Cool David - thanks for sharing here.
So, here are the links to the blogs of mine that you are referencing:
Day 167: Just so you Know, You are an Epic Failure of Grand Proportions - http://journey-of-lindsay.blogspot.com/ ... -epic.html
I placed the link for day 167 specifically because this is the one that you mentioned in the mail to me, and this is the post where I take on the specific point of fear of failure.
I also suggest that you read Heaven's Journey to Life - The FORCE: DAY 161 - http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.co ... y-161.html
as this will support you in relation to the point of changing self to be more effective and no longer accept the Postponement Character which is walked in detail in the days following 161 in Heaven's Journey to Life.
As Kristina has already mentioned - first, slow down and breathe - bring yourself back HERE. You are experiencing yourself as scattered because you are allowing lots of thoughts to run and jump through your mind - support for this is also in Heaven's Journey to Life, which is a series that was walked on the nature of thoughts starting on Day 152 --> Thought Designs – Introduction: DAY 152 - http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.co ... y-152.html
So, start investigating these points, study the nature of the thoughts you are having, get to know yourself.
And also, what I was mentioning in my blog on Day 167 was how fear is always only a cover-up for self-interest, so suggest to take a look at what points of self-interest you are holding onto as hopes/wants/desires that you are refusing to let go of, or even look at, so you are creating/generating this point of fear so as to distract yourself from looking at what is REALLY going on - as Kristina stated: what LIES behind.
Cool that the blog was supportive - now gotta walk that support practically for yourself in writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application, walking ONE fear at a time and not allowing yourself to jump around so easily, which is simply just a manipulation tactic that the mind employs to try/attempt to get you to lose focus and eventually just wander away from ever correcting the point.
And yes - keep writing here on the forum so additional support can be provided and you can really walk this for yourself in detail to stop the pattern once and for all. Realize, it will take time, so there is no need to rush, because rushing will actually make the process of walking through the point a lot longer as you will miss points and details that are essential to see and realize the specific point(s) of correction that are required to be walked.