Day 128 “Fear of facing and walking through fear” Character (Part 2)
This is a continuation to Day 127 “Fear of facing and walking through fear” Character:
I commit myself to see, realize and understand that my definition of the process of facing, walking through and transcending my fear is based on an mere IDEA and that the practical process of facing, walking through and transcending my fears does not imply that the fears must manifest physically first before I can face, walk through and transcend them.
I commit myself to see, realize and understand that the practical process implications of facing and walking through fear is to face and walk through the ENERGY EXPERIENCE thereof; to remain self-directive in the face, awareness and experience of the energy experience of the fear for the entire duration, intensity and frequency that it may exist inside me as an energy experience, not participating, following and believing in it but continuing with my practical physical self-living and self-application in self-honesty and self-direction until the energy experience of the fear does no longer influence me in my decisions and living, but I can stand and remain self-directive and self-assertive within it’s face and presence, where I no longer allow it the ability to change my direction, expression and living.
I commit myself to see, realize and understand that if my definition that is based on my IDEA created within my mind about the practical process of facing and walking through fear, as that it first has to manifest physically before I can face and walk through it, were to be true, then I would have to die thousands of times and be reborn thousands of times before I would transcend all my fears, and would have to destroy my body in every single life to the utmost; which is obviously an impractical process and approach; and in fact based on an mere IDEA.
My current script that I live according to when fear emerge in me:
When and as I see and find myself to experience fear and have a fear within the sphere of my awareness, I start panicking, reacting in fear and anxiety towards the initial fear and anxiety and I have thoughts and backchat telling me that the fear is real, is here, is done, is complete, is manifested if I do not stop being aware of it/having it on my mind, that it will manifest and so I suppress it immediately in the hope to prevent it from manifesting. Believing that it disappears and no more exists when I suppress it.
My new script to live by:
I commit myself to when and as I see myself to experience fear and be aware of the energy experience of fear, to NOT allow me to panic, NOT allow me to react in fear and anxiety towards the initial fear and anxiety and to NOT allow myself to participate in, follow and believe the thoughts and backchat that tell me that the fear is real and is already done, manifested, complete, here, fact, me and in that I do not allow me to suppress the fear immediately automatically because of the belief, fear and hope that if I do suppress it that it will disappear, become non-existent and the manifestation of it be undone or prevented. And I commit myself to see, realize and understand that all this is just playing out in my mind, and is not here in the physical reality. And so, I commit myself to instead take a deep breath, and breathe myself back into my physical body and focus on my physical practical living and application and not on my attempt to prevent my fear from manifesting in fear and belief that it will if I do not try to think it away, think it into non-existence, think it into ‘not manifesting’.
I commit myself to see, realize and understand that I am trying to think the fears and anxieties I experience into ’disappearance, think them into ‘non existence’, think them into ‘not manifesting’, where I create images in my mind of the fear ‘not existing’, ‘disappearing’ and ‘not manifesting’ and thinking the opposite of my fears into manifestation, in the belief and hope that I will manifest the positive opposite of my fears if I do so, and to instead see, realize and understand that I am just THINKING and THINKING is NOT practicality, physicality and reality. Thus, I commit myself to see, realize and understand that trying to ‘think my fear away’ and ’think them into ‘not manifesting’ and ‘think them into transforming into the positive opposite of itself’ does NOT mean that it in fact disappears, becomes ‘non-existent’ or that I will manifest it’s positive opposite, all I am doing is suppressing it in FEAR of it. And in that, I commit myself to when and as I see and find myself to try and attempt to ‘think my fears away’, ‘think them into disappearance and ‘non-existence’’, ’think them into ‘not manifesting’ and ‘think them into ‘transforming’ into it’s positive opposite’ within my mind, accompanied with self-created imagery of it ‘disappearing’, ‘becoming non-existent’, ‘not manifesting’ and ‘transforming into it’s positive opposite’, to immediately STOP, take a deep breath, remain HERE within and as my physical human body, focusing on my physical practical doing, living and application, and not allow me to fear my own fear.
I commit myself to not allow myself to place my own fear above me by seeing, defining, perceiving and accepting fear as ‘more’ then me and myself as ‘less’ then fear.
I commit myself to see, realize, understand and show that fear is not superior to me and that I am not inferior to it, and that I can in fact stand in it’s presence, face and energy experience intensity, duration and frequency and remain self-directive because I am the authority of myself and I am the one who DECIDES to either fear and believe my own fear or to not, and that that decision as every decision is always a DELIBERATE one.
I commit myself to see, realize, understand and show that facing, walking through and transcending my fears does not require for the fears to manifest physically in fact before I am able to do so, but that I can do so in every breath here, walking through the energy experience of it and that transcending my fears is to transcend the self-definition- and dependency relationship I have created towards that which I fear.
