Sadoon's Self Forgiveness

[Sadoon]

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist as the system of seeking the energetic experience of participating in sexual desires through thoughts, pornography and sex.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that by existing as my sexual desire, I am existing as an abuser as it does not consider myself equal to women by objectifying women as sex objects.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define some women as attractive to fit my sexual desire that does not consider myself equal to all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react to seeing women that I have defined as attractive by creating thoughts and feelings of sexual desire.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to interact with women that I have defined as attractive by trying to impress them by acting so they may have sex with me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to try and appear attractive so that I may impress women and have sex with them.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to consider my sexual desire as self enjoyment as acceptable even though I exist as an abuser within that sexual desire.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to consider my own enjoyment to be more important than standing equal to all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as dirty for participating in sexual desire.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to consider women that participate in my sexual desire as sluts and inferior to me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to be superior and abusive in my sexual desire.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be too ashamed to expose myself as a obsessed with sex.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear being labeled as a pervert by exposing myself as sexually obsessed.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to trust myself to walk through and past the point of sexual desire.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to let go of memories in which I have fallen on the point of sexual desire.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to let go of sexual desire, even though I stand as an abuser within it.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to let go of my sexual desire even though I realize that it has possessed me and directed me.

When and as thoughts and feelings of sexual desire arise, I will stop, breathe and say "Stop. I will not allow myself to exist as the system of sexual obsession." and will focus on breath to remove myself from that system.

When and as I react to seeing something by creating thoughts and feelings of a sexual desire, I will stop, breathe and say "Stop. I will not allow myself to be possessed by sexual desire as a reaction to seeing (insert blank)" and will focus on breath and physically move myself away from that which I am reacting to if necessary.

When and as thoughts emerge that define particular women as attractive, I will stop, breathe and say "Stop. I will not allow myself to define this woman as attractive because I have created that definition to fit and support my sexual desire" and I will focus on breath.

When and as thoughts arise that consider my sexual experience as a point of lust and abuse, I will stop, breathe and say "Stop, I will not allow myself to exist as the system that considers my sexual dependent on the objectification of women" and I will focus on breathing.

[Lindsay]

Very cool Sadoon.

If you haven't already, suggest to check out this free interview available on EQAFE:

What is Sex - Overview

[Garbrielle]

Great self support Sadoon, thanks for sharing.

[Sadoon]

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist as the habit of resisting using physical effort to impact and improve my reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to consider it acceptable to leave my responsibilities unsolved if they require effort.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify laziness by considering effort, as physical discomfort, undesirable

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear effort as physical discomfort

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define effort as physical discomfort

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire avoiding all forms of discomfort and pain, all the time

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define laziness as more enjoyable

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire the experience of all forms of joy and pleasure, all the time

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist committing time to achieving results

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize that improving my reality will give me more enjoyment and contentment despite the effort and time necessary.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify laziness by believing that improving my reality at the cost of time and effort is not worth it

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the process of improvement and self realization as effort and not enjoyable

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize that the process of self realization in itself is enjoyable

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify laziness by believing that I don't care if I improve or not

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify laziness through the self deceptive realization that I do not need to put in effort as I have been getting away with it and not realizing that this only keeps me from learning the inevitable that effort is required

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to consider it acceptable to be lazy as other people will sort it out

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize that I must commit to a decision in every moment by stopping thoughts from arising that dissuade me from my decision

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to commit to a decision from a starting point of being satisfied with my energetic state which inevitably leads to an energetic state in which I am not satisfied and therefore no longer motivated

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define and consider myself as lazy because I have always experienced myself as lazy

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not let go of memories that I use to define myself as lazy

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to neglect my responsibilities so that they accumulate and I feel self pity and resist using effort now even more

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize that the consequences of neglecting my responsibilities are greater discomfort

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize that accumulated effort and time will have great impact and improvement on reality

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not commit to time because I have created myself as impatient

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize that I have created myself as impatient as an invalid excuse to be lazy as I do not realize the impact of accumulated time within being impatient

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize that I have created laziness as an invalid excuse to avoid discomfort as I do not realize the impact of accumulated effort within being lazy

When and as the thought and feeling of laziness arises, I will stop, breathe and say "Stop. I will not allow myself to create the feeling of laziness as an excuse" and I will focus on breath to remove myself from that feeling and I will push myself through that resistance and commit, in that moment, to using all the effort necessary to accomplish that particular task.

[Marlen]

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize that improving my reality will give me more enjoyment and contentment despite the effort and time necessary.

Cool point that places into perspective something that we tend to 'forget' when walking this process which is absolutely for self as one and equal wherein everything that we walk as our commitment to life is in fact me giving me back to self as one and equal wherein the actual equalization of all parts will imply the completion that each one of us as human beings has sought for our entire lifetimes -this is it, and we are it and having the great opportunity to walk it within our lifetime. Patience will be definitely necessary and what I've found is also seeing that the actual satisfaction we can have within our lives is when all points are considered in everything we do, say, speak - because in that we realize we are walking/ living as the corrections required, which in itself is then going integrating process as your life wherein all the seemingly 'pleasurable things' that we could have initially been keen to experiencing, become rather secondary when there's an actual dedication to yourself and your process as in getting to know yourself, reality, people with an entire new perspective, which is what makes this process quite 'enjoyable' in terms of it not being the regular entertainment-enjoyment as an energetic experience, but an actual moment-to-moment self-enjoyment that comes when going walking the process to get to know ourselves through these tools.

