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Re: Mike McDonald's Journey to Life

Postby Mike McDonald » 14 Feb 2016, 11:04

Day 768 - Lame Communication

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I am working on developing my effectiveness in communication. I see communication as Paramount. Communication is Life. Communication is integral in building the best quality Life Here. Communication is Everything.


I bring up these seemingly obvious points about Communication here because I am taking a moment here to give regard to my accepted and allowed communication:

Some cool self reflection opened op for me today in hosting, "Desteni Movie Night Hangout -Cheech and Chong's Up in Smoke."
My guest cancelled last minute / confused the start time. This presented me with the opportunity to go it alone, and that I did. I wasn't expecting to talk for 52 minutes, doing a monologue, I was expecting to have a conversation with my guest, asking and directing the response of questions, while making some comments here and there.

About 10 minutes or so in...and i think also sooner than that, the point came into mind that i am sort of bombing this hangout...like a little bit stumbling and bumbly with my word flow sharing expression and knowing where i want to go and take things....and also kind of placing a little bit of pressure/judgement upon myself as like I am doing this live without any preparation and nobody is tuning in live....'what's the point....my performance is kind of lame...not nearly as tight and polished as I could be...my flow is less than what I would regard as stellar...the experience of myself within this is somewhat challenging...as like bailing out would stop the bleeding, as like i am experiencing the wounds of my accpeted and allowed discomforts within expressing/communicating myself here unconditional on the spot without a preprogrammed rehearsal so that i can give a sort of automative predicatable performance that i know already.

So in looking at these points and having a real Care to push myself to continue on with the show, I showcased myself some weakeness in my communication. This was really cool for myself as it was like a wow moment and an aha, as towards the end of the hanging there was a bit of a shit that happened within me as like finally coming into my confidence and and my flow/trust/expression was coming through a bit more. I do see that this showing here on a whole was a bit of a flop from my perspective of being a solo performer doing a big set. I mean how often is it that we put ourselves out there and monologue for 52 minutes? I found this to be a real tipping point for myself in my process here, as someone who is committed to the development and mastery of the law of my being here, as the practical living sound embodiment of words. A word smith if you will...

I see the tremendous value in committing myself to vlogging as a process point of support for myself and others here. I see that not doing this is a real know within the process of self-purification here. I speak from experience as I created a sorted of justified censorship on speaking/sharing my voice publically out of concern for public judgment/ridicule/consequence. Ultimately my reasoning was very much logical within my mind as the programming of my conditioned thinking...and this state of mind, kept me from noticing deficiencies within my word expressions here, and really has been a tragic comedy of sorts because my effectiveness in communication is less than my best potential at the moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the profound support within vlogging.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing the value within vlogging as a result of my accepted and allowed ego defense systems.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying a sort of self sacrifice of my potential out of fear for survival here, as like ways to prevent possible conflicting engagements that may require my response capable communication.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to see the points within myself that are lame.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to hide from what I have accepted and allowed that is lame.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing my self-regard to such an extent that I would justify remaining lame within points that could be development into a practical living potential.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for censoring myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have resisted to engage myself on points of self-suppression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not wanting to appear less than well developed within a point.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the learning/birthing process here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that paying attention here is the epitome of patience, and that to really pay attention is to in fact practically live the word care....and within the word care is where the fun is.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to mindfuck myself within and as how i think my communication should go.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to trust myself unconditionally here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying self-censorship as a means of avoiding and adverting conflict.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how i have accepted and allowed myself to perpetuate the existence of conflict within myself by 'trying' to avoid conflict in communication with others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my flexibility as self-responsibility here to actually and practically create solutions that are awesome in all ways here. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to live the patience required to actually Care to be here in this world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for pushing through my life without taking the time to care about what it is i am accepting and allowing within my thoughts/words/deeds.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying the reliance of others to stimulate my movement and communication here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which I have allowed myself to be dependent on existing in reaction here....as like mostly being moved as a result of the positive or negative i experience within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to really challenge my acceptances and allowances. I realizing that engaging myself is a real practical way to live patience and self-intimacy here. I realize that this is actually a lot of fun!

I commit myself to the process of developing myself in communication as thought, word and deed.

I commit myself to working and playing with my words.

I commit myself to trusting myself in thought/word/deed/

I commit myself to investigating my thoughts/words/deeds/

I realize the process of self-investigation as thoughts/words/deeds is a very fruitful opportunity, and I am grateful to give myself this opportunity that has so much potential. I realize the potential is a result of my dedicated labor here. I realize and understand the balance between work and play as like how the to can exist together complimentary and also as opposites in focused specificty...and i see how the words are in me always and that my fine tuning of moment to moment management is where my expression is as i get to direct the specifics of myself here.

I commit myself to vlogging.

I commit myself to sharing the self-realization that vlogging is a tremendous tool of profound support that is like one of the best gifts one can give to oneself here.

I commit myself to engaging myself to face the difficult points within myself and to from here, forgive myself and to create solutions for myself as new pathways of self-development in my personal process walking here.

I commit myself to using my voice as a point of self-reflection here. I commit myself to self-investigation.

I commit myself to sharing Life regard.

I commit myself to engaging myself within and as Communication.

When and as I see myself resisting to do a vlog, I stop and breathe, I allow myself to make one. I realize that making vlogging a regular part of my process here is awesome in all ways always.

I commit myself to the process of developing my self-expressions within vlogging.

I commit myself to stop fearing what other people think of me.

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to suppress my voice here.

I commit myself to developing and enhancing my voice here as a result of working and playing with my voice here.

I commit myself to practically living my voice here.

I realize and understand my voice to be a fantastic tool here to express myself within/as/without.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging/fearing lame communication.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing vulnerability in developing weaknesses into strengths.


I commit myself to stop resisting to face points that are difficult/awkward. I commit myself to seek out points of resistance, that are lame and awkward within myself to in fact take these points on as seeds I will nurture into a practical living potential here.

I commit myself to word and world regard here as what is best for all Life.



