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Osho card reading self support 2
Using; The Diamond layout
1. The Issue : WE ARE THE WORLD
2. Internal influence that you are unable to see : GUIDANCE
3. External influence of which you are aware : NEW VISION
4. What is needed for a resolution : NO-THINGNESS
5. Resolution / The understanding : INTEGRATION
Here I’ll describe how I reflected the osho cards back to myself.
Nr 1 = WE ARE THE WORLD! After reading the commentary of this card, I’m left a bit confused as to how I can reflect it back to me, but I’ll do my best. Reminding myself that this is the issue, and so, it’s no secret that the world is in a miserable state. And that includes me, I see the longing for connection coming up, and a tiredness about all these issues we have created. I want it to stop, am sure all of us, at least deep down want our deceptiveness to stop, so that we can face what we’ve done and change it, even though it will be the hardest thing we’ll ever do.
The commentary of the card says that <<Life has been given to you to create, rejoice, and celebrate. And that when you cry and weep, you are alone. When you celebrate the whole existance participates with you.>> And so the phrase ”none are free until we all are free comes up.” As I see the problem as all as one, individually as existentially. The commentary of the card also says that <<This card represents a time of communication. Sharing the wisdom each of us brings to the whole. There is no clinging here, no grasping. It’s a circle without fear of feelings of inferiority and superiority.>>
Time of communication… I’m always open to communicate, even though I’m very reserved and to my self most of the time. I see some challenges in me opening up, but here I am at least.
Nr 2 = Now over to the internal influence that I’m unable to see, which is GUIDANCE. It says that <<The truth of your own deepest being is trying to show you where to go right now.>> Also that <<You have to look for guidance because you don’t know your inner guide is hidden inside you, and that’s what I call your witness.>>
Now the word Self Honesty come up within me. Where I see that self honesty is not a 9 to 5 thing, where I can just sometimes tap into a little bit of self honesty and everything will be fine, that’s not how it works. Breathing, living and expressing self honesty radically by investigating everything about myself that I think, feel, and do as to change entails being self honest as the living word. And thus I see this as a sign to walk my process to study myself, and stop that which is not good. Which is exactly why I support what the group Desteni is all about.
Nr 3 = External influence of which I am aware. Which is New vision. It starts off by saying, <<The figure on this card is being born anew, emerging from his earthbound roots and growing wing to fly into the unbounded. Now you are presented with the opportunity to see life in all it’s dimensions, from the depths to the heights. And when we come to know from experience that the dark and the difficult are needed as much as the light and easy, then we begin to have a very different perspective on the world. By allowing all of life’s colors to penerate us, we become more integrated. You are no longer an ordanary human being – you have trancended. Your insights has become the insight of the whole exsistence. Now you are no longer separated – you have found your roots.>>
Yes, the experiences and points that is difficult and overwhelming to face, that seem easier to supress as means to an end. I’ve often separated myself in a state of either inferiority or superiority towards a situation or memory of a past experience, as a means to supress it by superimposing a state of mind that thrive relating to the deception that I see in the outside world. Eventually it all comes back again and again untill I embrace it, and deal with it for what it is. By seeing, realizing and understanding what, why, how, and who I am in relation to the experiences then and now. Which the desteni material along with the tools provided there, supply the support I need to support myself in stopping, letting go, and changing myself. It’s tuff, for sure – not to let that become an excuse.
Nr 4 = What is needed for resolution – NO-THINGNESS… It says that <<Nothingness is not just nothingness, it is all. It is vibrant with all possibilities. It’s potential, absolute potential. It is unmanifest yet, but it contains all. In the beginning was nature, in the end is nature, so why in the middle mke so much fuzz? Why in the middle becoming so worried, so anxious, so ambitious – why create such despair? Nothingness to nothingness is the whole journey.>>
The fuzz the fuzz – being all over the place – rushing, worrying, stressing, imagining, you name it! Yes, this is what the 7 year journey to life is about coming to grips with. Writing to see what one is participating in as the mind, that want to serve all these wants, needs and desires within energtic experineces. So thus it’s to stop the mind, see what is holding you in a state of illusion/delusion. Like a cloud over your head, a burden that nags continues, leading to a state of hope that something will happen, only to eventually cause disempowerment. Instead of slowing self down, stopping, breathing, finding the practical solutions one can walk, in and as the principles of what is best for all. Where the Self forgiveness and practical application commitments comes in. So that one do not waste the time, energy, and life on what could have, should have been. I see this as prominent point within my life experience. Where life is but a dream, waiting to happen. So here I’m looking at being the change, stopping the mind, not using it unless I need it as a tool to assist me, with what it is I’m doing to be the change I’d like to see.
Nr 5 = Resolution / The Understanding is INTEGRATION. Okay, here’s some pointers that stick out to me, as it says. <<This is a time of communication between the previously experienced dualities of life. The eagle and the swan are both beings of the flight and majesty. The eagle is the embodiment of power and aloneness. The swan is the embodiment of space and purity. We are a union of eagle and swan: male and female, fire and water, life and death. The card of integration is the symbol of self creation, new life, and mystical union; otherwise known as alchemy. THE CONFLICT IS IN MAN. Unless it is resovled there, it cannot be resovled anywhere else. The politics is within you; it is between the two parts of the mind. A very small bridge exists. If that bridge is broken through some accident, through some physiological defect or something else, the person becomes split, the person becomes two persons – and the phenomenon of schizophrenia or split personality happens. If the bridge is broken – and the bridge is very frigale – then you become two, you behave like two personas.>>
Now reflecting this back to me. I’m reminding myself that number five – integration as the understanding/resolution is actually about number four – What is needed for resolution, which is No-thingness… Which makes sense… I’ve had knee pain in the last few days, still have especially if I fuck around in the mind. And it struck me earlier today that, I should go look up what this is indicating. As am aware of Veno’s structural book. Now I can read the following;
<<Within the KNEE points exist the crystallization of past experiences – contained as memories that are crystallized in the KNEE points, which are referred to as: The Now of Consciousness System.
