIP sponsorship in an effective way, wherein you aren't just here to write from a mind-regurgitative starting point, but to actually direct yourself, apply yourself, and walk yourself within the tools and support provided here to show that you are here to walk this process - equal to and one with everyone else that's here.

So, consider this, consider yourself, and consider others who are walking here before you continue writing yourself in the way in which you are currently.

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Re: Tormod's blogg

Postby Marlen » 14 Feb 2012, 00:08

I have just seen the post Tormod wrote was deleted - however here is a review to assist and support with each point:

Hi Tormod - let's indicate where and how the shifts as in deviating from the one point as Lindsay has explained, occur:
tormod wrote:
"i forgive myself for allowing myself to have thoughs and ideas, that claim to set me in center, to claim myself as a "champion" and the hurtings, fears, deaths, and destructions it results in, with my idea that all occations happens because of me, and my lack of awakeness, myfear of beeing inn los of control, and how i should communicate, and give hope with only metaphysical, knowledge "


Here you can take several points - one at a time to not just walk the whole thing in one sentence. First of all the point is to write your day out for example, that's like 'telling the story' of yourself in one day with all your experiences, thoughts, reactions, etc. After that, you're able to write Self Forgiveness upon the points that you see are required to walk in terms of Self-Correction = where you see you have to stop a particular pattern, habit, thought that leads you to create/ manifest certain consequences that are Not Best for All.

Hence walking that statement in detail would be:
tormod wrote:
"i forgive myself for allowing myself to have thoughts and ideas, that claim to set me in center, to claim myself as a "champion" and the hurtings, fears, deaths, and destructions it results in, with my idea that all occations happens because of me, and my lack of awakeness, myfear of beeing inn los of control, and how i should communicate, and give hope with only metaphysical, knowledge "


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have thoughts and ideas wherein I see myself as the center of this existence, disregarding the fact that I exist and live in a world with many other beings that are also part of this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to claim that I am a 'champion' and within this, want to be above others, want to be superior without realizing that in this desire to be a champion, a loser exists - thus I stop believing myself to be a 'champion' because I see and realize that this is what creates inequality in this world, having the idea of some winning and losing which is Not what's best for All as Equals.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create consequences in my reality that I am not aware of while thinking of myself as a champion, desiring to be a champion which creates inequality that is unacceptable to exist as, because in this I am disregarding everything and everyone that exists around me as one and equal.

See how the 'hurtings, fears, deaths, and destructions it results in' is only an idea of the consequence that your thoughts/ actions create - though you cannot 'see it' for yourself. Thus instead of writing out that which you believe it is causing, focus on what you can actually see and prove for yourself that your actions are creating and manifesting in your reality.

In this case, you can see how within this idea of 'being a champion' you are simply creating an idea of yourself as superior which must then create a necessary 'loser' for you as a champion to exist - thus by you stopping participating in such idea of 'being a champion' = you stop the idea of losers having to exist as well.

...with my idea that all occations happens because of me, and my lack of awakeness, myfear of beeing inn los of control, and how i should communicate, and give hope with only metaphysical, knowledge "


This is the usual example of how Self Forgiveness is used as a form of revamping/ re-enacting a point of self recrimination instead of actually supporting you to Stop fully and completely from 'blaming you' - The point of Self-Forgiveness is precisely that, ensuring that I give myself the opportunity to take Self-Responsibility for my words, thoughts, actions that have made me a 'victim' in this world yet an abuser as well in the same manner due to what it is that I have accepted and allowed to exist within/ as myself.

So, that part of the Self Forgiveness should Not be part of a Self Forgiveness Statement, because in that you are reinstating that you 'lack awareness' and that you 'fear' losing control while projecting an ideal of 'how you should be' and going into various other concepts that have deviated dramatically from the initial point of you seeing yourself as a champion. See how the initial point of your entire self forgiveness must remain only ONE within a writing session so to speak, this is for you to first establish that initial point and open it up in all its different ways it exist within you.

From this last part of the self forgiveness, you can create separate self forgiveness statements wherein you can actually become aware of what you are still perpetuating as yourself, what you are accepting and allowing still to exist within your Self Forgiveness, which is then Not actual Self Forgiveness but reinforcing the ideas/ beliefs as limitations that you have accepted and allowed of yourself.