'Lao Tzu, the ancient father of Taoism, put it: “Time is a created thing. To say ‘I don't have time,’ is like saying, ‘I don't want to.’” Make the time to communicate'
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Re: Mike McDonald's Journey to Life

Postby Mike McDonald » 15 Feb 2016, 18:38

Day 769 - Exploring the Word "Lame"

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I have a little bit of a negative tinge towards the word "Lame" as like arghh, ahhh,, fuck, god damn, not cool, cannot look, must look away, beyond embarrassing, uncomfortable....and, unfathomable to continuously think about.

So, that is what comes to mind in relationship to the word Lame.

I was investigating the word Lame recently and had made a general concerted effort to remove the negative energetic charges I had been holding onto in regards to Lame. I missed these points....ironically enough, it's like i got caught in my own lameness and didnt want to look at my Lame acceptances and allowances. LOL. ridiculous indeed. I appreciate a good laugh at myself, so I see the points here and I direct.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have a negative tinge like reaction to the word lame.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for superimposing words upon myself with energetic charges.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing the tragic and ironic comedy within my relationship towards the word Lame.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to within a negative tinge like reaction, regard Lame as: arghh, ahhh, fuck, god damn, not cool, cannot look, must look away, beyond embarrassing, uncomfortable, and unfathomable to continuously look/think about.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how points can be missed as a sort of self-sabotage within deliberately being vague/overly-general about the investigation into a word relationship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how Irony can be a rather specific tool for investigating words, where you can use the word Irony as a sort of cross reference where you have a look to see if you are being ironically stuck within the very word you are making a concerted effort to investigate.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how cool a tool Irony is within investigating words as like a fun and funny play to aid in and as the word investigation/exploration.


To Be Continued



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Re: Mike McDonald's Journey to Life

Postby Mike McDonald » 25 Feb 2019, 05:13

DAY 806 - Physical Energy Addiction - Deeper Dimensions

DAY 806 - PHYSICAL ENERGY ADDICTION - DEEPER DIMENSIONS
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing nor ever really investigating the extent to which i exist in and as physical addiction to energy by virtue of the fact that i have a physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for discounting the very physical substance of myself Here.

I forgive myself fro accepting and allowing myself to excuse the extent to which I have neglected to investigate my physical substance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that all physical substance Here is an extenstion/reflection of my physical substance here - one and equal as life itself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for never really questioning my early formative years as to how my relationship with my physical substance was in fact Informed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not really understanding the dynamics of consciousness energy onto my physical substance as like a 'sucking experience'.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing the emotional pain and trauma i experienced in my formative years that was suppressed/repressed because i did not have the vocabulary to specifically define the experience and I in fact trusted in my parents and everyone who entered my environment without even really understanding the nature and design of Permission to accept and allow abuse.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how I created a victim mentality in my formative years as self-defeated and that I just buried the burdens of my a'parent misfortunes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which Sugar was one of the most prominent sooothers for me in terms of easing my discomforts and burried suppression/repression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for never really investigating why it is that it is so accepted as common as simply not being able to remember too much of my existence here in reality before the age of 5 or 6 years of age.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not really investigating the extent to which everything in this physical reality influences the substance of my physicality here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress myself to such a great extent that I made myself numb to experiencing the gravity of pain and discomfort in which i carry as burden on a daily basis as the consequence of untapped potential wasting away day by day due to my own neglect.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to polarize myself to such an extent that i didn't even know i was existing in polarity within myself on a physical level where my experiences are perceptions are tainted within and as the physical addiction to energy as my very substance here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which I exist Here as Physical Substance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for never really questioning, 'what does it mean to substantiate and best care for my physical substance here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for never really questioning my vocabulary to the extent to which the words I apparently know might in fact be tainted within and as my addiction to physical energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not really ever considering that deeper dimension of my mind...as my mind being my software to my body physical hardware could influence and perpeutate a sort of closed cycle feedback loop within and as the consumption of myself as the junkie being junked over the years as my physicality is depleted as a result of the very beast of burden that lives within me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I've been addicted on a physical level to the low, medium and high energy experiences of myself to such an extent that it's all par for the course in terms of coping with the suppression that exists as my univestigated earliy formative year traumas where i did not in fact have an adequate vocabulary developped.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for never ever really considering the consequences of not taking the time to make sure each and every single letter of myself is refined...fine tuned....remediated and in fact stands as a specifically programmed into the flesh sound alignment here. I realize this world is a physically sound reality and that my every word...my every move influences the very nature and design of physical substance here. I realize, understand that abuse cannot exist unless I allow it within myself - that the substance of life itself cannot be abused - only mindconsciousness sytems can be abused in fact.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have the audacity to judge another in any way whatsoever - thining i know better based on the knowledge and information i have within my body as a physical energy addiction system that the mind consciousness system utilizes the ineffective vocabulary of myself to accelerate the feeding frenzy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think that i am better than I am.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to project shit onto others who are in fact expressing their raw in the moment freestyle expressions as the infinite here moment of breath - the very inbetween moment as the - timeless time between consciousness of fear here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the source of physical energy addiction as fear itself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist in a form of self-denial where i've been blissfully ignorant of my own in house keeping as the very garden i tend to.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which i make sense of things from a corrupted way of thinking - that 'my way' of thinking isn't even in fact my own - because i never took the time to in fact make sure every letter of the alphabet and so too every word of my vocabulary is in fact aligned as structurally sound support here.

I realize and understand that this is a process of self-realization an ong going day by day fine tuning of sorts as i purify the substance of myself here as life itself here - fleshed out in and as the physical here - the epitome of birthing/grounding myself here as life in fact - matter of fact - as the very matter to the core - the source here.

I realize the experience of panic comes up often on a deeper dimension of mind as my way of going into the physical energy addiction that i justify as necessary in order to read effectively my environment because my reading ability is tainted within and as an inferior vocabulary.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to dismiss the critical nature of vocabulary in terms of my effectiveness as what it in fact means to live as a self-responsible human being.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to half ass my words to the extent that i will believe others who demonstrate a far superior vocabulary and capacity to process here to me - to be in fact fucked and the real abuser here - when in fact the inverse is true. I realize this isn't a point of self-defeat but simply a point of recognition as to where I am at within and as my process journey to life here.

