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Nelson's journey to life:

Postby nelson » 24 Sep 2012, 03:45

Day 2: Secret Agent: Golden Mask Chronicles
Am I supporting a new system that is best for all? What does my day to day life participation consist of? If I am going about my life each day doing what I do, and do not consider what effect I am having in my world of meeting people, interacting with people, and my own interaction with my physical body, as a point of support, what am I actually contributing to? Even as politicians present a colorful template of goals that if these goals were achieved would make living a bit easier for most, but it is only a presentation and not actually being done, and as I and others present ourselves to the world, how much color and bling am I presenting when I know I am not living one with it. This is what I call delusion, and it is not just fanatics who are in delusion, sometimes we allow ourselves to just ignore things that need our attention and to be corrected. Pretense, ignoring, avoiding, are all attributes that we create based on once again “Fear”. The fear of getting to know self and who self has allowed self to become and why self does not want to change. Fear of who we would be if we were to let go of ego! Fear that we can no longer blame god for our own fuckups. We are agent Smith, the rogue program that wants to expand itself to engulf everything to no end. Why am I avoiding the real issues of myself? I am allowing “Fear” to be my salvation. Where is common sense in this?
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Postby Leila » 24 Sep 2012, 11:43

Cool Nelson, this is a point everyone faces: walking the talk.

Look forward to reading more!



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Postby nelson » 27 Sep 2012, 23:15

Day 3 – WHO AM I?
Tomorrow is not here yet and yesterday doesn’t exist. This moment here exist and I am here, but am I HERE? My question to myself, a simple one but a most important question, and even more important is my self honest answer to myself. What is my experience of myself right now, am I aware of what I think, feel, speak, how I react? These are questions that if I ask myself daily, I may learn who I am in this world and I will see it through my awareness of how I live and correspond to other people, things, animals, nature. The real question is who am I as “FEAR”? I exist as a liquified manifestation of “FEAR” layered with each layer being the basis of the layer above it. This is my equation of myself: if I am as all as one as equal here, then as I understand who I am, I will understand who everyone is and the reason for the conditions of the world which are all man-made, and can only be corrected by man. No god can do it, and it will not just work it’s way out. Any belief in any type of deity will guarantee that no responsibility for this earth or the inhabitants will be undertaken by man.
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Postby Leila » 27 Sep 2012, 23:49

Would be cool if you take these insights/realizations and pull them through within Self Forgiveness and Self Corrective Statements as Practical Self Support



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Postby nelson » 11 Oct 2012, 17:41

Day 4 – I SHALT NOT DESIRE
If I can only remember that the Lord is my shepherd, and I shall not Want Desire, (I shall have no needs and be completely fulfilled.) Anyone with common sense will realize how much shit is packed into this statement. Well I crossed it out and made it a relevant statement. My desire is really not my desire but the desire of the system within and as me… of course it feels like it is me but the energetic charge comes and goes, and I am still here. I have a problem, because I don’t determine when or where this charge will show up. I could be sitting on the stoop in front of my house or walking down the street, or sitting at my desktop pc in my chair. Wherever I am I should be HERE, but thanks to my astral traveling abilities, I can travel into the past, future, or some other dimension that I myself created with my creative powers.

Unfortunately, none of this is real, only me as my physical body, so any experience of myself that is not right here physically as what I am doing, is my own mind fuck. My desire to do, be, or have, anything is produced energetically within separation, and keeps me in separation of myself, as time loops recreating the same experiences over and over again. I see desire that is not faced and no responsibility taken for self becomes an addiction.

Then as addiction grows, I am now directed completely by my own creation and subject to the flow of energy that rise and fall on its own time.
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Re: Nelson's journey to life:

Postby SunetteSpies » 11 Oct 2012, 19:30

Nelson, and all - a point to consider here that we have noticed do come up often is the statement “my Mind isn’t real” / “my Thoughts aren’t real” / “my desires aren’t mine”, however to consider here is what exactly we mean with when we say: The Mind is Illusion / Thoughts are not Real is the following:

Firstly, it’s to understand, that: whatever comes up within self / within and as the Mind: is Self, and so is / will be self’s responsibility to sort out. It must be understood that it is REALLY in fact only you, and you alone within that Physical Body, from the perspective of a Being that is responsible for what goes on in and as the Mind as what we’ve become. Yes, there’s MORE beings in terms of the Physical-itself that exist within and as the Physical, however, self is separate from the Physical as the MIND and so from this perspective: self is alone within and as the Mind of self in separation from the Physical Body, and so self’s responsibility to stand, be/become equal-to and one with the Physical as Here as REALITY.

Within this, self is not going to transcend separation / the Mind by simply “saying” that the Mind is illusion / “desires aren’t my own/mine” or “thoughts are illusion”, I mean if it were so easy as an “instant realisation” that human beings could just speak and realise: then, we’d have a change world/humanity with human beings being equal-to and one-with the Physical and living within the equal and one principles of Physicality.

