Spirituality vs Physical

[marcusduffyy]

Today I am looking at a point within me of spirituality. I noticed this point of spirituality shortly after reading a forum post here shared by Kim A. A reptilian interview where Anu has answered questions for some of the members of the private forum. One question/reply specifically revealed that one of the members has been wanting/desiring to find/search for a spiritual aspect or greater meaning to situations and objects/beings here in the physical. Within this I saw that I indeed do the same. I try to find significance in 'why a fly lands on my finger' etc. Later i was walking and i was applying breath and walking in the moment not before or after each step and I looked up at the sky - it was here that i realized how spiritual i am attempting to be by trying to find value or a higher greater meaning or experience when looking at the sky. I want to 'Realize' something that will ascend me to the next level of realization and awareness what the sky is. Within this, i never feel fulfilled with just me here, i am empty within myself because i am always searching, seeking for the next cool realization of self - of my environment. What i realize in writing this is, what is here is me. My physical self. I stop desiring there to be more than this, more than self. I stop trying to reach a level of 'realization' or value in life higher or greater than myself here in each moment. Life is nothing special, nothing significant outside of itself. I start by breathing, stopping and realizing that in each given moment i am here. when and as i realize myself wanting desiring there to be something more, something greater than, trying to achieve something of myself in my life through ascension of knowledge and wisdom -i stop.

-I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate me from me here through spirituality
i forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that spirituality is just another word for self deception and separation
-i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that there is such a thing as true 'spirituality'
-i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself into attempting to be a spiritual person -within the attempt to be spiritual i separate myself from me here as all that is me here in each moment.
-i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to root spirituality through 'nature'.
-I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to relate the energy of spirituality with the energetic definition towards nature as pure.
-I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that anything separate from who i am here in each moment, is spiritual as it exists outside of my body in the mind

[Ann]

Cool Marcus:)

It's true. We can forever try to think ourselves into great experiences, but the thing is: its all in our heads.
And just working with the physical is actually very enjoyable, or simply enjoying the sun, the water, the air etc... without any thoughts about certain fantasies.
it kind of reminds me of my childhood, you know when you can play outside and your not thinking about anything, but simply are working and playing and being with what is there in the moment. Ofcourse children have fucked up moments as well. But that is what it reminds me off.

[KellyPosey]

Cool Marcus.

The mind needs energy to exist so it takes what is here simply as the physical, and creates separation any way it can, like within the construct of 'what is here is not enough' so that we'll, as the mind, generate energy within trying to make what is here 'more' through generating energetic experiences within ourselves toward what is here.

Cool point to deconstruct for self Marcus.

[Kristina]

Yes - cool support you have given yourself here Marcus - just wanted to add, have a look at what you are in judgments of as yourself/your enivornment, where you are then seeking and searching for something 'better'. I have found within my own experience, it was due to lots of self judgment about who I am and where I am, thinking and believing, and ultimately accepting I am less then and there was something 'more' then me here.

Cool -

stopping and realizing that in each given moment i am here.

Within these moments of breath as being here - we are in fact given ourselves the opportunity to realize/see/understand and live the realization that we are in fact life, there is nothing more then or outside of us, and we are in fact equal and one with all that is here.

[Bella]

thanks for sharing all!