I realize that like breath - process is a bit byb bit process here - as i purify myself in and as thought, word and deed. I realize, understand and know that there's no time off of process so to speak - that process is a 24/7 playwright as the very self-love here as my work is made visible in the sharing expressions of myself as what it means to flesh out - birth - my best response abilities.

I realize as I am first responsible for tending to my own nest...my own burdens before i can in fact really assist or tell anyone effectively what it is in fact they must do - i realize that so long as i have unresolves issues inside myself - my effectiveness in supporting others here is limitted. I realize that even though my effectiveness may be limitted it is not in vain - as process is always a 24/7 self reflection here and it's a matter of fact playwright as the author of and as my creation here.

I realize that within and as the recognition of my creation here - that extends outward as the flowing expression from within myself as the process goes from without to within and from within to without as the very follow through swing of sorts as what it means to live and move here s as the infinite moment of breath.

I realize, understand that my physical capacity for work is much greater than i give myself credit for - that as the mind is understood, known and in fact utilize as optimum software support to assist the best running / working of and as my physical body/substance here - i am operating in a sort of superior way to the way i previously existed here - and within this there's a responsibility to share the gold so to speak as the standing awareness to best support each one to unlock their utmost potential as what it in fact means to be physically grounded in and as the physical here.

I realize, understand and know that if I haven't in fact taken the time to develop and refine my vocabulary for me alone - and so to check and re-check my vocabular for any and all necessary remediations - my words to a certain extent are tainted - and I am simply in the process of daily correcting my missalignments as flaws within and as my best word regards.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the similarities to the experience of sex from a mind perspective and the way in which the physical addiction to energy in fact works. I realize, understand and know this to be an eventual moment of 'shortage of breath' where there's even in many instances what seems like a delivberate shortage of breath - where I recogonize i am going into a yawn and i do nothing about it - i realize when and as i go into a yawn...it's an indicator that i haven't been breathing effectively and my mindconsciousness system is about to do a reset - rebooting - which is a compounding of system integration as the very feeding off my physical susbtance here.

I realize, understand and know that when and as I have difficulty focusing myself effectively and efficiently i am in fact in a physical energy addiction. I realize my ability to focus and listen and reflect attentively is critical.


To be Continued



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Re: Mike McDonald's Journey to Life

Postby Mike McDonald » 25 Feb 2019, 19:00

DAY 807 - TAKING OFFENSE AS THE ULTIMATE DEFENSE
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which I've become a masterful defensman in that I can defend any position I am In for Better or for Worse as I've battled tested myself countless times and I always come back from Battle with More Strength, Ability and Agility in the ways in which I am able to Know Myself Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to manipulate myself without fear of consequence into every position i could and couldn't conceive possible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which I've literarly got the attitude of fuck fear in that I will fight through any and all self-imposed limitations - even if that means momentairly making a real ass hat out of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to for moments in time get caught up in the corss fires of my physical addiction to inner friction where it's like I can super charge a flying high inpentrable defense as like the ultimate defense and basically take myself to the breaking point - where i eventually must quite literarly piece myself back together again.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking the approach of 'the ultimate fighter' to heart where it's in mean to beat the bullshit out of myself no matter what - and if it gets messy than that is just par for the course.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the gravity of the intensitify of myself as i've literaly walked a process of crushing every point of bother within myself into oblivion.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of my stamina and endurance as the very propensity and patience to keep going into a point whern all seems lost, unknown and unfamiliar - I realize that in many ways this has been my saving grace - the flip side of the coin so to speak - that my weakness has in fact being my greatest strength - the willingness to fight for my standing, walking, living awareness of what it means to stand up for myself no matter what - no matter what i face i will surivive and thrive - and that like a fine wine i only become stronger as like I am Here as strength and conditioning as what it means to give myself everything I got.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not totally understanding the extent to which I've been throwing my weight around and just how extensively intsensively i've been pressing upon myself in order to crush my suppression and birth myself a new - that do to the extensive nature of physical addiction within and as the very susbtance of myself here - i've literarly been breaking myself down from the inside out as a way to flesh out and change - spiting my spite in fact and killing my ego as any ideas and perceptions i have about myself as any concern for protecting myself in survival mode here - taking a thrashing somewhat perhaps reckless approach of literally diving head first into what ever is at hand - coming from a place of knowing deep down that I am willing to face whatever it is no matter what.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for using all of existence in a way as like sort of with me but also against me from the perspective that each is in the process of preventing crash landing here on earth as playground planet awesome - within this outlook and regard as one of the many space ships here - I realize it's not a race to the bottom so to speak - and that it is in fact in my best and so to all of life itself here - the best interest of all - to humor myself here - as to like chirp the shit literally out of myself and sharing the gold that i've created from and as the planting and rebirthing of myself a new - here.

I realize understand that in many ways my propensity towards competing and competition and making sport in so many ways my religion as like a life religion as sport itself here - i've created a playing field of Best Regards - and within this - I am walking a process of standing in Physical Awareness Here as what it means to Be a Team Player as the Captain of My Own Ship and a Mate to All Other Ships Here. I Realize the Grounding Physical Birthing Process isn't so much a competition of sorts as like some make it and some don't with the race of the human race limitted type initial thinking of winners and losers - no that is the grave error of the epitome of an amazing disgrace - in fact the matter of reality here is a sort of tag team assist and support as like making the golden parachute real in fact as all together here we slow down as we approach the ground - literally forming the 'eye' of the needle together as what it means to hold hands and walk this world together - all here - in and as part of the life circle and cycle itsel here - facing each other as all the faces of existence here as the formless form - like the eggman/woman....beyond sex.....simply eggs here.

