Aldin's Writings

[Aldin]

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think twice about applying self forgiveness and writing myself to freedom through and within that application ‘making room’ for procrastination and laziness to expand and consume me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think about if I should apply self forgiveness, write myself to freedom and/or any other necessary self-application instead of just doing it.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to just do it.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to just apply self forgiveness – to just write myself to freedom – to just apply myself as the momentary necessary self-application instead of thinking about doing it – which in the end ends up in not doing it.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the more I think about doing the things that I know I should do – the more I ‘make room’ for the creation of apparently reasonable/valid excuses and ways for not having to do it in the very moment.

Within that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within the belief and idea that I am obliged and / or ‘have to’ prove to someone or something outside myself that I am not as fucked as it seemed and that I am indeed capable of placing myself as an effective and self-honest equality participant within process.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I have to proof to Bernard and Sunette that ‘I can do it’ = that I can stand up again from the pit I have fallen in.

I forgive myself within that that I have accepted and allowed myself to base my self-application – my actions of application of self forgiveness and writing myself to freedom – on the starting point to ‘prove’ and ‘show’ ‘them’ = others – that ‘I can do it’ = that I can be self-honest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to base my self-application as the actions of self forgiveness and writing myself to freedom – on the starting point of and as ‘I’ll show them’ – ‘show’ / ‘prove’ to ‘them’ that ‘I can do it’ = that I can be self-honest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to base my starting point of my self-application as my actions of self forgiveness and writing – onto the point to ‘give it to them’ – ‘show’ and ‘prove’ them wrong on the point that I myself believe that they believe about me – which is that ‘I cannot do it’ = that I simply cannot be self honest no matter how hard I try or wish for to be.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to base my self-applications as all actions of self forgiveness and writing – on the starting point of gloating, through wanting to ‘give it to ‘them” = show ‘them’ that they are wrong and I am right because ‘I can do it’ = I can be self honest – which I myself believe that ‘they’ believe about me that I can / will never be self honest.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that if I have to ‘convince’ / ‘prove’ / show to someone or something that ‘I can do it’ – that I can be self honest – that this indicates that I myself am not really convinced about myself and do not really trust myself that ‘I can do it’ – so in fact want to ‘prove’ to myself that I am wrong and that I can be self honest – that ‘I can do it’ – but separate myself from myself as this point through projecting the point onto someone or something outside myself within the self created belief that I want to ‘give it to them’ while I want to ‘give it to myself’ – lol.

To be concluded with corrective statements

[KlausHoefler]

cool Aldin,

I also obersve sometimes by myself the resistence of blogging or vlogging - in this moment the mind/patterns try to direct/manipulate you and only in this moment we have to realize the point of self-direction - you can see how the mind leads only to the stand of self-interest like "I can do it tomorrow or something like that - If you participate in this - you fall - then you have to stand up - breathe - forgive and walk again for what is best for all.
If you fall and you stand up again you never failed.

Thanks for sharing

[Maya]

Hi Aldin.
When placing the starting point on something or someone instead of Self, one is walking a time loop till one realize that the starting point must change to self.

I would suggest to investigate what is your starting point within applying Self Forgiveness and Self writing to freedom. you used the words "I should" which indicate that there is an idea created upon Self Forgiveness and what Self will gain with applying it.
So assist and support yourself within allocating your starting point of process to make sure you realize why are you doing it.

[Aldin]

Self Corrective Statements:

I do not accept and allow myself to ‘think twice’ about applying myself – about applying self forgiveness or writing myself to freedom – or about anything that needs and / or requires to be done – for I understand that to ‘think twice’ opens / leaves room for procrastination and laziness – besides it’s clearly self-dishonest and I do not accept and allow myself to be self-dishonest.

From this moment on – I do no longer accept and allow myself to think about doing self forgiveness and / or writing myself to freedom and / or any other required self-application instead of simply just doing it and I just do it.

I understand that if I think about doing self forgiveness or any other required self honest self application that I will end up in not doing it and I understand that this application is in a way a method through which I try to postpone and find a point of excuse and valid excuse for why I do not have to apply myself. Within that understanding I stop thinking and / or ‘approaching’ self forgiveness, writing myself to freedom and / or any other required self honest self application from thoughts and simply allow and accept myself to act and just do it.