...with my idea that all occations happens because of me, and my lack of awakeness, myfear of beeing inn los of control, and how i should communicate, and give hope with only metaphysical, knowledge "


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame myself thinking that 'everything bad happens because of me' and within this not actually taking Self Responsibility and stopping blaming myself which is another way to step out of the responsibility that I hold toward myself to Stop these thoughts, to stop remaining as a victim within my own mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that 'I lack awareness' and within this, having allowed myself to live this self-belief as a reality wherein I am creating a reality that I am not taking self responsibility because of deeming myself as 'lacking awareness' which is another way of abdicating the responsibility that I have as my mind, as my thoughts and actions that I create in this world/ in my reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing control and to believe that this fear is 'who I am' without realizing that I have accepted and allowed myself to become this 'loss of control' as a way to justify my idea of 'lacking awareness' and in that, perpetuating a self-belief of not being capable and able of taking self responsibility for myself, my mind as my thoughts, actions and words.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to 'fear losing control' without even realizing that such 'control' can only exist at a mind level wherein by fearing, I exist in perpetual fear of loss of myself - without realizing that who I really am as a physical body cannot 'lose control' if there has never been an actual equality and oneness existent within/ as myself as my physical body.

Have a look how we 'fear losing control' once that we have abdicated our entire direction and self-responsibility to that initial self-belief of 'not being aware' which is another way to justify why we apparently 'can't take self responsibility' which is only becoming victims toward our own mind, believing that we cannot stand one and equal as it to direct ourselves in Common Sense. This fear/ idea/ belief of yourself is only that, a thought, a mind-created idea of yourself - hence you are able to stop it, because you can see that such thoughts, ideas and beliefs of yourself are Not supporting you in taking Self Responsibility.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have ideas of 'how I should communicate' based on how I see others communicating and in that, only creating a belief and ideal of 'how I should communicate' with others without having first established a point of self-communication with myself, here, wherein I ensure that I am first able to communicate myself effectively through words, through writing, through establishing myself as the directive principle of every word that I convey.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I should behave in a certain way toward others and 'give hope' without realizing that within this I am not supporting myself or anyone else as I realize that hope is an illusion, that hope is but a remedy to make others 'feel better' without actually enabling myself or another to see the reality that is here and take Self Responsibility for it.

Within this point I suggest you, Tormod, open up and see what is it that you mean by 'knowledge' and 'metaphysical' whatever - that is Not relevant, knowledge will Never be of any support to share. What matters at this stage within this process is You Supporting-You through first establishing this point of Self-Communication as the very first steps of writing within taking a single point, instead of wanting to adhere all points into one single statement. Have a look at how I have taken one single statement and written each point out wherein I am sure that you could still continue opening up points from each statement.

Then, you went on to something completely out of place of which we, the readers, have no reference of at all. I will walk each statement just so that you can see how within your mind, they might have been 'linked' in some way - though when walking each point we can see that you jump from one point to another that have no actual correlation with each other. Thus, this is not the way to write or apply Self Forgiveness after having gotten the clear explanation of how to walk one point.

I am expanding each statement so that you have an idea of how it is that you have deviated yourself from one single point into various random statements that indicate that you didn't follow-through One Single Point.

Thus, this is only for you to take each statement and write about it - one point at a time - without jumping into a complete different point without any link or explanation of how that came about.

We are here to learn how to direct ourselves one and equal as our mind - thus whenever you see yourself jumping from one statement to another that have no correlation to each other, you stop, breathe and read again your words and see how it is that you came up with such a sentence from the previous one - if you can't find any actual consequential link between both, then don't write it and focus on that one initial point that you decided to write about in that moment - which in this case could be for example taking on the idea of seeing yourself as a 'champion' which was the first point you started opening up in that Self Forgiveness Statement.


i forgive myself for allowing myself for not having a home to call home.

how is this relevant, what happened, what were the consequences, what experience did that create within you? -

i forgive myself for allowing myself for not trying hard enough, with my finances, to achive, and find a place to call home.

Trying is already saying 'I won't make it' - Directing yourself is the way to ensure you actually do it. Thus see where and how you are sabotaging yourself to not direct yourself effectively in your world and write it out in detail.

I forgive myself for allowing myself for the unstable condition this, lack of convenience, gives me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and manifest conditions within my life wherein I am in an unstable position, without realizing that I am fully capable of taking self responsibility and ensuring that I can create a suitable living condition by working with the necessary points in my reality to actually do it. - Investigate what is it that you haven't done/ directed in your reality that has lead you to the current situation and experience you're living in.

