DAY 84: Excursion, Hospice, Interaction, and School
I am going to share my entire day. I like to share my day because every time I am at school interacting with people, I learn so much about myself, others and the world. It is really fascinating what I learn and I want to capture it all.
Ok, I go to class two days a week. These are the days that I get to socialise with people. The rest of the week I do not have socialisation on that type of scale. So these two days are my days to express myself, get to know more about me and others. It is also fun because I never know what I am going to be faced with at tafe. What keeps me confident is the trust that I can have with myself to make sure that who/how I am as a person in word, thought and deed is best for all. So, in that, it is what I make of what I face.
I did not have to get up so early this morning. I woke up at 6 because I was to wait for the cafe to open where I could exchange money for the bus. It was a rainy day today, which is different, usually, it is mainly cloudy with some spits of rain. It was cool because I got to wear my favour warm coat. So, I caught the bus, and from there walked to tafe.
I was eager to see everyone today. When I arrived at school, some of my classmates are the first ones I see. There was difference for the environment today. It was harmony day. Harmony day is like a celebration of various different cultures at the school. They had little signs up that were of people stories from their home country. They were stories that talked about the war in Pakistan, what it is like in Africa, etc..
I came across one of my friends reading one of the stories. My friend is from Africa himself. I asked how he was, then he started talking about a memory he had of his mother who is back in Africa. I asked if had gone back to visit her. He said no, and from their I fell silent and he did for a bit too. I did not know what to say. One thing that I recognized about this person is they don't like being felt sorry for. I completely understand that. So, as we were quiet, he said ''Are you a lesbian?''.. out of the blue. I assumed that he may have taken my silence for me feeling sorry for him, and then it being like a defence thing.. But, what he didn't realise is that I've been waiting for quite some time for someone to ask me that question. I literally had prepared for this moment. My response to this question was, and always will be, ''My sexuality is the very last thing you need to know about me. So, you'll have to get to know all the other stuff about me before you find that out'', and he pondered for a bit, and we agreed there. I learned that response from the interviews. I was content with that moment.
Standing next to us was another friend who is with me for the group presentation. We talked a bit about the presentation. I took it upon myself to create my own version of the presentation in powerpoint so that we didn't have to strain & stress about getting it done. I could see that some people were a bit less likely to understand the knowledge/information in such a short amount of time, so using my research skills, I just put everything together and put everything that needs to be read out. This, people, were happy with, and I gave the options for people to change or add to it if they so please. But overall, we have everything we need.
Once I finished explaining that to my friend we were to head to class. In class there is just more people to speak to. So, I go sit with another group of friends. There I speak with them about their assignments, how they feel, and what's happening for them.
Before class had started, I did ask my friend where another classmate was. I was a little concerned about this individual. I had not seen her in class for a while. I knew she would be struggling with her work, and has already had to re-do some assignments. because of her absences from class, she missed out on being in a group for presentation. I gladly offered her a position in our group because we are already finished ours and just need to practice it. I could see that it would take a load off of her because she can focus on other stuff rather than the presentation. Most people are stressed out.
So, as I said it was harmony day today. Next to our classroom, there was African, Pakistan, and other types of music & dancing in the. They had the drums going, and the singing. We could not concentrate. So, today was just a day for people to work on their presentation. The whole atmosphere was very lively. You could sense the difference. It was like a big celebration so we could just social it up. I went to the library to help my friend pick her slides for the presentation. Which ones she wants to read out. I have chosen the Nephrons in the kidney because I like microscope detail, and if the class have questions, the nephron is one of the more completed parts of the kidney. Well, the internal view, so I've taken it upon myself to choose that one. Also, I do want the attention on me for the presentation -- with all my nephron information. I'll be ready for any nephron questions.
After we did all that, we went back to the classroom. On the way there, I decided to go into see all the dancing and the music with one of my friends. I then saw more of my friends, and then we all just gathered. There was free food, coffee, tea, and so we just chilled & embraced it all.
At 12:30 we were going on an excursion to my city's Hospice. For those who do not know what a Hospice is, It is a home providing care for the sick or terminally ill. I was the only one without a car... so, I had to ask for a lift. But, lots of people offered... Lol. I went with B, my other friend because I saw that he had no one today. His friend was away. So, I decided to see his world.
Going on the excursion gave us an opportunity to see who we are outside of the school environment. It was fun to have all the class, and with me in the position of being able to have personal conversations with people, made it so much more enjoyable, and that is why it is so super important that we make sure who we are as people, in word, thought and deed, is best for all. That way we can have an opening to more relationships, and conversations with people... In that, providing yourself a comfortable space/environment. Through who you are as a person. So, it was super comfortable for me.
At first, I was not really interested in learning about the Hospic. I mean, I knew that it was where people come to die and/or if lucky, get better and leave.. But mainly to come to die. I knew that, but within myself, I didn't have a greater understanding of the process until they started to explain about what they do at the hospice. We were taken into a room that was empty, and I started thinking about how I would go if I was to work here. I felt very concerned about the people who work there, and how they go about not getting attached & working constantly with grief. For me, once I care for something, it becomes a part of me, kind of, and if they were to constantly be dying, I'd constantly be in some way, within grief. One minute you were caring and who you were caring for is gone.
I had to ask this question to the women, and they said that having a supportive team really helps, and counselling. But, you really have to work on yourself a lot to work in that environment. What reassured me, is that point of knowing about Desteni, and hearing some of the death interviews, that they will die, and face themselves within the process. So, if I was to work there, I'd be reminding myself of that. But, yeah, I am not sure how it impacts on a person constantly seeing people die. .. Would not be an easy job.
It was time to go, and so I was hugging most of my friends --- and reassuring them that I will send the presentation to them photos from today, and send them the presentation. There is way more to this day, and I did notice the points that I want to change about myself. For now, I will end it here, and I'll write points tomorrow.