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Osho card reading self support
JANUARY 23, 2018
Using; The Diamond layout
1. The Issue : THE MASTER
2. Internal influence that you are unable to see : THE MISER
3. External influence of which you are aware : SORROW
4. What is needed for a resolution : FIGHTING
5. Resolution / The understanding : UNDERSTANDING
Here I’ll describe how I reflected the osho cards back to myself.
Nr 1 = As it says in the card description. <<And the Mind, the servent is playing the role of the Master. And the servent is not even your servent; the servent is created by the outside world, it follows the outside world and it’s laws.>>
Nr 2 = Me clinging to the past as a state of possession. And within that not sharing to expand myself as I’ve decided to do here now. It also says to remember that whatever you’re holding onto, you can not take with you…ˆˆˆ
Nr 3 = Yes, this represent the people that have meant a lot to me in my life, that have really made an impact in my life. Some are gone, many are still here, all though that’s not the point. It’s the sorrow and pain I have in relation to the past and have carried as a burden into the presence of me here, without getting down to the nitty gritty resolution points for myself, as in where to go from here. Wherein I transform the sorrow and pain into an alertness of myself and awareness of who and what I am allowing to define me. So I can take self responabilty to change myself in practical ways that reflect a dept of self intimacy I see as a potential within to create.
Nr 4 = The card depicts a man in full armor, and describes a man battling in his mind for the castle. I see myself inflicting self harm and covering the wounds by supressing it, and in that preventing the injuries from getting healed. It says to start by forgiving self, and as seen up above, this is the point of ”What is needed for resolution”. Which hit’s home for me. To rather open myself up, instead of supressing myself. I’m at this point in my life where I cannot turn the other way. There is so much I see myself able to do once I open up to myself first and foremost, and within that to others as well. There is tremendous guilt and shame I carry, due to my shortcomings to face and change myself. Not having stood up for myself earlier. And I have no one to blame but myself.
Nr 5 = Coming to the understanding… Which is interestingly the understanding card. I want to share what it all says on this card before I share my take on it as how it pertains to myself right here and now. << The bird pictured on this card is looking out from what seems to be a cage. There is no door, and actually the bars are disappearing. The bars were an illusion, and this small bird is being summoned by the grace and freedom and encouragement of the others. It is spreading it’s wings, ready to take flight for the very first time. The dawn of a new understanding – that the cage has always been open, and the sky has always been there for us to explore – can make us feel a little shaky at first. It’s fine, and natural to be shaky, but don’t let it overshaddow the opportunity to experience the light-heartedness and adventure on offer, right there alongside the shakyness. Move with the sweetness and gentleness of this time. Feel the fluttering within. Spread your wings and be free. You are now out of jail, out of the cage; you can open your wings and the whole sky is yours. All the stars and the moon and the sun belong to you. You can disappear into the blueness of the beyond…. Just drop clinging to this cage, move out of the cage and the whole sky is yours. Open your wings and fly across the sun like an eagle. In the inner sky, in the inner world, freedom is the highest value – everything else is secondary, even blissfullness, ecstacy. There are thougsands of flowers, uncountable, but they all become possible in the climate of freedom.>>
These words speak to me on many levels at this moment in my life. I see myself in a mental cage, stuck in the confines of the mind. So much so that I forget that the door is either open or closed depending on me in relation to my mind. I have to realize that I am my own captive just as much as I’m my own prison guard, and I can step out and free myself… Plus, I see my people is already there, waiting for me. Like where the fuck have you been!? ”I had some mechanical problems opening up the lock, and I couldn’t find the key, not realizing I am the key”, lol. I know what this entails for me, I have to bust the door open, tear down the walls, burn down the fortress where I’ve stayed in captivity. And allow myself to fully become the change I want for myself and others. I could not realize before now, to which extent these cards can make a huge difference as a tool to face myself in self reflection. I bought these osho cards back in 2011, thanks to my destonian comrades who showed me, and shared with me that these are a cool tool to utilize in the process of walking points for myself. And I was reminded when I saw that another did the same recently.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become so rigid and hard on myself within the mind that I have completely discouraged and disminished myself to a point of not doing what is required of me to stop it.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myelf to dwelve deeper and deeper into the problem as myself instead of the solution as myself that is me here every moment of breath.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let the mind become my master in deciding what I can and cannot do within constructs of self judgments, as polarity of right and wrong and good and bad equations, that does not make any sense as to walk my process along with others that do the same, changing self to that which is best for all.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for the past, and allowing the self judgement to override the experience of me to change myself here, by investigating what I have allowed through writing, and self forgive the points to walk practical solutions to not repeat and trap myself into the same deceptions over and over again, as repetative cycles of self abuse that only lead to disempowerment, self limitation and self diminishment.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that whatever I’ve hold on to within my mind in relation to my self limitations. As self judgments connected to excuses and justifications I’ve allowed to direct me, through thoughts, ideas, feelings and emotions I cannot claim eternal because they are not real in fact. I am subjected to this physcial reality wherein the objectiveness that is here is what counts, is what is real.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let the sorrow and pain I have experienced drag me into a state of despair and helplessness. Wherein I allow myself to let the past be a burden, instead of a lesson that I can expand myself within, and grow in a tangible way.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that when I have convicted myself to the sentence of my sentences in thought, words and deed. I am also the only one able to free myself from these convictions, and to in that walk myself free from whatever thoughts, words, ideas, feelings, emotions, as energetic experiences that I held myself captive within.
When and as I see myself becoming so rigid and hard on myself in the mind that I completely discourage and disminish myself, I commit myself to stop, breathe, and remind myself that I’m not applying self honesty in stopping myself from participating in the mind energy experiences. Thus I commit myself to utilize the osho cards as a means to support myself within writing, self forgiveness and practical application.
When and as I see myself let the mind become my master in deciding what I can and cannot do within constructs of self judgments, within polarity of right and wrong and good and bad equations. I commit myself to stop, breathe, remind myself that it’s about self changing self to live in a way that’s best for all. Which obviously is to stop the mind as it exists within polarity to enslave man not to see, realize and understand that I am equal to everything that is here in fact, in and as the physical. Hence only the mind can believe itself inferior or superior, less or more than what is here.
Thus I commit myself to investigate those points within me to which I’m not clear about, where I still go into contructs of polarity, allowing myself to look, think, react, and act in terms of right/wrong, good/bad, love/hate, positive/negative. Instead of embracing what is here as myself, standing equal to what I’ve allowed as an energetic experience of myself, and changing myself within and from these experiences according to the principle of what is best for all. Through writing myself out, forgiving myself for what I’ve accepted and allowed within self interest as ego, creating self commitments accordingly to walk myself as the practical application I see required for me to live the solution one equal to my words.
When and as I see myself facing consequence in how I participate in ego, I commit myself to utilize the osho cards to self reflect what it is I face within myself for points that need resolution. So that I am able to stop, breathe and commit myself to walk the corrective application in a practical way that solve the pices to the puzzle that I misplaced within thoughts, feelings, emotions, ideas, beliefs, judments, and backchat as self deception in separation of what is here.