I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ignore the fact that my mind is an integral/integrated part of me thus me and within that, I have responsibility for that part of myself as myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to miss the point I now see, that all relationships I have created and am in the process of creating will first of all be based on starting points coming from my mind as my preprogrammed behavior as relationships I have created to supply my mind with energy so it can survive at the cost of my physical body and others, and within that I forgive myself for not seeing/realizing/becoming aware of the importance of 'awareness' within this process, seeing that whatever I am in the process of creating as consequences within and as 'a final moment' or point of 'no return', will need investigation, clarity and a stance, thus before any new moment is created and new relationships are formed, I will have to do that first with myself as my mind as a practical test to see what I am able to give myself in self-honesty and thus physically proof and show myself what I am capable of physically giving to others.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not take the time to investigate and script an agreement with myself regarding my own relationship with, within and as my own mind, seeing realizing that all relationships I create start from the mind and within that those relationships can never be trusted because I can't trust my mind from the starting point of doing what is best for all in a relationship, because that is not what my mind is programmed to do and not what my physical reality has shown me at this point in time.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to overcomplicate and intellectualize the point and principle of 'not being able to give to others what I am not able to give myself' as what I am practically and physically able to give as who I am as my physical actions for real.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take relationships in my life for granted, knowing I was actually having affairs all the time within and as the relationship with myself as my secret lover that is more important than the truth that is my physical reality as the real physical relationships that are here for me to face and walk.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have underestimated the complexity of my own relationship with my mind as the mind, thus creating the same complexity without as the relationships I have lived with former partners as the reality of who I really am within.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within influencing the outcome of 'a moment' not see realize and act upon the fact that every moment can be a final moment if I choose to make it so, and within that I forgive myself for rushing or rush into my mind instead of looking at my relationship with my mind at that moment before I create the next moment.
I commit myself to when and as I see myself react or move towards a relationship with someone or something in this physical reality, to stop and breath and bring myself here and take the primary relationship with myself as the mind and how I live it at that moment as my primary point of attention and focus and to not take action or step back before I have taken my reality and relevant points within that moment into consideration as my reality, and ask myself the question if this is a 'final' moment from where I want to create a new relationship?
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide the fact I see that the relationship I live with myself as my mind as my actions I allow in this world is who I am in word and deed and the actual reality of me, thus I don't have to make it more complex than that or project myself past that point, because it is my physical daily reality that is here for me to face as me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to overcomplicate the practical applications of myself within the point of 'what I am able to give others is to simply look at what I am able to practically/physically give myself and within that always ask the question: is this how you want to live a relationship yourself?
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear new relationships based on how I see myself within them as my mind from the starting point, that all relationships I create will be under the influence of my mind as my blind spots and projections, seeing realizing that I cannot get to a clear and self-honest relationship with other people If I don't create that same relationship with my own mind first.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ignore and suppress seeing that the relationship I have with my mind is actually the most important relationship in my life at the moment.