Using Wikipedia references to do my self forgiveness on (self) forgiveness.
"Forgiveness is the intentional and voluntary process by which a victim undergoes a change in feelings and attitude regarding an offense, lets go of negative emotions such as vengefulness, with an increased ability to wish the offender well. Forgiveness is different from condoning (failing to see the action as wrong and in need of forgiveness), excusing (not holding the offender as responsible for the action), forgetting (removing awareness of the offense from consciousness), pardoning (granted for an acknowledged offense by a representative of society, such as a judge), and reconciliation (restoration of a relationship)."
I forgive my self for accepting and allowing my self to use forgiveness in separation of my self and to repair/restore relationships. Forgiveness is not about relationships, it is not about others.
I forgive my self for accepting and allowing my self to pardon/excuse my self and others within/as forgiveness where responsibility is not accepted and lived but instead let go of and remitted for the responsible party to go about repeating the cycle without plan to correct or commitment to change.
I forgive my self for accepting and allowing my self to condone actions within giving/receiving forgiveness to my self or another, using (self) forgiveness as a statement of finding transgressions to be acceptable and agreeable in some way or another as to "let it slip".
I forgive my self for accepting and allowing my self to confuse forgiveness, self forgiveness, with some other thing that is seemingly similar to it or related to it when it is forgiveness... forgiveness = forgiveness.
I forgive my self for accepting and allowing my self to define forgiveness within a victim stance, where it is required to be a victim of someone or something to be able to forgive.
I forgive my self for accepting and allowing my self to think and believe that as a victim I do not require forgiveness, that I am not the one that needs to have my self forgiven, and that I am justified within being the one to give forgiveness as I am a victim - the one that was wronged.
I forgive my self for accepting and allowing my self to define forgiveness as telling someone they are wrong, but i'm going to let it go, and not hold on to any negative emotions - but snidely 'wish' an 'offender' well when I could just as easily insist they forgive themselves and ENSURE that they do well.
I forgive my self for accepting and allowing my self to define forgiveness as requiring NEGATIVITY PRESENT BEFORE FORGIVENESS IS/CAN BE APPLIED... as for example in the writing it is indicated that an negative emotion is the point of release.. the negative is the focus.
I forgive my self for accepting and allowing my self to focus on the negative within self forgiveness, making forgiveness about negativity as a seemingly transformative method of turning negatives into positives - so it is "positive" but very much focused on negativity as the requisite to produce a return to "homeostasis"... so here this definition requires and therefore creates the negative by demanding it exist for this particular function - because function is the reason for existence - so for forgiveness to exist in this context, negativity is required.
I forgive my self for accepting and allowing my self to ignore how ANY CHARGE is worthy of forgiveness as my self, that I can forgive my self not just for the negative.. the positive is also worth forgiving.
I forgive my self for accepting and allowing my self to define forgiveness as a change of feelings and emotions, as this is very much a basis for why self forgiveness is also applied, and it is not substantial or effective.. in this definition it is just a tool of self manipulation and something to use in the bullshit endless pursuit of happiness/positivity.
I forgive my self for accepting and allowing my self to define at the base level forgiveness as requiring that I be a victim and intentionally/voluntarily want to undergo a change in my feelings/emotions to be superior to some perceived "offense" against me which will require someone to be the offender.. who is doing it to me? I am!
I forgive my self for accepting and allowing my self to not realize that I am the offender and the victim, I am both, doing it to my self.. and there is no one "out there" doing any of the perceived "offense" to me .. nobody is attacking me.. nobody is hurting me.. the only change in "feelings and emotions" I should undergo within this is to see that yup, it's me.. i'm not a victim.. and whoever I was thinking is/was doing this to me is just me blaming someone and creating them that way in my mind so I can justify my victim stance.
When and as I apply forgiveness to my self as being a victim with some separate, perceived "offense" or "offender" that I must release some negativity towards and become superior to.. I stop and I breathe.
I commit my self to realize I am no victim and there is no external offense or offender, it is all within me.. I am this polarity play-out's creator... I am responsible for this whole equation.. and that negativity is not the only point within this play out worth forgiving.. I can forgive my self for any charge and this isn't about becoming superior to anyone.
I commit my self to forgive my self for any charge I notice, not just negativity, as the charges work together and I am missing something here if I don't see how the positive points are creating this as they require the negative to exist..
I commit my self to see the "game" that's been played within forgiveness as this type of victim/abuser polarity and how to creatively forgive my self for this basic definition of the word which is easy to activate...
I commit my self to continue exploring current definitions I can find online, in the bible, any where that may contain some of the programming/bullshit/brainwashing and forgive my self as this point to assist and support my self within applying self forgiveness clear from these starting points.