We've always existed in such separation that we sought relationships everywhere while missing out the primordial relationship with ourselves, getting to know ourselves to within that, see where and how we have separated us in various different moments, people, places as memories that become then the points to walk here with writing, self forgiveness and self corrective application. A point I suggest is leaving the 'will' part int he self corrective statement, as it is like a future projection point that is not necessary if we script the solution here and 'bring the moment here' which means that we script the correction as the directive principle, regardless of such event manifesting or not. What I mean here is that when we write 'will' we are creating a moment in the future to walk that point and thus hook us to such future even to manifest to then walk the correction.

A suggestion for that:

When and as thoughts arise that consider my sexual experience as a point of lust and abuse, I stop and I breathe - I realize that within this experience I am existing as a system that supports the sexual objectification of women - instead I focus my attention on breathing, here, physically.


If you see, within this you simply realize what you are supporting but you're not opposing the mind or fighting over it by denying it - you simply stop because you have realized the consequences of what you are supporting/ existing as in the moment, wherein then the correction is simply stopping and breathing to continue doing whatever it is that you were busy with when thoughts emerge. As you can see, the Self Corrective Statement/ Script then becomes a general point of self-direction that is 'open' to when and as such experience comes again - and 'if' it actually comes again, instead of determining a 'will' point as a certain future which implies it 'will happen' because you've already stated that you 'will' do it. That's how the realizations/ corrections are placed 'here' as the moment that you see them.

So, as you read your self forgiveness you will notice that you can give proper direction into self-directive correction to other points as you go writing them out that you can walk with Self Corrective Statements, wherein you script out how you practically live the correction/ change in the moment, which is then the application of all the writings to make it a living correction - just as you wrote out in the last part of your writings.

Cool for walking all the definitions to start seeing how we have connected words to experiences and hoe we live them out in specific patterns, moments and events as well.

Thanks for sharing, Sadoon

[kim amourette]

Cool Self Forgiveness Sadoon!

[Sadoon]

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize that by judging myself, I change what I am for myself and therefore how I participate

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize that self judgment determines my participation

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify self judgment by using my participation as validation of self judgment, instead of realizing that my participation is a result of self judgment

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize that judging myself as what I experience is equal to considering myself as a victim of circumstance which is equal to accepting myself as powerless and not responsible

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize that judging myself as memories is equal to accepting myself as powerless

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself as the energy I feel

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist as the pattern of seeking contentment through energy

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize that I have created the pattern of seeking contentment through energy as I have defined myself as the energy I feel

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize that existing as this pattern cannot bring contentment as it is equal to existing as the highs and lows of energy that bring despair and pain

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize that self judgment makes me believe that I am which I am not and keeps me from realizing that I am life that breathes

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize that feeling guilt when making mistakes is equal to judging myself as perfect

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize that judging myself as perfect is equal to fear of being imperfect

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize that fear of being imperfect is equal to not wanting to realize that I must change

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize that not wanting change is equal to not wanting to loose the personality and experience that I have defined myself as, which is equal to not wanting to take responsibility for what I have allowed myself to become

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize that I must accept myself for what I have become so that I can change myself

I realize that I am not what I think I am. I realize that I am not how I feel. I realize that I am not how I perceive myself. I realize that I am not what I experience. I realize that I am not how I am perceived. I realize that I am not what I remember. I realize that I am not what other people think I am.

I realize that I am life. I realize that I am here. I realize that I am breath.

[Lindsay]

Very cool Sadoon!

I realize that I am not what I think I am. I realize that I am not how I feel. I realize that I am not how I perceive myself. I realize that I am not what I experience. I realize that I am not how I am perceived. I realize that I am not what I remember. I realize that I am not what other people think I am.

I realize that I am life. I realize that I am here. I realize that I am breath.

Yes - however, when we think/feel/perceive/experience/remember/etc - we are reduced to that limitation, thus that limitation is 'who we are' - so the realization that 'I am Life' must be proven by self in each moment, in all contexts, in every single breath - I AM LIFE - through walking a process of de-construction, in seeing who self has accepted and allowed as 'who I am' - so as to take all of that out, and through this dis-cover 'who I really am'

So, what I suggest here is to support yourself in being more practical with your self-correction - in how you will practically assist/support yourself in walking out of self-judgment to get back to the physical - because, you will find, that realizing 'I am Life' will generally not assist you in the moments of self-judgment, especially when the self-judgment has turned into an energetic possession point - as that statement is not an equal and one reflection of the reality, which is - 'all I am at this moment is self-judgment' - so, for example:

I do not allow myself to reduce myself to a single point of self-judgment totally isolated from the totality of me - I stop, I breathe - I bring myself back to this physical reality, and realize how self-judgment separates me from Life. I realize that i am abusing myself by participating in self-judgment which is a manipulation tactic to keep me enslaved to my mind, instead of me remaining practically-physically here in my reality to do that which is required to be done to stabilize myself here and thus become the example what it is to be/become an effective human being who cares for Life, as myself.