Within saying that such 'lack of convenience' is giving/ creating you a certain unstable condition is still projecting the responsibility outside of yourself, instead of acknowledging that it is only you that have created such condition and that it is only you that can take Self Responsibility for it. Then see what do you practically require to do to step out of such self-created condition/ situation.


I forgive myself for allowing myself to not give my self awards enough, to see, and experience that i am cared for, by others around me.


It's not about 'giving yourself awards', simply about accepting yourself to accept yourself, to take self responsibility for yourself as your own creation. If things went 'wrong' it's not a matter of bad luck in your case - see and investigate How it is that you got yourself to this point wherein everything seems so 'confusing' and walk each point at a time, to actually see how you got yourself to the current experience wherein you haven't actually cared for yourself first. Within this, it is to take 'others' out of this self-equation because we cannot possibly base our stability upon others accepting or caring for us. We have to care and accept ourselves first - from there we can only care for each other equally within the starting point of Equality - not developing further dependencies on each other, but to stand as that individual self-acceptance that stands as Life, as the equalization of myself As everything that is Here wherein I ensure I become an example of how it is that I can actually Live and share with others in equality how to support ourselves, which is a cool definition instead of 'care' - supporting becomes then part of 'how we live' whereas 'care' can be carrying self-interest as in having a particular preference or input on something/ someone.


I forgive myself for allowing my self for jumping conclutions, way to fast, at tough decisions.


This is where you can see how it is that you have to slow down yourself, being here as breath to be aware of your thoughts as you are breathing and start self forgiving the thoughts as they come up - this is able to be done when we are in fact 'slowing down' and existing at the physical-pace of breath.



i forgive myself for alloing myself for not beeing careful enough with my, creativity.

Expand on that, what is 'your creativity' what is it that you are fearing, what is it that you have manifested that now you are wanting to be 'careful' with your creativity - it is through asking these questions within your statements that you 'open up' a point through writing.


i forgive myself for allowing my self to belive, i do not deserve a girlfriend.

See how between all of the statements that I've quoted from you, you are jumping from one point to another with statements that have no relation to each other as 'one single point' - This single statement can be an entire writing in itself by asking: why do I believe that 'I do not deserve a girlfriend' - what am I believing myself to be to think that I don't deserve/ I am not suitable to have a girlfriend - what do I believe that a girlfriend will 'give me' or 'create' within me, how have I made a believe of me 'deserving' something? What do I believe that a relationship with another as having a girlfriend will make me feel-like or experience. All of these questions and many more can be opened up within that single statement.


i forgive myself for allowing myself for, not being able to tear my self out of a world "champion", position, that makes others to feel need to help me out of the situation.


You definitely have to write about this point which is Actually in relation to the initial 'champion' position/ self belief and idea of yourself. This is what I suggest you expand and follow as a way to start giving you some order and direction within your writings. At the moment we have no reference to this, therefore write about this 'champion' point and stick to the topic.


i forgive myself for allowing myself, for the energy, that could be spent elsewhere, from others , trying to help me.

Within this see how it is that 'others are tying to help you' and how it is that you can actually support yourself to see how it is that you have created a certain situation in your world where others 'want to help you' without You first allowing you to support yourself. This is where the point of self-creation and self-responsibility is quite prominent, how to stop victimizing myself as in 'feeling bad that others want to support me' instead of going to the root of the problem in looking at How I created this entire situation in my life wherein I took myself to a certain point that is now causing others 'trying to help me,' without me taking self responsibility and ensuring that I start supporting myself to stop that which I was existing as that was not a best for all scenario.

i forgive myself for allowing myself, for running away for conclutions, that is best for all.

Wanting to give 'conclusions' without first giving the first steps is wanting to create a quick-fix for yourself- that certainly won't happen in any way as such 'conclusion' would only be knowledge and information that you can use to manipulate yourself to not stand up and actually walk the process of writing, applying self forgiveness, applying/ living it in your reality as an actual self-corrective process wherein you ensure that you do live and apply what's best for all in your life. For now this point as 'conclusion' is not Here because you are starting to first establish yourself as writing and giving proper direction to your thoughts to stand equal to the point and being able to write about it and share the process along so that we can support when and if necessary.



i forgive myself for allowing myself, for not being able to know whats best, from anny given perspective or situation.