I understand that there are in fact no valid excuses for the refusal and resistance to / towards applying self forgiveness, writing myself to freedom and / or any other required self honest self application and that all excuses are always self-dishonest. And within that I stop and do not accept and allow myself to search / look for apparently ‘valid’ excuses to not apply self forgiveness etc and do not waste any further time and just do the required / necessary self-applications.

I do not accept and allow myself to believe that I am obliged to Bernard or Sunette or anyone or anything else / separate from me – to do this process ‘for’ and apply self-forgiveness etc. ‘for’ – for I understand that ‘doing things’ from the belief of being obliged to do it ‘for’ someone or something is self-dishonest and reflects that I just don’t really want to do this process / an application for key within self-honesty. And in that I accept and allow myself to walk this process and apply myself within this process fir myself alone in the understanding that I am walking this process for myself as life as fir all as equal as one in establishing / manifesting who I / we really are as life and the understanding that each have to walk and individual process of self-realization as life as equality to establish the ultimate objective of world / universal equality where life meets life.

I do not accept and allow myself to apply self forgiveness / walk this process in general based on the starting point to ‘prove’ to someone that I can do it and or to ‘prove’ someone wrong and show them that I can do it. I understand that this process is not about ‘them’ – is not about others separate from self but ‘it’ is for self alone as individual to be walked – as self honesty is a process that each one walks alone for themselves. Within that I accept and allow myself to apply myself within process from the starting point of self as life as becoming totally self honest and manifesting myself as life as equality as oneness as someone that supports life as I understand that this is the individuals singular step towards world / universal equality wherein all individual beings walking this process are a singular step in the ‘walking up’ to the ‘point’ of established / manifested equality within this world / the universe.

I do not accept and allow myself to distrust me within the point of self honest as I understand that self-distrust paves the road to depression which leads to ‘falling’ and I do not accept and allow myself to fall deliberately any longer. I accept and allow myself to trust myself and build self-trust within myself through constant / consistent self-honest self-application.

I understand that I am self-application.

I understand that I am self-honesty.

I understand that I am life.

I understand that I am equality and oneness.

I understand that I am self-corrective application.

Whenever I realize that I am thinking about / ‘thinking twice’ about applying self-forgiveness and / or any other required self honest self-application instead of simply being self-honest and acting / doing it – I stop and take a deep breath, ‘bring myself to here’ and be self-honest and do the necessary self-application.

I understand that I am breath.

I understand that I am self-trust.

I understand that I am self-responsibility.

I understand that I am not separate from anyone or anything.

I understand that I am consistency.

I understand that I am physical.

I understand that I am self-direction.

I understand that I am self-will.

[Aldin]

Self Corrective Statements:
I do not accept and allow myself to believe that I am obliged to Bernard or Sunette or anyone or anything else / separate from me – to do this process ‘for’ and apply self-forgiveness etc. ‘for’ – for I understand that ‘doing things’ from the belief of being obliged to do it ‘for’ someone or something is self-dishonest and reflects that I just don’t really want to do this process / an application for key within self-honesty.

lol - this should be 'me' instead of 'key', lol, fascinating for here is the 'key' which is to 'bring the startingpoint back to 'me' / self'. Cool.

[hilda rac]

Thanks for sharing!
I tend to get so possessed by patterns and not write for days, but then a turmoil comes and I'm simply forced to write it out. The starting point has become self a while ago, only self is kinda messed up It tends to forget that the experience of self after self-forgiveness is such an awesome thing - them energetics are powerful, violent, shiny things, hypnotizing cryptonite. But self also knows that self has no choice, that has been proven over and over again. That's why we're here We do this or we don't and die trying, but we know there's no third option, because we don't want to go back into that prison.

[Aldin]

Day 16 Digging a hole for oneself: Why not just stop immediately once you realize?

I’d like to share some realization I’ve had during my day:

The last 3 days I’ve been ‘blowing hot and cold’ with regards to my self-honest self-movement and self-direction in my process towards Life as What’s Best for All.

I’ve allowed myself to ‘fall back’ into patterns of laziness and procrastination, leaving things aside to do them later. And do them at the last moment only.