I realize the extensive nature in which I've been willing to challenge the living application of myself to the point where i've literally taken myself to the edge of standing to the point of tragic fall - only to everytime realize my footing and standing and the specificty in growing pains as the very labor pains in doing the work necessary to flesh out my best standing here.

I realize I've been a real beast of sorts in my living both for better and for worse - depending on the moment of sorts as i've been a fighter through and through as the very process of walking understanding as my inferior position to all life here as equal and one - into and and as the standing awareness of what it in fact means to stand here as life physical susbtance in fact - substantially living and creating myself here - fine tuning my effectiveness in communications as my very way of expressing effectiveness in application.

I commit myself to the Best Regards of Myself and So to Everyone Here as an Extension and External Version of MySelf Here.

I commit myself to Humoring Myself as I realize and in fact know without a shadow of a doubt that I got to the core of me the real gift of humor and humility in what it means to take response ability for myself and my environment and walk the corrections necessary in order to substantiate our best rewards as the very icing on the cake as the celeberated just desert as the recognition and regards for our very best regards here as the epitome of the awe in awesome.

I commit myself to sharing my standing as the beast of burden here - the ultimate fighter - and so to the ultimate problem solver as the dude willing to crack the code - the very encryption to my programmed software and hardware here - realizing and standing in awareness as the words of life itself here man as what it means to flesh out and change the very nature and fabric of life itself here.

I realize, understand and know that this is the eye of the needle for real in fact as the stopping and preventing of the crash landing...the crash and burn calamity of to tail spin out of control beyond measure where all is lost as like the giving up on oneself - I realize, understand and know that failure is not an option because I will quite literarlly left in the face of pain when and as I am faced with the point of being poked and pricked to my very core - as I've created a way to play in releasing myself from the suffering i've done onto myself as the very pains and trauma's i've self-manifested as my very missed standing.

I commit myself to finetuning the living effectiveness of my best sharing communications.

I commit myself to sharing my best regards as what it means to humor myself and so to my mates - with the dignity and grace as the very living of my utmost potential here.

I commit myself to honoring myself as the work made visible here as what it means to in fact live for real without hesitattion - the courage and honor of my very best self-regards - a real pleasure to share Here.

I commit myself to sharing the humor in humoring myself as You is Me in Another Life Here as we are all in this together as Individual Parts of The Same Substance/Fabric of Existence/Life Here Man.


To Be Continued



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Re: Mike McDonald's Journey to Life

Postby Mike McDonald » 26 Feb 2019, 18:35

DAY 808 - I ENVY YOU CHARACTER SYSTEM
Let's Start with Some Basic Definition Regards for Envy from Commonly Sourced Dictionaries:

ENVY as a Noun (person, place or thing):

1. A Feeling of Discontented or Resentful Longing Aroused by Someon Else's Possession's, Qualities of Luck.

Synonyms (similar words):

Spite, Jealousy, Desire, Resentment, Biterness, Discontent, Enviousness.

2. A Person or Thing that Inspires Envy

Synonyms:

Best, Finest, Pride, Top, Cream, Pick, Choice, Elite, Prize, Jewel, Jewel in the Crown, Flower, Paragon (A person or thing regarded as a Perfect Example of a Particular Quality - Viewed as a Model of Excellence), Leading Light, Glory, The Crème de la Crème


ENVY as a Verb (action word):

1. Desire to have a Quality, Possession, Or Other Desirable Attribute Belonging (to someone else)

Synonyms:

Begrudge, Grudge

2. Desire for Oneself (Something possessed or enjoyed by Another)

Synonyms:

Covet, Be Covetous Of, Desire, Aspire to, Wish For, Want, Long For, Hanker After/For, Be Consumed with Desire For, Crave, Have One's Heart Set On,

Informal: "Have the Hots For"


BASIC SELF-FORGIVENESS to Support Purity of Word and World Regards as Our Best Regards:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing, understanding and knowing both sides of Envy as the Positive Attributes and the Negative Attributes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get caught up in Envy without realizing it when and as I become 'sided'.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the care taking in particular with Envy as a point of utmost regards otherwise it's easy to slip into the field of battle so to speak as less than my living of my Best Regards.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become offended when and as someone tells me that they are envious of me and my lifestyle.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become burdened within Envy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the Similiarity and Same Difference within and as the Energetic Physical Addiction to Envy as Both a Positive Energy Addiction and a Negative Energy Addiction. I realize, understand, and know that if I am Charged within the word in any way - there's a point of cognitive dissonance within myself that requires effective remediation to fine tune my standing in awareness as the Living Word Itself Here as Always Best - Structurally Sound - Well Built - Harmonious Clarity.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the ridiculousness of getting caught up within and as positive and negative word Regards from the perspective of Feeling and Emotion Experiences Based on My Interpretation of the Words themselves Here. I realize, understand and know this to be a point of personal self-accountability as the what it meanns to be a responsible human as the care taking regards for our Words In Fact - as Our Words Create and Shape the World as a Whole Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the propensity to go into Attack Mode when and as I am Frustrated within and as a Point of Envy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing, understanding and knowing the deeper dimensions of Envy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to beat myself up when and as I experience friction in my reality where my reality is showcasing to me a clear dissonance in terms of standing awareness in and as the Living Words. I realize, understand and know my personal responsibility as a care taker in this world to the purity of word and world regards.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to daily practice the fine tuning of my vocabulary as what it means to live words as the showcassing of my very regards for the world as what is best for all life in all ways here. I realize the personal responsibility to daily investigate, play with, test - as i realize it is in the Testing as my showcasing Application Effectiveness or Ineffectiveness that I am able to Fine Tune and or Expand or Contract on and as the very self-created Application In Fact.

I commit myself to utilizing Envy as an Example to Support Myself and My Peers as I realize I share a world and word body with my Peers. I realize All Life Here is my Peer - Equal and One as Life Itself here in this One World/Word Class of Play as what it means to Love as Our Work is Made Visible.