To 'know what's best' comes through your own application - otherwise trying to 'know' will only come through as an accumulation of knowledge that you might see is 'common sense.' However, if you don't actually live it and apply it, it becomes just another way to blame yourself for 'not knowing' and that is definitely so, because you haven't actually lived it/ applied it. Thus, this is the point wherein you have to ensure that you walk point by point, stop wanting to get to a 'conclusion' or 'get it done' without doing the necessary work that is required.

How we have walked this process of developing common sense is through participating in the forum, reading others to assist and support ourselves how to direct ourselves in 'any given situation' which is why this is a very cool platform of support to gather perspectives and always see/ discuss what is actually Best for All. From this, through you living and applying it within your reality, you will start then living such common sense which won't exist then as some 'knowledge' that you can speak about only, but will become an actual living-process of you correcting yourself in living what's best for all. The tools are here, the support is here - thus assist and support yourself to walk the necessary writings, self forgiveness. Push yourself to stick to writing one single point, do not allow yourself to jump into various topics - read your writings and Self Forgiveness statements outloud, see if you are actually 'making sense' of the point you are wanting to communicate about or if you are deviating from the initial point and within that, getting lost in your own words.

See how we can only create such 'maze' or 'confusion' for ourselves, no one else can - thus we take Self Responsibility for it.

In terms of 'showing appreciation' - I suggest to first walk the point of self-appreciation which I can say comes with walking this process from self-recrimination and self-belittling to self acceptance, self trust and self appreciation because of this being a process wherein we walk ourselves to be and become the fullest potential we are aware we can be - however there is actual work to be done with ourselves, there is an actual application required before any of this is created as self.

So, walk the process as we suggest here, take one point at a time, be aware of not wanting to jump into conclusions or projecting an idea of yourself, but first focusing on applying these basic points within your own writings.

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Re: Tormod's blogg

Postby tormod » 22 May 2012, 09:22

Desteni Scandinavia
i hope there comes a camp in scandinavia.


I forgive myself for allowing to myself for accepting to myself for the prisnipe of hope, that i was to follow a given messure of hope, as an illuition, and not real, and to underestimate the prosess of self forgiving.

i forgive myself for allowing to myself and for accepting to myself, that i would cheriche, and push forward a farm/camp/ranch, in scandinavia/nordic/countries, for a common living and equalety.

i forgive myself for allowing myself and for accepting for myself that i push and that i want a common place for the nordic countries for equalety and living, and for there also maybe find/figure/manage some sort of living, there.

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Re: Tormod's blogg

Postby tormod » 22 May 2012, 16:29

Desteni farms/workplaces/ranch/communeties.



To find work is not allways easy, if you have gone unemployed for soem time. there is much to establish for a actual work/work place to take place. To establish more farms/workplaces/ranch/communeties in different places in teh world would maybe ease peoples, need and push, for work, and also to be a model to follow, equal, and like "more models". And to start with a carriers, and a firm is binding and also proven, good for social bonuses.



I forgive myself for allowing myself for accepting to myself that to get a jobb can be difficult, and that there is manny different jobs, and that there is manny job seakers, doing most all thay can to get a jobb.



i forgive myself for allowing myself, for accepting to myself that prosesses, of starting firms and jobb places etc, takes much planning, and scheduling ahead, for such a event even to take place.

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Re: Tormod's blogg

Postby kim amourette » 22 May 2012, 17:42

Tormod,

I would suggest to re-read the support that Lindsay and Marlen already posted, because it appears that you are still not 'getting the point' of applying self forgiveness

Marlen wrote:We are here to learn how to direct ourselves one and equal as our mind - thus whenever you see yourself jumping from one statement to another that have no correlation to each other, you stop, breathe and read again your words and see how it is that you came up with such a sentence from the previous one - if you can't find any actual consequential link between both, then don't write it and focus on that one initial point that you decided to write about in that moment -


Marlen wrote:See how the 'hurtings, fears, deaths, and destructions it results in' is only an idea of the consequence that your thoughts/ actions create - though you cannot 'see it' for yourself. Thus instead of writing out that which you believe it is causing, focus on what you can actually see and prove for yourself that your actions are creating and manifesting in your reality.


