Hey Michelle and welcome to the forum.
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Take all this fucken bullshit anger,hate and depression out of me. All my life I held lot of things in.
- You have definitely come to the right place for assistance with the points above. There are many self-supportive tools here on the forum. To share yourself and your process you can open your own thread in Writing Yourself to Freedom
- you can also check out other people's threads there are well, as examples.
Here are some supportive videos to get you started:
The Solution of Writing Yourself to Freedom
The Solution of Self-Forgiveness
Glad you are here