hello my name is David Robert, I am twenty years old and live in the United States, I've been with Desteni for over a year now. how it all started. hmm well kinda funny cause it all makes sense to me now. well it all started, from what i remember, i had been on the desteni site before i got into it and it scared me I judge it couldnt make sense of it all that jazz. and i had read nothing completely nothing in relation to this next part. one night me and a buddy were like hey lets eat mushrooms and trip well it was my first time eating them so i was all excited. anyways were tripping and i had one really close friend who i could get "deep" with. he was sober at the time cause he just wanted to see me trip. anyways so im tripping and i start going on what my other friend who was also tripping called shroom babble basically you have all self realizations n shit and you cant prove it blah blah. so anyways my "shroom babble" was all about, im telling this to my sober friend, the perfection of man. and how god made us perfect we ate the apple we got fucked but there must be some way to get back to perfection right? anyways me and him were hardcoreeee into that conversation for hours we started writing all this shit down and were like omg this shit is nuts makes so much sense blah blah. then later in the yearrrr i was on desteni and i read the word self expression mind you i was ninetteen had no fucking clue what that really meant. for real. legitly no like freshman year of college it was my mission to do drugs and literally and i mean literally build and ego i set out to even do it cause i thought girls like guys with big egos and i wanted to get laid. i was deceitful (still am) and manipulative (working on it). so we ate mushrooms again and my sober friend did too this time. and then during the trip i realized omg im self expressing with my words and im trying to explain this to my good friend and the other friend was like its all shrrooom babble again blah blah blahh. anyways we left schooool and I was on the quest for knowledge. back then i still believed in god and what not so a lot of knowledge was like im in image and likeness of god so i must be like this and anyways basically deluded myself searching for knowledge, took more mushrooms to look for knowledge blah blah blah. anyways last trip i ever had met the devil, by this time i was more into desteni, read it a lot, and i thought i was the devil's son the antichrist for a bit idfk why, delusion of course, now i realize me as ego is antichrist. well went on a trip with devil into the rabbits hole learned about equality and oneness and applied self honesty and self forgiveness i wanna say for the first time, dont quote me on that, but i was to scared to say it aloud in front of my friends so i breathed and did it, and by this time i breathed every breath, no four count though, i've got to reprogram that back in, sorta been auto pilot mostly. anyways since then i quit eating mushrooms and started desteni process. i've been persecuted and was even kept in a psyche ward for an overly long time because i was self forgiving out loud even when i explained to them. fuckin doctors are fucking retards god damn. ive lost friends, how people perceive me as in and what not, and currently ive been slacking because ive been supporting greater reality more because i have been letting ego influence me and i whisper self forgiveness. at least i quit smoking pot though.