I commit myself to utilize Envy as a template living example to asssist and support the expansion of my living effectiveness in terms of taking the time in space to open up my standing awareness within each and every word I have not substantiated and in fact tested effectively over time and space - i realize Envy also to be a tool of refinement for the words I have in fact created cool Applications for and as The Living of Myself Here - I realize within the Outlook and Regard, "A Day is Lifetime and Then Sum/Some"...That new life opportunities/presents emerge always to assist and support the process play and working of Fine Tuning Our best Structural Alignment.

I commit myself to opening up and exploring the humor within and as my darkness as the less than talked about finer points of humanity as the detective willing to investigate all things here and Share the Best Regards.

I realize my self-responsibility in Opening Up and Sharing Standing Awareness not only for First Myself - But So to All My Peers as the Gift of Giving - The Very Epitome of Live to Give and Treat my Mates with my Best Treats. I realize the Best Treatment so to Speak is in Sharing and Showcasing My Best Regards.

I realize, understand and know that my Best Regards are rather extensive in terms of abilities, skills, and talents and within this there is also a delicate balance of tenderness, gentlenss, humility, humbleness and humor as what it means to walk with another unconditionally...regardless of where they are at in and as the process of word and world purification Here.

I realize, understand and know that sometimes there becomes misunderstanding in the very living and sharing of our best regards and that sometimes it's best to let things go for a moment as one part of multiple parties requires time and space to flesh out new found realizations alone so to speak as the very point of self-inestigation sometimes requires a step back in order to take two or more steps forward as the coming all together standing awareness Here.



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Re: Mike McDonald's Journey to Life

Postby Mike McDonald » 28 Feb 2019, 17:29

DAY 810 - STANDING SUPPORT as 4 BASE CONTACT POINTS

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the physicality of what it means to support myself in and as every here moment as the regards for my base 4 contact points in and as every here moment as my hands and my feet.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing, understanding and knowing that my hands and my feet are critical to the awareness of myself here as Life Itself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the grounding awareness effects of commiting myself to move within and as the standing base awareness from within and as the hands and the toes as a way to practically test myself in and as every here moment as what it means to be present in and as my physical body.

I realize my effectiveness in and as my moment to moment participation is profundly here beyond the limitiations of mind as i commit myself to live from and as my base 4 contact points within and as my physical body.

I realize there is such extroardinary room and space to play with the very getting to know myself in and as every here moment within the simple awareness of myself in and as my hands and my feet.

I realize, understand and know that utilizing the hands and the feet as baseline contact support in every here moment supports and expands the awareness of the rest of my body.

I realize my effectiveness in playing with my hands and my feet as a point of and as physical self-direction and commitment to living here as the physical - I am capable of more than i could have ever imagined.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the gravity of and as my very arch support. Meaning that in heel of myself hear there is both the inside and outside arching of my feet here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resisted to extensively investigate the extensive amount of pressure points in and asa the very reflexology of my human physical body that stems from and as the feet itself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing, nor really understanding the significance of the support within and as my hands and feet.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand that the awareness of my feet is not dependent upon whether or not i am wearing socks, sandals, shoes, and or are barefoot. I realize I am in fact always barefoot - as i am barefoot within and as my socks, shoes and sandals.

I commit myself to playing with my awareness and challenging the very play of my awareness within and as the physical.

I commit myself to making it simple to play with and as the awareness of my hands and feet in and as every here moment.

I commit myself to share support as what it means to really tune into the experience of ourselves in moving with awareness as both the hands and the feet here.

I commit myself to express the standing awareness of what it means to in fact regard my physical body.

I commit myself to continue to express my regards for injury as support in transcending through accepted and allowed suppression as the inner jury manifested an external injury when and as there's been an accumulation of blatant disregeard in and as my physical body.

I commit myself to supporting my peers with standing awareness in and as every here moment.

I commit myself to showcase how easy it is to simply commit to utilizing play as a fun and funny way to work with expanding within and as physical awareness/presense Here.

I commit myself to showcase the continued self-directive movement as what it means to in fact walk the destonian process here.


Please Take an Additional Moment to Utilize this Document in Combination with my Support Article:

http://desteni.org/desteni-material/blo ... -2-phase-9

Suggestion - Read Each atleast twice.

Added Note of Support - The Structural Resonance Documents by Veno are a great way to structure self in living Application when and as there's a specific physical point that is especially noticeable as needing Direct Support.

It is also generally a good idea to walk through the structual resonance documents as a point of opening up awareness into and as our physicality here - the point of practicality here will be in grounding the information within and as the very creation of our word play applications.


To Be Continued



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Re: Mike McDonald's Journey to Life

Postby mikelammers » 03 Mar 2019, 09:43

Better make more coffee, this is going to take till lunch. Thanks Mike!



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Re: Mike McDonald's Journey to Life

Postby Mike McDonald » 03 Mar 2019, 15:24

DAY 811 - PEER INFLUENCE
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I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress myself out of a concern for my peers.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think that I am doing the best for the greater good if i simply shut up and avoid speaking about that which is regarded as contentious and or not well understood.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe and or think that if more than one of my peers makes judgement or is inquistive on my character it is necessary for me to assume a position of defense where i must entertain an inquisition into the overall character of myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get caught up in the debate of right and wrong and what is and isn't permitted as acceptable behavior for myself as so defined by my peers review of and as my character in a very selective limited view of my overal reality here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having taking the bait of debate in feeling like I owe an explanation of sorts as like to explain myself in a way to put at bay the judgements and assumptions onto and perceived as my character assasination.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get caught up in the entertainment of my mates thinking - where it's like ok - i must take my mates by the hand and walk through the door of change itself here when i can see all is not clear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for playing along with less than stellar thinking and assumption as like a sort of whatevers - it is what it is - untill it's stopped - who am i to judge another for the very practice in thinking. I realize thinking can be utilized as as tool to support effective navigations as the Life Waters Here - I realize this is a practice made perfect and it's a fine art of vocabulary recognition, remediation and elongation.

I commit myself to check myself when and as I see myself simply following allong with the thinking of others in my environment.