So, simply take the point you're working with, bring it here - within yourself - and look at how you can effectively, practically walk out of the point when and as you see yourself access it again.

If you require further clarification - we're here.

Thanks for sharing!

[KimKline]

Awesome self-forgiveness and self-realizations Sadoon!

Specifically reffering to the point of self-movement (i.e.: standing up from within laziness, pushing oneself to move through/complete responsibilities, etc...), where you identified the point within yourself here:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist as the habit of resisting using physical effort to impact and improve my reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to consider it acceptable to leave my responsibilities unsolved if they require effort.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify laziness by considering effort, as physical discomfort, undesirable

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear effort as physical discomfort

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define effort as physical discomfort

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire avoiding all forms of discomfort and pain, all the time

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define laziness as more enjoyable

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire the experience of all forms of joy and pleasure, all the time

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist committing time to achieving results

I have been (as I'm sure we all have/will at some point) been walking through the point of self-movement. I wanted to share some practical application suggestions which I found extremely supportive when I applied them in my life:

What I found was, when I do simple tasks, I make myself aware of seeing the task through to its completion, no matter how simple it may be. For example- emptying the dishwasher- like any of the many small tasks we have to perform throughout our day- do not avoid it, go over there and just start. I used to HATE emptying the dishwasher as if it were the biggest job, because I created that experience. So I have to push myself to go over there and to just do it. As I'm putting the dishes away, I watch my mind and my experience of myself, I feel these pangs created by thoughts such as: 'this is so boring' 'what a hassle' 'this is taking forever' (I even timed it to show myself what a small amount of my day was spent 'putting dished away,' thus forcing myself to realize and consider the actual practical reality and simplicity of the task instead of trusting the energetic experience I created about it).

Stop the thoughts as they come up and just assert yourself within what you are doing: I am emptying the dishwasher right now, I'm going to complete this task and do it well, I am aware of how I'm feeling right now, but I'm not going to stop or allow it to influence me. I'm not going to slam dishes into their spots, I'm going to take my time any place them properly.
All of a sudden, after doing this for a while, the whole 'dishes' aspect of my life has become integrated as just 'something I do' automatically. So, what I learned from this is, if you practice this with small, seemingly menial tasks, then when bigger jobs come up- you have more will, more assertiveness and more ability to move through it, to do it well, and to walk through it to the end. Start small. Take a piss with awareness!( I have even rushed through peeing, lol! My mind saying 'this is taking forever!' lol!). But after applying this on small points, I have found when the bigger things come along- like studying for exams, finding a job, organizing an event etc... I can actually experience the difference where it's like 'whoa, I can do this.'

Some awesom videos on the same point:

2011: Time Management - Walking in SpaceTime Physical-Breath:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NNuhdunb1qs
-Discusses why it's seems so difficult to face resistences and simply move self/do tasks.


2012: Energy Dependency vs. Self-Trust:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=za16xBYH5vU
A bit more of a technical explaination of why/how we are dependent on energy/trust our energetic experience, instead of moving Here, in the physical within and as the human physical body.


2012: Why is Change so Difficult???
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LpztGRvljKA
-discusses how self-created beliefs ('I'm not good enough') can create, for example, laziness, this video provides practical steps to take towards facing this and taking actual practical steps into reality to change self for real, highlights the effectiveness of practice.

[Sadoon]

So, what I suggest here is to support yourself in being more practical with your self-correction - in how you will practically assist/support yourself in walking out of self-judgment to get back to the physical - because, you will find, that realizing 'I am Life' will generally not assist you in the moments of self-judgment, especially when the self-judgment has turned into an energetic possession point - as that statement is not an equal and one reflection of the reality, which is - 'all I am at this moment is self-judgment' - so, for example:

I do not allow myself to reduce myself to a single point of self-judgment totally isolated from the totality of me - I stop, I breathe - I bring myself back to this physical reality, and realize how self-judgment separates me from Life. I realize that i am abusing myself by participating in self-judgment which is a manipulation tactic to keep me enslaved to my mind, instead of me remaining practically-physically here in my reality to do that which is required to be done to stabilize myself here and thus become the example what it is to be/become an effective human being who cares for Life, as myself.

So, simply take the point you're working with, bring it here - within yourself - and look at how you can effectively, practically walk out of the point when and as you see yourself access it again.

From Lindsay's example, I gather that when writing self correction, I should adequately explain how I have created myself and what the consequences are to make stopping participation with a point more practical- have I understood this?

This is an example of a self corrective statement about resistance to writing self forgiveness after I read your reply:
I realize that writing out self forgiveness is the only way to pin point how I am allowing myself to be enslaved to systems and energy. I do not allow myself to create or participate in any excuses or justifications for stopping or postponing writing self forgiveness as I realize that any resistance that emerges is self created sabotage because I have allowed myself to fear changing and loosing the systems and energy that I have defined as self. I stop, breathe and bring myself back to a point of stability and commit myself to stand and walk the decision of writing self forgiveness daily.