I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become lenient within myself to not have to face myself within the mirror of who i am existing as in my living world and so face self here, but allow a point of giving myself a lean to bend around that which has to be faced as i avoid the actual stand necessary to see who i am fully and walk the path of discipline to change what it is i am not willing to fully face head on as my reality is mirroring to me with more and more intensity as i continue to accept and allow resistance.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become lenient in my own mind where i seek out the self satisfaction of mind addiction and indulgent in it even though i know it's not best such as self abuse and thus allowing abuse with others via quantum movements of emotion through my presence or out right displaying anger or dislike within my words or behavior.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become to lenient within myself where i have allowed my mind to go unchecked because i am hiding and avoiding from myself the actual process of change necessary to walk which is a more direct and breath by breath process which i have judged as difficult.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to find walking this process to life and being here as breath to difficult to face and change and thus here accept and allow the word lenient to step in where i give up on myself allowing and accepting the thoughts that it’s too difficult and i can’t get it done to possess me.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate and live into the belief that this process to life is too hard and i can’t do it through accepting and allowing the experience of giving up in these moments of energy veils that come over me of a heaviness and a depression, where i believe that it’s too much and it won’t be done while accepting and allowing energy as depression and heaviness determine who i am.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not in these moments question who i am and how i am accepting and allowing myself to be depressed and in a state of giving up through allowing thoughts that it’s too hard and i can’t do it, and thus accept and allow the outflow of giving in to the experience of giving myself tolerance to indulge more into the addiction and the self interest of mind addictions in sweets, sleep, abuse in my thoughts and words, when i see, realize, and understand that it’s time to stop and change these patterns as it's enough now.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use this experience of leniency in a way as self manipulation where i use it as a guise as to why i don’t have to stand in that moment, but can give up and give in to my addictions which is giving into the energy temptation and experience that i have become addicted to of living out the experience of the sensations of giving in and indulging and use this experience as leniency come in where i tell myself it's cool, i can give in this one time, i'll get it next time, it's all good.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give into the thoughts and addictions of giving myself more time, space, and excuses to give into my mind and addictions instead of once and for all stopping and changing and living disciplined and thus changing myself into a physical being directing myself instead of using experiences of leniency to hide behind and not face myself in my reality and be responsible and change.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not stand and walk breath and physical living in the simplicity of what is here as life living in the obvious and common sense equations that will support myself and others in the best way possible regardless what it takes as effort and movement, i walk cause it’s best not based on a feeling or experience.
I commit myself to when i see i am going into the experience of being lenient with myself, flag it and identify what pattern or addiction i am not facing and moving into a solution with.
I commit myself to walk a process within a day to identify this pattern and then start the process of solution point by point as this comes through.
i commit myself to support myself in the process by living the words discipline, care, self responsibility, life, steadfast, physical effort to do what has to be done to move through the addiction and create a new way of living that is self created and directed.