the ultimate desteni archive created..

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Arizona
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the ultimate desteni archive created..

Post by Arizona »

This is largely related to youtube just for context of reading this, and trying to express this seeming insanity and maybe something can be learned.
So I've been working on something kind of ridiculous for a year and a half now and that's tying desteni videos together, 'altering' them in some cases, and showcasing them as an interlinked youtube channel that utilizes playlists as 6 channels as many desteni channels as a 'singular channel'..with a little standard media entertainment laced around as well......It wasn't the original idea to do this but once I came to seeing that this would be the way to not miss anything I decided to go with it. I'd like to start off by saying that this is a really inefficient way of using youtube and that i strongly suggest only ever going up to 3 channels, especially simultaneously. The hours I put into this is truly insane and the times i thought i was finished must be over 1000. I put this post on this section because of a bernard video I watched that described nearly exactly what I was doing and how it was directly linked to fear. I don't remember which video but I just listened to it the other day and it was eye opening. I suppose I should link the channel(s) so maybe you can see what this channel thing i'm referring to is:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCj10Sm ... BEp08s2O8A 1
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCz-2X6 ... FylfuV5bEw 3
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC50XBA ... PXoKz-N4_w 4
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC84DnR ... Fkdov7D3lQ 5
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCup70q ... nijM5J4DfA 6
Another channel is there but it's mostly video game focused lol (#2). So i'd like to be finished with this obsession as it literally possessed my mind in unhealthy ways in order to keep finishing work on it, and trying to be done with it. I'd like to actually get to the proper process of change though I need a lot of time to just walk physically as being stable and consistent, I can now see that's what I need in order to begin some change.

Gabriel
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Arizona wrote: 24 Apr 2020, 15:37 I'd like to actually get to the proper process of change though I need a lot of time to just walk physically as being stable and consistent, I can now see that's what I need in order to begin some change.

Nice Arizona.

Arizona
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in retrospect it's kind of absurd to have attempted to make a great archive thing without ever having walked a single day of process or bought a single eqafe product, or done a single day of the in every breath challenge, or read anymore than a couple blog posts, or done the lite course more than a couple days, or made a single blog post myself, or made a single vlog myself beside a strange rant talk video or two i deleted,- or connected with a single desteni person, or made real attempts at stopping myself, or made real attempts at walking through the difficult point where change is said to be...
hey but maybe i proved desteni message can be heard by anyone if they serious and not bullshitting around
i have a lot of energy resistance around the term self-judgement just like i had with the term cult
the recent video cameron cope did on the word cult really helped alleviate the thoughts on it
though it was still very difficult to get through the video but i knew that was natural

finally i'd like to throw a curve ball about how you'd be forced to be attracted to desteni if you were aligned with the truth
why would i link free access to Dune when it was used to frame desteni funny things i love making jokes
in the end who the real cult now i see like bernard said everything's in reverse no math

last point that pop into mind purely writing what pops as it pops is the word spite

Gabriel
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Arizona wrote: 29 Apr 2020, 03:14 in retrospect it's kind of absurd to have attempted to make a great archive thing without ever having walked a single day of process or bought a single eqafe product, or done a single day of the in every breath challenge, or read anymore than a couple blog posts, or done the lite course more than a couple days, or made a single blog post myself, or made a single vlog myself beside a strange rant talk video or two i deleted,- or connected with a single desteni person, or made real attempts at stopping myself, or made real attempts at walking through the difficult point where change is said to be...

The beginning is being able to assess where you are currently. That is already a big step.

From there you can decide where and how you would like to make your feet wet. :)

Arizona
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I really like the "Learn English" group on youtube, this group of teachers seems really solid. They got the interlink channel thing down more realistically ..
Personally recommend
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4cmBA ... ZE8qK8sfpA (Ronnie)
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCwA7Ae ... Na8roQ-6Bw (James)
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC_0Nfu ... vDfWFm8z_Q (Adam)
https://www.youtube.com/user/EnglishByJade ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀(Jade)
https://www.youtube.com/user/AlexESLvid ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ (Alex)
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCzBGtB ... mRwD2ZjiAA (Gill)

Gabriel
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Arizona wrote: 17 May 2020, 16:19 I really like the "Learn English" group on youtube, this group of teachers seems really solid. They got the interlink channel thing down more realistically ..
Personally recommend
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4cmBA ... ZE8qK8sfpA (Ronnie)
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCwA7Ae ... Na8roQ-6Bw (James)
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC_0Nfu ... vDfWFm8z_Q (Adam)
https://www.youtube.com/user/EnglishByJade ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀(Jade)
https://www.youtube.com/user/AlexESLvid ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ (Alex)
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCzBGtB ... mRwD2ZjiAA (Gill)

Nice resources, thanks for sharing.

Arizona
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i'd like to post an update that i put some more work on the archive thing and while i dont think it matters i wanted to finish it and move onto something else

Arizona
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i have decided to stop searching desteni i had answered what questions i wanted and beyond that i still have work to do

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Post by Marlen »

Cool, because as much as Desteni is also a source of information and explanations about the reality we live in, it is ultimately here and designed to walk the actual self change process within and without.

So to me, remaining at the search or research or knowledge level is being a Follower of it. Living and practicing the tools and developing ones life according to the principles encapsulated in the wholeness that desteni represents is.being an active cocreator of the message, which is taking self responsibility in our personal lives and of this world to a betterment that's best for all.

Arizona
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if i may offer an explanation that isn't really apparent is that i used to do a challenge run on a video game where you'd normally do a single character i instead did 14 characters at once with unique builds and tried not to cut any corners, i was taking like painkillers or something at the time in order to push myself to do that lol but anyways, it's very similar type cycle i went through but i dont think anyone could see it but me, anyways thanks for everything oh and smoking weed is retarded i dont have money or self control i guess it'll be legal everywhere in the states soon

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