Lex´s writing to freedom ...

[Lex23]

Hi, folks!
So now i´ve introduced me and from now on i will write in this section of the forum!!

@Bella: You´ve asked how i made the step from i call it my ´bad days´ to the state of now... I can only say it took longer than i thought and i made several steps and let´s call it backsteps ( meaned in psycological and addiction form ). I also must add that after christmas 2005 my father died and this was not an easy time for me and my mother. So it took me nearly 6 years to come to the state of now.
In these years my car also got stolen and i lost my driving license after having it for nearly 13 years. I also should get ~ € 1.200 from socalled friends, because in small portion i borrowed money to them.
But afterall i like people, nature, animals and i am standing full to the idea of a equalmoney system, like discribed on equalmoney.org!!

[Lex23]

Teamplay rather than competition:

I want to talk about a video that inspired me to a new insight, its´ called Competition works from Gabriel Zamora Moreno. When i looked the video some feelings of sadness came up in me. I think the world is so fucked up, because everyone is in competition amoung society ... everybody wants to be the winner and in this struggle more and more looser come to the surface. The better way than taking the floor amoung everybody´s feet is, i think, to help each other up and to act on the same stage.
Now i looked in my past and saw that i am also part of the problem. Because i and much teknofriends also don´t meet people on the same stage, which are living conventionally in the system. Because we don´t agree with their way of living and also want to change some parts of society, so we also make this people unconsciously smaller.

I forgive myself for allowing to think i am acting better than main society.
I forgive myself for allowing to not live my own believes fully.

I realize that to better society we must first work on our own self.

Thank´s for listening

[Maya]

Yes, the world is fucked us because we've accepted and allowed this world to be based on Ego, Greed, self interest due to our beliefs that we must survive in this world instead of realizing that we're the cause and thus, we can change. Yes, you are a part of the problem, as well as I - we are all equally responsible for what is here. this is why we always say that 1+1=2. we can equally stand up and change this world to never again be a world of abuse and suffer.

Competition exists as Ego - as a fight for ones personality survival. we all participate within it in some way or another. if you slow down yourself and become self honest, you'll see the extent of the male Ego, competition and jealousy you allowed yourself to be and become. remember - don't take it personally - we are equally fucked but from that we must stand up and change, rebirth ourselves as the physical.

a point to consider within your Self Forgiveness statements -

I forgive myself for allowing to think i am acting better than main society.
I forgive myself for allowing to not live my own believes fully.

the format we use for Self Forgiveness is as following - "I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself..." it is for self to understand self responsibility and how self has accepted and allowed self to participate within and as the mind in separation of self.

another point to look at is - are your beliefs based on principles of equality as what's best for all? where did you come up with your belief that you now wants to live them fully? what are your beliefs? investigate the starting point of your beliefs because in essence, beliefs are part of the pre-program design you have allowed yourself to exists as. Beliefs are not standing Equal and One as life. check it out for yourself.

[Lex23]

@Maya: Thank´s for the correction of the forgive formula. Because you ask which are my believes, i write out a second time: My belief is that if we all participate in teamplay rather than competition, and are acting and meet the beings on the same stage, it will be a radical betterment for all of us. This also can be called Equality of life as equal and one.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think i am acting better than main society.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not live my own belief fully.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to first get distracted from the correct formula of self-forgiveness.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to smell a little attack, because of the writing of Maya.

I realize that self-forgiveness is a step to step approach and i have no hurry, as long i´ll work with it regularly.

[Maya]

@Maya: Thank´s for the correction of the forgive formula. Because you ask which are my believes, i write out a second time: My belief is that if we all participate in teamplay rather than competition, and are acting and meet the beings on the same stage, it will be a radical betterment for all of us. This also can be called Equality of life as equal and one.

lol It is not a belief - it's a common sense principle of 1+1=2.
the way to walk as the principle is to first align yourself equal and one so to speak. meaning - to first realize the self created system of competition, ego, jealousy and so fourth, to walk the multiply layers of the mind that are interlink with those points. it takes a while so don't be hard on yourself. direct yourself to walk the entire system manifestation till it's done.

Some assistance with Self Forgiveness:

Veno - PRACTICAL support and Guidance with Self Forgiveness
http://desteni.co.za/a/veno-practical-s ... orgiveness

Unconditional (Self) Forgiveness - Bella
viewtopic.php?t=250

Self-Forgiveness & Practical Self-Application perspectives - Bella
viewtopic.php?f=5&t=135

[Lex23]

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give Ann´s opinion to less beingness.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to constrain my idea´s on to other´s.
I realize that i instead will concentrate on my self-reflection through self-forgiveness.

[Lex23]

To get and give beingness - a continous process

I found out about myself, that i´m claiming beingness for myself and my idea´s, but sometimes i find it not so easy to give beingness to other´s. Surly that has also something to do that mankind usually thinks subjectively rather than objectively from person´s, opinion´s, ... ! Through that it automatically comes to a degradation of the attitude from people and that is the purpose, that´s my opinion, of more unequality in the world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not give beingness without reserve.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be part of the problem.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think more subjectively rather than objectively.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to claim more beingness for myself rather than give beingness without reserve.

I realize that i will give more beingness through my thought to other persons, ideas, ...!!

Thanks for listening ...

[Marlen]

Hello Lex - okay

Practical suggestions to ground your words - write about how you define 'beingness'.

I also suggest you read through others' self forgiveness and participation as it will allow you to see how Self Forgiveness comes within the outflow of writing yourself - take a day in your day and describe how you live it and from there apply the necessary Self Forgiveness which has to be specific and pertinent to the points you are sharing in your writings -

See how there is a lot more of self-writing that must be done in order to go grasping what applying self forgiveness is - there are plenty of examples and material for self-support here, suggest read it.

thanks

[Lex23]

drug addiction

I have been taking drugs for nearly 18 years ... so it is normal for me to go out to parties and take drugs with friends. The question is what should that tell me that i
am taking sometimes gladly drugs?? Is there something in me that feels so empty that i want to fill it??
Looks like it is so ... i am trying to educate myself to play more games like i did it in former times. There i had much fun with in doing this !!
Also another point is that i want to bike every 2-3 days with my new bicycle, to get some fitness, and be more at the fresh air.
It all starts with the need for cigarettes within me, and then i want other things also, so i want to quit smoking as first step to let drugs go!
Has anyone some tipps for quiting smoking ??

Thank´s for listening

[Marlen]

Hi Lex, these two videos are quite cool on stopping smoking - you can also go through Destonians' vlogs on the topic as many have gone through this point when we all decided to stop as a group.

1 Stopping Smoking with Principle before Preference

2 Stopping Smoking with Principle before Preference

Then, if you do a general search here on 'drugs', 'quitting', 'addictions' you'll get all that's been shared on the point so far, there are many many vlogs we've all made on these points as well which I suggest that you watch and after that you can start writing for yourself - first of all- what are your actual motivations to stop, what is it that is your starting point to quit, what's the common sense you see in it - etc. All of that must be clearly standing as a self-decision to quit without creating any ideas about it.

Supporting yourself physically to stop will be required - it's about you committing yourself to live your decision to quit as a principle, as that which you see is simply best for you-all equally.

It does require quite a lot of discipline to stick to that decision, it's not impossible - walked the point myself here so I am here to simply say if one can do it, all can do it.

Suggest you come back and share what you gather from this - write, write, write it all out for your-self support.