Yes, the world is fucked us because we've accepted and allowed this world to be based on Ego, Greed, self interest due to our beliefs that we must survive in this world instead of realizing that we're the cause and thus, we can change. Yes, you are a part of the problem, as well as I - we are all equally responsible for what is here. this is why we always say that 1+1=2. we can equally stand up and change this world to never again be a world of abuse and suffer.
Competition exists as Ego - as a fight for ones personality survival. we all participate within it in some way or another. if you slow down yourself and become self honest, you'll see the extent of the male Ego, competition and jealousy you allowed yourself to be and become. remember - don't take it personally - we are equally fucked but from that we must stand up and change, rebirth ourselves as the physical.
a point to consider within your Self Forgiveness statements -
Lex23 wrote:I forgive myself for allowing to think i am acting better than main society.
I forgive myself for allowing to not live my own believes fully.
the format we use for Self Forgiveness is as following - "I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself
..." it is for self to understand self responsibility and how self has accepted and allowed self to participate within and as the mind in separation of self.
another point to look at is - are your beliefs based on principles of equality as what's best for all? where did you come up with your belief that you now wants to live them fully? what are your beliefs? investigate the starting point of your beliefs because in essence, beliefs are part of the pre-program design you have allowed yourself to exists as. Beliefs are not standing Equal and One as life. check it out for yourself.