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by Daniel Martinez
11 Oct 2018, 01:52
Forum: Writing Yourself to Freedom
Topic: writing myself to freedom
Replies: 90
Views: 16120

Re: writing myself to freedom

9-28-18 another corrective application can be or is - to try to spend a little bit more time here in my day to day living; because here is where i must be to face/embrace reality, which is not what i do in masturbation as in masturbation i go inside the mind in isolation into a fantasy that is not h...
by Daniel Martinez
11 Oct 2018, 01:40
Forum: Writing Yourself to Freedom
Topic: writing myself to freedom
Replies: 90
Views: 16120

Re: writing myself to freedom

9/25/18 earlier today i seemed to have realized when applying sf that i believe that i need to stop doing drugs (weed/pills) and masturbating to pics, as in that what i'm telling myself that i NEED TO DO, and thus i can go into self judgment cuz i'll see that i'm not willing to stop, but, who says t...
by Daniel Martinez
10 Oct 2018, 02:41
Forum: Writing Yourself to Freedom
Topic: writing myself to freedom
Replies: 90
Views: 16120

Re: writing myself to freedom

i realize or take into consideration that my addiction to all these stimulations i constantly desire and use as a motivation/motivator in my life as the meaning/purpose of my life/myself - is basically/essentially the same as my addiction to masturbation to picture images on drugs. i am addicted to ...
by Daniel Martinez
10 Oct 2018, 02:26
Forum: Writing Yourself to Freedom
Topic: writing myself to freedom
Replies: 90
Views: 16120

Re: writing myself to freedom

saturday 9/15/18 "Unconditional SF" something that came up today is that i believed that i .... i was resisting applying sf because/as i see that i'm not willing enought to change, to stop, and so then thinking/believing that i don't deserve sf, or that it's pointless, or ti's not going to work, or ...
by Daniel Martinez
10 Oct 2018, 01:56
Forum: Writing Yourself to Freedom
Topic: writing myself to freedom
Replies: 90
Views: 16120

Re: writing myself to freedom

thur 8/23/18 i notice that i'm constatnly in my day to day living seeking/pursuing a/some form of stimulation that'll make me feel better, something i can aparently enjoy - to not have to face my life as it is because .... i resist it because it's too uncomfortable and scary and cold and shameful. i...
by Daniel Martinez
10 Oct 2018, 01:36
Forum: Writing Yourself to Freedom
Topic: writing myself to freedom
Replies: 90
Views: 16120

Re: writing myself to freedom

thursday 8/16/18 today i woke up and almost imideately i started thinking o 2 girls i saw yesterday that i liked. ... then i started thinking about sex and desiring to masturbate. then i masturbated, and when i ejaculated there imideately was thoughts saying "damn it i masturbated again, this is not...
by Daniel Martinez
10 Oct 2018, 01:19
Forum: Writing Yourself to Freedom
Topic: writing myself to freedom
Replies: 90
Views: 16120

Re: writing myself to freedom

monday 8/13/18 "A Dream Of My Pain" last night i had a dream where i was walking around the streets and i was freaking out in frustration. i was panicking and i was screaming and crying. one of the things i was feeling so distrubed about was that i felt very bad or asahmed or inconform (a very stron...
by Daniel Martinez
10 Oct 2018, 00:53
Forum: Writing Yourself to Freedom
Topic: writing myself to freedom
Replies: 90
Views: 16120

Re: writing myself to freedom

sunday 8/12/18 I'm taking into consideration that i've ruined my life (at least up to now) all for an urge that doesnt really exist; while eternal tranquility was waiting for me at the end of the storm all along. i woke up and i felt calme and i didint experience an urge to masturbate or do drugs, a...
by Daniel Martinez
10 Oct 2018, 00:34
Forum: Writing Yourself to Freedom
Topic: writing myself to freedom
Replies: 90
Views: 16120

Re: writing myself to freedom

sunday 8/12/18 i'm taking into consideration that the point of the addiction to masturbation to pictures on drugs keeps me in isolation, and in that isolation i am not able to coexist in this world with others. since i got out of the rehab center about 3 weeks ago i havent looked for a job, or worke...
by Daniel Martinez
25 Oct 2017, 01:25
Forum: Writing Yourself to Freedom
Topic: writing myself to freedom
Replies: 90
Views: 16120

Re: writing myself to freedom

i keep thinking that if I just manage to have sex with a girl, or maybe even a guy, that I would like almost transcend the mind, since I have a severe problem of isolation and addiction to masturbation to picture images on drugs. I've only had "sex" once and I was not comfortable and I didn't feel a...

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