So, today I’ve been accessing the same patterns again and I noticed / realized that I was ‘digging a hole for myself’ with regards to my self-honesty, meaning that I’d further my acceptance and allowance of being self-dishonest because I fear to fuck up again if I allow myself to be self-honest again and that I’ll will find myself in the same position anyway, and since I’m already self-dishonest I can just further it and remain self-dishonest because then I do not have to exist in fear of falling / failing again.

Instead of stopping the self-dishonesties and ‘return’ to being self-honest once I realize what I’m accepting and allowing myself to live as the very first time – because that very ‘stopping’ of my self-dishonesty and ‘returning’ to self-honesty once / the first time I realize / see / become aware of that I’m being self-dishonest – is actually the immediate Self-Correction applied and thus I immediately STOP what I’m accepting and allowing myself to exist as and live that is not Best for All Life and return to live self-honestly ‘again’ and do not unnecessarily ‘dig a hole for myself’ in which I fall, every time deeper and deeper and then it just ‘waste time’ and ‘take’ more ‘time’ to ‘stand-up’ again.

Rather do the ‘Stopping’ immediately once / the first time I realize / see / become aware of what I’m accepting and allowing myself to express and live as that is not best for all.

We all have a tendency to dig a hole for ourselves, done by accepting and living as the mindset of / as “But I’m already doing this and that – so let me just continue.”

Rather stop right there where you see that you are digging a hole for yourself, where you become aware of that you are not living what’s best for all and just stop, forgive yourself and apply immediate self-correction: ‘Returning’ to the self-expression and self-living of / as What is Best for All. No judgement – Just immediate self-correction in the moment of awareness.

Don’t dig holes for yourself, because you WILL fall and it will by your own doing.

[Aldin]

Day 18 When science comes to the conclusion that something is incurable

Today I’ve been cross-referencing my theories on my flushing / reddening and hotness experience on my face – with other people that have the same experiences, through the Internet.

The closest I’ve come to is a condition called “rosacea”. After I researched rosacea I could relate to it in the sense that I do have this reddened areas on specific areas on my skin, which are the forehead, nose, cheeks and around the eyes; it looks like I have a sunburn except for the eye-area, which has the ‘normal’ skin tone like the rest of the body; making it look like I wore sunglasses during tanning.

I then came across a video on YouTube where a doctor talks about rosacea , but prior to that – I had heard a lot of statements and assertions from people that rosacea is incurable, and since I do not accept such assertions that something is incurable / unchangeable – I continued my research and then came across this video I mentioned before, where a doc talks about rosacea and how to treat it to lower the symptoms. In the course of the video, the moderator of the show stated that her understanding is that rosacea is incurable and the doctor approved of it, saying the following:

“We don’t really know what it is, we can’t target it directly at this underlying cause. We can just know the triggers and try to control that..”

Fascinating, because what you can hear out from that is the art of scientific conclusion: When science fails to understand an illness or disease, and thus is unable to target it at it’s underlying cause, the conclusion will be made that it’s incurable.

The point I’m making here is not about the rosacea or an illness or disease per se, it’s about how we as humanity make conclusions about something being incurable / unchangeable if we fail to understand and see something for what it actually is, and thus do not have the ability to target the problem at it’s underlying cause.

Like how often have you heard the statement that humanity is incurable, that we cannot change, that we cannot change the world because it’s our nature or because that’s how things are or how things are supposed to be? Or people stating that they cannot change themselves? I have heard it times and times again, I even state it myself if I fail to understand a problem, if I fail to see the ‘how’ to change myself, if I cannot target the underlying cause of the problem.

It’s easy to make conclusion if we do not understand something because then we can divert from the problem and sink into self-pity and continue with our existing life / life-style, thinking and submitting to the idea and belief that we’re incurable / unchangeable or that it’s how things are, that it’s our destiny.

