Dear Raul
Obviously you are in this moment at a turning point. A point of realization and change - If you will it so.
I would look at what you experienced listening to the file - for any reactions/thoughts coming up to forgive.
When it comes to expression and energy, this takes time to understand and "gett" it with the balance of mind, being and body.
I look at energy like physical and metaphysical. First the physical is my body the physical, my heart, my lunges, my liver, my blood, my muscles, my bones etc. The body ! LOL
THAT is my reference of the "real" energy of and as myself. If we look at metaphysical energy now that is quite something else. Metaphysical energy (is to me) is suuuper tiny parts of my muscles - that is being cut out/of, that is being "mined out" of my body, and that tiny tiny particle (from this self sabotage and hurt of self) is then the feeling and emotion and thought energy. (This process is why we age)
So the feeling/emotional energy (metaphysical energy) is really simply fake and a illusion- and also self abuse. But I can still laugh and enjoy with my PHYSICAL energy starting point - my body !! And birth life from that source - to be really creative and genuine in my expression.
So yes after you get to hear/see this in the recording I would say yes there are parts of you that you leave behind (shedd of skin) - and from standing at that point it is very dark... I know. But what is darkness really ? Darkness is ONLY parts of me that I have not yet discovered.
So be patient with self, nobody said it was easy - but it is only as hard as we make it. Understanding energy is quite a concept. You will see this if you chose life and self forgiveness. To forgive the reaction to darkness and believes about energy - and the parts of self, mind, being and body that you have yet to discover.