William Cuff Introduction

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William
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William Cuff Introduction

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Hello All,

I had always questioned reality inside myself, because I absolutely knew inside me, from the time I was a child that something was terribly wrong with the way we exist. Just look at all the cars in our world and see how crudely created, in-efficient, irresponsibly crafted and dis-respectful to life they are. Not to mention that you feel completely smothered as a kid traveling in the back seat of a vehicle. That was another reason reality was awful to me. I had a terrible sense of fear my whole life and nobody even paid attention or seemed to care whatsoever. No-one. This may seem like a self-pity story, its not. Many people feel this, but just ignore it and learn to accept it as the way it is.

I call bullshit on you all.

I could not figure out what was wrong with life completely. Roughly around 1997 i think, I had a 'close call' car accident where my buddies and I were drinking. I had been in the back of a pick-up standing up and was thrown into the rear window and then out the back. I was lying on the ground thinking I was going to die. Terrible feeling. I recovered with only minor injuries, but that incident really caused me to re-assess my life. Shortly after I recovered, I committed myself to reading the bible, as I had been taught Christianity as a child. Through reading the bible, I was convinced within myself that I was double-minded and had a break-down.

I decided to change my life from that point, I would do whatever god wanted me to do. I was sick of not being right with myself. I was sick of doing things that I hated. I was sick of being influenced by everyone. I was sick of myself. I hated my existence to the core. The only thing that kept me going was hope there would be an answer some day that would change everything.

Long story short, I became a Christian. Was a very rewarding experience to say fuck-you to all my past relationships with friends and family. And I was so happy to think that god knew the true me and cared about me. At least someone cared. I believed this for 15 years and was told all kinds of fancy lies - unbelievable lies. The lies kept feeding me more and more hope for the future. I was doing my best to be honest with myself really. But it was on this one point that I was so naive.

Then in 2007, after I had been researching all kinds of spiritual, mystical ideas and beliefs, I came across the HOM videos. OMG that was so cool! I was totally amazed. I had studied intently for 15 years, and here was this fucking teenage girl who had all the fucking answers to everything!!! And could ramble it all off with total ease!! WTF! I was so consumed by the videos I spent hours and hours watching them... sometimes all day long. But the big part that really caught me was the story of Anu. I could see that so perfectly fit. I had been duped. wow. What a realization I had. This changed everything... again! First I had become a Christian - my whole life changed. Then I became enlightened - my whole perspective changed again. Now this... wow. I was so fucked up. But at least I felt I was getting closer to the truth... and this time, it really seemed like the bottom of the rabbit hole.

When i realized the big lie I had been caught in, I needed to give God the boot from my life (mind) officially. So, having denied myself relationships with women for the last 15 years, it quickly became a priority to get laid. That didn't turn out as expected of course, but that's another story.

Process has been quite fascinating for myself, as is undoubtedly for everyone. So many realizations at times I felt I couldn't keep up. One after the other after the other after the other. At last, with the help of Desteni I have come to a place where I am stable within myself. It is a hard walk, but there is simply no other way. It is tremendously rewarding to stand up within yourself, to commit yourself to the truth of yourself. Beyond words really.

So Desteni's help to me in the beginning was 'be gentle with yourself'. This has been very supportive, so I pass it on here. I say to you, as you walk equality, do so with all of your self, and you will not be let down, I assure you this. This is our only opportunity here.

Enjoy your process!


My top 10 recommendations


10. Audrey Hepburn - What is possible on Earth? Can we create Heaven on Earth?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iyxcihMZmnE

9. Aleister Crowley 1 -- DEMONS and the AFTERLIFE
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cQUHE_C28WQ

8. Nostradamus - The End of Mankind is Certain
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cFTmkgSesZo

7. 93 Knowledge is USELESS
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r6A6pSQl2Zg

6. The Bible and Jesus - A Message less shared
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dl-anAb1ecg

5. Missing Interview with Anu the Reptilian on LOVE as GLUE
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dsxZyRWss7o

4. FREEDOM HERE - Only the Physical is REAL - Reptilian ENLIL 5
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b79PAu5E ... re=related

3. Physical NOW as GOD - Anu 9 - The Secret of Reptilians?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sr2U5FGW ... re=related

2. Energy and Illusion as Quantum Reality as the Future
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h-qIBa_cQxY

1. Loneliness inbetween Billions of People - Looking for Love?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qZE-0_qe7AU

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William wrote:
I had a terrible sense of fear my whole life and nobody even paid attention or seemed to care whatsoever. No-one. This may seem like a self-pity story, its not. Many people feel this, but just ignore it and learn to accept it as the way it is.

I call bullshit on you all.
Process has been quite fascinating for myself, as is undoubtedly for everyone. So many realizations at times I felt I couldn't keep up. One after the other after the other after the other. At last, with the help of Desteni I have come to a place where I am stable within myself. It is a hard walk, but there is simply no other way. It is tremendously rewarding to stand up within yourself, to commit yourself to the truth of yourself. Beyond words really.

So Desteni's help to me in the beginning was 'be gentle with yourself'. This has been very supportive, so I pass it on here. I say to you, as you walk equality, do so with all of your self, and you will not be let down, I assure you this. This is our only opportunity here.

Enjoy your process!
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