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overeating (continued) and a bit on self forgiveness 11/16/18 "i wondered - what would happen if instead of me being moved as that design acording to which i was programed - i move myself? what'll happen? and so i started moving within myself, but just little movements i was making." - human physica...

who i am as responsiblity and the solution 11/15/18 after watching Murdo McDonald Baynes's 3 desteni interview i found something interesting (an aha! moment), that in not taking responsibility for myself and this world i am stating that i am inferior to my own creations, less that my manifested acce...

OVEREATING 11/15/18 today what i did, what i allowed, was to eat extensively, overeat, and this is something i've been allowing for many years now. today i took it to a point to where i felt sick in my sttomach, and so i decided to make myself throw up deliberately, because how my stomach felt sick ...

paranoia 11/14/18 Some minutes ago i was laying down on my back and one of my cats was laying over me and i was carressing it and gave it a few kisses in the face. so this was happening inside my house, i was laying on the sofa. so then i could hear the neighbors talking outside. i couldnt hear what...

11/13/18 (continuing from yesterday) i forgive myself for allowing myself to believe those thoughts that the neighbors took my cats blindly. i forgive myself for not allowing myself to see that the anger i was experiencing is about my personal issues that i have with myself and not about the neighbo...

11/12/18 today my mother let my 2 cats out (well who i thought were my cats). then as the night came by i kept coming out of my house to see if the 2 cats were by my house as they usually are, but i would not see them. i started reacting with anger thinking to myself that one of the neighbors stole ...

What is anger? What does anger mean? What does anger show one about one's relationship with oneself? How is anger self dishonest?
I'm interested in understanding anger so that I can effectively walk a point of anger.

What if I don't understand why I am reacting? Not sure what to say, but for me it is not so easy. Sometimes I try to forgive myself for a reaction but then I'm like "why or how do I intend to forgive myself if I don't feel like I care right now?". Or many times I consider that in forgiving myself or...

what would be the correct/best thing to do if when i'm gona apply sf on one reaction more reactions start coming up, and i can focus on the reaction that just came up but then another reaction comes up, and it just keeps on going this way and i'm just going in circles? should i stick to the initial ...

i realize or take into consideration that in order to stand or actuallly be on the way of standing - equal to those beings that starve, in order to prove that i care and can care - i must suffer too ...., yet obviously not in vain tho. what i mean is that i must 'carry my cross' as in face myself ve...