Day 9: Matters of The Heart and Soul are Paved In Money
I used to believe that when I died I was going to heaven – the idea was that in order to make the journey, I required a ‘soul’ – which I connected with my heart area as being the place where the invisible thing, (the soul) was located. I didn’t realize then that the context of my belief was paved in matters of money because my ideas/beliefs/hopes and dreams for a life that I’d have waiting for myself after I die was within a belief rooted as the very foundation in which I’ve existed as as I’ve walked this earth.
The very relationship I defined myself to according to how I struggled in my numerous attempts to survive within our current world/money system, is all the same game… In my mind – the heaven I envisioned was rich in money with streets of gold and castles of silver protected by pearly gates.
It’s all quite absurd to me now, not only that I believed in a nice cozy heaven, but that the only way I was able to see a future for myself in such a heaven, was the same as envisioning a future for myself here on earth – of which there isn’t one, without money. It’s an interesting challenge for self and a worthwhile journey – to become aware of and be able to through self-forgiveness, and in self-honesty – stop the delusions of the mind. Join Us
I forgive myself for always having to have money in order to see a future for myself here on earth as well as a made-up illusion called heaven as consciousness.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to focus on money so much that I never saw how I was existing with no self integrity and/or self value.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that when a person dies their ‘soul’ become a ‘spirit’ and is thus only then separated from their body.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to within the soul construct fear to change, so much so that I’ve avoided changing because I didn’t want to give something/someone up for fear something might happen if I give it/them up and then I won’t Feel the same so in fact I fear Not Feeling.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing others interpretations of the bible to determine who I am – instead I stop. I breathe – I forgive myself and release the enslavement of mind control.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my soul rises to God after death to be judged on where it will go next, (Heaven or Hell) – instead of seeing, realizing and understanding how it doesn’t make sense as the bible refers to the soul as being the mind and as such I have proved to myself how the mind as consciousness is not and cannot be trusted in it’s direction for and as life because life here as it currently exists is experienced as a place of immense suffering, pain and atrocity – Instead I Stop. I Breathe. I stand and direct myself in and as self-honesty according to the principle of what’s best for all.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the beliefs/opinions of others unto myself of which I had no clue or understanding of.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use justification as a defense mechanism through fear of being wrong.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the soul was the heart of me as self – instead of realizing that the soul of this existence rests Only in the hands of those with Money.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fall into the trap of love of the heart and everlasting light – instead of realizing that the I acceptance of that begins in the mind as thoughts and manifests results as feelings and emotions within my physical body which is actually fear, suppression and self-denial and, an abdication of and as all life itself.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to deny that Money Is the backbone and reason for every religious doctrine existent and practiced.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to become angry and judge old people as dumb and stupid for their beliefs and sayings of ‘bless his soul’ – instead of seeing, realizing and understanding them to be what’s left of a being as the life long living sign and a deadly give away as the reason why something here is amiss proving the mind as consciousness is crippling and must be stopped immediately through self-forgiveness.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that I was a good soul because I worked my ass off to provide for my children when in fact I was existing within an energetic high of and as the Ego.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to always strive for love, light and positivity instead of realizing that what I was really striving for was to become, have and be more than others.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to constantly only think about myself making money and what did I had to do next in order to do what I wanted to do which was really what I wanted to buy and/or what I thought I needed wherein I became so consumed that I didn’t even hear my own children telling me to slow down, breathe, and see and hear them.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be blinded by the light of consciousness wherein I was consumed with hurrying and thoughts of ‘I have to get this done’ so I can hurry and experience that, all within the starting point of energy consumed with wanting and desiring more.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to convince myself within the polarity point of good/bad in telling myself that my intensions were good when in fact they were only paved in the energy of getting/having and seeking to make more money.
I forgive myself for deceiving myself into believing that I wanted everyone to experience bountifulness when in fact I secretly existed in greedy plans of having, needing and getting more than others.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to be selfish, impatient and insecure wherein I make mistakes, and was out of control, and, have been at times hard to handle and, where within it all, the core starting point was my fear of losing and/or not being able to have enough money to provide the best for my babies.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to accept something/someone into my heart that was suppose to save me – instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that in doing so I was denying life and denying my right to exist as life. I stop. I breathe. I direct me in and as self-honesty – I forgive myself.
I commit myself to facing the parts of me as my mind that I avoid the most in fear of who I’ve become so that I can forgive that which I’ve accepted and allowed and direct myself out of self-denial and into supporting all living beings in bringing forth a solution where all living beings exist within a dignified manner of living.
I commit myself to assist and support in any way necessary to bring about a world where All life is honored and Not one living being is left to cry out in hunger and fear and where a child’s expression is not silenced but instead is allowed to be heard all around the world.
I commit myself within and as this one life as me in self-honesty as who I am within and as my physical body to support our physical earth in seeing who we are capable of being in our acceptance and allowance of and as an Equal Money System for all Living beings.
I commit myself to walking my process in gentleness in forgiving/releasing all I am within the need of wanting to be special so that I may see who I am free from fear and definition and thus stand in and as a solid foundation of support of and as all here within the matters of earth and all life as all as one as equal.
I commit myself to focus on a one world system where all living beings are recognized as Equal.
I commit myself to the common sense that no saviour can ever change the world or make it a place worthy of life, only me as human can do that. Bernard Poolman
I commit myself to standing one and equal as these words.
Fortunately, the Soul has been removed – though, the responsibility is in the hands of each individual being to identify and release self from ongoing patterns through self-forgiveness. For further perspective in understanding how the soul construct was placed into and designed to control mankind the following is suggested:What was the Soul Construct and why did it exist?Chakras, The Soul and Astral ProjectionThe Heart of Love