The same mind-set application also comes into play when people come across the Equal Money System that we at Desteni propose – and the same mind-set also comes into play when people come across the Desteni Process: They don’t understand or see how such a thing as an Equal Money System could work or even come into being. They don’t understand or see how we can change ourselves and with that the world / existence as a whole, because they don’t understand / see within themselves what within and of themselves it is, that is causing them to remain in this ‘unchangeable’ ‘state’ and so they make the conclusion that it (the Equal-Money-System or what we at Desteni are walking as the Desteni-Process) cannot and will not work, because it’s easier to state that then to actually investigate themselves to understand themselves, understand the ‘problem’, the underlying ‘cause’ of what it is within themselves that is ‘not allowing’ themselves to ‘change’ themselves.

Everyone can change themselves, everything is ‘curable’, it’s that we have separated ourselves from the underlying ‘cause’, the ‘problem’ of everything of ourselves and this world = that ‘which’ has ‘created’ this whole world, that ‘which’ has ‘created’ ourselves into and as who we are right now as individuals as-well as humanity as a whole: Which is ourselves; ‘the’ Self, You and Me, ‘the’ ‘I’, and we have through that separation of ourselves as ‘the’ ‘cause’ of the creation of ourselves and this world as a whole – placed the ‘focus’ somewhere ‘out there’, believing that the ‘problem’ is ‘out there’, separate from ourselves, and then we ‘naturally’ fail to see and understand the ‘problem’, the ‘cause’ which has ‘led’ us to being ‘who’ and ‘what’ we are right now, and because we don’t understand / see that ‘cause’ / ‘problem’ we can’t do anything about it and we make the conclusion that ‘it’s’ incurable / unchangeable, that we are not able to change, that something like an Equal-Money-System is not possible, that it’ll never BE.

We are the ‘cause’, We are the ‘problem’: That which has ‘led to’ the creation of ‘who’ and ‘what’ we are and exist as right now, both Individually and as humanity as a whole.

We can change ourselves, we can change our ‘nature’ because we have created our ‘current’ ‘nature’ which we deem ‘unchangeable’ in the first place – We are the ‘creators’ of ourselves, the ‘creators’ of this world.

We have created / established the current Monetary-System, we have placed the current ‘values’ on things like Money and Profit instead of placing ‘value’ on Life, on the ‘well-being’ of each living form.

We have created our behaviors, our emotions, our feelings, our thoughts, our laziness, our procrastination. We have decided, accepted and allowed ourselves to ‘be’ and ‘exist as’ ‘Who’ and ‘What’ we are right now. We are the ones who decide to ‘remain’ ‘unchangeable’.

Do you see what We can do?

An Equal-Money-System is possible.

Self-Change is possible.

Those walking the Desteni-Process have proven it to themselves and they continue proving it to themselves every day anew.

Join us on the creation of a better world for all. That better world includes both you and me.

(Here are some articles you may like to read that will assist with giving perspective on that it is in-fact us who are creating ourselves and this world; that we as Self are the ‘underlying’ ‘cause’ and ‘problem’, and that we can indeed change ourselves and this world):


Write yourself to freedom with me the ‘pen’ and with computer

Osho - I am the living word in every moment

Jesus - Responsibility

Current Human Consciousness creating Global Warming - Mother Nature’s predictions for Earth

Alice A Bailey - From Consciousness to Awareness - Part 1

Benazir Bhutto - The Truth Hurts - Part 3

Marilyn Monroe: The Human Design - Menstruation

Manifested Consequence - Lao Tzu

Jack - The Power of Money

Jack - Structural Suppressions and Forgiveness - Part 1

Munchin - Thoughts: The unknown secret of creation

Veno - Structural Resonance - Part 1

Consciousness - The Enslavement of Man by Consciousness

Veno - The Design of the Mind System – Part 1

Practically Facing and Walking-Through The Past as Self

The Dolphins - Blood Pressure

What are refractions?

Bernard Poolman - What is structural resonance

Winged - Exploring Self Intimacy

Bernard Poolman - Let us expound the equality and oneness point practically

Sunette - The Law of my Being – the Law of Me

Sunette - STOP! – and discover yourself

Self is the organism

Walking Process - Reality does Not Change

Jack - War, murder and rape exposed - Part 1

Jack - War, murder and rape exposed - Part 2

Practically Creating The World as Acceptable to ALL

Aliayea - Self-movement

Jack - The Courage to live Self-Honestly

[Aldin]

Day 45 Expectations in Relationships: Corrective Phase — Part 1

I realise that seeking only girls which I deem as ‘beautiful’, sexy, hot and cute, based on my personal definitions of such ‘characteristics’, is limiting myself within relationships because I can really miss out on some girl with which I would really have a ‘good time’ and intimate relationship with and find an actual ‘physical ‘connection’’ with.

