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Day 197: Apparently Well

So when everything is going ok it seems like I don't have anything to write, but is it? Still have a lot of things to work on.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that when everything is going ok I don't have anything to write

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the 'calm' means nothing has to be written

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is a point when nothing has to be written

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can always expand wherever I am

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that there is a point where it is done

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to look at the points that I still have to work on

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that once the money point is solved, everything is ok

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe just because I don't feel like writing it means I don't have to write

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have to introspect in order to find something to write about

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that there are always points to improve/expand

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that unless I direct myself to write I will not write

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to 'get comfortable' because apparently I have solved the money point and not write when in fact I have a lot of points to improve, even the money point

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to succumb to the resistance to write

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe there is such a point where 'I'm done with writing'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have a lot to work on/about myself

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see what are the points that I need to work on

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately not look at the points I need to improve on/get better at/do

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Day 198: Future and Worry


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I always have to talk about the future
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to constantly worry about the future, without being here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to worry about the future

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not appreciate every here moment, constantly worrying about the future

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise that the future does not exist

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that if I worry constantly about the future I am not here in every moment of breath

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the future

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that instead of fearing the future I should prepare myself for it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that unless I do what I know I have to do, I will worry about the future

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to prepare for the future

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make plans and then not prepare for them

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that if I make plans and don't prepare myself I will inevitably worry

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to repeat the pattern of making plans and not walking them so thus worrying about not completing the plans

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that making plans involve more than conceptually wanting to do them

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that unless I stick to my plans then worry is inevitable

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that worrying is enough instead of seeing, realising and understanding that I should act on my plans instead of worrying

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become addicted to the emotion of worrying about the future instead of directing myself to work on my plans

I commit myself to whenever I make plans, prepare for the plan goals practically

I commit myself to stick to my plans with real action and not only concepts/not doing

I commit myself to whenever I make plans, stick to them practically so that I am successful

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Day 199: Assume Not


I was driving the other day and while leaving the parking spot I assumed I had enough space going backwards, without checking -- to my surprise I did not have enough space and I made a dent at the back of the van. So this is a reminder for me to not assume but to look for myself. Not only while driving but also in my relationships and life in general, as one said, when you assume you make an ass out of you and me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to assume I had enough space going backwards with the van

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to assume instead of looking for myself and checking to make sure

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that assuming is dangerous and has consequences

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to assume in my life

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to stop and look for myself whenever I see I am assuming

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that when I assume I am taking somehing as true without checking, which is not valid

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that assuming can even compromise the my integrity or that of the car I am driving

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to take quick decisions and thus I assume without seeing, realising and understanding that it has consequences

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have to slow down when taking decisions so I do not assume

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rush in making decisions, and thus assume

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to take decisions fast

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to rush through life

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I can slow down and not rush through life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I can take my time to take decisions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have to be fast in taking decisions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rush through life

I commit myself to check if something is true whenever I see that I am assuming

I commit myself to stop and breathe whenever I assume, to then check if what I am assuming is true or not

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Day 200: Paperwork and Bureaucracy

As a kid I thought bureaucracy, doing papers, was difficult. Today I successfully did some papers that I thought were difficult to make - and present - and I am proud of myself. How this limitation of believeing I couldn't do paperwork extended to other areas - meaning I thought I was less than paperwork/bureaucracy and now that I see I am not, I see that I can do anything. With patience and undersanding how something works everything is possible.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge bureaucracy as difficult

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, as a kid, believe that bureaucracy was too dificult for me to do - as in paperwork

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that everything, broken down in steps, can be done

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that I can do everything

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that because I thing something is difficult it has to be that way

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that everything is possible

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see how much I had limited myself by believing that bureaucracy was impossibly difficult

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I was making bureaucracy as something bigger than me, more than me

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise that I am one and equal to everything that exists - thus not less than anything

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that in fact I am not less than anything that exists

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that everything that is not Best for All can be changed

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that limitations are that of the mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that there are not real limitations other than physical ones

I commit myself to show that there are not real limitations but those that we believe we have

I commit myself to whenever I think something is more than me, stop and breathe, and assess for myself how I can break it down to doable steps.