I commit myself to see, realize and understand that it is merely my interpretation that the energy experience of fear seems and feels so real to me, but that it is in fact not, because I can in fact walk through it and remain living physically practically and still direct myself within it’s presence.
I commit myself to not allow me to believe that the very process of facing and walking through my fears is the simultaneous process of my fears manifesting physically for real, step by step as I walk the process of facing and walking through it, and to instead realize that that is an IDEA spawn within my own MIND, a make-belief concept spawn itself through my interpretation of knowledge and information about the practical process of facing and walking through fear, and not based on what the process really practically implies, like a jumping to conclusions, instead of investigating what the process really means physically practically.
I commit myself to see, realize and understand that if my fears manifest physically, it is the consequence thereof, and is thus the process of facing and walking through consequence because I did not walk through the fear itself, which was existent as mere energy experience and holographic play-outs in my MIND.
I commit myself to assist and support myself with and through breathing, sticking to physical practical living, writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application to face and walk through my fears and anxieties as the energy experiences thereof, till I am no more influenced and defined by that which I fear.
I commit myself to see, realize, understand and show that fear itself is created from an IDEA that became self-definition where I fear to lose that which I have defined myself through and as, like hair, appearance, ‘status’, relationships, job, career, money, possessions, just as a few examples, and that to stop the fear is to release myself from the things and points I have defined myself by, through and as; is to release myself from my own self-definition, and that that means that the fear does not have to manifest physically for real before I can face, walk through and transcend it, like that I do not have to lose all I have in my life, that I do not have to lose my money, that I do not have to lose my physical life, that I do not have to lose my relationships, that I do not have to lose my job, just as examples, in order to be free from the influence of such fear, but that I can transcend it in every breath, in this one life, by stopping and releasing myself from the self-definition based on and through those things and points that I have defined myself by, through and as and BELIEVE that I NEED; stopping the ENERGY RELATIONSHIP I have towards things by, through and as which I defined myself.
I commit myself within that, to assist and support myself with and through breathing, writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application to find, stop and release myself from all energy-relationships I have towards things, such as my job, my physical body, certain body parts, money, relationships, just as few examples, through which I have defined myself by and as, and to see, realize, understand and show that Who I am in TOTALITY is NOT that which I have defined myself by, through and as and which I created the BELIEF that I need.
I commit myself to see, realize, understand and show that my fears only exist in me, that my energy experiences only exist in me, that what I feel and experience energetically only exist in me, that my thoughts and backchat only exist in me, that my images only exist in me and that no one else physically experiences and physically sees my fears, just as I do not physically experience and physically see their fears, and to see, realize and understand that that is already evidence of the illusion of the inner experience, and that it is being bound to only the individuals acceptances, allowances, self-belief and permission to experience and exist within and as.
I commit myself to see, realize, understand and show that that which is in fact real, is that which is shared by all physical beings as common ground, such as suffering, famine, rape, murder, starvation, physical pain, abuse, hunger, just as few examples, and that all inner experiences of and as emotional and feeling turmoils are illusions, spawned by the individual that experiences them and is NOT seen, shared and experienced as a physical commonality and common ground by everyone and everything, and can in fact be stopped by the individual experiencing it, and is only one deliberate decision away to do so.
I commit myself to not allow myself to perceive, see, define and accept the images I have within my mind that portray my fears, to be real, because I see, realize and understand that it’s only my fear holographically projected into my mind creating a holographically image reality and world that I experience as real because I BELIEVE it to be real.
I commit myself to see, realize, understand and show that the holographic image reality and world in my mind is NOT real but a product of projected thoughts and backchat, which can be stopped, and in that stopping proven to be just an illusion existent in my own mind.
I commit myself to not allow my own images of my fears to terrorize me, as I do not accept and allow myself to BELIEVE in them and be intimidated by them.
I commit myself to NOT allow me to when I experience fear immediately, automatically accept, define and see it as real and as manifested reality because I see, realize and understand that it’s only existent in my own mind as an energy experience together with thoughts, backchat and images.
I commit myself to see, realize, understand and show how when I panic the fear and anxiety seems so real, because I am believing and PARTICIPATING in it, but when I stop for a moment, and just breathe, and realign myself back into my physical body breathing comfortably and slow myself down to the pace of physical breath, that I will see that the fear and anxiety is not so biiiig as it seemed and I perceived and felt it before and that it only exist in my mind as an energy experience, together with thoughts, backchat and images, and that I will see that I can in fact face it and walk through it. It is not bigger then me. I CAN do something about it.