I commit myself to, when and as I see myself ignoring girls which do not exactly match my image and likeness of ‘the’ perfect girl, to stop any judgement and just breathe and remain here in and as the physical, as presence, and realize that I am limiting myself and that the girl that is not as perfect as my ‘‘dream-girl’ image’ might actually be one with whom I can really have a real intimate relationship with and that my perception of female beauty is based on and created through television and seeing all these great looking film-stars and pop-stars and porn-stars.


I realise that I judge female-beauty mostly upon comparing a girl I see with girls/females I see on television, in films, series and music-videos and also magazines — and that there is actually nothing ‘wrong’ with the girls I see in real-life if they do not look as perfect as those I see on television and I realise that most of the girls/females on television, like in series, movies, music-videos and porn — are specifically ‘enhanced’ to ‘perfection’ through make-up, the ‘right’ ‘lightning’, effects, post-editing, some have also gone through plastic-surgery — and so on. and that quite a number of those ‘perfect’ females/girls on television and in magazines aren’t real but ‘made-up’, especially when it comes to behavior, for it’s an ACT.

And within that: I commit myself to, when and as I see/find myself judging the girls I see in real life, as ugly based on the comparison of them with those girls/females I see/saw in television, like movies, series, music videos, porn and also magazines — stop the judgement, stop participating in thoughts and stop comparing those ‘real life’ girls with those on television and magazines, but allow me to instead breathe and remain here as presence within and as the actual physical reality and location where I am — and realize that most of those females/girls on television and magazines aren’t real, as in, that they have been specifically ‘enhanced’ to look that way and they act-out a script and aren’t the real person that they are away from the movie/film-set or photo-shooting — and in that I allow me to embrace the girls that are here in real-life and not ignore them and in my mind ‘throw them away’ and ‘tag’ them as being ‘inappropriate’ to go into a relationship with but allow me to consider a relationship with them if I like them and ‘feel’ something for them.

I commit myself to stop ‘liking’ and ‘feeling something for’ a girl, based on the comparison of the real-life girl I see with those ‘perfect’ ones on television — and allow me and commit myself to drop and stop the comparison and forgive any judgement and definition I have of any girl I see immediately and breathe, remain here in the physical as self-presence, and from here see ‘what’ I really like and for which one I really/actually ‘feel something’ for.

I commit myself to ‘see’ ‘who’ the girl is as a being as equal to me, and from there decide if I want to be in a relationship with her — and not based on comparison and desire, where I compare her with those girls/females on television and magazines.

I realize that the girls in real-life will not and do not look like those on television and magazines, because most of those in television and magazines, are ‘made-up’, enhanced through many ways, even digital post-processing — and that it would be quite limited to only seek and look for such girls in real-life that come absolutely close to the ones on television and magazines.

And: I commit myself to realize that there is absolutely nothing wrong with the girls I see in real-life, in actual, physical time and space reality — and that they do not have to look like stars like I see on television and magazines — to be worth to go into a relationship with them.

I realise that I will have to drop any and all judgement I have towards and of a girl I see in my reality — in-order to ‘get to the ‘core’’ of the being as in, seeing the being for who ‘it’/she really is as a living, breathing being like myself and within that allow me to opportunity to see and find if I really have an actual ‘‘feeling’ towards’, ‘desire’ to go into a relationship with her.

[Aldin]

Day 46 Expectations in Relationships: Corrective Phase — Part 2

I realise that expecting my partner to love me, and show her love to me through saying the words “I love you” — is really just me searching for and looking for outside recognition and validation — so I can feel validated and accepted, like acknowledging that I am Here, existing and breathing and living — visible to the world and not invisible/unseen.