I commit myself to remind myself that I am one and equal to all that exists, which means I can participate in anything that exists successfully

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Day 201: Imagine Having No Memory

Imagine having no memory of the past, to know that whatever you are doing now you will not remember later - aside from being impractical wouldn't we not be so burdened? Isn't it that we draw from the past to project into the future? But if we don't have a past, the future is full of possibilities. At times I see myself doing the same thing day after day, simply because I have been doing it for so long, when in fact I don't even want to do that nor is best for me, an example would be sleeping in the afternoons after work, because I have been doing it for some weeks does not mean I have to do it again today.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to do things because 'that's what I always do'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to base my actions on my past

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to get rid of the past

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that if I don't let go of the past I will be a slave to it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I don't have to repeat the past endlessly

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give importance to the past

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I can base my decisions on what is best for me and thus for all and not from the past

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the past is not more

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the past has power over me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to memorize eveyrhing of the past

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become obsessed in wanting to know how everything unfolded in the past

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that the past as a memory doesn't exist

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that the past is in fact imaginary, it does not exist - even if we were hurt in the past, it is not longer here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see realise and understand that I don't have to obsess so much about the past but I have to forgive and let go of any attachment I have to the past

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to my past

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am my past

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that in fact consequence comes from the past as things take time to create consequence - but this does not mean that I have to define myself or my actions according to the past

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am enslaved to the past insofar that I am defined by it and have not forgiven and let it go

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give importance to the past, instead of forgiving it and letting it go

I commit myself to let go of the past

I commit myself to set myself free form the past in self forgiveness and self correction and practical application

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Day 202: Don't Worry Be Here


Worry about the future, money, career, relationships - but what about Here? Who am I in every moment of Breath? Do I allow worry to encompass my existence? And Fear? All of those only fuel my mind so I am not present Here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear becoming my father

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not getting into university

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being stuck in a dead end job

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear university will be too difficult for me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I can do whatever I set myself to do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I can work on anything if I am here as breath

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be hard on myself

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to be proud of myself for how far I've come

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to appreciate how much I have changed

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be changed in a single moment

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I have to walk step by step

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to appreciate what I have

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear getting comfortable with what I have so as to not expand myself further

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to appreciate the changes I have made so far

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not live the words 'be still and know that you are god'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I can trust life, as I am on Life's hands as is everyone else

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to worry about the future

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe there is a future instead of walking being Here as breath to do my best in every moment - without worry for the future

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can ground myself here whenever I see I am going into worry about the future

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to worry about money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that what counts is who am I in every moment of breath

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have to be Here as breath in every moment of breath

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Day 203: Solutions In a Box

I've thought about what if I had a box with stuff inside with instructions on how to change the world, where I simply had to follow them and that's it. But then I thought about this kind of solution is about 'changing others' where I have some material/thing that makes 'others change' and the world changes lol.

What about changing myself?

It looks like I have been trying to find a way for everything else but ME to change. Change starts with self first. Isn't it true that 'Me' is the variable that I can change, where I cannot change another.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to change others instead of changing myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place change outsisde of myself in others, where I believe that if I can make 'others change' the world will change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have to change others for the world to change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the goal is to 'make as much people change as possible' instead of seeing that I would be missing the point which is self change

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that 'wanting others to change' is a mistake but changing myself is the way

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I have to lead through example

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that unless I change nothing will change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want a solution to 'change others' instead of seeing that I have to change myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that Me is the only thing that I have access to change

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that self goes first

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I will find nothing works until I change myself

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that wanting others to change is an exercise in futility

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want others to change instead of changing myself

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that what is valuable and what can make other people want to change is a changed self - i.e. standing as an example

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to look at myself and see what I can change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have much to change

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to take on the challenge to perfect myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept my limitations

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can overcome my limitations

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that the solution to me lies in me changing myself in real time

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that I can unlock my own potential

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that others have to change for the world to change, instead of seeing, realising and understanding that change starts with self

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