I am Lauri Kotaja, 24, and I live in Finland. I have been with desteni for about 3 years now and I do the SRA course.
The past 3 years has been the most profound experience of my life. When I stumbled across desteni on youtube I was struggling with crippling depression. Now, three years (and a single ban) later, I am starting to understand what it means to be equal and here - what it means that this world is actually real, that I am real and that I am responsible for myself and my home: Earth. Something I couldn't have even begin to imagine 3 years ago with all my bitterness and hate.
Some time ago, I accepted and allowed myself to be influenced by an event within my family. Because of which, I went into 'hiding', and from which, I am coming back bit by bit - this time on my own phase to change for real, and not according to expectations I perceive others to have of me. I am working through resistances and fears of what other people think about me for participating with desteni, to move towards an absolute standing of myself here for and as equality and oneness.
One thing is crystal clear to me: Till here no further - I sort myself out to sort out this world, because equality and oneness exists, and no amount of deception can change that.
Glad to be here!