So I'm at my house currently, and just got back from work. Itspast midnight and I have a difficult point to utilize. So the point is, is that as I discovered points through work today, I finally came to the pattern of worrying whether my processes valid, which is usually an excuse that goes and escelates to allowing w emotions to drive. So it comes from the perspective of having to get confirmation from other beings for my process, or like remembering hater videos, or meditation. Generally though worrying about what others percieve me as is certainly something I'm having to walk through currently. Anyways emotions are driven right now, and I'm at my moms house about to take my laundry back to my aunts which is where I'm staying which has no media at all since there's now wifi and I just lost gigs on my phone. So it would be a good time to write this in my journal. Nonetheless I'm just posting this Incase I could get any further perspective and read up tomorrow, also so I can add more detail tomorrow within this sort f notice. Ill be on tomorrow afternoon though, thank you for reading.