So, within this, what we mean with when we say, for example “Thoughts are illusion” is to understand this in the context of Thought’s RELATIONSHIP to the Physical Body and this Physical Existence. That when we say “Thoughts are illusion”, it doesn’t mean it is illusion from the perspective of “one can just close one’s eyes and “see them gone” and then they’ll just disappear”, it means that: Thoughts are creations of ENERGY a substance that is generated on a Quantum Physical and Quantum Mind level in the Physical Body, through essentially consuming REALITY to create ILLUSION, as the energy generate friction/conflict in the very physical, actually ‘break down’ physicality/substance and transform it into Energy – the detail of this we have walked in the Heaven’s Journey to Life Blogs. So, in this – one can look at the energy, sound and physical Symbolism within the word ILLUSION as follows:
ILL USE I O N - So, in looking at the N – representing a relationship, O – representing a cycling/looping, I – representing self. Thus, ILLUSION is the ILL USE of the relationship (N) between SELF and the Physical as the I as self has been cycling/looping O in and as the infinity system of Energy/Consciousness at the consequence/expense/sacrifice of/as the physical body.
Thus, to Align self from ILLUSION as the Ill Use of self’s relationship to the Physical body, because Self has been existing as the I of/as the Mind as Consciousness that has been Cycling/Looping (O) in/as the Infinity Relationship (N) between self as ENERGY/MIND and the Physical Body, where ENERGY is dependent on the sacrifice of the Physical to exist. To from here – REALIGN self’s relationship as SELF WITH THE PHYSICAL a DIRECT equal and one relationship to in fact BE the physical HERE.

To walk this Process from ILLUSION to REALITY, to/as what is REAL HERE, you first have to understand the DETAIL of how you accepted and allowed yourself to separate your SELF into and as the I as the mInd as Consciousness as Energy’s relationship to the Physical Body. Thus, why – it’s not going to be as easy as making simple statements/having moments of realisation regarding one’s relationship to the Mind, you in fact have to UNDERSTAND you as the Mind as what you are, to be able to CHANGE it.

So, from this perspective, we as the MIND are the ILLUSION, in how we created our SELF in relationship to the Physical as Reality, as what is Real here. And the Mind is Illusion from another perspective, in that – it CANNOT EXIST without the Physical, it is an reality/alternate reality that is dependent on the Physical to exist/survive, whereas this Physical existence can continue by-itself whether humans as their Minds in the Physical exist in this existence or not. Plus, it is Illusion from the perspective that, when/as you cross-over, all your personalities, thought processes etc. cease to exist and there’s one point, maybe more of self’s original beingness that is ‘left’ when you die, because ALL that you were as the MIND as ENERGY was dependent on the Physical Body existing to generate the energy for the personalities/thoughts to exist.

So, to understand thus here, when we say “thoughts are Illusion” / “the mind is the Illusion” – is not saying “It’s not real at all” – we have made it REAL as ourselves as what we’ve become as the Mind in the Physical, we have “made the Mind as Illusion flesh” in how the Mind permeate/infiltrate and throughout our lives essentially consume the Physical. Thus, in this – our relationship at the Moment is as Illusion in the Physical, and so thus the process of Rebirthing as Life, we’re really in fact walking from and as an ILLUSION into and as REALITY as the rebirthing of ourselves in/as the Living Flesh.

So, take this into consideration in/as your processes, especially with walking through Characters/Personalities, I would really suggest having a look at how we’re walking/guiding you through walking Characters/Personalities in the Heaven’s Journey to Life Blog, in this it illustrate the Process of walking from Personality/Character as Energy as an illusionary version of self as an ill use relationship of SELF to the Physical, and re-align one’s SELF to/as the LIVING WORD as the Living Flesh in making self’s life/living REAL, HERE – which is/will be a process.

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Postby Anna » 11 Oct 2012, 21:52

Cool support here Sunette!




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Postby nelson » 06 Nov 2012, 04:34

Day 5 – My Physical Body
After relocating back to New York, we experienced challenges with our living arrangements, friends, and life in general. One week and a storm arrives, and the result is extensive damage, and loss for many here and in the tri-state area. We did not experience any outages or flooding, only high winds. As for myself, I now face a minor surgical procedure to be able to function to a level to support myself together with my fiance (an RN), as we look for work and get settled in our own place. The city is in a state of emergency and is going to take a while to resolve the issues of displacement, health, and the new comers to poverty. I am not sure what my physical body is telling me but it seems to have to do with self support. Many years I have over worked my physical body with stressful jobs, including military, and driving across the U.S., and I would say that this stress have only contributed to a part of my physical condition, but I am sure that my participation within and as the MIND is the major cause. I ask myself “Who am I within all that is happening?” I have had some fear about living arrangements but I never stopped searching and physically working at getting settled. I realize that most of what we experience as humans is created based on how we live and treat each other. This storm is not evil, but it shows man how man have designed society based on self interest and money distribution, which promotes poverty and abuse.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to exist within a self-created bubble of thoughts, fears, emotions, feelings, that only contribute to sustaining the mind as personalities which does not support the physical as life.
I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to through my existence within this self-created bubble, to believe that my experience as thoughts, fear, emotions, feelings, are real and need my participation.
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that my participation withing the mind, as thoughts, fears, memories, emotions, feelings, do not support me within and as the physical to live here practically in ways that support what is best for all one and equal.
I commit myself to work at living here within an as my physical body as within the purpose of finding ways to support myself to live as what is best for all as me.
I commit myself to stop my participation within and as thoughts, fears, emotions, feelings, memories, through focusing on myself as the physical breath as I go about my day.
I commit myself to become aware of my body and mind, so I will understand when I am in the mind creating personalities and dimensions, and be able to stop myself and bring myself back to the realization of self withing the physical.
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Postby Anna » 06 Nov 2012, 10:27

As for myself, I now face a minor surgical procedure to be able to function to a level to support myself together with my fiance (an RN), as we look for work and get settled in our own place.
Hey Nelson. I you don't mind sharing it, could you expand on what this surgery is about and how it is affecting your body? This way specific support can be provided.




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