Within that: I commit myself to, when and as I find/see myself expecting my partner to love me and show that love through the words “I love you” — to: Stop participation in any thoughts/backchat and energetic reactions of/as emotions and feelings that might come up within me — and simply breathe and through that breathing — remain/focus on the Physical-Location/Situation I am in and thus remain Here in Awareness as Presence within and as the Physical-Here-Moment – and realize that I am but looking for and seeking/yearning for recognition, validation and acceptance from others separate from me, in this case from my partner — because I do not recognize, acknowledge, accept and love me for whatever ‘reason’ that might be — and so try to ‘love’ me through another, which isn’t possible —— And so, I allow myself to, instead: Accept and acknowledge myself, realizing and seeing and acknowledging that I am Here, I am breathing, I am living, I am not invisible — and that I need not another to be ‘visible’/existent — to confirm to me that I am Here, that I indeed exist — and I commit myself to investigate/research/look within me for all the reasons why I reject self-love/why I do not love myself but seek self-love through another’s love — and within that clear/stop the separation from self as self-love and allow myself to love myself, accept myself and acknowledge myself — and within that make the relationship one of, where I and my partner assist each other in accepting/loving ourselves as ‘individuals’/’individual beings’ — and not depend on each others love to feel loved and only then love ourselves.

I commit myself to realise that the words “I love you” aren’t a confirmation and evidence of real actual love — and that real, actual love in a relationship is in the physical doing and living of what’s best for both in the relationship, where both partners do not accept and allow any inferiority and dependency/submission to each-other, within themselves and each other and will call any and all dishonesties in themselves and each other, they become aware of, by the name and assist and support themselves and each other in stopping such self-dishonesties and creating/expanding/evolving/living self to the utmost potential that we are able to live/be/exist as.

I realise that I must not depend and submit to my partner to be able to ‘function’ properly and love/accept/acknowledge myself, because such a dependency and submission relationship is a relationship of inferior-izing ourselves to each other, in the belief that we really can’t exist without each other — and I commit myself to realize that the belief that one can’t exist without the other, is stemming from the self-accepted and allowed self-separation from certain ‘points’/’characteristics’ that we now look to give to ourselves through the partner — because we aren’t allowing ourselves to live these ‘points’/’characteristics’ as ourselves within and as self-equality and self-oneness.

Within that: I commit myself to, when and as I see/find myself going into slightest submission and dependency to my partner in-order to ‘feel well’ and ‘good’ and love/accept/acknowledge myself, to: Stop immediately and breathe, remain Here as Presence within and as the Physical-Here-Moment — and realize that I am allowing and accepting myself to separate/view myself as separate from certain ‘points’/’characteristics’ I seek/see within my partner and try to give to me through my partner — and instead allow me to realize myself as equal and one with such ‘points’ and allow me to ‘give’ these ‘points’ to myself in and as allowing me to live these ‘points’ as myself within and as equality and oneness.

I commit myself to stop believing that it is dependency to each other — that is the sign of real love in a relationship — for I can’t apparently live without the other and need them — which apparently shows how great my love is for my partner because I need them to exist – and I commit myself to realize that this is indeed not so, and that such a dependency and feeling to need the other in-order to remain ‘sane’ and ‘functional’ and ‘complete’ is simply stemming from the accepted and allowed self-separation from that which I like within my partner as that which I apparently need to have in the form of my partner as a separate entity/being/point, to feel ‘well’ and ‘complete’ and ‘sane’.

I commit myself to realize that the dependency to each other in a relationship, is not the sign of real love, but is actually facilitating inferiority within oneself — through allowing and accepting oneself to submit to a dependency to another — where that very dependency to another, will determine how you feel and experience yourself and how you act/what you live/your decisions — and that if the partner where not there anymore, the beings world would fall apart and suddenly they would no more be functional as they were before.

I commit myself to realize that the dependency to each other in a relationship, that is apparently the sign of real love, is the actual evil, because it conditions the beings experience and life – so that the beings world will fall apart if the partner would to be no more.

I commit myself to realize that a relationship must be based on self-honesty — each partner being self-honest with themselves and support the self-honesty of each-other — in realizing that if the relationship is not based on self-honesty, it will not last very long — as is seen in most relationships in the world, and that such a relationship that is not based on self-honesty is merely used to hide from facing oneself and is like a contract between the two partners to allow and support the self-dishonesties of each other and not question them.