I commit myself to check myself when and as I resist speaking up because a position and stance has been created as a sort of resistance to my inner awareness and standing position.

I realize, understand and know - every single time - my reality presents me a test and challenge of my utmost potential and i waver in doubt as to the substantial nature of my best character response ability here - i fall in my shame as the undertainty in me to move as the trust from the core of me as who i am here as life itself - -blueprint design in fact. I realize i will have various moments of engagement where i am tested full on in a variety of wayss as to the effectiveness of my common sense standing here as the very epitome of equality and oneness made manifest.

I commit myself here as the very epitome of equality and oneness made manifest.

I commit myself to expose systematic flaws of inferior natures.
I realize, understand and know that systems in and of themselves are not inherettently evil and that it is a matter of standing awareness of what is good and what is bad and making the labored effort to create and substantiate what systems are best in terms of providing opptimum support here - as i realize, understand and know the transition from consciousness to awareness is extensive and the best system supports will facilitate the process journey to life here.

I commit myself to continue sharing my process journey as life itself here - i realize this is an ongoing exposure and sharing into and as the nature of Play itself Here.

I commit myself to sharing Play in fact as what it means to live for real beyond the suppression state of being like a stoned system into a state of inferior acceptance and allowance - not realizing and understanding the 'keep it simple stupid' nature of change itself here - and the very How and Who I am as the very Player that Creates myself Here as the Experience of Myself Here in and as My Very Applications - I realize, understand and know the simplicity of the learning process as How I as a child like player Learns in Real Time as the very Interaction as Life Itself Here - I remember the very beginnin'gs of my process of Language Integration as the Very Elementary Humble Beginning's of Play Itself Here.

I commit myself to contnue to Play as my word and world regards Here.

I commit myself to showcase how One Word can Assist and Support Any-One to Unlock the very Suppressions and Suspicions in Word and World Regards Here.



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Re: Mike McDonald's Journey to Life

Postby Mike McDonald » 03 Mar 2019, 18:54

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DAY 812 - PLAY As the Fight for Change ItSelf Here
I Forgive Myself for Accepting and Allowing Myself for not Realizing and Understanding that Play Itself May Be Experienced as a Sort of "Fight" In and As "The Moves" Through the Energetic 'Firewalls' of Self-Impossed Limitation/Suppression.

I Forgive Myself for Accepting and Allowing Myself for Not Realizing and Understanding that In Order to Crush My Resistance....My Suppression....My Very Suppression In Fact....I Require to In Fact Do Something - To Move - To Act - To Take a Stance - To Stand Up Within Myself - to Play/Fight in a Way as the Exercising Way of Self-Direction. This can also be Referred to as the "Inner-Ninja of Change Itself." I Realize, Understand and Know this is a Living Application - the Very Nature Being 'In-Tune Here' as 'Word Regards' and it's a Physical Movement - a Very Way to Break On Free from the Chains of Self-Imposed Non-Movement. #CrushingIT

I Forgive Myself for Accepting and Allowing Myself for Not Realizing and Understanding the Extensive Energetic Physical Addiction to the Experience of 'Boredom' as a Means to Keeping Me in a State of Lock Down where there's a sort of a General "Dol Drum" to my Everyday Living as like this burried point of "Self-Defeat" in a way - Burdened by the Knowledge I Have...Perpetuating the Very Suppressed Thinking that this is all there is - Not Realizing and or Understanding my "Explosive Nature" In and as the Moment of Movement as Life Burst from and as my Physicality Here.

I Forgive Myself for Accepting and Allowing Myself for Having Resisted to Be Honest with Myself About My in the Moment Experience of Myself. I Realize, Understand and Know the Consequence of Neglectng the Practicality of My in the Moment Word/World Regards and Specificity. I Realize the Absurd Ridiculousness of Chooosing to rather 'Hold Myself Together in a State of Physical Suppression' as my 'Default Normal Operating State' - Totally Fronting the Living Effectiveness of Myself Here - Not Realizing, Nor Understanding the Propensity to Accept and Allow Less of Myself Here. I Reaize, Understand and Know - How I am in Fact Able to Move as a Result of Understanding and Knowing "WHO" I am - In and as the Very Living Awareness of Myself Here- #worldclassplayer.

I Realize, Understand and Know - All Words are Alive Here - And it's a process of Word and World Regards Here - and that it's to Recognize, Understand and SPECIFICALLY Define the Very Moment to Moment Experience of Myself Here as this is #Critical to My Living Change from Moment to Moment as the very Constant and Consistency Here as Change Itself Made Manifest. #worldclassplayer

I Commit Myself to Explore What It Means to PLAY FIGHT My Way Through Any and All Firewalls I experience. I Realize there is Indeed a Humbleness and Humility in and as the Very Nature and Dichotomy of what it means to PLAY FIGHT.

A Practical Physical Example is TICKLING and How One Responds/Reacts - Another Example is Laughter - How One Shares in and as a Joke/Funny Moment - If there is Much Suppression and Firewalls - One will Simply Decline Participation as the very Suppressed Stance of Self in Fact Living a Resistance and Refusual to SHARE PLAY Itself Here.

A Practical Alone Physical Example of Play - is to Do something so Deliberately Out of Character - like for Instance to Yell Out Loud for No Apparent Reason - To Make Some Silly Sounds - To Get up from your desk and do 30 pushups right now - to Periodically throughout your day Decide to Flex Your Quads - to Perdiodically Throughout our day flex the Pecs - ...flex the feet pressure points - Play with physical pressure points - explore small movement pattens - there's so many movement patterns one can explore within and as the infinite moment of breath - the potential is indeed extraordinary - Suggest to Explore what is Possible within and as One Breath.

Also - Perhaps an Obvious - Yet Overlooked Example of Physical Play and Outpouring Self-Expression as the In the Moment Share of Who We Are - Freestyle-Self-Expression-Flow - as the very speaking in the moment beyond thinking- where it's a self-trust in and as our very self-movement here - the experience is extraordinary and the results are incredible as it's a way to exercise and account for our Balance in and as our Word/World Base Here - Because Our World and Living Effectiveness is In and as Word Play . So Dare to Communicate In the Moment without the Hesitation to Doubt Yourself and Lock Yourself Into a Self-Contained Box Of Shitty Nasty Suppression.