This works as follows: Your thoughts, the act of thinking, your personality and behaviour as actions and reactions are thought/memory based. The entire structural resonance within and as human beings is memory/past based as you define ‘who you are’ within the System through past experiences as memories which you ‘hold onto’ which ‘assist and support you’ through this life here on earth within this systematic consciousness reality.>>
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This thus entails who and what I’ve accepted and allowed myself to define me within the mind through past experiences in and as the now of consciousness. Thus I see I have to forgive myself for those allowances and cross reference the knee pain in time to come.
I’m intrigued, because this is my first time dealing with pain points in relation to my mind-body relationship. Now I am aware that, nr 4 – nothingness is my resolution point, or as veno describes it – <<to stand within and as oneness and equality in complete presence and awareness of who you are within and as the silence of sound with every breath and what it means to stand up and take responsibility for all as one as equal. / Existing moment to moment with every breath as presence as who you are.>>
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that my personality and behaviors resulting in actions and reactions are thought/memory based.
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see that my structural resonance within and as me, is based on constant bombardment of past memories as what I define ‘who I am’ within the system, through past experiences as memories. Which I ‘hold onto’ in fear of loss to ‘assist and support me through this life here on earth within this systematic consciousness reality. – like a double edged sword – because none are free untill all are free.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that most communication has become nothing more than passing on past memory experiences conducted to convince those we would want, need and desire to gain something from within self interest. Like information, money, sex, or friendship that thus has become the living conditioning as within so without. Hence, we then fear loosing that which we’ve managed to gain as self interest – personality constructs, that self has played oneself into believing makes sense, and thus define as the only thing that’s real, based on all the gains collected, which then becomes proof that our interactions as a mind consciousness system is justified within validation from others as the external. In spite of the existential physical reflection that is here, showing the consequence of lacking consideration in our interactive communication.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dwell on the past as the now of consciousness, bringing myself into a state of depression and misery for what I as this world have become. Instead of living here within practical solutions that I see I can contribute with to the whole, as solutions that is best for all. Living the solution to my problems, instead of further causing more problems as the problem.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to cause tiredness without seeing, realizing and understanding that through my mind I give all my power away to the now of consciousness as thoughts, feelings, emotions, ideas, beliefs, that is memory based through past experiences of positive and negative charges that I later react to. Instead of forgiving myself for my doings and stopping myself to release everything that stands in the way of me living here within and as breath where nothing moves but the silence of sound in me as nothingness.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I must be preoccupied with something in the mind to not loose myself, not seeing that I must lose that character personality which fears loosing to realize and remember who I am.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think a point is easy just because it’s simple, not seeing, realizing and understanding that the mind within memories will always attempt to trap me to live as ego. Wherein I have not released myself from a point of self interest.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that how most relationships exist, is only but two minds emerged in an experience or in past memory experiences sharing thoughts, feelings, emotions, belief’s, and ideas. Based on each parts past memory experiences that each part relate, forming an energetic imprint towards in the memory. And thus experience a connection through the now of consciousness within an energetic polarity based on the past memories of experiences one have had. Instead of recognizing each other as one and equal to all this is here, where relationships stand in and as physical union – companionship in and as the breath of life here equally. To express through infinite sound instead of limited energetic influences based in polarity.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist the ‘now of consciousness’ within having to face and take self responsability for my acceptances and allowances. Not seeing, realizing and understanding that I exist within self judgment/self diminishment/disempowerment when I resist what has become a part of me inside and out.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see that what I resist persists as an experience within the ‘now of consciousness’.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for the process of having to walk points. Not seeing, realizing and understanding that there is an underlying resistance/friction between becoming someone who I think I should be. Instead of seeing that who I am is and have always been here, in the unknown of nothingness.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I am defined by anything or anyone in exsistance.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, and realize that I am responsible for everything that is here in existence by the fact that I am here in the power I have to change myself.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand the extent of self limitation when occupied in the ‘now of consciousness’, instead of the unlimited potential of nothingness here.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and precieve that nothingness is separate from the now of consciousness. And that I must resist the mind, instead of embracing it and changing my starting point from an energetic experience, to nothingness from which all encompass.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that the starting point of self interest resonates from a turbulent, muddy water, whereas the starting point of what is best for all resonates in the pure, untampered water from which all things becomes possible and unlimited.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the unknown, within the ‘now of consciousness’ as past memory experiences occupying my pressence. Instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that is the mechanism in fear of loss to remain trapped in the ‘now of consciousness’.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize and understand that what is known in this world, is only what is owned. Where possession as self interest – knowledge, information, money, power, and greed is all based on the ‘now of consciousness’ as past memory experiences. Repeating itself into new infinate cycles of destruction in fear of losing self interest within separation from all as one and equal. Indicating that either we change through common sense, self responsability as what is best for all. Or we’ll be forced to loose all the we own and known as an actual experience, to face our deception of living in separation from what is here.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that the silence of sound is equvilant to clear, clean, pure water that is able to take on any shape and form within expression without being defined by anyone or anything. Self deception is defined by something and someone, as someone/somethingness that only self limitate and procrastinate the act of self responsability for what is here.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe I possess words. Instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that I had to install these words from those who came before me. Thus it does not define me, yet it’s my responsability to decide who I am in relation to how I live the words.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to thoughts, words and deeds, creating an idea of myself that is based on experience of the past existing in the ‘now of consciousness’. Instead of realizing that I’m limited by whatever I define myself according to. Yet always responsable.