Hello, my name is BITIA and well, I ask myself why is the desteni forum now "private" & has "rules" ? It was really supportive in my research of desteni..., but having to do an introduction or writting makes me get more in action
Desteni has opened my eyes. I came here about 5 months ago, maybe more . I see the common sense in the words I hear in each video & text ... while I read or listen ..I can "feel" MYSELF , I feel I am here, I am alive, I am one with all, I am responsable.
HOW I CAME HERE
Well fisrtly, my internet researches begun when I arrived to Canada, I came from a "hard" lifestyle in Mexico, where I lived until the age of twelve.
When I arrived here I thought that the fact that here's more money than in my country would change everything and this country will be a different world than mine, where you dont need anything but to survive( eat and have a place to sleep)
1 year after my arrival I saw that money & "nice things" (like grass on the streets, less traffic, "smart or cool people", "best education, "best gouvernments", or a little bit of more money) DIDNT AND NEVER changed the fact that humans were and are enslaved, this country was just an holographic illusion and a dream .
I Started researching and finding documentaries, texts, interviews, videos...about the money system, human trafficking,sex slavery, pedophilia, governments, frauds, deaths, conspiracy theories, UFOS, reptilians, abductions ,ghosts, esoterism, demons, etc
Then I looked for more and more conspiracy theories. about governments, new world order 2012 and the elite. I became frustrated because all I acquired was knowledge and I felt I had no actuall power to change things.
I became so fearfull of the future and I ran into spirituallity ... a pretext to not take action and responsability in this world
I looked for angels,ascended masters and light workers, but every time I hoped or prayed to them to save me or to save us as humanity, I felt a kind of vacuum and a weight in my back ... I felt ridiculous about doing this prayers and got bored.
.....once I saw winged in a video and as many people thought: " pff what is this boy talking about, i dont like his attitude" then I just ignored it
I felt in multiple depressions during that time and I just searched for entertainment, wanting to ignore all the "evil" in the world, I tried to "live confortable"
but I couldnt...
so five months ago I refound another video of winged , I dont remember if it was her who was talking...i just remember the commmon sense and my curiosity , I just wanted more life "expectancies".... but as my eyes started opening, and I learned to listen attentively....everything collapsed
my relationships changed, my "dreams" changed, my visions changed, even my body changed when I started controlling my anxiety
I dont know what else can I say in my introduction. I hope most of you understand my vocabulary and grammar......or at least my point!