The Inner Ninja is a Real Experience I Highly Reccomend as it can also be described as Dope as Fuck and the Camaraderie of it is in Recognizing and Regarding that we have #worlclassplayer Here as All is Part of the Group and it's the expression as Word Play Itself here as #worldclassplayer. #onenessandequality

Pleasse Note that Creation in and of Itself is Very Fun and Funny and Creatively Collaborative and There's Room for Many Words of Regard to describe/depict the Very Dance of Life Itself Here.
#Abundance.

To Be Continued with, "Dope As Fuck"



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Re: Mike McDonald's Journey to Life

Postby Mike McDonald » 04 Mar 2019, 18:32

DAY 813 - EXPLAIN NATION EXPLANATION
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I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for becoming conflicted within and as the point of explanation – where it's like i am frustrated when and as another in my remaility demands an explanation of me. Within this – I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to BLAME another for acting as a trigger point for a deeper point within and as myself that i am not seeing clearly – and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into SPITE as like the fuck you – you're fucked out flow of blame and spite together as taking a stance of fighting/war where it's a disagreement in and as word and world regards here – not realizing – the very basic point of it always comes back to myself here – and that where there is even the smallest of movements in me – and i perceive it to be as a result of another's actions/reactions – there's a point a major point of self-accountability that requires immediate direction and self-correction.

I realize that when I experience a trigger – my reality will continue to pulsate the point untill I infact substantiate the best self-correction within myself. I realize this is quite cool in fact and really showcases the equality and oneness of process in fact here for each and every one because we are alll here to assist and support one another – wheter we realize it or not is somewhat irrelevant, because the process of fine tuning structural alignment as life itself here – is a 24/7 thing and so – Life is always Unconditional Here – and it's a very grounding experience in recognizing ourselves all together here – always all ways as what is our best in the moment response ability.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that when I am demeanding an explanation from another in my reality it generally reflects a point of misalignment within myself and that my effectiveness in receiving the support and assist from another as 'me in another life' results in and as my standing awareness one and equal – where i am not so demanding and or persuassive per se – I am simply here and in that the words flow easily – i realize and understand that when i speak with any sort of charge onto another in my reality – it creates and permeates a sort of dissonance and war like construction and constriction of best complimentary relationships – i realize that there's a tremendous responsibility to myself and so to all life here – within and as the very standing awareness of 'oneness and equality' here.

I realize and understand that there's a process of self-realization that takes place where each one here must stand alone in and as their self-realization of what it in facts means to exist all together here Alone One and Equal. I realize within and as this process – each one here is in the process of facing face so to speak as all of our faces and that sometimes for a moment, we require to let go of holding on to certain faces, spaces and places in order to fine tune the walking of our world here together as our words within and as the very life itself blueprint design – oneness and equality.

I realize there are so many dimensions to ourselves here as life itself in fact as the process structural alignment here as life birthed from and as the physical. I realize a way of simply placing perspective on the magnitude of the purity of the physical here in and as the sound body creation here – is in and as our word and so to our world regards as the sounds/words are housed inside and so to outside ourselves as an outflowing expression of our innerstanding and care taking of who we are in fact here. I realize this is an extensive process of fine tuning and re-organization in fact as like each one will always have work to do so to speak as work is the visible expression of love in fact – work is life as our ability to respond - and so much so the balance and harmony to in fact living our best life as the love in and as the work we do – is the art of play itself here – where as the words oneness and equality are recognized and substantiated as a bond/marriage fusion together – so to are the words - “work and play”.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the various conflicting definitions within and as words – where for example – a word means one thing to one person and means another thing to another person – within this – i see realize and understand there is a sharing process in and as the expression of “explanation” – where an explanation is in fact the solution as “living words in fact here” it is the 'who i am statement of accurate account and detail'. I realize, understand and know there's many ways in which to share the standing awareness of myself as who I am as the 'living words in fact here.' I realize the fun within and as the work and play in showcasing my very best regards as my in the moment – from moment to moment - statement of accurate detail and accounting – As Who I am Here.

I realize the word Explanation has much creative usage – I Realize and understand there is both a positive and a negative aspect possible within and as “explanation” itself – I realize, understand and know this to be an individual and collective process unfolding together at the same time – where first the process is on self-awareness and unfolding our word and world regards as what it in fact means to live the, “who I am – as the Living Words – In Fact Here.” I realize this is an extensive process of physical work and play and that My very work and play will be challenged and criticized extensively as this is the best way to support my continued development as what it means to In Fact – Work and Play – Here Together.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how in some moments of my process of structural ressonance alignment i've fucked with myself by becomming possessed within and as a physical addiction to energy – where I resort back into the early genesis of myself within and as an inferior behavior pattern/system and thus there is a process of self-correction required in order to actually in fact substantiate my best growth, development, maturity, expansion and structural creativity as Who I am Here as the Living Words. I realize so much so this is once again a matter of word and world regards – and that after a time – the process of exercising best response ability in substantiating the creation of substantial change as the very substance of myself that i substantiate – One bit at a time – as it is as simple as one breath at a time – one word at a time - the beauty of course coming in and as the very recognizing and regarding myself as the world itself here – One and Equal.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being indecisive within me at times in terms of how i will utilize my words – i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to doubt myself within and as my usage of words. I realize, understand and know it's a mind fuck of sorts when i become too fixated on the 'how' of myself here – it's a point of fun and funny in fact – because it's the very point of knowing the 'flip' as the 'who i am here as the flip in fact – what it means to rotate myself in and as my very outlook and perspective and realize the interconnectiedness...the very in fact multi-dimensional nature of myself as the 'who I am In Fact Here as the Living Words – as it's so much so in ReMembering myself here as all the bits/words/parts of me here that enable the How of Myself here in and as the outflowing expressions and this is so much so a process of Self-Trust as the How comes through as the outflowing expression of and as the Inner Standing of the Who I am in and as Thought, Word and Deed.