Lindsay Craver wrote:Because if you take a look at your past posts Tormod - here on the Desteni Forum, as well as on the Demonology Forum - this has been suggested to you on various occasions, and yet - you have not utilized this support - so, to be clear, this thread is about blogging for DIP sponsorship in an effective way, wherein you aren't just here to write from a mind-regurgitative starting point, but to actually direct yourself, apply yourself, and walk yourself within the tools and support provided here to show that you are here to walk this process - equal to and one with everyone else that's here.

So, consider this, consider yourself, and consider others who are walking here before you continue writing yourself in the way in which you are currently.


Perhaps something that would support you to be able to be more specific and effective within applying self forgiveness, so as to make sure that you are in fact applying self forgiveness to forgive yourself and not to, like Marlen said, regurgitate the mind.

What I haven't read in your self forgiveness statements is you speaking from how you experience yourself in terms of thoughts, feelings and emotions - instead what you seem to be doing is make statements wherein you are already condemning yourself to the mind, like assuming that 'this is who I am and I cannot change' (which would be a cool point for you to look at within yourself - why are you not willing to consider the support that is being given to apply self forgiveness in an effective way?)

For instance:
tormod wrote:Desteni Scandinavia
i hope there comes a camp in scandinavia.


I forgive myself for allowing to myself for accepting to myself for the prisnipe of hope, that i was to follow a given messure of hope, as an illuition, and not real, and to underestimate the prosess of self forgiving.

i forgive myself for allowing to myself and for accepting to myself, that i would cheriche, and push forward a farm/camp/ranch, in scandinavia/nordic/countries, for a common living and equalety.

i forgive myself for allowing myself and for accepting for myself that i push and that i want a common place for the nordic countries for equalety and living, and for there also maybe find/figure/manage some sort of living, there.


Try to pinpoint how YOU are experiencing YOU within yourself, in terms of thoughts, feelings and emotions - for instance, within these statements you could write down on your computer or a piece of paper:

-thought:
-feeling:
-emotion:

and then apply your self forgiveness from there, - in the format of ex.: 'i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to experience hope (=feeling)that there would be a Desteni farm/camp in scandinavia...' and then you go on to fill in the 'why?' (Why would you want a desteni camp/farm in scandinavia?). The point here is to get really personal with yourself and to dare to look at what you are really feeling/experiencing - what are your fears and desires, and why... without judging yourself for it.

For instance:

i forgive myself for allowing to myself and for accepting to myself, that i would cheriche, and push forward a farm/camp/ranch, in scandinavia/nordic/countries, for a common living and equalety.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to DESIRE a farm/camp/ranch, in scandinavia/nordic/countries, for a common living and equality...

and then expand with asking yourself questions like 'why?': 'why do I desire this camp of 'common living and equality'? - 'what?': 'what is the experience/feeling that I am looking for within my desire for a desteni farm/camp/ranch in scandinavia?' - and try to pinpoint the THOUGHTS and BELIEFS within yourself that make you FEEL this desire. And realize that the mind is a system of thoughts, feelings and emotions, it is NOT who you really are - though you do not see this yet because you are still within and of it, so keep it simple within applying self forgiveness. Just take the one thought/feeling/emotion and forgive yourself for it, the rest will then flow from there as you start to look into yourself.

Kim

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Postby tormod » 28 May 2012, 17:38

ummm.. :D i have now been going since februar, without the habbit of drugs or alkohol. (i have craked/missed out once though)

that means also that i have not taking doctors drugs, for the dues that i was to.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to stand in need of care, when there realy is nothing wrong, that i cant solve.

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have been drug/alkohol abuser, and i forgive myself for alowing myself to stand and take the suroundings, to what that is, and so.

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Postby kim amourette » 29 May 2012, 20:34

ummm.. :D i have now been going since februar, without the habbit of drugs or alkohol. (i have craked/missed out once though)

that means also that i have not taking doctors drugs, for the dues that i was to.


Cool Tormod!

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Postby tormod » 27 Nov 2012, 21:26

I have now bee particepating with desteni i prosses (pro) since early spring 2012 (i believe so). i want to say thanks and thousand billion kisses, to all of you that have supported me, and helped me understand.


- thanks to helpfull hints, from you gys, destonians, i m now free from drugs, i am living as of now, safe, (with parents), and i have also started working. It maks me proud that i am a destoninan, who is going to save the world, toghether, with you gys.

- I am particepating with the desteni lite course, and i am enjoying it. its realy cool.

- i have still, like many other quite a long way/ealk to go. and the journey to life is... exiting.


- cheers


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