Introducing myself here feels like stepping into a house I was invited to for some get together but I wasn't sure if I was going to show up (anxiety, fears, commitment issues, you know),
but hey I finally did show up.. hooray!
My name is Jonathan.
I am here for myself, to read, poke around and ask questions.. and walk my process.. thankfully.
My plan here is to establish a simple, honest, great starting point with my self for understanding you all and the material you create and share.
Now for the stuff on my driver's license! I'm a tall, white, 25th year human with a penis.. I live in Montana, USA.. I work in a deli at the moment.
I wish I could post my interview on my self through the portal here so that I didn't have to think about how to introduce myself right now, lol.
I found Desteni around 2008-2009 and it changed everything for me really quickly.. I didn't handle it properly, responsibly, or intelligently.
I took it in like it was the glory of hellfire and arrogantly used what I found here in some mistaken, wild experiment of living.
I don't care to bullshit or make friends really at this time in my life because my main interest is in sorting out some serious shit and being effective in my life. I feel careful coming back to walking my process here because I think I was dishonest, headstrong, immature, naive, and impulsive last time .. so I am on the lookout for how much of my own mind is "getting in my way".. I want to be as aware of how i'm interpreting what I read and hear to bring out the bullshit going on inside me, and to see if what i'm getting is actually what is being shared or if it is just me.
I appreciate you all for your stance you've taken.
Your courage and strength is admirable and I am grateful to have the opportunity to learn from each of you in this life.
I hope this all still counts as introduction, I feel it says something about me. See you around.