To express the above in a similar way is to recognize that How I am in thought, word and deed is a reflection of WHO I am within and as my thoughts, words and deeds – and it's a fun and funny thing because each is here in Compliment as One and Equal Here to dish out the best Assists and Goals as what it really means to live life as our best reponsibility here – I am talk about being the best sport – as all is always fully engaged!

Whether I like the weather or not is so much so a point of self-honesty in accounting for my likes and my dislikes and so much so it is a process of learning to like that which i dislike – which sounds like a strange and peculiar thing because this requires the humbleness and the humility to stand One and Equal Here as Life Itself here – and to really know all of myself here – the good and the bad of everything Here. I mean – “Investigate all things and keep what is good. This practically means to really get to know and understand the 'bad' and to actually walk the self-correction process for real in fact – the very who I am as a Best Life Creator Here – One and Equal.”

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to limit myself within and as my usage and standing awareness of words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the seemingly infinite possibilities within and as the very limitations of myself in and as the usage and standing awareness of my words – within this – I realize, understand and know that it's about – Quality of my Words – not so much about Quantity – in and as the simplicity of and as Word and World Expressions here – I realize the art of simplicity is one and equal with the art of sophistication. I realize and understand that by saying less – it's equal and one to saying more. I realize, understand and know that this is like a basic parenting and patience process we each walk with ourselves in returning to source so to speak as what it means to learn and walk for real as one word at a time – as it is one step at a time – as it is – one breath at a time.

I realize a day is a lifetime and then sum/some because the day consists always all ways as the sum total of my sharings/givings as the very what it in fact means to live, Pro For Giving Here as a Life Broadcaster – Realizing, Understanding and Knowing that the Life Broadcast, the Playwright In Fact is always Accounting as It is the very who I am as what it means to live – Self-Accountability – and So the very process of Me Here in Fact as the Real ...and Royal 'We' Here is in Fact Always All Ways Expansive as What is in fact Best for All. This is In Deed the Science as the Signs of Awe So Me as the who I am as Awesome in Fact Here. My very living and loving as the harmony infact as the best regards creative collaboration here of and as the what it means to live the who and how of Oneness and Equality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resisted to see words for the words and rather shift and shape the words to my particular preferred way of looking at words. I realize, understand and know words to be mulitidimensional with a variety of usages, meanings, expressions, contexts, implications, infererrences, assumptions, conclusions...and really that 'words' in and of themselves are simply an extenstion/reflection of physical life substance here – and in fact are in many ways very/vary maleable and formable and complimentary.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extensive nature of words as the inner manifestation of substance in fact here as our outflowing expressions here as the very physical substance building blocks here. I reaalize, understand and know the very purity of essence of my physical substance here ...this physical reality here – there's a real maleability and flexibility in and as the very flow that works/plays in compliment with the firmness and rigiidity of structure. I realize, understand and know this to be an interesting and fascinating dynamic of life substance in fact here as it's the marriage in standing awareness of 'oneness and equality' together here as what it means to bond together in unision as complimentary support – the very 1+1 equation in fact = basic math and common sense.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extensive nature into and as the world as war where there is a fighting for position and a sort of arguing that transpires as like this battle for supremacy and how it is rooted within and as conflicting word and world relationships within and as the very substance of the physical in fact here.

I realize, understand and know the tragic comedy of the commons here – as the suppression of common sense in fact – where there's a propensity to in fact fearing to stand alone – yet together as all as one as life in fact here – it's a tragic comedy of sorts because it's in the very questioning and conflicts that arise where an in fact Panic sets in as an outflowing justification to worry as like the perpetuated Rush experience that again is excused as like the addictiion and possesion to physical energy is a self-consumption activity in fact and it's ironicaly tragic because it's all too common to not/knot real eyes to see how we are in fact always all ways fucking ourselves within and as the positions we hold in relationship to others here when and as there's a dissonance in structural resonances alignment as 'defense' or 'offense' because in fact life is not 'sided' as one side or the other side in fact – no that is the 'art' of war so to speak as like the very game/sport of war itself here – where it's about taking and moving from position to position to strategize both a strong offense and and a strong defense – it's fascinatingly funny in fact because it's an ongoing play and work – and it continues untill One Stands Up and Recognizes the Absurd Ridiculousness in a Way where it becomes an Obvious Assist in Seeing the Point and so to sharing in the enjoyment of seeing here together clearly and having a momentary laugh of the release of suppression as like the beast of burden becoming undone...unwound in fact as like there's nothing left to hold onto in fact when and as we effectively breathe and let go in and as the very one moment of change in fact here – the very constant and continous dance of life itself here – Change. The In Fact – thought, word and deed – Weather of our Time – The Experience is Indeed Timeless.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the physical structural resonance alignment in fact as the very word and world sound equation here as the basic math in and as the marriage/bond of and as sound itself here as the purity and essence of physicality here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for deceiving myself in making a believing of things to be outside of myself, not fully realizing the gravity of my inner reality as the space and place - water holder of and as my sound body alignment here – the in fact process of my structural resonance aligment. I realize, understand and know this is the matter – the life responsibility to/for physical substance in fact here – my physical body – the very answer to the question as the 'Why”...flip side of My...The very in fact Expression of Best Word and World Regards Here.

I commit myself to continue working/playing the living/loving of substance itself in fact here as the very answer and solution to “WHAT” it in Fact Means to Live as a Self-Responsible Human Being.

I commit myself to showcase the “WHO” I am as the Living Words Here – as Life In fact Birthed from and as the Physical.

I commit myself to showcase the “How” I am In fact Here as the detail and explanation into the Creative Arts of Myself Here.

I commit myself to sharing my Art Work and Playwrights as my Best Regards in Standing Awareness of what it in fact means to live as The AuthorShip Here.




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